What is the background story of the song Next Life?

Seek and disappear in silence

Always can't find memories, can't find the truth that has been forgotten.

Your life has passed, and you abandoned it bit by bit.

Pain, pain, sadness, heart hate, pain, losing you

Maybe it's not easy to separate, maybe it's impossible to fall in love.

Pain, pain, sadness, inner hatred of losing yourself.

You and I both know that we should cherish it if we are not proud.

We have to wait in the afterlife before we can embark on the beginning of each other's stories.

In endless dreams.

Occasionally turn over the diary, turn over the story between you and me.

Memories again and again are meaningless.

That spring was a beautiful March day on earth.

It is the most beautiful season in this ancient city of Jiangnan. The grass grows, the warblers fly, the bridges flow, the red and white peach blossoms, the green willows, the deep long lanes and the silent white walls and black tiles form a fresh and smooth ink painting. He is a beauty editor of an advertising company, advocating a willful and unrestrained life. On a sunny night, he came to his sister's house and met her in her yard. She is the Chinese teacher of his sister's children, and she is here for a home visit. On that day, she wore a light blue dress and her sparkling eyes sparkled. She is not beautiful, but as plain as a fresh lily, as elegant as a faint fragrance in the forest, and her watery temperament reveals a little graceful classical beauty.

He chatted with her extensively, and in the quiet and elegant evening, the air was filled with thick and faint flowers. ...

"My name is Sparse Shadow, Sparse Shadow," she said softly, her voice flowing like water, as beautiful as the midnight drizzle in the ancient city.

"Thin shadow, what a beautiful name. I remember a sentence in the speech: in the thin shadow of apricot flowers, play the flute until dawn. " He seems to be intoxicated with the dream of a quiet place.

That night, he sent the film back to school. On the roadside, he picked a big bunch of peach blossoms and gave them to her. He held up his face with a peach blossom film. Colorful lights made her look so miserable, her long hair danced in the wind and her eyes were pure as water. "Xiupinglian smiled and her eyes were guessed." On the one hand, it is charming, on the other hand, it is charming and hateful to send you. "She is like a dreamy angel, which reminds him of the immortal and fragrant lyrics: playing the flute until dawn in the thin shadow of apricot flowers. ...

The breeze with sleeves full in March can't blow the brilliant red of the branches, and the misty rain in March can't wet the heat in the depths of the soul. Love is so beautiful. In the green mountains and green waters, they gently swing the boat, and the clear waves of the paddles reflect their smiling faces; White clouds fluttered, shoulders swept across the grassland, and two identical paper kites danced lightly overhead; On a beautiful day in Zhan Yan, they walked hand in hand under the green canopy. Flying flowers fell on their hair and clothes, and they smiled at each other.

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He is brilliant and extraordinary ... his Excellence is obvious, and it is his dream for many years to own his own advertising company. With the support of Shuying, he traveled to many local departments and raised money from relatives and friends everywhere. Many things happen, and a small advertising company was born with their efforts. He got up early and was greedy for the dark, and lost several times. Shuying, who attends classes at school during the day and helps with the affairs of advertising companies at night, is also increasingly haggard. However, the operation of the company is not satisfactory. For a long time, the advertising company's business was deserted, and its income often exceeded its income. Seeing his efforts and sweat go up in smoke, he was disheartened and depressed to the extreme. Every night, he soaked in wine and came back as drunk as a fiddler. It's no use trying to persuade Shu Ying again and again. So there was an endless quarrel between them, and his temper became very bad. A few times, he almost took pictures.

Finally, one day, Shuying calmly said to him, "I've been thinking about it for a long time. Let's break up."

"What are you talking about?" He was impatient and didn't catch what Shuying was saying at all.

"Listen to me," Shu Ying held his arm tightly so that he could see her eyes clearly.

"I think we should break up," Shu Ying tried to repeat what she had just said.

"What? Are you kidding? " His voice began to tremble.

Thin film feebly shook his head, and then nodded, "I hope you understand that although I love you, I am very tired, you know? Life is too realistic. We can't have nothing but love. There are many things that are more important than love, and you can't give them to me. I can't wait for hope in poverty and fantasy forever. " Tears rolled down my pale cheeks.

"Stop it," he shouted hysterically, pounding the door with his hands, his voice as cold as ice. "You go!" The thick cold air around hit the pulse of Shuying directly. Although it was midsummer, she was almost choked with cold. She quietly packed her things.

