Nan Hui Nan Prose

Southern, to work in Xinjiang.

In less than three months, I went back silently due to my thinness and discomfort.

Although she was a little impatient and reluctant to leave, her home in the south always touched her heart. She just went back in silence.

She was about to leave. On that day, there was still snow in the sky, as heavy as goose feathers, which is rare in the south.

In the south, rain is mostly dense and fine, blowing with the wind, just like a streamer pulled by someone in the sky, it is gone with the wind, and snow is even less common. Snow is mostly carried in the rain, but The rain always gets the upper hand. Sometimes, when the snow comes, it melts with the rain, ushering in spring.

But this is not the case in the northwest. It rains when it rains, and it comes in large areas. Or it doesn’t rain at all and waits for spring.

Nan, I’m afraid I’m too worried. Nan's daughter, who was still young, saw many things, read many things, and thought about many things in a calm and unhurried manner, and had to go home. Originally, Nan planned to work more here to earn money to supplement the family income. However, after the New Year, her daughter kept greeting her on the phone. The anticipation and crying tone of her voice often touched Nan's heart.

Nan felt homesick, and she missed her home so much that she couldn’t eat and couldn’t sleep at night. How could she not lose weight after a long time?

Presumably on the day of return, Nan Ben thought, look at this northwest city night, how can people hide in the dreams of country people? But it was too cold, and even the moonlight hanging in the sky couldn't show its temper. The long waiting was just silently hidden in Nan's dream.

Southern, there is no way I can stay one more night in this northern city. But I just recalled some topics about my daughter, and it’s New Year’s Eve.

I spent New Year’s Eve in the south at work, and the work unit was on the snow-capped mountains. At night, I could only hear the whistling of the snowy wind. There was no shadow of the New Year’s Eve anywhere, but it was the mountains. Continuous, snowy ridges and peaks, a series of thoughts, just in that high mountain, with a few sparse lights occasionally lit, the lights are cold, swaying like streamers along with the snowy peaks on the high mountain.

That night, Nan was curled up in the dormitory and awake in dreams, as if waiting for the cry of spring to arrive, but it was also so quiet and quiet, so quiet that it was almost audible. I can hear my own heartbeat, the snow in the sky, the sound of the windows and doors coming in. Nan said that that night, if the company had not set off firecrackers occasionally, she would have thought she had arrived in the void of the underworld. She was surrounded by emptiness, and her outstretched hands seemed to be grasping something, but they could not grasp anything. The tall building and the shadow of the building quietly under the snow-capped peaks are almost lost in the wind, like a hidden dream.

That night, Nan said, she cried, but unfortunately, she could not stop her own homesickness. She originally wanted to stay away from the city and go to the mountains, where she could hear the sounds of her hometown and live with the shadows of her hometown people. The same mountains, the same high ravines, the same continuity, but it was not my dream.

That night, she suffered from insomnia again. Nan said that the company made a lot of delicious food, but she couldn't eat any of it. There, she continued to work as required, earn money, and support her family. What a good way to support her family, a legitimate job. The farmer, a mountain person who is used to living in the mountains, is so uncomfortable with it, unexpectedly. In the New Year, in his hometown, it is a day for the whole family to get together. She was ill, very ill, and was on an intravenous drip, spending this New Year. Nan said: "It seems that I overestimated myself, thinking that I would not miss home, and considering the climate and habits of mountain people, she agreed so quickly." So she chose to come down from the mountain and ask for go home! At that time, when I heard it, I felt very surprised. Didn't we agree that we would not go home until we have worked for a year? Nan said, I really can't adapt to it. My body---I have to go home---

Nan finally put aside his original dream and decided to go home.

I remember that day, when she came down from the mountain, the snow was still falling. She just felt that the snow in the city was a little different from the snow in the mountain. The snow in the mountain was cold, and it hurt a bit from the cold, while the snow in the city, although cold, felt warm. Come on, it should be the warmth coming from high-rise buildings, it should be the warmth of people coming and going, it should be the warmth of streets and under trees, it should be the road that has been run over by cars------and these, on the high mountains , No, what caught her eyes there was snow, continuous snow, non-stop snow.

Nan arrived in the city, saw the snow, and saw clearly visible high-rise buildings and houses. Some were brand new, but some were shabby. The alternation of old and new houses made Nanda know in his heart that this was change, day by day. Changes, good ones are better, the old ones will eventually be washed away, and a bright and clean city will eventually be the same as in the south. In the lanes lined with trees, the same popcorn flowers, the same hot sesame paste, the same shouts, The same clamor to buy tofu bread, the same hot-pot stalls, the same smell of fried oil, the same crowds of cars and horses, the same rows of people and neat lanes ------

Nan, kept repeating the above words in his sleep.

