You are an intruder, but you have written it into my life.

One rainy afternoon, I quietly watched the movie "July and An Sheng" under the covers. For a person with low tears, this movie earned enough tears for me. I think we should write something.

At the end of the movie, An Sheng took out the garbage and stood in front of the mirror. The camera flashed and July appeared in the mirror. The two men smiled at each other. As if nothing had happened, July was still alive and very happy with Ansheng.

I have been thinking about how to describe these two girls, July and Ansheng, until I saw the above scene. July and Ansheng seem to be two independent individuals, but they are like another soul living in each other's bodies. They met, but they met another self.

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July represents a peaceful soul eager to break free from bondage.

Quiet in July is not her choice, as she said to An Sheng, "I have been playing a good boy and know how to please adults". In July, there was a complete family that An Sheng envied. Her life has been following the path planned by her parents step by step. She will be a good student in the traditional sense, study hard, get high marks in exams, get into a good university, find a good job, get married, have children, buy a house and get married. In July's eyes, this kind of stable life that parents think is secular is just a bondage.

So, during military training, July and Ansheng sneaked out and looked at Ansheng with a stone in his hand but didn't dare to hit the clock. It was July who held Ansheng's hand and rang the doorbell. Facing Jia Ming, who has been secretly in love for a long time, in the library, good students took the initiative to stand on tiptoe and kiss in July; On the eve of the wedding, Jiaming after making love and I asked Jiaming to escape from marriage in July. She said, I can't let myself marry someone who doesn't love me. I can't leave here until the groom escapes.

During the wandering time after Anson said goodbye to July, Anson sent a postcard to July, telling her about the places she had been and the strange people and things she met. However, the words in July are always calm, always "I am the same here, nothing special".

When I was a child, July was what my parents expected, but when I was an adult, July finally became a peaceful July.

Since I met at the age of thirteen, I am willing to share everything with Ansheng in July. Take An Sheng home in July, taste the food cooked by her parents and take a bath in the bathtub. One day, Jia Ming asked An Sheng, how do you know everything? An Sheng said with a smile, there is nothing I don't know in July. Things can be shared, secrets can be shared, but Jia Ming's love can't.

In the cave, in July, she clearly saw An Sheng throw off Jia Ming's hand. She knew that Ansheng left for herself. She can cry and be sad, but she doesn't want Ansheng to stay. She watched An Sheng ride away alone. She leaned her head gently on Jiaming's shoulder and smiled. At the railway station, she saw An Sheng's pendant hanging around her neck. She finally decided to let Ansheng go. In July, there were still tears on her face. An Sheng shouted, If you want me to stay, I'll stay. July is silent. Rather than saying that she doesn't want to, she dare not. She has realized Jia Ming's intention to Ansheng. She doesn't want to lose peace or love.

That night in the bar, I saw An Sheng in July, fighting with others for a bottle of wine. An Sheng said with a smile that this is her way of making a living abroad in recent years. In July, she said you were raised by a man. Don't you feel cheap? In July, a man went to Beijing to look for Jia Ming, only to find Jia Ming helping An Sheng, who was drunk, to go home. In July, he cursed An Sheng in the bathroom. Do you know that no one will be your friend except me and no one will love you except me?

In July, it seemed that she was going to die, but she was betrayed by her malicious actions. When she arrived at the hotel, she knew that Ansheng had gone out, so she hurried to catch up. After leaving Jiaming, the first person she was looking for was Ansheng. She is pregnant with a famous child, and she is afraid that the partner she still wants to rely on is An Sheng.

There is no misunderstanding between July and Ansheng. In July, she knew that An Sheng had never had anything to do with Jia Ming in order to fulfill herself. That pendant is just a parting gift from Ansheng. Ansheng lives in Jiaming's house because she was taken in by Jiaming.

The relationship between July and Ansheng has already surpassed the boundaries of friends. They are more like a family, and An Sheng is like an unreleased soul in July. She quarreled with July, not because she really hated Ansheng, but because of her inner anxiety and fear of wavering love.

