The most lasting expression of my love, is choosing to stay by your side.

I admit that I had ulterior motives when I approached you. I have been afraid to admit that I am not good, but the more I say that I am not good, the more reluctant you are to leave.

Noon is the hottest time of the day. I never go out at this time, but the night before, I vowed to tell you on QQ that An Baili Square will stay where it is at noon tomorrow.

1 just got up, half an hour later than the appointed time. Then I posed for a long time in front of the mirror. After it was all over, it was already 1 half past one, and I walked out slowly.

On the bus, I found out the old NOKIR3 100. Turn on your mobile phone and it's all your short messages, saying, the rabbit is safe, it's so hot, please hurry up. You said, I really stood still. Why haven't you come yet? Say, auntie, are you kidding? You climbed up, too. Finally, you said, forget it, don't worry, I'll just wait patiently, and you pay attention to safety.

I remembered Maggie Cheung's charming smile and charming voice in Green Snake, and I said to Xu Xian, honest man. I suddenly felt a little guilty. Although I am bad, I still have a conscience. I'll text you back as soon as possible, Zhou. Sorry, there was a traffic jam on the road, so I came. You held your breath and looked forward to my arrival.

You are really a very good and kind honest man. No matter how busy the traffic is in Jinan, the traffic jam will not last for an hour or two. But you are still very tolerant and say a lot of good things to grind people.

You are really a good man, and it didn't cost me anything. I came to see you specially, wearing only one suit, although it is A goods. If there is no accident on the road, I think I will force the driver to send me to you at the speed of a leopard and give you a big hug. However, just a few stops away from An Baili Square, a gentleman came up to me and said, "Miss, I work in a TV station, and now I'm looking for a heroine for a new movie." . Your image and temperament meet the requirements. This is my business card. Are you interested in having a try?

His irresponsible praise put me on cloud nine. Without saying anything, I followed him out of the car and went to the so-called company audition. With a rosy smile on his face, it seems that a colorful acting life has begun. An hour later, I stopped a taxi on the side of the road and headed for An Baili Square.

I'm going to be a big star. Who's going to take that stupid bus that can squeeze people into photos?

I pretended to stand in front of you, and your face flushed. I don't know if it's because I'm shy or because I've been in the sun for too long. Say, rabbit.

Hello, Ann, I am a good wolf. You are so beautiful. I wanted to give you a hug as scheduled, but considering that I will be a public figure in the future, I should keep a low profile and behave a little better, so I said thoughtfully, well, I'm sorry to have kept you waiting. Why don't you invite me to dinner?

You smile like a sunflower. Ok, let's eat western food.

Sitting in the restaurant, I took a fork in my left hand and a knife in my right hand, pretending to cut steak. You looked at me with gentle and pitying eyes. I know you fell in love with me at first sight.

[2] You are a window in my life. When I pushed you away, I found infinitely beautiful scenery.

Cho, I actually lied to you. I'm not a student of the Foreign Languages Department of Xiamen University. The legendary university with a sea on its campus was just my dream when I was young. In fact, I'm just a young lady who has been in college for a year. In our garbage school, there is only secretarial major, and the foreign language department is an unreachable term. Also, I tell you that I am two years older. Look at my ID card and you will know that my birth year is 1988. Besides, I didn't mean to come to Jinan to see you. In recent years, I have been wandering in half of China, cheating on food and drinking everywhere.

But you believe everything I say. You are too simple. When I saw that the mobile phone hanging on your chest was the latest Nokia N76, I said piteously, Wow, you are so rich. My parents say that children can't use it too well. You can say it generously at once, then you can play with mine for a while.

I was elated at once, but I still pretended to be very reserved and said that was not good. What do you use? If you don't talk, take out your mobile phone card, put the N76 into my hand, and then take my 3 100, patting my chest in the United States and saying, what's mine is yours.

That night, we played video games in City Hero. You said you've never seen a girl who plays fighting games more fiercely than me. You squint and smile, rabbit. Ann, you are great. I love you so much. I hesitated for a long time and didn't speak. How can I tell you that I have lived in such a smoky place since I was a child? Smoking, drinking, billiards and video games have never stumped me. If I tell the truth, I will definitely scare you.

Later, it was too late to come to Taiwan Province, and there was no car to go back. I know how cute my poor role is. This trick works in front of countless netizens. I don't believe I can fool you, a silly child.