Nan, also said that although she was born in the South, ate in the South, worked and grew up in the South, and has a home in the South, her own concerns are also in the South, so far away, thousands of miles away It's so far away, I traveled through mountains, deserts, and railways to get here. Everything here is like the outline of an old city imprinted in the south.

Nan, a little reluctant to give up, said: "Sister-in-law, don't worry! I will go back this time. When I go back to see my family and children, I will make plans to come again after I have thought about it better. ”

Nan kept nagging, she said, although, in the places where I have worked, difficulties, sky, food------this series of things, I am afraid I have never encountered them before. , but I have experienced it all, and this is also a fortune. At least it lets me know that Xinjiang has beautiful mountains and snow, and the Tianshan Mountains are connected and undulating. The mountains are not as beautiful as in the south, but they are connected one by one. A tall and vast land, our life is like walking through the mountains, but there are not so many in the south, that is, at the foot of the mountain, the vast grassland, it is an oasis and wild wilderness, which I have never seen before, but I have never personally seen it. Staying in the grassland for a night, the feeling of riding a horse must be very good, so refreshing, so heroic------I can't feel it, but the fragrance of butter on the grassland is also a delicacy that cannot be tasted in the south.

There are also a lot of local specialties here. I want to take more when I go home, but I can only take a little and I can’t finish them all. There are too many, like the refreshing sweetness of apples and the taste of flat peaches. Sweet and watery, it looks like honey and is relatively clear like water. It can be drunk to taste strong and sweet but not greasy. There are also the dried apricots on the tree, which are not good-looking, but can be chewed. They are chewy and sweet, and are quite delicious. It makes me want to get rid of this sweetness. The most important thing is the raisins, which are like the "earth red" you said. They have large particles. When chewed, they look a bit like honey water. Even though the snowy night is long, I can taste the grapes and they are still the same. It was so delicious that I really couldn't bear to leave, but because my body was accustomed to the southern climate, I had to give up. Because I was not used to the climate, I couldn't eat. I only ate dried fruits and fresh fruits, which also couldn't fill my stomach.

I said, this takes a certain amount of time. After a long time, you will feel that the climate here is a bit dry and cold in the morning and evening, but at noon, you can feel that this place is also regarded as the south. You're going to love the weather.

Nan said: "That's true, but my body has not been used to it since I came to work in the mountains. The calmness and snow outside have never been the same in my life. I have never realized that, fortunately, with your care and help, I may not be able to survive even one day. I mean, what about the enterprise? "

Nan said: "The enterprise is not bad, because after all, it is there. If you live in the mountains for a while, it’s a company built on the mountains. I heard you say it’s for money, so it should have a bright future.”

I said, as for the winter in the mountains, it is naturally colder than in the city. You came to this city rashly and ended up in the mountains as soon as you arrived. It is inevitable that you will not adapt. It’s just that I thought you were relatively young at the time and should have the ability to adapt.

“Of course, if the conditions there change a little bit, even though the place I live in is quite spacious, I can’t resist the cold outside for the time being.”

Nan said: "I see, after I finished speaking, I sat on the sofa without saying a word, as if looking out the window in a trance--" She had clearly seen that there was still snow outside, it was falling and drifting. , on the roof, on the road, in the yard, endless, roaring, audible sounds.

Nan said: "It is already spring, but there is no shadow of spring at all." I said, Nan, this spring has happened quietly. If you don't look carefully, you won't notice it. Come out, but you have to believe that as long as there is spring, even if there is white snow on the outside, you can still feel it. You see, the bark of the tree has grown into green. If it were not blocked by the snow, life would burst out. Brightly like silly people.

Nan, while agreeing, was thinking in his heart, "I want to go home, I must go home. Why does this snow keep falling? Will there be snow? Too much will delay the market. "I said, Nan, don't worry, the snow is still falling, but it's not very heavy, because spring is here and the ground temperature has risen. If it weren't for the accumulation of snow in the previous days, , the snow has turned into water and flowed to the ground for a long time, but now, you can't clearly feel it. When the railway is opened, the Ministry of Railways has its own methods, because the road needs to be cleared when it snows, and there are naturally ways to clear the snow, which will ensure your smooth flow. OK.

Nan, haven’t you seen the cars full of goods rolling back and forth on the railway tracks; and the railway workers, their dedication makes this snowy weather no hindrance and will ensure that you and your People who want to go home will go home.