The thin shadow faded away with the slender back of the suitcase, and it was as thin as red flying over the swing. He woke up from a dream and rushed to hold thin shadow's hand. "Shadow, don't leave me, just give me one last chance, okay?"

Looking at his pleading appearance, Shuying's heart was free, and tears fell in her clear eyes. "I've given you many opportunities. Let me go." Shuying shook his hand and turned away from his sight.

He has been standing at the gate of the film school, and his heart is frozen. He was afraid of the ending. What's the point of life without its favorite film? He dare not imagine. The weather in summer is like a doll's face. It changed as it said, and soon it began to rain cats and dogs, which made his hair and body wet. He still stood motionless, like a calm and lonely statue. Leaning against the glass window of the dormitory, Shuying watched him stand in the wind and rain for a long time, his heart ached, and tears burst out like a raging river. She closed her eyes and bit her lips hard. The chapped lips were bitten with deep red blood, like a thin red flower trembling in the west wind. For two whole days, he stood at the school gate every day, and the children and school teachers stared at him like monsters. On the third day, Shu Ying finally came to see him. At the same time, he saw a strange man with thin shoulders. The man is tall and handsome, his eyes are dark as night and bright as stars, like two bottomless lakes.

"Face it, his name is Jiang Feng, and he is my boyfriend now. We are very happy together. He can give me everything I need, can you? " Shu Ying took Jiang Feng's arm and said sadly, "I'm just a mortal, and I can't live with you all my life. Please forgive me!" I know you are very kind to me, and you must want me to be happy. You can't bear to see me suffer, can you? Forget me! I'm not the girl who can accompany you all my life. I cannot be your angel. Maybe you will be sad, but believe me, everything will pass. You will find your true love. "The cold and despair reflected in her pupil pierced his insides like a sword.

"What can Shu Ying get from you?" The man named Jiang Feng stared at him and raised his voice and said, "If you really want to be happy, leave her and stay away from her!"

Commitment turned into smoke, and love turned into a cloud. In an instant, his heaven and earth turned into countless cracks, and every crack was painful. It turns out that the furthest distance in the world is not the ends of the earth, but the distance between hearts. Now that her heart has left him, everything she says and does is in vain, and he is completely desperate. He gave Shuying a heavy look and left. He walked without hesitation with all his eyes on his back. He wants to leave her life forever. He hated her, and she stabbed him in the heart like an executioner, leaving only a painful pain.

Without love, he chose to escape and went to the seaside city in the south alone, which everyone said was beautiful. With outstanding talent and good conversation, he joined a large foreign company as a graphic design engineer. He works hard and devotes almost all his time and energy to his work. In just over a year, he was promoted to department manager. In the eyes of outsiders, promotion and salary increase can be described as a spring breeze, icing on the cake, but who knows the pain hidden in his heart that will never be erased. Times have changed. Does he still hate films? Of course he knows. He even hates this ancient city. For five years, he stubbornly refused to contact anyone in the ancient city. But what is more clear in his heart is that he still loves her. When he wakes up in the middle of the night, he will still think of the film, the beautiful night when they met, the way she smiled in his arms, and the glittering tears on her face when she left him ... When he missed her, his hands hugged his head madly, but he couldn't restrain and get rid of his thoughts of her. Although he kept telling himself to forget the film because she didn't deserve his love, he failed every time. Today is different from the past. He is no longer that arrogant and reckless teenager. He has wealth and status. He often thought that if all the past was his, Shuying would never leave him. What a vain woman! Although he was surrounded by many charming women, he never gave up.

Because of business, he will go back to the ancient city. "Stand by the bar, just unintentionally!" Where are people? Even it's getting dark, and the way home is broken. "Looking at the familiar mountains, rivers, grasses and trees, he seems to be isolated from the world, and endless sadness and melancholy bury him like the tide. Although he returned to his hometown in fine clothes and scenery, there was no hatred, but his sister still resented him for leaving without saying goodbye five years ago. When he intentionally or unintentionally asked about his sister's photo, she not only avoided talking about it, but also burst into tears, and an ominous feeling suddenly haunted her.

He didn't have time to unload the dust and hurried to school to take pictures. He didn't find the film. "See the film?" He was worried and asked her colleagues and children at school. They either shook their heads or cried and didn't talk. Finally, he really met him-five years ago, his eyes were "black as night and bright as stars", the man named Jiang Feng. It turns out that Jiang Feng is also a school teacher, which surprised him.

