A mood log that shuttles between the countryside and the town.

In 20 17, when I was wandering on the widest highway subgrade in my hometown, although it was not built, great events happened to me one after another.

One of the most important things. The first time I drove, I held the steering wheel tightly and watched the broken pickup truck of that radio station tilt into the ditch. Hadron on the co-pilot roared: open! Open it! You drive forward! Straight man! Are you lame?

I still suffocated the car without hesitation. For several years, when it comes to driving, Hadron laughs his pants, and my face is usually stiff. I only got my driver's license the year before last, and I haven't touched a car before.

The second big thing. As a member of the township road construction headquarters, which is directing road construction in full swing, unfortunately, I happened to be inspected by the township organization in rural Shanghai. I've been stuck in the backcountry for years, and my ass hasn't moved. Who doesn't want to go out? Just change the scenery in my eyes, the air in my nose and the sound in my ears. DangZhengBan also asked my advice, but because I believed the hint of deputy head Xing of the headquarters, I thought I had a better chance to go out. The result woke me up: if there is a good thing, we must not delay it. After this village, there is no such shop. When the rural veteran cadres shuttled between the high-rise buildings in Shanghai, Lao Yao and I had to be fascinated by divination. Lao Yao is the deputy commander of the road construction headquarters. God forbid, as soon as the tourists left, it rained, and it rained for a while. After lunch, Lao Yao and I were very relaxed. Besides looking for beautiful girls to get haircuts everywhere, we also went to guo jia cun to have a divination with Guo Shenxian. In the smoke, Lao Guo shook his head and knocked on the greasy short-legged square table, answering me: Peach Blossoms are unlucky. He took another breath, pointed to a picture in the hexagram book and said, You still have two families? I smiled and said: according to old books? Now it's all monogamy ... Shanghai, the top city in my heart, didn't go until the World Expo, so I forgot my wish. Great things have lessons: it is better to do good things early than late.

The third big thing. I paid a deposit for the second suite. At that time, I really didn't want to buy a second suite, just wanted to change rooms. Finally, the first suite hesitated to sell or not, and the delivery date of the second suite was delayed again and again, and some money was borrowed (at that time, you can borrow money to buy a house), forming a good situation of holding the second suite. Sweet misunderstanding. I still can't forget the scene of paying 80 thousand sincere money, and I can't forget the embarrassment of crossing 10 km fog from the village and squeezing into the county sales office repeatedly without paying money. 80 thousand, come on ... Geely's figures are piled up by countless successful cases. Who knows when the house price rose sharply.

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What's the big deal? The wife is dead.

People in their thirties, who have encountered such a thing ... being cheated ... crying, regretting, making trouble ... It's not normal anyway. What should I do if it's not normal? I regret it because my wife wanted to have a reunion dinner in a small restaurant before leaving and asked for hot and sour potato chips. I didn't agree, and I was impatient: Do you have money? We'll talk when we get back. Died on the battlefield. Her unit organizes business trips and goes to the nearby river to play in her spare time. I don't know when the floodgate was opened and the water was washed away. Now I know this is an out-and-out safety accident. At that time, there was really no concept, which fooled her manager Zhang Pang. Damn it! ? Lao Guo's prophecy came true. I'm too young to be single.

I don't know how to face my eight-year-old daughter Xing Xing. I'm afraid she'll leave psychological problems. When I got off the bus, I hugged my daughter waiting at the door and said, ... I didn't say that. My daughter hugged me hard, patted me on the back, and touched my face for a long time. She didn't say anything or cry.

I am very fragile. I left the county with my mother and daughter and went back to my hometown to live. I can't sleep for a long time. Big brother is with me. The two brothers sat together in a high-backed mahogany chair in the 1970s, silent. Adobe houses are low, dark and easy-going. The chicken in the pigsty sang a song with a long throat and was silent for a long time. Rabbits are running around in the cage. I often feel the chains of black painted doors clang. Rabbits have red eyes, like mice. No, Nuqi's mouth was shaking. It suddenly disappeared on the west and east walls.

