Tell me a secret you never mentioned.

High school has always been something I don't want to talk about. Since I graduated from high school, I have cut off all contact with my former classmates. When I was a freshman, I prayed in my heart that no classmates would appear in the same school as me, but by chance, I met several high school classmates in college. I don't want to talk to them, so I pretend not to see or avoid them. Nevertheless, every time I see my former classmates, those bad memories will flood into my brain again, making me have to think of that painful memory.

It is said that time will dilute everything, but I think I will remember the feeling of injury all my life. I hate those days, I hate myself at that time, so I have been running away. I thought I could pretend nothing happened as long as I didn't say anything, but it turned out that I was wrong. Although I never say anything in my mouth, I can't get through this hurdle in my heart.

I understand the past and let it go, otherwise only I will continue to get hurt, but I also know that this process will be very long, and only by reconciling with myself can I really get rid of it. Once the wound is created, it will not disappear. Even if it gets better later, it will still leave scars. We instinctively hide this ugly wound for fear that others will find it, but when we can face this scar calmly and face ourselves who used to be full of shortcomings, when can we really get rid of it?

On many talk shows, some successful people always smile when telling their life experiences, and tell the once thorny road in a joke-like way. The audience even shed tears after listening, but the narrator was so calm. Some experiences may make us laugh the first time, but when we listen to them the second time and the third time, tears begin to roll in our eyes, because we understand the sadness behind the smile.

Everyone has a wound in his heart that he doesn't want to open, just like a band-aid stuck on an unhealed wound. It hurts when touched lightly, but even if it hurts, it should be changed in time, otherwise it will become inflamed or even fester. However, the gauze should not be torn off before dressing change, because this will also lead to repeated wounds and inability to heal. The same is true of our inner wounds. Timing is very important, neither too early nor too late. When is the best time? Don't worry, time will tell you the answer.

If you don't have the courage to face the past now, don't force yourself. When you think it's not so hard to recall, it's your best chance to make up with the past.

There is a book I like very much, which says: "The so-called growth is to remember what you think you will forget and forget what you think you will remember for a lifetime."