Sure enough, you frowned, then bravely took my hand and said, come with me.

Your palms are warm and generous. Will holding hands like this last forever? But I understand that you and I are not from the same world after all. We have different ways and have no common goal. The bus is very crowded, so you gently hold me in your arms. That gesture is cautious and dignified, as if I were your most precious treasure. Don't you see, my tears fall gently. If I am really a student of the Foreign Languages Department of Xiamen University as I described to you, my family background is innocent and my smile is clear. Then let's go together. The picture is so beautiful that even God will laugh. But, Zhou, my appearance is doomed to be a disaster in your beautiful youth.

You mobilize the girls who are close to you to make a bed for me. They looked at me strangely. How smart I am. I quickly gave them all the dolls caught in "City Hero" to win people's hearts. They immediately put on smiling faces and praised me for being beautiful. It turns out that college girls are really different from our junk school students. They don't burn their heads or wear smoky makeup. They all talk about CET-6 and national affairs.

They said it was time to test the politics and economy of Malaysia. I'll stay, Ma Zheng Jing? Like a prude? But I dare not ask anything, for fear of revealing the clues. It took me a long time to know that Ma Zheng Jing is Marx's political economy.

Chen Xiao, if it weren't for you, I don't think I would have had a chance to get in touch with college life. You are a window in my life. Only by pushing you away, can I find infinite beautiful scenery.

[3] If I can, I really want to love you.

I was still asleep when I got a call from the TV staff. Girls need more sleep to be beautiful. For more than ten years, I have never got up early to recite English. Your classmates all say that I can be admitted to Xiamen University in this way, which shows that I am gifted.

The gentle man on the other end of the phone is very persuasive. Beauty, you can't invest in anything these days. You are so smart that you can't help but understand that you have to lose first. Every drop you pay now will be repaid to you twice in the future.

I'm not an idiot, I hesitated, and he went on to say that our company is not just pretending to be human. Once we catch them, it's not people, but God!

I bite my bullet, so make an offer. He hey hey smile, twenty thousand, not too much, you can harvest more than this number in the future, it may be two hundred thousand, two million or even twenty million.

I was deeply moved by the bright future he described, but 20 thousand is still not a small sum for me. I tried my best to bargain with him, and it took me a lot of effort to finally get 8 thousand. He resolutely refused to take anything less. He said, you see, no one can ask for money for cosmetics and hairstyles, really.

I am cruel. Eight thousand is eight thousand.

I waited for you outside your classroom and cried before I opened my mouth. Chen Xiao, lend me five thousand dollars. My father is very ill. I will pay you back as soon as possible. This is the thinnest lie I have ever told since I grew up. You can say it if you think about it casually, but it is enough to lie to you, a fool.

You dragged me straight to the ATM without saying a word. What a thick stack of money 5000 yuan is. My heart trembled when I held it in my hand. Zhou, at that moment, I secretly swore an oath. One day, if I succeed in my official career, I will definitely pay you back twice as much. You just watched my tears fall and asked anxiously, isn't it enough? Get you some more.

From beginning to end, you didn't ask me to write you an IOU. You didn't even say a word. I used the last immortal goodness in human nature to resist the evil thoughts in human nature and shook my head again and again. Thank you, that's enough. I hesitated for a long time, and finally raised my head and extended my hands to you. Chen Xiao, let me give you a hug.

Your hug is clean and pure. When I buried my head in your chest, I was moved from my heart. I'm not just trying to please you. I know you are a rare good boy.

It is said that good girls go to heaven and bad girls are everywhere. Obviously, I am the latter.

I sold your N76 for 3000 yuan. I went to that company with a huge sum of 8000 yuan. As soon as the money was sold, I knew I had been cheated. I called you and cried myself hoarse on the rainy street in Jinan. You will come to me soon. I said, Chen Xiao, I'm sorry. I was accidentally stripped of my mobile phone when I went to remit money to my family. You only stayed for a few seconds, and then whispered, it's okay, as long as you don't cry, it's just a cell phone.

I really wanted to tear myself to pieces. You also foolishly comforted me that there are many bad people in this world, and you should learn to protect yourself. You don't know that the worst person in the world is held in your arms and crying like an innocent child. I looked up at you with tears in my eyes and asked you if one day I lied to you, would you forgive me?

