Who has all Sun Rui’s novels?

Chapter 1: 1. If life is a test paper, sixty points is enough, but many times you cannot even get sixty points and you have to make up the exam.

Three years ago, I failed once, and then I struggled to find opportunities to make up the exam.

However, no one has ever sent me papers.

Occasionally I get a paper, and when I open it, it turns out it’s not the one I want to take the exam for.

I'm waiting for someone.

In order to allow Zhou Zhou to find me when he wanted to contact me one day, I could have changed my phone number to a new one after I lost it, but I still went through all the troubles and rummaged through boxes to find the original card. Password, reissued a new one.

But the call that was supposed to come still didn’t come.

In the days when Zhou Zhou just left me, the whole world was gray in my eyes. The sky, cities, streets, crowds, traffic lights, all without exception, were lifeless and gray. It's only at night that it doesn't look gray, it turns completely black.

Men and women are like buying a house. From the day a man is born, there is a girl in this world who should belong to him. At this time, the girl is like a boy, just like an off-plan house. When a boy doesn't have a girlfriend when it's time, it's equivalent to delaying the delivery of the house. Later, the boy got a girlfriend and started falling in love, which was equivalent to decorating. If the two of you can't talk well and break up, just treat it as if you don't like it after the decoration is completed, and start over. Later, the two got married and moved in together. If you get divorced, if you don't take it seriously, just treat it like moving back home. If you care about emotions, treat it like an earthquake and the house collapsed.

After Zhou Zhou left, my whole life collapsed.

I used to hang on MSN and QQ 24 hours a day, waiting for her to come online. I waited from day to night, and from night to day. Her avatar was clearly in front of me, but I couldn't contact her. , this feeling is really fucking uncomfortable.

Zhou Zhou’s avatar never lights up. Day after day, year after year, I can only watch the age in her profile getting older as the system updates.

When I couldn’t think of anything else, I left a message for Zhou Zhou. Even though I knew she wouldn’t see it, I had to say the words that were stuck in my chest. There was one message in the first few minutes, and then one in the last few days and weeks, but Zhou Zhou never came online. I gradually calmed down, accepted the reality, and stopped leaving messages.

In order to fill the emptiness in my heart, I desperately look for things to do. No matter who asks me for help, whether reliable or not, I will do it, so that I will never be idle for a moment. Once I am idle, I will do it. When I get down, I will think of Zhou Zhou again and feel uncomfortable again.

After failing the first postgraduate entrance examination, I took it a second time and actually passed it. The feeling of passing the exam was not as good as I expected. Except for paying the tuition in September every year, I didn't feel like a graduate student at other times. The tutor basically didn't care about us. We only met him twice a year. One time we met by chance in the men's room. We didn't talk about anything serious. It was just that my colleague criticized the school's irresponsible logistics and made the toilet always smell like toilet. Son. The teachers are more relaxed than when I was an undergraduate, and I no longer feel like a student.

I will graduate in one year.

Every night I lie in bed and think, not knowing what the future will bring, and my heart is at a loss.

I comfort myself: the future is just when I go to bed, and when I wake up, the future is here.

Life is like this, no matter whether you fall asleep or not, the future will come as scheduled.

But the days before the future are too difficult.

Whenever I can't sleep late at night, I sit at the table, turn on the computer, light a cigarette, look at Zhou Zhou's photo, see her smiling in the photo, I am in a daze, recalling our wonderful moments until the cigarette butt burned my hand. Squeeze it out, then light another one.

When I was in college, I wrote a song called "Growth", "The days are passing by, the body is growing taller day by day, happiness is decreasing day by day, and insomnia is bothering me day by day." Now. Looking back, it's really a shame. Although it was depressing at that time, it was much happier than it is now.

Perhaps ten years from now, when I look back on the present, I will feel that I am complaining for no reason. But the pain now has tortured me enough.

Others said that you look in good condition. But who knows the pain in my heart.

I often long to go back to more than ten years ago, when I just entered high school, with no love, no depression, and no ideals. Every day was sunny, simple, and happy.

My name is Qiu Fei, and I hang out in Beijing with Yang Yang, Ma Jie, Zhang Chaofan and others. We were born here, grew up here, went to school here, earned money here, and grew old here.

