Those who have committed suicide come in and talk about what it feels like.

People who committed suicide came in to talk about what it was like: the experience of a Zhihu netizen whose name was hidden. After reading it, I was deeply impressed. I can't help posting it here. Perhaps more people in need can see that refusing to commit suicide is not because "life is worse than death", but because "pain is the pay of every precious thing." Anything precious needs a price. )

Once committed suicide, I was lucky enough to be found and rescued by my family in time. I am anonymous because I still can't face the cowardly self who actually chose to commit suicide.

Life was always excellent and smooth until my boyfriend died in a car accident. I was seriously injured and my left arm was disabled for life. Every day after that became a torment. Needless to say, parents are worried that a left-handed person has to adapt to the days without his left hand. Things that seemed simple and taken for granted in the past suddenly became difficult to go to the sky. Small things such as eating, dressing and washing your face should be practiced again. These superficial difficulties may be overcome, but the wounds in my heart are getting deeper and deeper.

I remember when I just came home from the hospital, one day my mother was cooking and I stood by and chatted with her. She habitually said to me, "Pass me a plate." I'm also used to holding it with my left hand, and the plate crashed to the ground. I paused, suddenly angry and resentful. I reached for it, kept taking it, and kept falling to the ground ... I picked up a plate like crazy, looked at the debris all over the floor, and listened to my mother apologize to me that she was wrong. She forgot that she was wrong ... then I went to see a psychiatrist, with a strong surface and a mind like a seed in my heart.

It has been nearly 10 years since I started playing tennis in the third grade of primary school. My family originally just wanted me to mix with a second-class athlete to get extra points for the college entrance examination and exercise. I fell in love with this sport unexpectedly and enthusiastically. I spent more time practicing than studying, and won numerous prizes in various competitions. 18 years old became a national first-class athlete as a non-professional player. This is my pride, and later it became my wound.

I have been used to living for 20 years, and I have to completely tear down and rebuild, and this process is completely a matter for one person. All the attention of my parents around me is focused on me. In order not to let them suffer, I can only pretend to be calm and live actively. I went to see a psychiatrist, and after a few words, I kept crying. Without a good sleep, I closed my eyes and felt that he was standing by the bed. I know it's not a miss in the novel, but a fear. Dare not turn off the light to sleep, always feel that he is there. ......

In half a year, 1.7 meters lost more than 70 kilograms, and my parents tried their best. I don't think anyone can save me, and I don't know myself at all I was angry because of the trivial matter of sesame and mung beans, and I was angry, and I also said that I was concerned about the bad words of my friends. Later, I was depressed and kept asking myself how this happened. This cycle is endless suffering for me every day, tormenting my parents. At that time, I thought that dying might really be a relief, so that everyone was relieved.

After making up my mind, I suddenly felt very relaxed. Get up and run at 6 o'clock every day as before, and then go to the stadium for training; Go shopping with my parents and pick out my favorite clothes and shoes; Go to the movies with friends in gay friends, sing K and eat hot pot; The last person went to pay homage to his boyfriend, but he regretted not seeing his brother who was a soldier in the field for the last time. Everyone thought I survived and slowly recovered. For breakfast that day, there was cereal crisp and rat poison in the milk. I don't think it should be too bitter or too bad to drink.

The moment I drank it, I began to regret it. I struggled to stand up and my insides cramped. I regret it very much The car accident was so painful that I survived! Get used to it with one hand. No play, no play. Others will live well without playing! Where are mom and dad? My mind was buzzing, something rushed up, and then I lost consciousness. I was saved because my brother asked for leave from the army and came back to see me, just after I drank for a few minutes, I got home. I planned everything, thinking that he would come back by train and attend my funeral with his parents. I was relieved, but I didn't expect him to fly back.

When you want to commit suicide, no matter what you do, you will regret it the moment you take action. At that moment, you begin to understand that everything can be solved, but it is too late. Why am I so sure you will regret it? It's not just based on my experience. Later, when I went abroad to study, I came across a team, mostly people with PTSD like me, who formed a team and volunteered to help others. A few of them, like me, have committed suicide, and everyone's unanimous reaction is regret. When they are volunteers, they are also grateful to get in touch with people who have been rescued after committing suicide. Although this is not a scientific statistical data, my personal experience has verified its correctness again and again. So on the forum, as long as I see someone trying to commit suicide, I will always discourage them, even if they can see a sentence in 100. That's all I can do. If I can give others a chance to start over, I will feel that my road is much wider.

I don't know if there is such a support group in China, but I think it's a good way to help out.

Tell me how I joined this group. There is a gym near where I live. I used to run every day. At that time, there were always coaches teaching judo. I read it several times and found it very interesting. The coach is humorous and infectious, and the interactive atmosphere is particularly good. Every time I watch them practice, I have the urge to join, but thinking about my arm can only dispel this idea, which is too reluctant.

