Thank love rat, whom I once loved with my life.

Life is so long, who hasn't loved a few love rat?

If you fall in love with love rat, it doesn't matter, as long as you stop in time.

1

It never occurred to me that Li Xiangnan would cheat.

How many times I chatted with my girlfriends, they said that someone was cheating and someone was divorced, and I felt so far away from myself.

They said, Sun Xiaobei, you should watch your husband. Now, in this world, men become bad when they have money. How many beautiful young girls don't care about poor boys at all, only stare at middle-aged uncles with successful careers!

I always laugh when I hear it. Well, whoever cheats will get worse, but Li Xiangnan won't!

I was so sure until life slapped me hard.

The discovery of Li Xiangnan's infidelity was an accident, and it can't be accidental any more.

After dinner, Li Xiangnan went to take a bath. His cell phone rang. I'm afraid this is a business matter. I picked it up and handed it to him, and the other party hung up. Then, a strange WeChat number jumped out: What if it didn't come this month?

Many days later, looking back on that moment, I felt like I was dreaming. You don't say! How can this be true? Did you send it wrong?

Li Xiangnan came out wrapped in a bath towel, and I looked at him like a monster. This slightly bald 45-year-old man had an affair and got someone pregnant?

I stared at him for a while as if I never knew him.

I handed him my mobile phone and someone sent you a WeChat.

I stared at him for a while, waiting for his answer. I stared at his face, trying to know the real answer from his expression.

Oh, who is it? Ah, that, that, who is this? Is there something wrong? I don't even know. I must have sent it wrong!

He stretched out his right index finger and touched his nose.

I knew the real answer at once.

Because every time he lies, he unconsciously touches his nose with his right index finger. Ten years, never.

2

I filed for divorce.

At first, Li Xiangnan refused to live or die. Xiao Bei, our relationship for ten years, can't you give me a chance?

Li Xiangnan, because of our ten-year relationship, I can't forgive.

On the balcony on the 28th floor, the night sky is unfathomable, just like people's hearts. Bright stars are at your fingertips, but people around you are so far away.

I remember the day when it snowed ten years ago. I stole the household registration book from home and asked him for a marriage certificate. Because he is ten years older than me, his small company has just closed down, and his parents will never let me marry him.

I remember the spring night when we met. The air is filled with flowers and the moonlight is sultry. His eyes are brighter than the starlight at night: My name is Nan and your name is Xiao Bei. Do you think this is fate?

I looked at him with a smile on my face, and somehow I missed a beat. I think this is love at first sight?

I think of the hard years I spent with him, from nothing to food and clothing, and that taste is like a fish drinking water.

My parents finally forgave my rebellious daughter only after I had Xixi with him five years ago.

So, in this world, anyone can hurt me, only you, Li Xiangnan, can't.

Xiao Bei, have you really decided? Don't you want to miss your daughter?

Daughter, how dare you mention your daughter? Did you ever think about your daughter when you were fooling around with that woman? I wanted to swear, but I finally took a breath and held back.

Li Xiangnan, I let you go. Actually, I don't want to fulfill you. I'm not that great. I just, I want to let go of myself. I don't want to be paranoid all day, and I don't want Lacrimosa to become a dissatisfied housewife all day. I just want peace of mind.

The third ring road at the foot is like a shining car river. What's it like to jump off the 28th floor? Free as the wind?

He's gone, completely disappeared from my life. This is my last request to him.

However, I cannot erase ten years from my life. I still can't forget him, the past and the injury.

If life is just like the first sight, why draw a fan in the autumn wind? It is easy to change, and it is also easy to change. What is true love? Is there really eternity in this world? Why can't the poor move, but the rich can lust?

Every time I stand on the balcony on the 28th floor, I can't help jumping. The five-year-old daughter said, mom, will you stop going to the balcony? I feel horrible. I couldn't help crying with my daughter in my arms. At least, I still have you

three

Fortunately, I still have a job. In this world, work is more reliable than men, at least as long as you take it seriously, it will not fail you.

I paralyze myself with work. Although there are countless dead of night, I still can't sleep. I often think, why do I take marriage seriously and get failure? Why do I take life seriously, but life has given me bitter fruit?

