What is the experience from beauty to ugliness?

I have such an experience now. When I was young, people had the impression that I was white, with big eyes, and then I was good-looking. When I was a child, my mother took me out, and people praised me, saying that this little girl is really beautiful, so I got used to it. But when I grow up, I am nearsighted, and wearing my eyes is not as white as when I was a child. Even I have acne for no reason.

Now people's impression of me is that there are more acne on my face and my eyes are not as good as before. I was praised by others since I was a child, and now everyone will mention the acne on my face. I am also very upset. I always comfort myself that when I was a child, I looked good, but when I grew up, I didn't look good, just like others were super ugly, but now I look good. I still firmly believe that I can get better again.

There is a saying that women's universities have changed since 18 years ago. Others are becoming more and more beautiful, but I am getting farther and farther on the ugly road, so I pay attention to my dress now. Actually, part of the reason for ugliness is that I can't wear it. Because of school, I spend more time in school uniform, and I pay attention to study, and I usually don't pay attention to image or anything.

In short, it was a very frustrating experience. I have to bear this pressure because I am worried that I will become more and more ugly. what can I do? I used to look from the front or the back, but now only the back looks good, and others don't want to talk when they see my front. I saw a beautiful woman in the back and a female diaosi in front, leaving me with no object now. Ugliness is a big part of the reason.