Express the inner entanglement of picking up money

I found a penny by the roadside and gave it to the police uncle to say goodbye.

I found the money and wanted to keep it for myself, but I hesitated because I was afraid it was a trap for others.

I spent my whole life looking back on my youth and doubting my life. Whenever I look at the sky, I don't like to talk anymore. Whenever I speak, I dare not look at the sky again. In my heart, there is your unexpected pain. How long can I persist and still keep my strongest smile? Those days were really miserable. You feel confused, resentful, lonely and exhausted.