We are all ordinary people, living ordinary lives, eating ordinary food, wearing ordinary clothes, riding in ordinary cars, speaking Mandarin, and drinking ordinary Yanjing.

Beijing carries us, as well as our dreams, joys and sorrows.

I have reached the end of my twenties and am about to stand up, but I don’t know what to stand up for.

My youth is not gone yet, I have some left. I also want to use this remaining youth to realize some value in life and find the meaning of life.

But Zhang Chaofan often said: "Life has no meaning at all. It is nothing more than eating, drinking, shopping, and cooking after work. If someone insists on saying that life has meaning, I think it is. He deliberately doesn’t want to live a good life!”

Many years ago, I thought he was talking nonsense. Now, I don't know if he's right.

The summer of 2008. Another summer has arrived, and breaking up with Zhou Zhou seems very far away.

People often say that time is like a test paper. In addition to not being able to detect diabetes, it can identify authenticity, good and evil, and make you forget the past. But many things with Zhou Zhou are still clearly visible in my mind. , no matter how time passes. Because some things simply cannot be forgotten.

Looking back suddenly, everything seemed like a dream that had just ended.

Youth loves to dream, but the dream of the past is completely different from the dream that has ended.

Some people say that character determines destiny, but I think it is chance that determines destiny.

Even one question in a certain exam can determine our destiny.

Even a single second of a certain encounter can affect our destiny.

Meeting even one person at a certain time can change our destiny.

Of course, a plane, a car, a bomb, a bottle of gasoline, these can change our destiny.

In the past, we look forward and cannot see the present.

Now, when we look back, it was all a fucking accident.

Everything starts by chance and ends by chance.

Three years have passed. So many things have happened in these more than a thousand days, and many people's lives have changed.

In order to be more objective and specific, I decided to tell it in the third person. In this way, more people's stories will be presented here.

On the opening night of the 2008 Olympic Games, Qiu Fei, Yang Yang, Ma Jie, and Zhang Chaofan sat in Yang Yang's office and sighed about youth and life. The table was in a mess. Beer bottle caps were scattered among several disposable lunch boxes. The food in the lunch boxes was almost eaten. There were still a few Zhongnanhai cigarette butts soaked in the old vinegar peanuts. There was a Sprite bottle mixed in among the beer bottles. This was Zhang Chaofan. He didn't drink. He was holding a glass of Sprite and sitting on one side of the table. The other three people were holding their own beers and sitting on the other three sides of the table.

The table is Yang Yang’s boss’s table. Only the fax machine on it looks related to the office. Without it, this table would look no different from the table in the school cafeteria. It’s made with the same grease and twist. A little smaller.

After Yang Yang graduated from the Chinese Department a year ago, he went to an advertising company and worked as a planner for a period of time. He wrote copywriting for advertisements and feature films every day. He was also assigned to write a few episodes of TV series every now and then. Those that passed through his hands His writings have gradually turned into tens of millions of film and television products, but his salary is still several thousand yuan. No matter how much he writes, he still gets the money, and the TV series does not give him a signature. Yang Yang went to his boss to argue with him and asked for commission. The boss said yes, but then there would be no basic salary. Yang Yang did the math and found that according to the company's standard, he could get 5% commission. He wrote 10 million jobs for the company every year and could get 500,000. So he signed a supplementary work agreement with his boss, and he would not get any more in the future. Basic salary, just commission.

After signing, Yang Yang said: "Anyway, I write everywhere. From now on, I will write at home. If there is any work, send it to me, and call me over when there is a planning meeting."

The boss said: " Okay."

2. After staying at home for half a month, Yang Yang didn't receive any work from the company or a call asking him to come over for a meeting, so he couldn't sit still and called. Ask what's going on. The boss said: "Those who get a basic salary can do the job I do. I won't bother you until I can't do it."

Yang Yang understood what was going on and hung up the phone. , didn’t curse. He said that he was mature. When he encountered this kind of thing before, four powerful words would definitely pop out of his mouth.

After losing his job, Yang Yang was very happy. In the past, he felt that he was overqualified and wanted to change jobs. However, due to the monthly salary guarantee, it was enough to buy cigarettes, alcohol and sanitary napkins for his girlfriend, so he was too late. Unable to make up his mind, this time he followed his wish. He also figured out this business, so he decided to do it himself.