I think I will remember it all my life. In that rainstorm, you seriously told me that if you lied to me, I would forgive you. If someone bullies you, I will be the first to stand up and protect you. If you see anything, I'll buy it for you. If you are unpopular in the future, I will marry you.

How short a person's life is, and how much affection and warmth he can give others, but the respect and kindness I get from you are enough for me to resist the oncoming storms in my life. Zhou, if I can, I really want to love you.

I know you don't want to see me again.

You tell every friend that I am your girlfriend and I always smile behind you. I can't imagine whether you will despair of the whole world when my lies are exposed one day.

My birthday is Qixi, and there is a huge wind by the lake at night, which makes my hair messy. You took me to swim in Daming Lake by boat. When the boat reached the center, you held my hand tightly and said elegant words. I will ride a horse with my son, and I will live and die with * * *. This moment is worth living.

Actually, it's the same for me. I don't waste my life at this moment. No matter how many people I have cheated, being so sincerely loved and cherished by a boy is already a grand joy that I can't replicate in my life.

You turned around and kissed me, which is familiar to me, but this kiss means more to you than the sky and the earth. Your eyes are shining, you say, rabbit, I will always remember this night.

However, those who did many bad things were rewarded. On weekends, we go shopping together. You said you would buy me new clothes. In the busy street, God showed mercy. I saw the gentle devil wears Prada again. I shook off your hand and rushed to give him a slap in the face. Then I grabbed his collar like a bitch and asked him to pay me back. Although I am not tall, I am arrogant and hysterical, which seems to kill his family.

Soon there were many passers-by around, and I gave full play to my cursing skills accumulated over the years on this day. I greeted his ancestors for eight generations with glib words. Finally, under the pressure of the masses, he followed me to the nearby bank to get the money back for me. Finally, he pointed at me and said, you are really amazing.

Holding the 8000 yuan back, I was so excited that I was about to cry. Then, I felt a cold and bitter look behind me, and suddenly even my thinking stopped. You didn't give me a chance to say a word. You turned and left. I know you don't want to see me again.

I went to your school to block you, and I told you with a blade holder on my wrist that if you don't come with me, I will die for you.

There is a strong sadness in your eyes. It didn't take you long to change from a teenager with a pure smile to this. I know, I have taken root in your heart. You even told your friends that we would get married as soon as you graduated, otherwise a beautiful girl like me would definitely be taken away by others.

I take the initiative to confess to you that I am not a student of Xiamen University. I'm just a social idle person who cheats on the Internet. I have no education and no ability. I have to lie to make a living. My mother died when I was very young, and the woman my father was looking for abused me, so I ran out. I didn't come to Jinan to see you on purpose, but I just wanted to make some money here.

I said everything in my heart in one breath, and I cried as I spoke. Finally, I slowly squatted down. You came up to me slowly, squatted down, your eyes were red, and you sobbed and asked me, you told so many lies, so, is there anything you didn't lie to me?

I know what you mean. You want to ask me how I feel about you. But I looked at your face, so sad expression, I suddenly felt that I should let you go, so I shook my head, so I said, I never liked you.

You stand up, your eyes are gray, and you are finally completely desperate. You no longer believe in love. On this night, I decided to leave you and myself alone.

You can dislike me or hate me, but I can't let you look down on me.

I put 8000 yuan into your account, as if my conscience would be more stable. Actually, I know what I still owe you. I didn't leave Jinan. I cheated a netizen 1000 to rent a small single room with no toilet. Every day, I have to go downstairs for 24 hours to solve my physiological excretion.

I burned a big wave, bought a pair of cheap high heels and got a lot of blisters on my feet. I practiced in front of the mirror and told me what the devil told me countless times. Then, I stopped talking to the mirror and began to practice.

I stopped a girl waiting for someone on the road. I told her as a professional talent scout, miss, your image and temperament meet the requirements of our new heroine. Are you interested in having a try?

Her skin is so white, her hair is straight and black, and her smile is bright and moving. Before she could speak, a figure came along. I never thought it was you. You held her hand and looked at me with disgusting eyes. Yes, although I dressed myself up to be at least ten years old, you recognized me at a glance. You told me not to move, don't do to others what you don't want.

Looking at the back of your hands, I squatted on the ground and cried sadly. I don't understand why, obviously you love me and I don't want you, but I'm so sad to see you with other girls.

I hung on QQ all night at night, and soon, your head lit up. What a white puppy. We were all silent, and no one spoke to anyone. Not long ago, we called each other dear so enthusiastically. You said that every time you see something good, you always want to share it with me strongly. But until now, there is only a blank memory between you and me.