When I heard about Nan, I immediately beamed with joy. I stopped looking at the snowflakes outside the window. Instead, I looked at my temper and talked to us. I packed the clothes, fruits and other specialties that I had brought to the South. own backpack.

I said, Nan, the backpack is already full, why not buy another suitcase? Pack more, otherwise your journey will be very difficult. Nan said: "What is this? I remember that I also went south alone, and I also carried a lot. Pack as much as you can, but don't be too heavy. That’s fine. I can handle it by myself without losing my hands to walk or even move.” I said, that’s fine, and she hurriedly got ready. Then, I put all my special preferences and items with special significance to Xinjiang, especially Xingxiang, where I lived, into my backpack.

Fortunately, my daughter, Nan's niece, had noticed that Nan was going home, so she said, "Auntie is going home. I didn't give your daughter, my southern sister, some good souvenirs." , I just heard that she went to primary school in the mountains, so I prepared some prizes I earned through my hard work and gave them to her so that she could study hard.

Nan said, OK, I will tell her, and my daughter--Nan couldn't wait to unpack the package. Inside was a colorful pen and a book. , and some shells and other things. After looking at them, they packed them up, put them in their backpacks, and took them back to the south.

Nan was very grateful at the time and said: "Xianger, I like you very much. I can't give you anything. I just hope that you will study hard and set an example for your sister. If you have the opportunity, Go to the south. Before I could finish speaking, my daughter agreed. The cities in the south are developed, and even the trains are not only above ground, but also underground. Wherever you want to go, just take the train for a while---"

I said, things are much better here. The train leads to the outside. People outside want to come in and people inside want to get out. There is no obstacle to this. On the other hand, your daughter is still going to school in the mountains. I heard that the newly built school is high on the mountain.

Nan said: "Yes, a ground was dug out on a mountainside, and then a school wall was built. Studying there has beautiful scenery and you can avoid the crowds. It is a school. It’s a great place. If you go back to the south, you must visit it.

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Nan said: "The conditions there are relatively poor, but they don't have the learning conditions that Xiang'er has now. Studying in a good school in the city has much better teaching facilities. The environment there is just better. You can hear the loud sound of books there, and I can hear it even when I am working in the farmland. "

Immediately afterwards, Nan carefully wrapped the small gift from Xiang'er, and quietly wrote a line: "A gift from Xiang'er in the north to Xiu Xiu. ! "When Nan was loading the package, he put it in very carefully, and then turned the contents inside out, as if to give enough space for his beloved to have a good place. After putting it away, Nan spoke again, Said: "Xianger, if you want to be obedient, you must listen to your parents and study hard. If you are successful in the future, your aunt will give you a big red envelope when you go to the south."

Xiang'er said: "Thank you, aunt. I will definitely study hard. But I miss you. When will you come again?" "Auntie, seeing the confusion on Xiang'er's face, she couldn't give a clear answer, so she just said, "When the time comes, maybe--I will come again and come to see you---"

Nan, it seems a little reluctant, but you also have to go to the south with your parents. Nan repeated and emphasized: "You must go!" " Xiang'er said, "Okay---I will---" Then, we got on the car that took "Nan" back to the south.

The car was running on the road, Nan, just She didn't want to look at us, as if she was a little reluctant to leave, but she felt so homesick. As the car was running on the road, Nan just kept looking out the window, watching the cigars and fireworks outside the window keep flying over, as if there were many hidden things. It was hard to express what was on her mind.

It seemed that she was staring out the window and wanted to take a good look at the place where she had lived, and to take a good look at the snowflakes here and the snowflakes. In the farmland and villages under the package, high-rise buildings were built there, and newly planted poplars sprouted there. However, there were pear trees and apricot trees here------more. She seemed to wake up in the jungle, and again It was as if she had entered a tall building. When her field of vision gradually expanded, she saw the vast fields again. She immediately felt a kind of joy and brightness in her heart. It seemed that she had never been so happy before. She pointed with her hands like a child, " Look--Look--" Nan said, "How fast things are changing here. Maybe by the time I come next time, this place may be a city again. "I said, yes, then we will wait for you to come. We have agreed------" It would be great to move here!

I said, that would be great, but I’m afraid you won’t be able to get rid of family ties. You still have to live in the south, where you have already grown your roots. It takes courage to transplant love here! Nan, he breathed again, "Oh------"

Nan looked at the snowflakes outside the window, and gradually felt that there was something there. It was blurry, so blurry that it made her cry. We all regretted that we should not have brought up the topic that made her difficult.

I said, Nan, don’t worry, we will go back to see you as soon as we have time. Now that transportation is developed, it is very common to want to go home. It is no longer a problem here.

