Diary of a Thought

Diary of a Thought 1

No matter what you do to me, I will have no regrets, but please don’t ignore me. Please treat me as a human being and don't hurt me. I have sacrificed everything for you. I thought you would be moved by this, but you weren't. You, without even a smile, just turned around and left. You don't care about me, you ignore my existence, tears fall quietly, and you don't have any thoughts. I am just a fool. I gave you everything and gave you my heart, but you broke it. I shed tears day and night and love you without any complaints, but I can’t even get a trace of your pity.

I am willing to turn into a devil and take revenge on you for being cruel. Even if everyone reviles me, even if I am never reincarnated, I am willing. As long as you get the retribution you deserve, I will do anything. Thinking of the rose you gave me that year, thinking of you and me walking hand in hand through the park, scenes came to mind. The tears couldn't stop flowing again. I hated myself for why I couldn't let you go. I hated myself for being incompetent and soft-hearted.

Turning around and falling off the cliff, a gust of wind blew past me, my skirt was flying, and I was thinking a lot. I think I must have been a fallen angel in my previous life, and was sent by God to influence you in this life. But, obviously, I have not completed my mission, God is going to take me back to punish me, and we just pass each other in this life.

In a single thought, everything turns into nothingness, and the love is endless. The drizzle is falling, and the world is hazy. In the fog, your appearance has long been blurred, and your back has long gone away... Diary of a Thought 2

One meter of sunshine, a paradise, cruising in A piece of peace you prepared for me;

A drop of blood and tears, a hell, lingering in the warmth you lit for me.

——Inscription

"Sister, sister, get up quickly and play with me!" The call lingered in my ears, and I felt that my body was constantly being shaken, and my eyes were filled with lust. Can't open.

Suddenly, a cold wind blew. When I opened my eyes, I saw a sweet-looking little girl standing in front of my bed, but her face was a little pale, she was wearing a white dress, and she was holding my arm and wouldn't let go.

"Little sister, whose child are you from? Why are you in my sister's room?"

"Sister, we are a family! Our relatives all live here , Okay, get up quickly and go out to play with me!" After saying that, he reached out and pulled me.

What happened to this child? I don’t know her, so how can I talk nonsense?

I stood up and wanted to take the child to find her parents, but as soon as I touched the child’s hand, I was so frightened that I threw her away.

"Little sister, are you sick? Why are your hands so cold?" I was worried and worried that if the child got sick, I wouldn't know what to do.

However, she stretched out her hand again with a suspicious look on her face, "Sister, isn't your hand like this too?"

She wanted to speak but could not speak.

Strange, her hand was as cold as iron just now, why can't she touch it now?

"Ah!" With a scream, I rolled and fell off the bed.

Why does this child have no pulse? Who is she? Why in my home? Where are your parents?

"Sister, what's wrong with you?" She walked towards me, getting closer and closer.

"Don't come over! Don't come over!" He moved back little by little. At this time, she squatted down in front of me, holding her chin in her hands and looking at me.

Immediately, I don’t know where she got the mirror from, “Sister, your hair is messed up, hurry up and comb it!” In the mirror, my face was as pale as snow, and my eyes were dull. Lips and teeth purple and blue. How did I become like this? I quickly covered my face with my hands. Why is my face not warm at all? Why?

I felt relieved and randomly touched my arms and legs to see if they were warm at all.

My pulse, right, where's my pulse? Why is there nothing! Heart, my heart, why doesn’t it beat anymore! Can anyone tell me what's wrong with me? He just collapsed on the ground and cried loudly.

"Where are the tears? Why do I have no tears?" The little girl laughed when she heard this.

"Sister, why do we have tears? It's so funny, are you sleepy?"

At this time, a distant call came from the crack in the door. , it turns out there are still people here, now I can be saved, I must escape. When the child wasn't paying attention, I got up, opened the door and ran out.

Where is this?

There are no stars in the sky and no moon in the night. There is an erratic bloody mist everywhere, and the fishy wind is nauseating. Buttercups grew everywhere on the ground. In the distance, endless skeletons floated on the water, blood boiled, and mountains of dead bones stood tall. Soon there was smoke billowing and hissing sounds...