So I registered a company, rented a house, bought two desks, and purchased an Apple computer, so that I could handle all the work from the early stage to the late stage.

But a serious problem appeared in front of us - no work.

One of the characteristics of the film and television industry is that if it does not open for half a year, it will take three years to open.

Although Yang Yang’s company has not opened yet, he is not in a hurry and often comforts himself: It’s not even half a year yet!

The members of Yang Yang Company are Chairman Yang Yang, General Manager Yang Yang, Secretary Yang Yang, Financial Director Yang Yang, Office Director Yang Yang, Receptionist Yang Yang, and Sanitation Cleaner Yang Yang.

Ding Xiaole occasionally came over to help him. For example, if Yang Yang’s parents’ workplace distributed some food, and they couldn’t eat it, they asked Yang Yang to take it away. At this time, Ding Xiaole would appear in the pile of food in time. Before, help Yang Yang eliminate them. Ding Xiaole is Yang Yang's current girlfriend and a senior student in the acting department of the Film Academy.

In order to develop the company and strive to be listed on Nasdaq by the end of the 21st century, Yang Yang recruited Qiu Fei, Ma Jie and Zhang Chaofan to the company to help, without having to work, of course. , and no wages are paid. Once the work is done and the money is earned, it will be distributed proportionally. Normally everyone does their own thing.

Qiu Fei and others are very satisfied with this, because even if they don't earn a penny, they don't pay too much, and they can still have a place to drink. Every time there is a regular meeting, Yang Yang is the host, buying a bunch of food and having fun while eating. Sometimes he gets so happy that he even calls the supermarket downstairs to send some beer.

The reason why these people can get together is because they are all passionate and ambitious, but at the same time they are all ignorant, and no one will laugh at or discriminate against anyone. Although they knew nothing, it was because of this that they dared to take on any job. The most common thing they said at that time was: No problem!

As long as the price is less than 10 million, they dare to accept it. Because they firmly believe that people who come to talk to you about jobs worth more than 10 million yuan are usually not reliable. Even if there are reliable people, jobs worth so much money will not be found on them.

No matter which company has the need for film and television shooting, even if it is to shoot a wedding, they will contact each other by text message - it is too expensive to call the mobile phone, so they will make an appointment to meet downstairs at that company, and after the meeting, they will discuss a plan. idea, and then call friends and relatives to ask how much it will cost to realize the idea. After getting the average market price, first analyze whether the boss of the company is literate. If not, multiply the average price by two. If you are not sure , just multiply by 0.8, and if you are still unsure, multiply by 0.5. After reaching a consensus, go upstairs to negotiate. In the elevator, you need to consolidate it a little more to avoid forgetting any details of the quotation, or fearing that the price is too high and will scare the other party away. Of course, the most important thing is that when discussing in the elevator, you must check if there is anyone there, in case that person is the boss of the company, and they have never encountered such things. Once in the elevator, they said to someone in front of him: "This kind of stupid boss will never lie to you if he doesn't lie.

"And began to imagine a better life after making money. As a result, when they got off the elevator, this man entered the company they were going to and entered the general manager's room. He also invited them to come in and sit down. At that time, they looked at each other stupidly. The understanding of the words suddenly deepened.

The original intention of the four of them getting together that night was to talk about something serious. Yang Yang took a job and shot a set of mobile phone short videos, one for five minutes and one for each. **Ten, each worth 10,000 yuan. Yang Yang calculated that if the script did not have many scenes and characters, he could shoot two in one day. The actors would be recruited from acting students in various art schools, and the rest would be done. It was just the four of them, and the cost per episode was controlled within 2,000 yuan, and they could earn 80,000 yuan in less than a week. Yang Yang felt that this was a feasible job, and after listening to his analysis, the other three also said, It’s really a good job!

