Why didn't she return my message?

Seeing your first four sentences, I really feel the same way. Especially the words "If you really don't have feelings for me, just refuse me and let me die", I even sent them directly to her, but she still didn't reply, and I gave up completely. On the fourth day when I didn't contact her at all, she sent a letter to stir up the topic.

I'm not saying that she still cares about you or anything, but everyone's situation is different. All my above experiences happened when I chased her for nearly a year, and now I am getting better and better with her. Interestingly, what moved her was not my persistence, but my talent and conditions. Can you understand this sentence? At that time, she was also trying to find various reasons why she didn't reply to text messages or sent them on her own initiative, but I actually convinced myself. But the reality is that she has an ambiguous "boyfriend" who talks on the phone every day. Most of his conditions are worse than mine, but he is the first one after all.

I think you may have something she appreciates, but she doesn't like or hate you now. All she wants is to hold on to you, and all you have to do is keep in touch but don't care too much and be prepared to lose (in fact, you didn't get it at all, and you can't talk about losing it). The initiative of this feeling is not in your hands, at least not now.

Finally, it is easy to see from your supplement that you just started with this woman and you don't even know her. There are still "simple, generous, cheerful and docile" women, hehe. You like her, so you imagine her as an angel goddess, haha. Such a woman is not simple. Maybe there is hope to improve yourself. Don't spend time on unnecessary guesses and puzzles. This is the advice of someone who has experienced it!