No matter where you are, it is still important to escape. After running all the way, I was already out of breath from exhaustion, but I saw some people under the big tree not far ahead. I finally saw some people, so I went over and asked for directions.

"Hello, uncle and aunt! Where is this place? I'm lost and can't find my home."

An aunt hurriedly came over to pull me, "Come on, come on, little one." Girl, sit down and rest for a while. If you are thirsty, come and drink some wine made by auntie. "I refused to drink and wanted to go home quickly, but I was shocked to see that what she poured out was poison. What happened? Who is he?

While she was pouring the wine, she ran away in despair. While running, I didn't forget to look back at them, only to see them drinking from their glasses, instantly becoming deformed and hideous.

Along the way, I saw many people being nailed to the gallows, with fire burning every inch of their skin, and struggling painfully; some were beaten by others to do hard labor, and their skin was torn and bruised. Some... were frightened by this sight and were a little afraid to move forward.

Suddenly, a huge black python, like a majestic mountain range, was slowly crawling past. Wherever it went, trees were crisscrossed and broken, and dirt and gravel burst everywhere along the place where it passed. Thousands of A huge belly and foot hit the ground in a staggered undulation...

"Sister, why did you come here to play? You didn't even call me!" I was already frightened, but now I was frightened by the sound. I was almost out of my mind. There was no one around in this wilderness, so I didn't even bother to look around, but the call of "Sister" made my skin stand on end. I just stood up and wanted to run, but found that my clothes were holding me back. I turned around and saw the girl in white holding my clothes and staring straight at me.

"Hurry up and let me go! Let me go!"

I really don't know where she got so much strength. She couldn't get rid of her. Suddenly, she had an idea and lied. She said: "Little sister, let's play hide-and-seek, shall we? You hide, and my sister will come to find you."

"Okay, okay!" She clapped her hands happily.

"1, 2, 3, 4..."

Don't run away at this time and wait.

Finally I escaped another disaster, I should be fine now. I'm really hungry and haven't had a bite of food all day. It would be great if I could have a delicious meal in front of me!

"Who? Who is behind me? Come out quickly!" I could only feel the sound of heavy breathing and rustling friction behind me.

Suddenly, a few drunken-looking people appeared from nowhere not far away. No, they were not human. Either they were bleeding from their orifices, or they were missing arms or legs, and some were just crawling on the ground... Before I had time to look at them one by one, I saw that their number was getting larger and larger, and they were moving towards me.

"Help! Help!" They chased me relentlessly, and when they were about to catch up, these monsters suddenly turned into a wisp of smoke and disappeared.

I finally breathed a sigh of relief, but where did I go? Oh my God! Fortunately, they didn't chase me, otherwise I would have died a long time ago. I am now on a cliff. I only need to move a little to fall into the abyss and die without a burial!

Just when I was about to turn around and leave this place, I caught a glimpse of a woman in white clothes with fluttering clothes standing alone on the edge of the cliff. No, she can't think about it, right? No, I have to persuade her.

"Well, tell me if you have something that you can't think about. Don't think about it. Can you come down first?" She turned her back to me, letting the wind blow her thin body, her clothes The skirt moves with the wind. I cautiously moved a small step forward and lightly touched her shoulder with my fingers. She seemed to have no reaction and ignored me at all. Forget it, I'll just pull her shoulders back!

The moment she turned her face, I was so frightened that I collapsed on the ground. How come she looks exactly like me? Why here? Many questions are running in my mind, but there are no answers.

When she was stunned, she spoke: "How are you doing here? This is the life you dreamed of, are you still used to it? Don't be surprised, this is hell! Have you ever I’ve tried to come here countless times, and now I’ve got my wish, are you happy?” After saying that, she burst out laughing. Before I could figure out what was going on, she threw off her sleeves and jumped up, ready to jump off the cliff. I quickly reached out my hand to pull her, but I also jumped down.

"Ah! Help!" I just felt like I was falling, and my body was completely out of control. At this time, the woman in white stood on the edge of the cliff, smiling at me.

