The life of the despised Matsuko

? "The Life of the Disliked Songzi" tells the story of Songzi who has been pursuing the thing called love all her life from a middle school teacher to a popular girl. She was driven away by her family, abandoned by her lover, and humiliated by fate in every possible way. Always be wary of people's hearts. Regarding love, she doesn't know what despair is, she only knows to pursue it bravely. Her life was a life of absurdity and failure, but it was also a life of never giving up hope and a life lived seriously. She experienced suffering and was covered in scars, but beautiful flowers bloomed in despair and hope. Each of us can see our own shadow in her, taste the joy and desolation of life, and think about the meaning of life.

——· About the author·——

? The author of this book, Yamada Muneki, is a famous contemporary Japanese novelist. He is very good at creating dramatic plots and designing pages that keep readers engaged. A page that you can’t stop turning. In 1998, Yamada Muneki made his debut with "The Dead End of a Straight Line" and won the 18th Henggou Official History Award. His masterpiece "The Life of the Disliked Matsuko" has a circulation of more than 1.3 million copies, including the library version. The work "Hundred Years of Law" won the 66th Japan Mystery Writers Association Award. Books such as the medical mystery novels "Black Spring" and "Heartbeats of the Dead" also explore the issues of brain death and heart transplantation.

——· Quotes from this book ·——

1. She does not understand that the root cause of failure in life is to devote yourself wholeheartedly and abandon self-esteem to win the so-called love that is not worthy of having.

2. When we were young, everyone felt that their future was bright, right? But once you grow up, nothing will come true.

3. The river is calm and the refreshing breeze in the morning makes people feel so comfortable that it hurts. As the boat got further and further away from the shore, I could see the whole of Ono Island. This is the land where I was born and raised, which is both familiar and strange at the same time. This may be my hometown. As a teenager, I had never seen the island in such a mood.

4. I think my mother must have been very troubled at the time, and in the end she chose to abandon her family and live with that man. Perhaps this was a major decision for her in her life, wasn't it? If she can't be happy, then I don't know why we have to work so hard... If she is unfortunate, I will hate her again, and she will be too pitiful

5. Dreams are free, but Very few people realize their dreams and live a happy life. Therefore, the vast majority of people who are not so lucky either sigh sadly, or indulge in sadness, or hastily end their lives, or laugh and prevaricate the past, or make mistakes and commit crimes. No matter which path they take, their future is bleak.

6. It doesn’t matter if it’s a backward era or anything else. If a person is not alive, nothing can be achieved.

——· Core content·——

1. The family of origin that cannot be chosen often affects a person’s life values

? In recent years, with the With the spread of social media, people are gradually paying attention to how the family of origin determines people's emotions, personality and behavioral patterns. Songzi's character development has a very direct relationship with her family of origin.

? Matsuko is the eldest daughter of the Kawajiri family, with a younger sister and a younger brother. Songzi's sister Jiumei has been frail and sick since she was a child. The whole family has devoted 120,000 cares to her, especially Songzi's father, who has a cold face all day long and always treats Songzi with a dismissive attitude.

23-year-old Songzi became a teacher according to his father's expectations. During a school trip led by Songzi, money was stolen from the hotel where they stayed, and Aaron, a problem student in the class, became a suspect. When Songzi was doing ideological work for Aaron, she found that he was not cooperative at all. In order not to delay Aaron's studies, Songzi accused herself of stealing.

? Songzi first stole money from Teacher Tongxing, and then was sexually harassed by the dean of students. I thought I could settle the matter, but it turned out that the dean of students was a villain who tried to burn bridges. He reported Songzi to the principal, but Songzi refused to defend himself and was suspended.

2. The value of a person does not lie in what he gets, but in what he can give to others

? After Matsuko was attracted by the talent of the poor writer Tetsuya, he began to have a relationship with him. In their cohabitation life, she devoted all her love to her boyfriend, but this self-righteous Toru often abused Matsuko domestically when she had no inspiration. Even when the manuscript could not be sold, she forced Songzi to sell her body in a custom shop. At that time, the custom shop did not like a graceful woman like Songzi, so she had to borrow money from her brother Norio.