Later, I called my mother and told her about it. She said it was best to consult the coach, but there was nothing to lose if she couldn't. I went to the coach to explain my situation. He said: "If you don't take part in the Olympic Games, one hand and one foot will be enough. I'll watch you and make sure you don't get hurt. " I gradually got to know the coach and found that he is a very attractive person, cheerful, humorous, considerate and knowledgeable. In short, I always feel relaxed with him. Once after practice, my mobile phone died, so I went to his office to borrow it. I knocked at the door and went in, as if I felt something was wrong. I saw him sitting in a chair, but his leg and one leg were put aside. Suddenly I realized that he actually had a prosthetic leg, and he was disabled. I'm a little shocked. He smiled mischievously and said, "I didn't expect it. Did I scare you? " I just stood there.

I talked with him for a long time that day. He served in Iraq and was injured in a mission like this. Many comrades-in-arms sacrificed him to survive, and those days were particularly difficult. They drugged themselves with alcohol and were depressed for a long time. Later, through the introduction of a psychiatrist, I joined a support group. I realize that many people will encounter such ups and downs, but we can't always immerse ourselves in that kind of pain and hypnotize ourselves. As long as you are willing to change a little, you will always come out.

That's how I was introduced to the support group by the coach. Everyone ate and talked like friends, as if they were talking about their own pain. I listened quietly and felt that my pain didn't seem so difficult to overcome. I think all regrets and remorse should stay at this moment, not for others but for myself. We must live well, work harder and overcome those pains. In the days to come, I always remember a sentence I heard in the group: pain is the pay of every precious thing. Anything precious needs to pay a price.

How did you feel before committing suicide? People who have committed suicide will never be qualified. People who commit suicide are too selfish. In this world, you don't just live for yourself.

Suicide is the best policy. Never look back unless you have to.

Brother lick, tell me what it feels like. Title: The Best Female Military Emperor Words: 800,000. Type: reborn female strong reading: over 18.

Content introduction:

All women are strong and reborn.

Strength, wealth, talent, wisdom, space, surrounded by men, committed to building the best female military emperor!

The emperor in the army, the emperor in the army, makes the world, I am the only emperor!

Tang, a generation of talented women have been reincarnated and become princesses. People who used to eat, drink and be merry were all afraid of Wan Ku, but now they are all ruthless and all-encompassing talents!

Her medical skills are superb, saving people and saving the country, and she has achieved the name of a wonderful doctor for countless lives; Her piano sound is like a god, like a cry, and a sad song awakens thousands of souls; She has a good eye. She knows how to save China's ancient and modern treasures. She is versatile, rich as an enemy, and has slender hands.

"I want to be an official, I want power, I want to rule the world!" Through rebirth, domineering remains!

"I want to make money, I want to support my family, and I want countless handsome men!" Money is a man, an emperor!

Through, rebirth, the world is different, but the queen is still the queen, controlling the power, with space, shocking the whole world!

Title: Wife is too romantic. Words: 420,000. Type: All women are born again.

Content introduction:

Du NP+ YY works have no moral integrity and no lower limit+favorite articles+cool articles.

In order to throw away articles written by handsome guys.

Her rebirth became the first love of the person I loved most in my last life.

/kloc-Sister Cheng Xiang, a neighbor who committed suicide at the age of 0/7 and suffered from aphasia.

Then she will finish the unfinished life.

Admit one's ancestral home and enjoy the love of one's relatives.

Get rid of the gangster boyfriend who killed himself in the past, and leave countless high-quality handsome guys with a charming and gorgeous bone.

From a fifth-grade high school to Yale University in the American Ivy League.

From an unknown aphasia girl to a mysterious girl in the entertainment circle.

In the past, she was taciturn, unlovable and unloved by her relatives.

Now, she doesn't need to talk, just a smile, and there are countless ministers under her skirt.

Then she was wiped clean by a wolf.

Her name is Cheng Xiang, wearing the skin of a white rabbit, pretending to be a pig and eating a tiger, and hiding a loveless and unhappy little beast in her heart.

First love is a little leopard that bites people.

And she finally realized her wish to be with him in the next life.

"Cheng Xiang you clarify for me, why don't you want me, can't I satisfy you? Want to run after eating and wiping? Which adulterer do you want? Huh? "

The acting head teacher in high school is a black-bellied uber, who tricked her into going home to eat and clean her up.

"Xiang Xiang, the teacher felt it necessary to communicate with you physically and mentally. You know, gentle little thing. Men will love you and teachers will love you. " The person who dotes on her most is just a sinister fox who can spoil her. "

"Going to America again?" The fox licked her earlobe.