"Sister, sister, please wake up quickly. I will never be angry with you again!" Whimpering sounds came from time to time in my ears, and my hands were held tightly, and I slowly opened them. Eyes, where am I?

"Mom, Dad, sister is awake!" She turned around and saw my sister's naughty little face. She opened the door and ran out in surprise.

It turned out to be a sad scene.

At this time, I was lying in the intensive care unit of the hospital, under an oxygen mask, my weak breathing rising and falling. Thinking about it, my sister is just a six-foot-long orphan. She also needs her father's love. My father is away in the wind and rain, but I am always so willful. I trouble that woman every day, threaten them with suicide over and over again, and force her to leave my father. Why bother? Woolen cloth?

"Xue'er, my good daughter, you finally woke up! You scared dad to death! Dad promises you that he will sign a divorce with your aunt when you get out of the hospital." Dad stroked my forehead, His eye circles were red and his temples were a little gray.

"Dad, there is no need to sign, I will never make you angry again!" Dad looked at me in surprise and couldn't believe what I said.

At this time, my aunt led my sister in from outside, carrying rice in her hand. My sister ran directly to my bed, took my hand and said: "Sister, you are finally awake! Doctor They said you couldn’t wake up, so I knew they were liars!”

“Okay, Shu’er, come here quickly. Your sister has just woken up and is she still weak?” he said to Shu’er. Go to her side.

"Mom! Let's take a break!"

With a "bang", the rice fell to the ground.

She was stunned and didn’t speak for a long time, and then she hugged me and cried bitterly.

One month later

My body recovered and I was finally discharged from the hospital!

The afternoon sun shines through the gaps in the leaves, and the streets are still bustling with people. Their faces are filled with happy smiles, and the air is full of life and love.

Sometimes, I still think of that terrible nightmare. Fortunately, it is just suspense and not reality.

In one thought, there is a world. Diary of a Thought 3

"Xiao Shanzi, we will always be friends, right?" ten-year-old Xiao Yating said with her big shining eyes.

"Yes." Shi Shanche, who is one year older than Xiao Yating, said in a cold tone.

Shishan Che is the heir of the family. He has had a mission since he was a child. Her mother died when he was a child due to family reasons. So he is unhappy. His mother passed away when he was only five years old. It's ridiculous that a five-year-old child remembers it so clearly.

"Xiao Shanzi, if I was gone that day and left to go somewhere else, would you be sad?" Xiao Yating didn't want to ask this, but she...

Shi Shanche didn't answer because his mother left without saying goodbye, so he was afraid that others would ask such questions.

He raised his head and looked at the sky. It was daytime and he couldn't see anything. He kept thinking whether his mother would become a star in the sky and keep looking at him.

He was in a daze and remembered a painting at home. The housekeeper said that the person was his mother.

I only remember the memory of my mother but not what she looked like. Maybe as time goes by, the impression will change a lot, such as her appearance.

"Hey, Xiaoshanzi" Xiao Yating waved her hand in front of his eyes.

"I...don't ask such boring questions anymore." He said a little angrily.

"Oh" Xiao Yating looked at Shishan Che with a smile. Although he didn't get an answer from Xiao Shanzi, it was okay. At least he wouldn't fall into pain and the fact that she was the only friend, and friends were inseparable.

She likes to call him Xiao Shanzi, because the mountain can suppress everything, and it can also suppress all Xiao Shanzi's pain.

Ten years later

"Xiao Shanzi, are you okay? My little Yating has grown up and I have changed a lot, but I am sure I still like you." Over the years, Xiao Yating has been tortured by the disease. Now the doctor told her that she has fully recovered, so she is back.

She took out her mobile phone and dialed a phone number at Shi Shanche's home. This number was given to her by the housekeeper.

"Dududu..."

Finally got through

"Hello, are you Butler Liu?"

" "Yes, what's the matter with you?"

"I'm Ye Yating, how have you been doing lately, housekeeper?"

"I'm fine, but Master, before you leave, oh. , you don’t know how he came here in the past ten years, you’d better... stop seeing him." The housekeeper shook his head and hung up the phone.

Has he had a bad life these ten years? I thought... I thought he would be better off without me. If I had been brave and not left him, he would have had a good life.

