Girls say that whenever I look back when I am lonely, your love is always waiting for me not far away. What do you mean?

Secret love is a slightly sour one-man show. Your own sad script is a sour monologue from beginning to end. The object you love is just a prop. What you love is the sad romance that comes from chasing the light on the lonely stage, the sour and sweet memories and the sour mood when you taste the details. After that chasing light, there is darkness. Even if you know that the person you secretly love is secretly in love with you, it's just another lonely pursuit of light in the dark.