"There will be a month ..." My hands are getting dishonest. ...

"Xiang Xiang, don't you think you should compensate me for something?" As pathetic as being abandoned ...

There is a big, bad wolf behind him …

In this life, she is only responsible for beauty, beer and skittles.

Title: Last-day enchanting belly black crazy female word count: 450,000 type: reborn last-day space female strong reading: end 16

Content introduction:

She, an ordinary college student, was bullied and died with a grudge when her beloved boyfriend traded her for a bag of cookies at the end of her life.

However, when she opened her eyes again, she returned to the last days, and the jade bracelet she had been carrying for many years became a living space. What are you waiting for? Where are the food and meat? Jade bracelet!

In the last days, zombies are everywhere, animals mutate, plants mutate, people become panic and despair, and she miraculously awakens the power of chaos at this time.

With endless materials and the ability to go against the sky, she made a name for herself in the last days and created brilliance.

Her appearance, dark heart, to her friends, she defends her weaknesses, and to her enemies, she will never be soft.

Wandering in the last days, just to provoke a spoony handsome man. Well, since we're here, let it be. I can afford it anyway.

● Is the zombie terrible? But my little body will sprout!

● Are mutant animals terrible? But my little black is often eager to touch the tiger!

● Are plants alien and horrible? But my little flower has been begging for support

Bad daughter-male bully upper body words: 7 10000 type: all reborn, strong woman reading: end 18

Content introduction:

In this article, a woman has many men, which is infinite and has no lower limit. Handsome guys are absolute, NP is certain.

Whose granddaughter is enthusiastic, confident and bold is her, Sun Chu;

Whose daughter is black and cold, smart and witty, it's her, Sun Chu;

Whose niece is charming and dazzling, it is her, Sun Chu;

Whose younger sister is extraordinary and eloquent, it is her, Sun Chu;

Whose girlfriend is noble, beautiful and charming, it is her, Sun Chu;

For men,

In her eyes, beautiful men are a must!

Don't get your hands on the man you like!

You can't get the man you want!

When a handsome man meets her, he is doomed to run away!

For the enemy.

Did dad use it? Take away his real power!

Sister pressed it? Get her husband!

Stepmother is vicious? Stop her.

When the enemy hit the door, she practiced a dark group for ten thousand years and could not force it.

In a rage of business war, she created a business empire that led the world.

As soon as the underworld came up, she established a black and white underground kingdom.

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Chu Chaoyang, a rich man, is also a broker.

She is tenacious and can do what others can't!

She is confident and arrogant because she has the capital!

Title: Devil's Fall: Crazy Woman Too Charming Words: 10000 Type: Fantasy Woman from Another Plane: End 18

Content introduction:

She is a ruthless barrister in the 2 1 century, determined by war, treacherous, disloyal and fickle. Once I accidentally broke into a different world, fought with many handsome men, accidentally stole the hearts of many handsome men in the Jianghu, and fell into a peach blossom debt. She just wanted to steal a long time, but God didn't want her to be satisfied, so she had to fly against the wind for nine days to see Jiangguo.

Title: The rotten woman who crossed the street received her husband's words: 10,000 types: reborn women from another plane: 19 The end is a good transitional article. Although the style of writing is not high, it is better than the content YY, which is in line with the pro who likes NP taste. Suggestion PS: The name after the title is the man's name.

This article yy, a woman and a man, is cool, the man's body and mind are clean and strong, and all kinds of men are free to choose.

Cold heart treasure, good girl, a rotten girl!

I peeked just because I was curious about how to solve the X demand among comrades, and my brother chased me.

I had to fly a private jet to escape, but I accidentally wore it to ancient times.

I didn't expect God to be kind to her,

You can see a pair of broken sleeves on the first day of coming to ancient times.

Then two pairs, three pairs. ...

Zi Qi, the owner of Renyi Villa, is gentle and easy-going.

He, the second young master of Renyi Villa, is fresh and elegant, with a bad temper.

What is the leader of the blood brake alliance? He is cold-blooded and ruthless, with a cold face and a warm heart.

He-Blood Brake League killer, red, silent and gloomy, attacking and calculating.

He-the enchanting door owner Fengyang, charming and domineering.

He-Duanmu Chaotaizi, Duanmu Rock, shy but cautious, simple and lovely.

He, the prince of Xuanyuan Dynasty, XuanYuanYu, was black and cruel, smiling at others.

He-rejuvenation hall imperial doctor, even Hao, eternal cold, otherwise.

Was it so open in ancient times that the wind of broken sleeves prevailed?

But why did all these handsome men finally throw themselves at her?

She doesn't want to break them straight?