I thought about it, but there was no answer. I seem to have reached a dead end. I didn't realize. I had symptoms of depression at that time.

I often have breast pain. From my left chest to my left lower abdomen, there seems to be an invisible thread pulling in my body, which always hurts me to keep my back straight.

The leader realized the changes in my family and forced me to take a two-week vacation, so that I could go out and relax, and not work so hard.

I went to Qinghai in the cool summer of August. The weather on the plateau changes rapidly, with clear skies for a while and downpours for a while in Wan Li.

The sky on the plateau is so high, Qinghai Lake is as tolerant as the sea, and I can't help crying in the turbulent crowd.

I don't care what other people think. I only have myself. I just want to be with myself. Let me be myself. I am nobody's daughter, nobody's wife, nobody's mother. I'm just myself.

When the Youth Travel Service checked in, a refreshing big boy passed by me and looked back at me. Beauty, why do you cry during the day?

He looked at me with a smile on his face, but his eyes were rare and clear. I am embarrassed. Oh, I'm lovelorn!

We drank together, and I really hooked his neck. You say, what is true love? Is there really such a thing in this world?

I am so indulgent for the first time in my life. At that moment, I felt a sense of depravity, revenge for the world and hatred for myself.

This kind of happiness came so strongly that I forgot about Li Xiangnan for a while.

Back in Beijing, I returned to the real world, with the same pain, hatred and busyness. Until, I found the left ovarian cyst in the physical examination of the unit organization.

Women are most likely to go to gynecology when they are in a bad mood. This cyst looks a little bad. We need to do a pathological section. The surgeon is a kind old gentleman who reminds me of my father.

I suddenly feel that the failure of marriage is nothing, and Li Xiangnan is far away from me. It turns out, as Cangyang Jiacuo said, in this world, apart from life and death, what is not a trivial matter? And I, so I can't see through it.

I want to live. I have to live.

four

Have you shaved your head? Do you think a woman with a shaved head is cool?

My shaved head is really shiny, and it's in cool summer. When the wind blows, a fine layer of sweat oozes from my forehead, shaking into a winding sweat path. When the sun shines again, it shines like the dazzling sun in the crowd.

When I was walking under the hospital porch, Xixi made me lean down and kiss my bald head. Mom, you are so beautiful. Come on!

My eyes are moist, but I feel hot eyes staring at me. Looking up, it was the refreshing big boy I met in Qinghai Lake. He is cleaner and more comfortable in a white coat.

I can't wait to find a crack in the ground. How can the world be so small? I have indulged this time in my life, can't I do it all?

From that day on, besides my parents and daughter, there was another person in my ward, chenchen.

Chenchen knew my story and said that I was the most beautiful and strong woman he had ever seen.

My best friend knows that I'm dating him and strongly opposes it. He is seven years younger than you. Is he reliable? You failed once, you can't afford to lose!

Hum, Li Xiangnan is older than me 10 years old. Isn't that unreliable? Besides, I have hands, feet and brains and can support myself and my daughter. Why should I rely on men? He is younger than me, so I make a lot of money!

After this life-and-death disaster, I just want to live happily, live freely and live my true self. As for what others think and love, what does it matter to me? Anyway, if I live one day, I will earn one day, and I will not waste every day.

A year later, chenchen proposed to me. Sun Xiaobo, marry me!

I am older than you, and I am getting older faster than you.

I am still poor and have no house! Do you think these are important?

I only have one ovary, and the doctor said that the possibility of pregnancy in the future is very small.

I already have a daughter! He and Xixi fought on the grass, rubbed Xixi's unkempt hair and made faces at me playfully. Xixi was giggled by him.

I don't know how Li Xiangnan gets along with that woman. I don't care anymore. I just feel that fate cares too much for me and gets such precious sincerity. Is it because I take life seriously? In this world, only sincerity can't live up to it, and only family can't be profaned.

The wind is so light, like his hand; The cloud is so soft, just like his smile. Honey, what are you waiting for? We will go to the Civil Affairs Bureau tomorrow!