Sister-in-law is important and gave me a lot of ideas. She rented a car and took me to Nanshan to find the goddess. The goddess asked in a heavy voice: Can you fall in love freely? I bowed my head and said, no, someone introduced me. Goddess impatient: OK! It's over! Dead! Dead! Just let me stand at attention and hit my back and legs with my powerful big hand, which made me bend for a long time. All right! She drank a large glass.

It is getting dark.

Back home, eldest sister-in-law opened the cork of the thermos bottle. I sat in a mahogany chair and kept drinking water. Water of the gods. After seven days, I feel really much better. It's amazing.

Back home in the county, my mother is busy. The room is dark. When sleeping at night, my mother arranged my daughter from her bed to mine. The star is very sensible, lying in her bed early and watching me wait for me. Poor little fellow, she only worried about me and forgot her own pain.

Xing and Lao Yao, deputy heads of townships, came and exclaimed as soon as they entered the room: It's so dark, is it in the house? After smoking for a while, Lao Yao looked up rudely and said, Go to work tomorrow, long time no see.

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I went to work with a serious and sad expression, sitting in front of the headquarters window in a daze, and a disheveled sparrow was singing on the branch. Lao Yao patted his back and said, Stand up! Everyone knows that something happened to you. Is it necessary to pull a long face I had to smile, but I scolded myself: son of a bitch, heartless. There is no reason to be angry with him. After so many days, the laughter really disappeared.

Lao Yao threw a test in Hongtashan: Look for it when you should, and don't delay it. He also said: the selection of people is important and the conditions are simple. I don't think so, but I think it's wrong: listen to you! Listen to you! Lao Yao was very satisfied and said: It is best not to get married. I set the goal given by Lao Yao in my heart.

On the other hand, the deputy head of Xing, who is tossing and turning accounts, raised eyebrows and coughed and said some opinions, mainly because he couldn't set the standard, and thought that economic conditions were the first, and it was true to live comfortably. I was deeply impressed and nodded unconsciously. Xing, the deputy head of the township, whispered: Sister-in-law's good friend, from the County Grain Bureau. After that, the situation was blurred, as if there was a daughter.

Lao Yao smoked straight, reaching out and putting the cigarette into the groove of the ashtray to stroke the ash.

Zhang Kunming, a good friend, a fat man, a confidant, a bald man, a junior high school teacher who doesn't teach in the central school and loves to roll his eyes, came and gasped for a while and said, I said, the past is over, ah, everything has come out, it's useless. See xing, deputy head of the town, take out a cellular phone from his pocket and go toward outside walk. He quickly said, Xing, come and sit at night, not for you, but for the Qi army! Look at Lao Yao again. Lao Yao said: Go, go! ?

I can't help it I soon got drunk directly, and the specific performance was nonsense. I want to make up for what I've been holding back for more than half a month. This will soon become an important feature of my drinking in this decade, similar to mental instability and sleepwalking. After that, I forgot a lot and realized what I should dream. To put it bluntly, drinking is like dreaming. It's a mess. I want to scold and cry. I have no psychological burden and no offense. Nowadays, friends are rarely contacted, including classmates, which is 90% related to the drunkenness that started the teasing mode.

Xing deputy heads looked at me in silence, and Lao Yao smiled at me. The round table rotates like a top. Zhang Kunming delivered a warm speech: Please speak to Township Head Xing! Deputy county magistrate Xing said: Let the swallow speak.

Swallow is a female colleague brought by Zhang Kunming. At that time, the face was unclear.

Buzzing. The walls of the room are narrow and wide, and the half-naked portrait hangs obliquely, to the left and to the right. Telephone Rinrin bell, Rinrin bell, near for a while, like me for a while, like the swallow for a while.

Swallow said; Brother Qi Jun was drunk and felt sick. I know it all too well. I began to cry in harmony. Xing, the deputy head of the township, patted his head and said: Swallow, at the critical moment, we have to say something positive; Qi Jun, today is such an occasion. You should also save face for the swallows. I keep silent, and the rest of the time is to drink water or drink with them. It was dark and the night was deep.