So everyone started talking about filming, and Ma Jie said that this industry has become very developed in Japan, and has formed a one-stop production and sales process, and has created many stars. There is even a special porn film festival, with awards for best actor, actress and supporting actor, as well as awards for best director, screenwriter, photography and recording. With the deepening of reform and opening up, this cultural industry will sooner or later take root in China. , and the online short film does not need to be censored by the State Administration of Radio, Film and Television, so we don’t have to worry about the possibility of failure. At this point, Ma Jie rubbed his hands and said with a smile: "Don’t look for acting majors for the male lead, we are not based on the money we can spend. Isn’t it the principle of not spending money? When the time comes, I will act. I will wear a mask and no one will be able to recognize me on the street after the filming. "

Qiu Fei said: "Go away, what else do you know besides pornographic films! "

Ma Jie's physical age is twenty-nine, but his mental age has always been nineteen, and his words are never on point.

Zhang Chaofan said: "If you want to shoot, just shoot. A movie with some depth, we are all adults. ”

Ma Jie said: “It is precisely because I have grown up that I have to make films for adults. Porn films can still be made with depth and touching people. Moreover, I am starting from the market and can Take artistry into consideration.

Yang Yang said: "Shut up, don't talk about pornographic films again." ”

Ma Jie has suggested making porn films in many previous planning meetings. He has changed from a viewer to a practitioner committed to its development. Ma Jie said that he is not actually a He is lustful, but he has indeed discovered the huge business opportunities in this. When he was a teenager, he spent a lot of money in this area. It is best for teenagers to make money. If you don't make money, it will be useless.

Qiu Fei said. : “Don’t forget that you live in a socialist country. ”

Ma Jie said: “Socialist teenagers also have development needs! "

Qiu Fei said: "I won't talk nonsense to you. People like you deserve to be born in Japan. ”

Ma Jie said: “If it doesn’t work, forget it, just think of me as an inducement!” "

Qiu Fei said: "What you are throwing is not a brick, it is just fucking shit! ”

Proposed a plan, overturned it, proposed it again, overturned it again, and after several discussions, finally reached a consensus: making campus short films is not only easy to shoot, but also can attract an audience. All the films can be downloaded from the Internet. If they are students, then take pictures of their lives and show them specially. The more important point is that Qiu Fei and others are familiar with the school life.

Then they continued to chat about this plan. As they chatted, it was six years since they graduated from college, and the four of them sighed at the same time: "It has been six years, and I am not an engineer yet. I am not a senior engineer yet." "After graduating from graduate school, his tutor introduced Zhang Chaofan to a job in a unit directly under the Ministry of Aeronautics and Astronautics, which was still a state-owned enterprise. This time Zhang Chaofan did not refuse. He said that he was still holding on to the iron rice bowl and was solid. As a state-owned enterprise, as long as the country is here, The company is there, and as long as the company is there, he will have food to eat. Every year after the beginning of autumn, his work unit begins to issue long johns. He deeply feels the warmth of state-owned enterprises. During his work, Zhang Chaofan participated in the research and development of a certain component of the Shenqi rocket in China. He has contributed a lot to the development of the aerospace industry. Although he was not old enough to shake hands when the leaders went to the base to express their condolences, when the Shenzhou 10 goes to heaven, he will probably be able to see Zhang Chaofan shaking hands with the leaders on TV.

Ma Jie said: "Some of our classmates have become fathers. My father is as rich as I am now, but I have no children, not even anyone to give me children."

After graduation, Ma Jie still maintained his true nature as a fool. He had to go his own way. It was common sense not to have a wife. Having a wife was not normal, unless that woman was not normal either. When he was in school, there were six people in a dormitory. Zhang Chaofan bought a pair of Brazilian tortoises and kept them in the dormitory. A few days later, Ma Jie bought and robbed them at the morning market, got two pairs back for the price of one pair, and happily went out to the dormitory. Someone showed off: "Now there are six bastards in our dormitory!" After graduation, Ma Jie went on several blind dates, but after each date, the girl didn't even give him her phone number. Once, a girl met him for the first time and asked him what his hobbies were. He immediately said: "I love watching pornographic films!" After hearing this, the girl said, "You are quite sincere." Ma Jie said, then please leave me a phone number so that you can experience my more sincere side in the future. The girl wrote a phone call to Ma Jie and left on the pretext that something happened. The next day, Ma Jie called the girl and asked her to come out to talk. However, the number she called was not available, and she lost contact with her from then on. Afterwards, Ma Jie said, I am not sad at all, this girl is not sincere anyway.