Holding the phone, he opened the music selection single loop and chose a song called "Heart Wall".

There is a window in his heart, but the window is locked by himself, so I, his playmate in the same year, have to open the window, let him open it with my own hands, and let me walk in.

"Don't you have eyes when you are walking? Didn't you see the red light?" the driver cursed. Of course, he was not scolding me, but a boy. The boy's back looked familiar. Was he Xiao Shanzi?

Out of curiosity, I kept following the boy. I just wanted to know if the boy was Xiao Shanzi.

He chose KYV next to a street corner. When he walked in, I saw his profile, which was exactly the same as my favorite Xiao Shanzi. But why would he go to KTV?

Perhaps I recognized the wrong person, he is not Xiao Shanzi. He broke into a light without apologising, and went to the KTV again. Although my hill is cold, it won't be like that. But the housekeeper's uncle said that he has been living like a ghost in recent years. Why did he do that? Is it because of me? No one understands him.

I simply sat and waited for him at the door of the KTV. I wanted to see if he was Xiao Shanzi. If he was, I wanted to find out why he was torturing myself.

I didn’t come out until it got dark. The autumn night was still quite cold, and the cold wind chilled my heart.

At one o'clock in the morning, he came out with a woman with heavy makeup on his arm. They were talking and laughing, and I could see that he was unhappy, not happy at all. Although he was smiling on his face, he was in pain in his heart.

I stood ten meters away from him. He slowly released his hold on that damn woman's waist. I know he saw me, maybe because he was surprised. Why did he come back? I just left his world.

"How have you been recently? How have you been these past few years?" I asked with the same concern as before.

"I'm very good. Who says I'm not good? There are many women around me, and you are not missing." He laughed at himself.

I know that he was unhappy in his heart, very unhappy. It was me who broke all the peace.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I'm sorry for you, but I have a reason." I felt guilty, very guilty.

"Reason, don't give me a reason, unless you are going to die." He was very irrational and had reached a state of depression.

"Yes, I was indeed about to die."

Looking at him now, I feel really sad. He had been shouldering the burden of inheriting the company since he was a child. Now I don’t even have friends, which really makes me heartbroken.

"Then you go and die, I don't believe what you say." He said in a harsh tone.

In fact, he still cares about her, otherwise he would see why she didn't hug the woman next to her.

"Sindila, let's go." After saying that, he continued to hug the woman next to him and left.

Looking at his leaving figure, I felt lost in my heart. I could also see it. He had always been lonely, and his heart had never accepted anyone.

The night wind was cool, and Yating was walking alone on the lonely street. She no longer recognized Shi Shanche, and all the changes were because of her. She could see that he hated him. She hates her for being so heartless.

The next time I met Shi Shanche was in the park. He was sitting on a chair in the park sleeping alone.

When I saw him, I quickly covered him with my coat. He felt the most distressed in my heart when he was lonely, so I looked at him like that for a long time. Do I still like Shi Shanche now? He has become unknown to me.

Now that he is explaining too much, he may not even accept it. If he accepts it in time, he will fall into intense self-blame.

The little girl has grown up, will she still like that young boy Xiao Shanzi?

Everything must be allowed to take its course, Xiaoshanzi will forgive me. I don’t know why, but a month after I came back, my legs started to hurt. I didn’t go to the doctor. It should be fine.

"Ahem, cough, why is it you?" Xiao Shanzi slowly opened his eyes. Maybe he hoped it was her and didn't want it to be her.

"Why can't it be me."

Shi Shanche returned the clothes to Ye Yating and left without saying anything else.

Recently, she has been feeling a little uncomfortable in her legs. She went to the hospital by herself. The doctor said that she was seriously ill and that she would not live long. Perhaps it was a serious blow to Ye Yating.

Are you leaving again? If the situation were like this, he would not come back and would not appear in his life. I suddenly want to write a farewell letter.

Dear Xiaoshanzi:

Forgive me for leaving before. Actually, I really had difficulties. The doctor said I had to go abroad for treatment, so I left. I’m sorry that I’m here again now. I came and left because the doctor said I wouldn't live long.