? Songzi learned from his brother that his father died three months after Songzi left home, and his sister also became mentally disturbed because she was almost strangled to death by Songzi. The younger brother gave Songzi some money. Used to sever ties with her. When Matsuko returned home, she did not wait for Tetsuya to come back, but instead waited for Okano, who was also a writer. He told Matsuko that Tetsuya had chosen to commit suicide by lying on the train.

? A year after leaving home, Matsuko became Okano’s mistress. After being abandoned by Okano, she came to a custom shop and became the most popular woman in the shop. The good times did not last long and she was nostalgic for fireworks. The men in Liuxiang suddenly changed their style and began to like innocent female college students. Songzi was kicked out because of poor performance.

? The unemployed Songzi quietly returned home and saw the diary left by his father. Only then did he know that his father had been asking about Songzi’s whereabouts three months before his death. The diary was full of writings: My concern and apology for Songzi turned out to be that my father also loved me, but he just couldn't express it. At this time, Songzi was filled with regret, but she eventually became the sinner of the family. After leaving a sum of money for her sister and mother, she ran away.

? When Songzi was 26 years old, he used his own money to start a romance business with a man. At first, this man deceived Songzi with sweet words, but then he became disinclined to love the new and disliked the old. Not only did he not pay dividends to Songzi, Even the savings of Matsuko's partnership were not willing to be returned. In order to seek justice, Matsuko killed the man by mistake during the dispute. The despairing Matsuko turned over and jumped off the building. At the moment, he thought of the poor writer Tetsuya whom he once loved deeply. At the critical moment, he grabbed the railing and set off overnight. Mitaka City where Tetsuya's beloved Dazai Osamu committed suicide.

? Songzi, who originally wanted to commit suicide here again, met a kind-hearted barber, and the two fell in love. The good times did not last long. Although Songzi committed manslaughter, he defected and was eventually imprisoned. The short life in the barber shop became the days Songzi missed most in prison. The barber gave her a dream, a complete home. Songzi was already very smart. She began to make friends actively and optimistically, learned all kinds of new knowledge in prison, and obtained the qualification of being a hairdresser.

After being released from prison, Songzi stood at the door of the barber shop. In front of him was a happy family of three. Perhaps he had been prepared in his heart, but Songzi just said lightly: "I'm back", then turned and left.

3. Every soul who is brave enough to love should be treated tenderly by the world

? When Songzi went to work in a hair salon, she met Aaron, a former student. He felt guilty and admitted that he had stolen the money. When talking about the reason, Aaron said that he did it because he had always liked Songzi. Aaron told that he still thought about Songzi all these years and never forgot her, and that he liked everything about Songzi and didn't care what happened to Songzi over the years.

? Aaron spent money to get rid of all the women he had dated before, and concentrated on being with Songzi. He was also very good to Songzi. One day two months later, Songzi found some drugs that Aaron used to trade in his home. Songzi knew that Aaron was a gangster, but did not know that he was engaged in drug smuggling. When Songzi persuaded Aaron to wash his hands of Jinpen, By the time, it was already too late.

When Aaron was chased by the underworld, Songzi melted drugs in wine and wanted to commit suicide with Aaron. The happiness that he finally got again, he didn’t want to lose it even if he died. However, Aaron chose to call the police and surrendered and was imprisoned. Songzi was also sentenced to one year for the drug-laced drink. Later, after Aaron was released from prison, he avenged Songzi and killed the principal who fired Songzi.

50-year-old Songzi suffers from mental illness. Now her body has long been destroyed by alcohol, and her figure is bloated and unkempt. Ah Hui, who met by chance, told Song Zi that she wanted her to be his exclusive beautician. On the way home, Songzi threw the business card casually in the park, but after returning home, Songzi couldn't help but think about Ahui's invitation. She stretched out her slightly bloated hands and waved them in imitation of a haircut. For a long time, I have imagined no less than 20 hairstyles in my mind. A feeling of joy suddenly came to my heart.

? Songzi returned to the park again and lay on the ground looking for the business card. Suddenly he felt his chest being hammered several times, and he knew nothing. She was beaten by a group of children who wanted to cause mischief, and eventually her internal organs ruptured, she bled excessively, and she died of shock.