3. Yang Yang said: "It's already twelve o'clock now, the supermarket downstairs is closed, and I can't order any more beer." After speaking, he sighed again. When he is happy, Yang Yang will drink; when he is bored, he will drink too. The more wine you drink, the happier you will be and make the depressed people no longer depressed. However, after you wake up, the happy people will still be happy, but the depressed people will become more depressed. Yang Yang thought about his past, present and future, and felt nothing. He poured the last bottle of beer into the cup and said, "If anyone wants to drink more after drinking this bottle, there is still a bottle of cooking wine in the kitchen."

Ma Jie asked Qiu Fei: "Why do you sigh?"

Qiu Fei said: "No reason, drinking makes my chest tight, and sighing feels good." In fact, he thought of Zhou Fei. Boat. If there is anything in college that left Qiu Fei with the deepest memory, it was Zhou Zhou. Zhou Zhou is a witness to his youth, his growth, his youth and frivolity, and his fragility. The past was like a movie, flashing before Qiu Fei's eyes scene by scene.

In the summer of 1995, a thin boy walked out of the high school entrance examination room. His name was Qiu Fei. He was smiling and in a happy mood because there was a big question he had seen in a tutorial book and he got a score of more than ten points. Soon after, the scores came out and he was two points above the high school admission score, so he entered high school. Some of his junior high school classmates went to technical secondary schools, some went to vocational high schools, and some went to technical schools. From then on, they started different life journeys.

When he arrived in high school, Qiu Fei had not fallen in love with any girl yet. He didn’t know what liking meant yet. He just had a slight affection for the pretty girls in the class and laughed and played with them. His interest is playing football, and his favorite thing is physical education. He doesn't know what the future is, he doesn't know what life is, he just knows that he is happy to spend every day playing football, comics, and slapstick. He occasionally feels unhappy because the teachers and parents are too strict and have to pay attention every day. Homework, you have to go home after school.

In the summer of 1998, Qiu Fei’s college entrance examination ended. The moment he got the admission notice, he was full of longing for the university. He started living on campus and felt that his life was much freer. One day, Qiu Fei heard a rock tape and felt it was very powerful, and he fell in love with it from then on. Another day, Qiu Fei had nothing to do and read books in the library. He discovered a new world in the books. So he started reading books, listening to rock music, and thinking about life. He felt that he had grown up. He doesn't like growing up because once he grows up, he becomes less happy. While thinking about the meaning of life, Qiu Fei became more and more confused. He found that his happy childhood and youth were gone forever, and he had become a young man.

As a young man, Qiu Fei started drinking, and he often drank with his classmates until the restaurant closed. No matter how much I drank at that time, I would not feel uncomfortable the next day, and I could still get up and play football, play cards, and squander my youth.

Suddenly one day, Qiu Fei felt that he should find a girlfriend. Not long after, a girl named Zhou Zhou became his girlfriend. Four years seems to be a long time, but in retrospect it is so short.

In the blink of an eye, he and Zhou Zhou graduated and broke up, but they still missed each other. He realized a truth: Don't hold hands casually when nothing happens, and don't let go casually when something goes wrong.

In the summer of 2008, Qiu Fei was no longer the skinny boy. He rarely plays football anymore. When he sees teenagers on the court, he thinks of his boyhood and misses it very much. Now, he knows what the future is. His present is the future of 1995. But now, he doesn't know where the future is.

Now Qiu Fei rarely reads books or listens to rock music. He feels that he is an adult and no longer needs to look for answers to life from others. Life has no answers. He would occasionally drink late at night, but he began to feel uncomfortable the next day. He felt that there was not much youth left to squander.

He has reached the age of marriage, but he is not ready for marriage yet, and he does not know who he will marry yet.

He wanted to get news about Zhou Zhou.

There is a row of beer bottles on the floor, which has extended to the wall. The table is covered with bottle caps, and there are more cigarette butts than peanuts in the lunch box.

Yang Yang said: "We haven't been drunk for a long time." After graduation, there are not many things worth getting drunk.

Zhang Chaofan looked at his watch and said: "I have to go back."