"Two years ago, Shu Ying died, and she left with your hatred for her." Jiang Feng took a deep breath, her voice trembled, and she could not hide the sad look on her face.

"Thin film is dead, how is that possible? He didn't believe Jiang Feng at all. He grabbed Jiang Feng by the collar angrily and dragged him back excitedly. " Why did you lie to me? What you said is not true, is it? "

"Listen carefully, everything I say is true." Jiang Feng raised his hands and shouted at him loudly. "Shu-ying doesn't really want to leave you, but she finds out that she has cancer, and you are disheartened by the advertising company. She doesn't want to make things worse and she doesn't want to be a burden to you. More importantly, she doesn't want you to break your heart for her and never recover from it. She hopes that you will get ahead in the future and have a warm and happy home. She said that she knew you and you would succeed, so she made a painful decision. She looked for me many times, and I didn't know that my conscience promised to play a scene with her, because I also love taking pictures, and I love it deeply. I will do whatever she wants me to do. I didn't expect you to take it for granted and leave quietly. It's hard and heartbreaking for her to cheat you, you know? . Knowing that her life was running out, she insisted on giving lessons to her children. Every time she attends class, the children can't help crying. I regretted lying to you at that time. Although it is a kind deception, it is too cruel for Shu Ying. I know she loves you. I can't watch her being misunderstood by the people she loves. I looked for you like crazy, made a newspaper and went on TV, but you disappeared like air. Two years ago in the summer, there was a heavy rain. A classmate was sent home by film because his mother worked overtime. On the way, when I met the traffic peak, I pushed my classmates away, but I was buried under the wheel. Because of excessive blood loss, I was out of breath when I was sent to the hospital. " Jiang Feng choked up. "I really don't understand how God can play tricks on people. Why do girls with such good films always fall on their heads one after another?

"After she left, when we were packing her things, we found these letters, all addressed to you." Jiang Feng gave him a big stack of letters, and the recipient of each letter wrote his own name, and none of them were sent. In an instant, his whole person and heart seemed to be torn apart, and great pain spread from his eyes to his brain, heart, limbs and bone marrow. He casually opened one of them. The writing paper is light blue, which is his and her favorite color. There are familiar scents and handwriting on the stationery;

"... I find myself getting weaker and weaker. I don't know if I can survive this autumn. My hair fell out when I was receiving chemotherapy in the hospital a few days ago. I'm so scared, not afraid to leave this world, but afraid that I won't even have a chance to see you for the last time in my lifetime. Don't! Don't! ! I don't want this ending. I know you still hate me, hate that I betrayed you and left you mercilessly. Forgive me! Forgive me! ! You have to forgive me, or I won't feel at ease when I die. I hate myself, too. I hate having this disease. If I don't have this disease, I will always be by your side, even if you want to kick me out. I once said that I will always be with you, but I'm afraid it won't come true. I once said that I would be your angel, but now it can only be regarded as a beautiful memory. I miss you so much, I miss the sentence you read to me: in the thin shadow of apricot flowers, I play the flute until dawn. I miss your tenderness and affection when you stare at me. I miss the warm and quiet moment when you gently held me in your arms ... I miss everything about you. Why are you so kind to me that I can't bear to leave? Why did God let us know each other and ruthlessly separate us? I really want you to stay with me at the last moment of my life and watch me close my eyes with satisfaction.

Tears in your eyes, looking down at the water, where are you? I'm used to writing to you in the dead of night, although I don't know where you are or where to send it ... I hope we can be predestined friends in the next life, because I hope we can be together in the next life. "

Every word in the letter made him feel pain and heartbreak. The man didn't cry, but he couldn't help crying until he got to the sad place. Tears of heartbreak wet the words on the letter, and his heart was bleeding. He was afraid to read on. He wanted to tell her how much he loved her, how much he needed her and how much he missed her … but it was too late.

"The bustling heart in the world is also drunk, flying ash for love. Waiting for infatuation all day, my lover has been torn. Fireworks are gone forever, tears are like laughter. " Later, instead of going back to the south, he stayed in this ancient city. He used all his funds to start a Hope Primary School and a nursing home. Both schools and nursing homes have a nice name-Shuying. Being single, he has become the most respected and beloved teacher for children and the most intimate dean for the elderly.

If there is an afterlife, he thinks they will still be together.