After a long time, you finally spoke, rabbit. Ann, can't you lie? Can't you make your own money?

I looked at the jargon, tears rolled down, and I said, I have no ability, I will lie. Then you were silent and never spoke to me again. But from that moment on, I made up my mind to make money and live honestly. You can dislike me or hate me, but I can't let you look down on me.

I worked as a waiter in a fast food restaurant, restrained my bad temper and greeted all the difficult guests with a smile. In the evening, I write in that small room of 20 square meters. At first, I wrote it on paper. I want to record the story between you and me in a calm way. I hate using books. I can't write many words when I lift my pen.

At the weekend, I went to the bookstore and bought myself a Chinese dictionary. When I walk in the sun with it, I think I am very practical. No amount of money can replace this practicality. I think I finally learned to be positive in life, to grow towards the sun, and finally learned to rely on my own strength to resist the wind and frost outside.

However, in this vast network ocean, there is no one named Darling Wolf to accompany me all night, just like spring.

I've read every article you wrote. Why don't you use me as the leading role?

In July 2007, I set foot on the train to Xiamen alone. I met a girl on the train. She sat next to me. Because of boredom, we just chatted casually. She told me that she went to Xiamen to see her boyfriend once a month. Either she went there or he came. When she talked about him, her face was full of pride and firmness, as if it was a belief worth consolidating with her life.

I asked her, aren't you tired of running around like this? She was depressed for a moment. The hardest thing is not the distance between the two places, but that she clearly loves each other, but she dare not think about the future.

It turns out that her boyfriend is Muslim and she is Han. If you want this relationship to have a good result, you must leave the whole family and join the Muslim faith. However, when her parents raised her, how could she give up her affection that blood is thicker than water for love?

She kept smiling bitterly when she said these words to me. There are too many things in a person's life that he can't give up, such as family, career, or others. In the face of these, love can only let go.

In the evening, I opened my notebook and wrote a manuscript. She woke up and asked me curiously what I was doing. When she learned that I was a writer for a magazine, she happily asked me if I could write her story. I shook my head. No, you can't write anything about religion.

She asked me, what can't I write?

I bowed my head and smiled. Politics, religion, violence and pornography.

But for me, it's you, Cho. You are also a dark wound in my life that I have to be silent and tears. After losing contact with you, I often dream of you, your bright smile, your clean and tidy teeth, and you told me in the middle of the lake that this moment is worth living. And your solemn confession to me in Rain Street.

These memory fragments often make me secretly cry.

I stood by the sea and remembered that night. I absolutely said that I never liked you. You look like a wounded beast. How could I be so cruel then?

I finally cried happily on the beach where the sea breeze blew and the tide ebbed.

I know that since some things can't be forgotten, we should restrain ourselves from thinking about them.

On Chinese Valentine's Day, I hung on the Internet. I was bored. There was a column in QQ called Lover, in which the white puppy's head was always black and white, as if it would never shine again. This is my 20th birthday. I bought a cake and sat in my room eating it.

Suddenly, the puppy's head jumped uneasily. I accidentally knocked over the cake on the keyboard. When I opened it, I saw you say that at 10 o'clock tonight, by the Xiangjiang River, it stood still and was out of date.

I was wearing a white washed T-shirt and shorts, and a pair of slippers rushed out of the door. I said to the driver, please drive faster! Now that I have money, I don't have to squeeze the slow train anymore, but standing in front of you, I am as shy and flushed as a little girl who has not yet been wet behind the ears.

You look more handsome, but I can only look down at your feet. You said, the rabbit is safe and good. You didn't keep me waiting for two or three hours this time. My tears are falling. You said that I have read every article of yours. Why don't you use me as the protagonist?

I tried to hold back my sobs and pretend to be calm because I thought you would never forgive me.

You laughed, you said it casually, but I seem to have told the person who lied to my mobile phone that if you lied to me, I will forgive you. If someone bullies you, I will be the first to stand up and protect you. If you see anything, I'll buy it for you. If you are unpopular in the future, I will marry you. Do you know who this man is?

I looked up at you, tears could not stop, and you gently held me in your arms, with the same cautious posture as before. You put the earphone in my ear, don't talk, don't cry, and listen to the lyrics gently:

You are a woman in my sea of people.