Qiu Fei said: "Why are you anxious? Anyway, you won't go to work tomorrow or Saturday. It will be a delay." You can’t contribute to the construction of the motherland’s aviation industry.”

Zhang Chaofan said: “I can’t hold on anymore. I have never stayed up so late in my senior year of high school.”

Yang Yang. He said, "If you sit here for a while, if I can't keep an eye on you anymore, go sleep in my room." The office Yang Yang rented has two rooms and one living room. The living room is used for working, one room is reserved for sleeping, and the other room is said to be used as a warehouse. , which will be used specifically to put money in the future.

Zhang Chaofan said: "That's where you and Ding Xiaole sleep. I won't sleep." Zhang Chaofan was still a little embarrassed to lie on the bed where the woman had slept.

Qiu Fei said: "Zhang Chaofan still has this problem. It turned out that Zhou Zhou lay on the bed in my dormitory, and he didn't even sit down. Once I asked him a question, he squatted and told me Ten minutes."

Yang Yang suddenly said: "I saw Zhou Zhou that day!"

The scene suddenly became quiet. The people present looked at Yang Yang first, and then Everyone focused on Qiu Fei again.

Qiu Fei did not raise his head, took a sip of wine and said: "I often see a woman who looks like Zhou Zhou on the street, either with a similar hairstyle, a similar body, a similar back image, or a similar walk. I ran to her every time to watch, and every time I watched it, I was very disappointed, not only because she was not Zhou Zhou, but she was also much uglier than Zhou Zhou."

Yang Yang said: "I definitely don't. I misunderstood, there was a man beside her, and I even talked to her." After that, I poured the last bit of wine in the bottle into the glass, raised the glass and drank again.

Ma Jie grabbed Yang Yang’s wine glass and said, “You’ve drunk too much, stop drinking!”

Qiu Fei stopped Ma Jie: “Don’t grab his wine, let’s He finished his words."

"I lied to you that I was my grandson!" Yang Yang said after drinking the wine in the glass.

Ma Jie said: "That won't work, you have to make it clear, you lied to us, you are our grandson."

"Yes, if I want to lie to you, you all It's my grandpa." Yang Yang picked up the cup and wanted to drink again, but found that the cup was empty. "Is there any more wine? Pour me some more." Qiu Fei poured the wine in his cup. Yang Yang.

Ma Jie said: "I still have half a cup, not enough to give you mine."

Zhang Chaofan also regained his energy and stopped quarreling to sleep.

The three of them looked at Yang Yang intently.

Yang Yang regarded the Zhongnanhai cigarette box as a gavel, patted the table and said, "Say...Say...Say..." He was stuck and didn't know what to say.

Ma Jie became impatient, "Don't just keep talking, talk instead!"

Yang Yang patted Zhongnanhai again and said, "By the way, last time Ding Xiaole and I went to Pizza Hut Eating pizza, just when I was about to put a piece of salmon pizza into my mouth to chew, I looked up and found a young and beautiful woman not far away diagonally opposite looking at me..."

Ma Jie He interrupted Yang Yang and said: "You are not honest when you take Ding Xiaole to eat with you, your eyes are wandering."

"Don't interrupt, let Yang Yang continue." Qiu Fei said.

Yang Yang said: "Since the woman looked at me, I looked at her a few more times and found that she looked very familiar, so I turned on the memory search function, and suddenly it dawned on me, isn't this Zhou Zhou!"

Ma Jie said: "What's wrong with Zhou Zhou? He's half a person in our dormitory. If it were me, I would recognize him at a glance."

Yang Yang Said: "The problem is that I didn't expect to see her there, and the man next to her seriously interfered with my thinking. If Zhou Zhou was eating there alone, I would immediately remember it."

Ma Jie glanced at Qiu Fei.

Qiu Fei said: "What did you two say later?"

Yang Yang said: "After I recognized her, I didn't dare to confirm it. When I was hesitating, she came over on her own initiative. After saying hello to me, I had no choice but to put down the pizza I was about to put in my mouth."

Zhou Zhou walked to Yang Yang's table, and Yang Yang also stood up. Zhou Zhou said, what a coincidence! Yang Yang said, yes, why are you here? When did you return to China? Zhou Zhou smiled lightly and said, I never left.