What's the experience of being a hybrid?

What's the experience of being a hybrid?

Nothing special. When I was a child, my sisters said I looked like a hybrid. At that time, I didn't know what hybrid meant. That doesn't sound good. I asked them what hybrids meant. They say you look like a foreigner, and suddenly you feel cold and isolated. At that time, there was no TV to watch, and you never saw what foreigners looked like. Anyway, I feel that they are disgusted with me by talking like this. I didn't see foreigners on TV until I grew up, but which country do I look like among so many foreign countries? Everywhere I go, people say I look a bit like a hybrid. I always think this is disgusting. I remember once taking my daughter shopping. Some people said that your daughter was too mixed-race. When I look closely, it doesn't look like it at all. Everyone says my daughter looks like me, but I can't tell.

When I went for a massage, the woman said that I looked like a hybrid, and so did my daughter, so I chatted with her. I said that when people said I was walking in many places, I couldn't see it myself. Where do I look like a hybrid? What country is it like? The woman said that I looked like a Xinjiang native, and so did my daughter. It suddenly occurred to me that many Xinjiang people who sell mutton kebabs here have dark skin. Is it often said that my skin is not white? She said it wasn't the skin, it was the appearance. Someone once said that I look like an Indian and I am a minority. I remember when I first met my husband, he said, you are too obvious. I've only seen it on TV before, but I didn't expect to see a few. Ethnic minorities look like you. Why are you so embarrassed when you hear this? I had an argument with him. In short, many people say, really, really, I took a good look at myself in the mirror again. Once I took my daughter to the street, she pointed to the advertisement outside the shopping mall building and said to me, Mom, I think that woman in the photo is too much like you. When I saw it, it was a Thai woman. To tell the truth, I can't say that she is not beautiful. It's not my type anyway. The advertisement seems to show something to eat. I said she was Thai. How did this happen? But my daughter insists that she really likes you and you like her. Ah, I'm really tired. I'm tired of it. I don't like China. Tired is that people in those countries I have met don't really like Xinjiang people, Indians and Thais. Maybe the people I just met are not beautiful. When people say that about me, I think they are indirectly calling me ugly. This is really embarrassing.

? Because when I watch TV, I usually see Xinjiang people, Indians and Thais. They have a strong national flavor, that is, fancy clothes with plaid headdresses and so on. That kind of national flavor is very strong, and then their skin is mainly wheat color, and then their eyes are big and their eyebrows are black. I can't say where they are, but I just don't like the looks and shapes of these three places. I know that country is full of beautiful women and ugly women, but I always feel that those who say I look like a hybrid must be talking about the ugly one, so it's not special to experience it, but I feel a little inferior and embarrassed every time I hear others say so.