Xiaoshanzi, don’t be pessimistic in the future. Be a good person and inherit the family business. Maybe my appearance is a burden and pain to you. I am the cruel person.

Yating

Yating asked someone to forward the letter to Shishan Che.

. Shi Shanche did feel guilty after seeing the letter. She was just sick and wanted to leave. It didn't mean that there was no one around her who understood her. He was sluggish and panicked.

In fact, Ye Yating has been waiting for Xiao Shanzi, who is not overwhelmed by difficulties, to find him after reading the letter. She had been expecting it.

She waited for a long time, but he never showed up, so he left. I didn’t continue to look forward to it.

She kept saying in her heart: Did I do something wrong?

In fact, Shi Shanche felt that he was not worthy of her now, so he made up his mind and let her leave. He is afraid that he will not be qualified.

Perhaps this is their ending. Diary of a Thought 4

Outside the window, the dusk sunlight has lost the warmth and comfort of the afternoon, and like an old man who has resigned himself to death, has lost the vitality and passion of life.

Winter always carries a kind of gray pain. The winter in the south does not have the snowy poetry of winter wind, leaving only a dry, cold and bleak cold wind. It’s just that in the world of mortals, there are thousands of flowers blooming, who can never miss each one? Maybe everyone is just a passer-by of the other, and you and I are just an inexplicable fate in the previous life, and we have a chance encounter in this life. Passing by. Because it knows how to let go and be indifferent. It's just that when I read it again, it no longer had the heart-breaking pain it felt at the beginning, but instead gave me an indifferent sigh. An acquaintance and acquaintance are worth a thousand words. However, time has taught me that if you leave some people and some things, you will no longer be bound by them. The mountains and rivers are silent, but time cannot change it. In front of people who understand me, the mask of indifference is finally taken off, and I can't help but fall. And you left, but you still stay in the deepest corner of my heart. As time goes by, I can't hide from the special emotions in life. The ruthless appearance is only framed for those who have nothing to do with me. Life doesn't matter too much persistence. Forced retention will eventually be unable to withstand the flow of fate, and the things left behind by force will be taken away. I know that winter has arrived silently and quietly. The unique biting coldness of winter lingers in the air, infecting everyone who stays in this space. It will always be at this time, recalling the past events of the years. There is a cup of clear tea in front of the table, exuding a faint fragrance of tea, echoing around you.

A drop in the ocean, no matter how beautiful it is over the years, it is just a moment in the dawn of the mortal world.

At this time, sit in front of the desk and write some words you like.

The past is over, no one can pursue it again. One word of knowing, one knowing, can resolve countless doors of the heart...

I used to think that I was such a stubborn person, I didn't know how to let go, I didn't know how to look back, and I never looked back.

. Now I just want to face the sea and wait for the spring flowers to bloom. No one can escape the arrangement of fate. Maybe you have the right to choose from the beginning and choose to forget the original scene.

If the fate is too shallow, it will only result in a missed performance. The relationship is deep and shallow, perhaps only in one thought...

Passing by each other, turning back means parting... When such words are mentioned countless times, there is always an inexplicable sadness in my heart. .

Today I accidentally opened the document I had written and saw the few poems I had filled in before, mixed with the sorrow of farewell. A faint tune sounded in my ears, and flowed into my heart unintentionally. My fingertips could not help but wander around the keyboard, writing down a little bit of my thoughts and half-misses at this time. Winter is silent, but still bitingly cold. Breathing in that unique fragrance makes people feel an indescribable warmth and comfort.

Outside the window, the wind is blowing. The wounds left in Ruomeng's years are slowly getting better as time goes by. In the past, I was willing to spend my whole life just to exchange for a moment of your time. Maybe I am a nostalgic person, so I live in a space that does not belong to the present and struggle hard. Perhaps, as people grow up, their hearts gradually become stronger with the passage of time.

Wei Wei looked at the screen, not knowing where to start.

It turns out that everything will flow away at any time, the people we have fallen in love with and the vague emotions are just like that. We are destined to meet at the end of the sea, but not so close to each other. We are destined to see each other for a thousand years, but we are not destined to see each other for a hundred days. It's just that I made a funny choice at an inadvertent time, so I sigh today.