A letter to my husband

Dear husband:

? Hello!

? I really don't know why I have been insisting until now. What is it for? Does it make sense? Is it worth it? I think, maybe it's because I still have love for you, a happy family for three children, or the peace of mind of my parents? For eight years, I have been insisting silently, and I have never given up on you. I really hope that you can change your mind one day ... < P > But I waited for eight years, and I didn't wait for you to look back once. Maybe it was my fault from the beginning. I was naive, and I always thought that as long as I gave everything and sincerity, I could get your corresponding response. But I forgot that a person who doesn't care about you at all, no matter how much you pay, will be indifferent, but feel that everything you do is just a matter of course and in vain. Sometimes, the more kind I am, the more you think that I am just a fool. Of course, for the sake of my family and my children, I sometimes suffer a little injustice. It doesn't matter. I'm not the kind of person who likes to haggle over every ounce, so many things are borne silently by myself. Since I gave birth to a child, I have been desperate for the sake of my child, and you have never paid any attention to it. Over the years, the most painful things for me are:

Need love, need care, when a woman is going to have a baby, in fact, she needs her husband's company and care most, and you don't have it every time. Of course, it is understandable not to go home once, but I gave birth to three children, and you were absent from each of them. This is a bit unreasonable for you!

You never have time to accompany me when my child is sick and vaccinated. No matter whether it is windy or rainy, I take my child to the hospital for vaccination and medical treatment alone. Can you understand what it's like?

I go my own way and never discuss anything with me, and no matter what I do, you feel bad and accuse me of not doing well. Your male chauvinism is too obvious.

In that year, my mother brought her second child to Shenzhen, and suddenly became ill. You didn't reply to the message and didn't answer the phone. When I was most difficult and helpless, you were handsome outside. At that time, I was completely disappointed in you. That year was also my most difficult year. My mother suddenly fell ill, and there were two children beside me, a two-year-old child and a few months-old child, both of whom were the most important. Do you know my situation at that time? It's really hard ...

Bad habit of not answering the phone. On November 8, 22, your father left. At that time, everyone in the family couldn't contact you, so they had to call me, and then I informed you that you didn't leave for your hometown until the afternoon. The old man worked hard all his life and didn't see him for the last time. What a pity! I haven't seen any of my three sons, even though you did this to me. After receiving the notice, I immediately asked for leave and went back to Hunan to see my father off for the last time, thinking that after his departure, you could understand the importance of home and the significance of your responsibilities and obligations! It will change, but you don't. Still go your own way ...

The three children are now in my hometown, and you have never made a phone call to go home. From 214 to 219, you seemed to have disappeared into this world. It was because of my persistence and repeated urging that you had no choice but to transfer 2, yuan of living expenses every month from 22, and you had to ask me to urge you several times every month before transferring it to your father, and sometimes you missed it every month. I'm too tired to go on like this. A person doesn't even have his basic responsibilities and obligations. What can I expect from him?

whatever I tell you? Discuss what? Every time you perfunctory, always treat me like a fool, laugh it off.

selfish. In February 221, I came back again. All my friends and relatives said I was stupid and I shouldn't forgive you. But I still went my own way and chose to trust you, which will definitely change. What about you? It's even more incredible. I eat midnight snack, smoke cigarettes and eat areca every night. I never care about me. I only care about myself. When you eat and drink, do you think about your wife and children? Have they had enough to eat at this moment? It's selfish of you to concentrate on yourself, but you completely forget your present situation ...

Since the moment you left this home, you haven't taken care of anything in this family. Since then, the burden of the family has fallen on me alone, and sometimes I can't breathe, but I have to move on. From 214 to 219, you, like you have disappeared from this world, have everything in your family. My patience has been trampled on again and again by you. Are kind and honest people doomed to be disappointed? Now I am still alone every day. Sometimes I am afraid of night, loneliness and insomnia. After so many years of experience, I always think that everything can be gritted and carried over. But now I finally understand that I have been wrong. In fact, I have understood the truth for a long time, but I am always unwilling. Maybe I am trying to deceive myself. I dare not admit it, and I don't want to admit it. I have already lost ... < P > Eight years, how many vicissitudes, how many bitterness and how many helplessness have changed. I also hope you can face everything. A big man, don't always escape. It doesn't matter, if we have a problem, we will solve it. We have been stubborn for eight years and wasted eight years. There is really no more time to go on like this. Before, I also sent you a WeChat, asking you to end it, either live a good life or get divorced, and be neat and tidy. All the time, you are still evading and not returning to me. It really doesn't make any sense ... Escaping will never solve the problem ... I don't care about you now. I dare not be lazy or get sick. Only when everything is normal can I maintain this family. Now, children are growing up and parents are getting old. If you don't work hard now, you may be unable to do so in the future.

If you continue like this, I want to wait for you for another 1, 2 or 3 years, and the result will always be the same, because you never have this home with your heart, and you have always laughed it off, perfunctory and selfish. I have no regrets about you. Well, no matter how much you say, you will never catch a cold. Although there is no absolutely happy marriage in the world, happiness only comes from infinite tolerance and mutual respect. A happy family should be two people working hand in hand for a lifetime, rather than one side blindly paying silently. I only hope that in the years to come, you can put yourself in the other's shoes and cherish it ...

November 221

Wife: Meihua personally.