Spanish women have been pretending to be blind for 28 years because they don't want to say hello. Do you have social phobia?

I never knew what introversion was before my sophomore year. I never thought that one day I would be afraid to communicate with others.

I used to take an active part in various school activities, and I like making friends. I am optimistic and cheerful. I never seem to worry that the atmosphere will be awkward when I stay with people I don't know, because I can always mobilize the atmosphere quickly and there will be no ice.

In the third year of high school, the study pressure was a bit heavy, especially in the second semester. Every day, everyone is constantly doing exercises and learning, and time is tight. Apart from the necessary topic discussion, everyone will hardly say another digression, not only in class, but also in the dormitory. Sometimes I occasionally tell some jokes to liven myself up. At first, they will talk about them, then they just laugh, and then they don't seem to hear me at all. How will they react? Another time, a fellow student was angry with me and asked me if I could not disturb their study. I didn't want to take the college entrance examination, so don't drag others into it. I was at a loss at that time. Unexpectedly, in their view, I didn't want everyone to be too depressed and enliven the atmosphere a little, so they said I had ulterior motives. At that time, I thought my best friend even said I could fool around all day. She said, how can I have a friend like you? ......

Later, I almost stopped talking. Every day in the classroom and dormitory, I do my homework carefully and occasionally go to the library. So I live a tepid high school life. Slowly, I found that I didn't want to talk more and more. I was afraid of disturbing others before, but I didn't want to talk about it later. Many former friends asked me out to play, but I refused on the grounds of preparing for the college entrance examination. At that time, I thought that I was only influenced by the pressure of the college entrance examination and would return to normal in the future. After the college entrance examination, I found that I was no longer the person who could talk to anyone before. It seems that I suddenly become lazy and don't want to talk until I have to.

If someone comes to my house, I will stay in my room alone. My dad said I was rude and didn't know how to entertain guests at home, but I really didn't want to smile at a group of unfamiliar people. I'm really sorry to disappoint my dad. I will treat you warmly, except those who are very close and like you, and nothing else is allowed.

When I go to college, I am even more reluctant to contact others. So apart from being familiar with the people in the dormitory, others are not familiar with each other and have not joined any clubs. Once I went out for a part-time job, the boss asked us to publicize their things with a trumpet and let me go. I really can't speak. Finally, I had to ask my friends who went with me to tell the boss that my throat was inflamed and I couldn't make a sound. The boss said that I was too introverted, and I would definitely not find a job after graduation, so people would not want me.

I remember another time when a relative got married and my father asked me to accompany him to the wedding. I don't want to go. My father kept talking in my ear. Finally, I couldn't stand it. I agreed to let him wait for me downstairs. I got dressed and went down. When I went down, my father had already left, and I didn't answer his phone. The wedding venue is close to our home. After more than ten minutes, I passed, but I still didn't answer the phone to my father. Unexpectedly, just because I didn't go to the wedding, my father and mother had a big fight. My mother means that I am so old, I don't have to be forced if I don't want to, while my father means that I am so old that I don't understand the world at all. That's ridiculous. I really don't want them to have conflicts because of me. I sent a dynamic "too introverted, what should I do?" The following are all about taking part in social activities, exercising more, and making more friends ... None of them say there is nothing wrong with it. Introversion is also an advantage.

Later, I figured it out, and I was fine. At least I'm satisfied with my present situation. Besides attending classes, I usually go back to the library to read books, go out to take photos, occasionally go out to eat with my roommates and play ball in the playground. Every holiday, I will go out to other cities for a few days, go alone and take care of everything by myself. I found some suitable part-time jobs online, such as painting, writing jokes and recording. I go out to take photos almost every day, and then come back to sit in front of the computer and retouch pictures. Occasionally, I take some pictures of my classmates, all of which are free, and sometimes I retouch pictures of my classmates and friends. If I have a favorite movie, I will buy a ticket to go to the cinema alone. After reading it, I will write a review, keep a diary every day, practice calligraphy and do what I like.

I want to tell all my friends with social phobia that it doesn't matter, just be yourself.