Zhu Liye, who had been living a stable life, died at the age of 27.

Before that, she finally walked alone in this vast world like An Sheng. She finally tried to live a life of wandering in peace. She stayed in the small hotel where An Sheng once stayed. I believe that July at that moment was really happy.

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An Sheng is not as quiet as her name, but what she wants most after wandering and loneliness is an An Sheng.

An Sheng didn't have a warm family like July, so she learned to be self-reliant early. On the surface, the young Ansheng is like a wild child who lacks discipline. She pigtails, curls, steals, and stays with gangsters in society. She tried to get rid of her mother's hand. She doesn't want to go home with her mother, but she wants to go home in July. She gave her mother the stolen earrings. When I heard my mother blame her for eating steamed buns without eating the skin, I gave her all the stuffing, saying that she didn't like stuffing, which was especially oily. Thirteen-year-old July knew very early what a sponsor should look like. She didn't want to embarrass anyone. She took July back to the shabby house she rented. She put the key in July's palm and said with a smile, I finally have a place to entertain you, and mine will be yours in the future. At that moment, smiling peace of mind made people feel distressed. Who doesn't want to have a warm home?

An Sheng regards July as her only support. Knowing that An Sheng has a lover, she ran to Jia Ming to "warn" him. She is just thinking about what to do in July. She is afraid of being hurt and cheated in July. In the cave, she knew Jia Ming's heart, but she refused him. She said to July, this place is too small, and I have long been tired of it. I'm leaving with that guitarist. He tells me that he loves me. He is the second person in the world who loves me besides you. July asked, do you love him? An Sheng said he was quite suitable.

It's appropriate, not that I love him, too.

An Sheng doesn't love guitarists at all, and she's not really bored. She left just to escape Jia Ming's love. Every greeting on the postcard is a proof of her intention. Even so, she still wants to leave, in order to fulfill the love between July and Jiaming.

She quarreled with July, but never really hated each other. In Ansheng's heart, July is more important than anything else.

An Sheng spent almost all her youth wandering. She stayed with men and left everyone. She has been to land and seaside, and has changed countless jobs. She is always alone. Finally, one day, she wrote to ask July, can I come back?

She wants to go back, but she still wants to hear the answer from July. A person wandering outside for so many years, she still can't let go. She is afraid that July still cares, and she doesn't want to lose July again.

An Sheng spent the last period of her life with July, but she still made a wish for a better life in the future. She asked if she was afraid of July when she was about to give birth, and July said, yes. An Sheng immediately put out his arm. Come, lie in my arms and let me hug you.

An Sheng, a teenager, once said to July, who was lying beside her, in her shabby and narrow room, Come, lie in my arms. They were young and carefree at that time.

When 27-year-old An Sheng said this to July again, she probably wouldn't have thought that it was the last time she slept with July and talked sweet words. At this time, An Sheng really wants to be the arm of July and give her solid strength and dependence.

An Sheng always pretends to be strong, brave, decisive and heartless. She said to July, who was lying in a hospital bed, otherwise, I wouldn't get married. The two of us will raise children. You teach her to study hard and make progress every day. I let her make up and perm her hair, which charmed thousands of little boys.

It's hard to say whether Ansheng envied July, but what we can know is that after she left in July, Ansheng finally lived like July.

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An Sheng wrote the story of July and An Sheng under the pseudonym of July.

July's life is over, and An Sheng is continuing it in this way.

In July, she asked herself whether she loved Ann or herself, but she couldn't find the answer.

In fact, this problem is not that difficult.

Since thirteen-year-old An Sheng broke into life in July, everything has been answered. The meeting of two lives is their fate, and they met another self in the depths of their souls. They wrote each other into their whole youth and life.

From Flowers on the Other Side and Rose Island to Awakening, when I was young, or when I was asleep, there was a spring banquet, and Anne Baby's books accompanied me through most of my youth. I was lucky to meet Annie.

It is also a kind of luck to meet An Sheng in July.

In our youth, everything we encounter, everyone will become our memories. Cherish every encounter, these are lucky things.