Title: The ultimate enchanting words of disaster: 500,000 words. Type: All-around Woman Read: end11.

Men's list: Qiyu, Huo Yinshuang, Huo Yinfeng, Huo,,, Ling Yuexiao, Su Ya, Chanuo, Luo.

Content introduction: She was originally the daughter of Nu Wa, the goddess of water in Luoshui. She was caught spying on the first beautiful man in the wild and fell into the turbulence of time and space. She accidentally fell into 2 1 century and became the daughter of a modern tycoon-living water.

But why is she a vase? Why is she still the daughter of mistress? Why is this still her original face? !

Anyway, she has the little white rabbit's token of love-the flower hairpin in her hand, which is also very popular!

What is hateful is that this flower hairpin was banned by the Lord God (Susu), and she was not allowed to enter the space without practice! So, she went up -0-

Alchemist? She prescribed a world-famous medicine based on this.

Refiners? With this, she became a leader in the field of modern restoration.

Contract? In this way, she formed a huge beast army.

Bet on stones? Giants? Mafia? It's just her pleasure!

Her animal nature is not low; If her beast is a beauty; Her animal nature should be the inside of the Lord and the outside.

Title: Nine-year-old words: 590,000 types: women who have crossed the plane read: End 1 18.

List of men: Murong Shengtian, Yang, Feng Chuhan, Feng Chuyun, Lie, Xu (Xingtian), Batu, Fox Ling, Xiao Lintian, Zhang Tianba, Guo, Zhou Zixuan, Mo Chuchen, Mu Ling and Murong Zhizhen. Introduction: Feng, a talented gamer,

A dirty trick was played by a beautiful man with a black belly, which blew up his body and put his soul on the prince of the country of female honour.

The sincerity and hypocrisy of the five brothers,

The wanton bullying of the top ten waiters,

The sinister emperor and father,

I don't lose my temper. Do you really think I'm a sick cat? I died in the past, but today I can't let you wait to be bullied.

If you have despicable means, vicious means, and means of killing, then do it!

I carry invincible equipment with me. I will explode one by one, making you cry and unable to find the north.

A strong woman, there are more women than men. This article is full of beautiful men and shocking people, emphasizing taste and being cautious!

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The feeling of crying with a smile and the experience of saying "crying with a smile" will only be shown when people are subjected to strong * * * or extreme grief, but there may be more people who believe in "crying and laughing". Most of it may be because I suddenly remembered the sadness corresponding to what I was laughing at.

Everyone who has sung in KTV is talking about what it feels like not to sing, and dare to sing. This is progress. KTV gives people a platform to enhance their self-confidence.

Tell me about your suicide. You don't remember how you died after your last successful suicide. Ask other souls if they remember.

Those who have caught snakes with their hands tell me what it feels like. It's dry, not slippery, a little cold, and it feels like a snakeskin bag.

What do you feel? What do you feel? What do you think? There are many kinds of stomachaches. I only know that there are two kinds of stomach bleeding I have experienced (people who are in pain faint and wake up in the hospital), and there is another kind (shadow hurts when it hurts, but it doesn't hurt after a long time). Later, it was found that it was sinus strict gastric mucosal sucking and duodenitis.

How do you feel about latex? You mean latex paint? I used Nippon three-in-one paint, and I didn't feel anything. It's been two years, and it hasn't changed color or been stained with dust. Everything else is just so-so In addition, be sure to buy brand paint in the specialty store. In some large decoration market stores, 99% of the paints are fakes mixed and sold.

I had a colonoscopy this afternoon. what did i say? Start drinking electrolyte powder at eight in the morning. I drank 1000ml in one breath, which was a little salty. Then I drank 200ml every 65,438+05min, a * * *, and I drank 3,000ml. I don't feel that bad. I drank it all at once, went to the toilet n times, and finally defecated. I made it at 3: 30 in the afternoon, and I was still nervous when I went in. It's two female doctors, a little relaxed. They also lay on their left side to show disinfection and then went into the mirror. Because I did it halfway before, it didn't hurt at all when I first entered, and it hurt badly when I reached the second corner, but I didn't feel any pain this time. I don't know when I crossed that corner. A few minutes later, the doctor asked me. Another nurse came to help me press my stomach. Occasionally, I feel pain, but within the tolerable range, it is not as serious as it is said on the Internet. I just crossed my legs and chatted with the doctor, and it was over, about 10 minutes, which was very relaxed. The result is that there is nothing wrong with the intestines. After two comparisons, I feel that the pain of colonoscopy mainly depends on the doctor's skill, and secondly, I should relax myself. Take it easy. If you want to do it, you must go to a regular big hospital. There is no need to do it painlessly. It's really easy to finish. I don't even feel pain. After I went out, I was full of energy and didn't feel anything.