What kind of life experience is it to drop out of college?

There are about 500 students in four majors in our college, and a total of five students failed, and I became the only one who failed in our major. I think I must have become a laughing stock. This may be the last straw to crush the camel. I used to be very pessimistic about the problem, and since then I have gradually become depressed. Originally, I was a person with no self-confidence. All of a sudden, my brain completely collapsed and I felt particularly humiliated. Then I don't want to go out and meet people. I feel particularly humiliated! I feel that students who know this will laugh at me in their hearts! I didn't tell anyone about my mood at that time. Anyway, I was extremely depressed. I don't know how I got through that year.

Later, my classmate said to me, "It's okay not to study at ordinary times. No surprises before the exam, no cheating in the exam. Otherwise, who will fail? "

At that time, there was a popular saying among students: "Don't cheat in the exam, be a junior next year."

The decision to drop out of school is the final explosion of all problems. Because the only self-confidence and self-esteem left in my heart has been completely consumed by the failure of grades. So I changed to depression at that time, especially understanding those who committed suicide after finishing graduate or doctoral studies. Is that the spirit can't find support at the moment. In fact, there are always times when life is particularly difficult. If you don't do it, you will find that life is nothing but life and death.

Anyway, I couldn't bear it alone. I'm like a walking corpse at school. I feel that I have no face to know the new class students arranged by the school one year lower than me, and I have no mind to settle down and study. At least English, I gave up completely at that time, I didn't know how to learn it, and I didn't have any plans to learn it well.

On March 20 12, parents bought a house in the county town, with a mortgage of 220,000 yuan, a down payment of 65,438+million yuan, and borrowed 30,000 yuan from relatives. My sister was in high school at that time, and my parents' average monthly salary added up to almost eight or nine thousand, so my parents were under great pressure to repay the loan at that time, and the bad emotions and pressures brought by these lives naturally passed on to me. I don't think anyone is comfortable fooling around in school like this, which wastes my parents' hard-earned money and my own time.

I really thought about it for a month, so I told my parents that I didn't want to go to college, and my parents didn't object, just told me to think it over. It's just that my cousin and counselor advised me for a long time, hoping that I must finish college anyway. It's just that I really didn't have any better way at that time. I really can't stay at school for another day.

Only then did I know what a college degree meant to the children of a rural family. The significance of that diploma is far greater than the diploma itself. In fact, it bears a copy of my self-confidence, a copy of my parents' pride, and a testimony of twelve years' earnest study. It was only in the last period of my study career that I was completely ruined by my own confusion.