On the surface, laughing and laughing, what kind of feeling is it to collapse inside?

On the surface, I was talking and laughing, but in fact I was devastated. Collapse is a very desperate feeling.

Why do I say that? Actually, it is. A person looks happy, lively and cheerful on the surface. If he can talk and laugh with everyone, we will think that he is very sociable and good at talking to everyone. But in his heart, it is very sad. But no one can see it. People will think he is happy and even play jokes on him. Only he knows in his heart what kind of state he is, what he desires and what he wants. But on the surface, he will control himself and not reveal any of his thoughts. He hopes that he is a person who can bring happiness to others and happiness to others. But if you speak your mind, it may make the scene very embarrassing. Maybe it will disappoint everyone. It may even make everyone feel embarrassed. He chose not to show it when he said it. No matter what happens, I just want to solve it myself and won't ask anyone for help. But in fact, he was desperate. I really hope someone can see through myself, and I really hope someone can comfort myself. But in fact, no one came. So although he is talking and laughing on the surface, his heart is very collapsed, and he is in a very desperate feeling for a long time, trapped in an infinite cycle where no one can help himself, no one will care about himself, and no one will comfort himself. Slowly he became very desperate. At this time, he doesn't expect others to come and say hello, ask himself what's wrong and ask himself what he thinks. Slowly, his heart will collapse and become very desperate. To sum up, on the surface, we are talking and laughing, but in fact, the inner collapse is a very desperate feeling.