We can still travel frequently, so you don’t have to think too much.

Nan then turned to be happy and said, "Okay! You must go back and see your hometown. There should be many of your relatives there who are waiting for you and miss you when you were young." Face, how happy and proud you were at that time. When you look at the cows, the adults will say that the cows have been tamed by you. No one else can tie the cows, but with your arrival, the cows have become very... Be obedient, we all call you a cowherd.

Looking back on that time, I felt homesick, a ray of nostalgia that I could never let go of.

There was gradually more snow on the road. The car walking on the snowy road felt like walking in the snowy wilderness. It was a bit desolate, but in the end we were still familiar with the road. So we went around and around until we arrived at the train. Station.

The station "Yiningdong" is located across the station building. Why is the waiting room door still closed? Is there no one there at this time?

Nan, I'm a little worried. .

I said, no, we walked straight through the fields and small woods, and when we reached the steps of the train station, we already saw footprints.

I said, Nan, look, isn’t there someone already here?

We will catch up. Nan was a little happy, and quietly wiped away her tears, and said to her: "Brother and sister-in-law, please go back quickly. We are already here. I entered the station and got on the southbound train. I will be home soon. Don't worry." ! ”

Even though Nan was unanimously insisting that we go back, we still walked into the station together, and through the doors and windows, we could clearly see the people sitting in the waiting room. . The flight attendant in the waiting room was already waiting for inspection at the door. As usual, we handed over our backpacks and went through security checks, but we were not allowed in again. The reason was that he was asked to show his ID card and ticket. Nan said, "I'm going alone, and they are here to see me off."

The tall conductor thought he was just a gossip. The person spoke up and said, "You can come here. You are not allowed to come in here. If you want to come in, you need to buy a platform ticket, and it is a ticket, and only one platform ticket is given."

It seems that Nan’s sister-in-law will not let me in if I go in. If my sister-in-law goes in, I will definitely freeze in the tight draft of the aisle.

I had to abide by the rules and had to stand at the aisle before buying a platform ticket. Although it could block the snowflakes, the snowy wind from the door drifted in from time to time. Nan was afraid that we would freeze, so he said, "Brother and sister-in-law, please go home quickly. I'll be fine here alone."

We still refused to leave, so I said, let's go into the waiting room. alright. At least it was still warm there, so it wasn’t so cold. Then a ticket checker said, although the platform tickets are for one ticket, it should be enough to talk about it. Is it possible that if there are more people, they will have to stand in the snow? , not so unkind ------

Fortunately, after listening to what the waiter said, we went to apply again, and unexpectedly at the ticket window, the person who bought the ticket agreed to us. Upon request, we were given two platform tickets so that we could go into the waiting room without getting cold in the air passage.

That’s all. We are all very happy. With the platform ticket, we could take Nan all the way to the car.

Although the platform has been clean, it is already slippery. Some people have fallen down while squeezing the train, and some people can't find which car number they are sitting in?

I was clearly pleased to see the unfamiliar hands, helping to salute and pull up the people who had been pushed down.

I was afraid I couldn’t take care of it, so I just shouted the direction of the train number. The conductor shouted loudly, the train with the larger number went forward and the train with the smaller number went backward. Perhaps this shout was a coincidence, so he would not be crowded and questioned, nor would he slip down due to the slippery platform.

Some people smiled at the report, while others were not ashamed to ask questions and hurriedly put away their backpacks. After a while, the platform became silent again.

A long train, everyone crowded into the car leading to the outside of the mountain.

Nan got on the bus and got off again. The bus was about to leave, but the flight attendant wouldn’t let her get off, so she had to squeeze in the aisle again and wave to us. "Brother and sister-in-law, thank you! You------go back quickly! Then, I will miss you------"

The train seemed to pull the ground, as if It's time to start a long journey.

The empty platform, the long platform, the quiet platform. The original silence is now filled with reminders.

"Nan, you've had a hard time going back this time. You have to take good care of yourself on the way." Her sister-in-law, who had lived with her for a while, just kept reminding her, "The journey is long, so be careful on the way. When you get there, remember to hang up the phone -------"

Nan said, "Yeah------I will."

"You guys go back. , the snow is falling again.

You must definitely go back to the south and see us! "

Nan's sister-in-law, my aunt's Xiang'er, stood there all the time, choking and saying: "Yes, you have to take care of yourself on the way. ”

I didn’t say anything, just like Nan, I just repeated——

That was a dream thickened with dusk and snow.

That It should be Nan's hand, still stretched out outside the cold window.

It should be our concern. She is holding the tight black sleeves and looking forward vaguely. .