38 years old, starting from scratch

The title of an article I just saw is roughly "27 years old, starting from scratch"; Suddenly I wanted to write about my own feelings. Of course, I may be completely different from the experience of the protagonist in the article. I didn't change a city, I didn't give up my job, I didn't change my family structure, but for me, I started from scratch, and I zeroed my mind. I began to learn a lot of things that I always wanted to do but never did. To be exact, I began to challenge my age.

Before the age of 38, although I was not particularly miserable, I really had less positive energy, had serious procrastination, and had infinite yearning for beauty in my heart, but I never started to take action, especially when I was at school, I often fell into the idea of "I am so smart that I can start studying later", which made me squander a lot. This is really squandering, and I didn't even have a good time to play.

I am 38 years old this year. To be exact, I began to wake up last year, and it seems that I suddenly understood what kind of life I really want. But I spent some time wandering and hesitating. Because of my age, for example, I want to start learning English, I always think that I am almost 4 years old, and it is too late. If I am a few years younger, I will fight for it. For example, I want to start writing, and I will miss my age of almost 4. Last year, by chance, I came into contact with Dr. Luo Dalun's "Talk about the Tao Te Ching Daily". I listened to his one-year course with all my might and caught up with his daily progress. I found that I also began to change. What impressed me most was Dr. Luo's personal experience. He also changed from the age of 37, which gave me confidence in myself. Secretly determined to start from scratch, when I was a child, with nothing, I planned my life again and gave myself a chance to do it again. Besides, I still have the ability to solve the problem of food and clothing. My previous job-hopping plan was abandoned, and I wanted to completely change before I quit. My original work attitude, life attitude and education attitude towards children have all changed, and I want to reinvent myself. At the same time, I also found that although I didn't declare my change to my family,

I started with exercise. Before that, I was the kind of person who didn't want to move anyway, which made my running feel like killing me. It's no exaggeration to say that, so I adjusted my exercise mode, walked home from work every day, and slowly adjusted it to walk home from work. On the way, I insisted on listening to all kinds of classics, and I often asked my classmates and friends what books they listened to for recommendation. After one year, although I didn't lose weight, However, I obviously feel that my physical strength is much stronger than in the past. For example, I don't feel laborious when climbing the seventh floor. For example, when we climbed the mountain, we got to the top of the mountain without obvious difficulties. I was sweating and panting at the beginning, which made me feel the benefits of exercise. Now I walk briskly, I am no longer lazy on weekdays, and I have no fear of difficulties. So I started to get up early to cook breakfast for my family and change my ways. The whole family will eat well and eat well. Every day, starting with an energetic breakfast, I also unconsciously exercised my cooking skills. I learned to bake cakes, steam steamed buns, and splash noodles with oil ... This move is really significant. I liberated my mother, made her old man's house much easier, and gained the admiration of my children.

Let's talk about my gains from listening to books on my way to and from work every day. Before that, I made up for listening to the famous books and various novels that I have been wanting to read for more than 2 years. After listening to them for a while, I actually felt that I didn't make much progress, but only made up for some knowledge gaps. One day, I chatted with a classmate who loved reading since childhood. He recommended me to listen to Jiang Xun's A Dream of Red Mansions, which opened my eyes at once. At the end of "A Dream of Red Mansions", my classmates recommended me to listen to "A Dream of Red Mansions" explained by Ou Li-chuan. I have to say that it took me a lot of time to listen to these two big courses. So far, I haven't finished listening to "A Dream of Red Mansions" explained by Ou Li-chuan, but my gains are beyond my imagination, and my thoughts have begun to change. With the understanding of Chinese studies, I began to realize that I wanted to expose my children to Chinese studies. After reading some materials, I decided to expose her to the Tao Te Ching, so I also started to contact the Tao Te Ching. In the process of querying the version, I found Luo Dalun's "Tell me something about the Tao Te Ching every day" which was easy to understand and fruitful. I think this should be a turning point in my life, so I am completely determined to clear myself and start from scratch. .

The study of philosophical works will change people's thinking, and the change of thinking is the washing of one's mind. Although I haven't studied my major in the past two years, the indirectness and handling methods of my work problems are really different from the past, which is deeper and broader than the past. I can understand this myself, and the attitude of leading colleagues towards myself has changed quietly. This is a change brought about by my own changes, and I have achieved self-improvement in a subtle way.

Now the above has become a part of my life, and I don't stick to it for any purpose. Now I have set a new goal, joined a "9-day writing" WeChat group, and kept writing something every day. I started to try to write, and I have been doing it for 19 days today. I hope I can gain a habit of writing after 9 days. At the same time, I began to recite 1-2 words every day, hoping that it will become a part of my life after one year.

What I want to say now is that as long as I have the determination, it will not be too late. I am 38 years old this year, and I plan to learn English in five years. Five years later, when I was 43 years old, I learned a new skill, which brought me more possibilities and a broader development space. If I still hesitate for five years because of my age, it will only be worse than my present situation by the time I am 43 years old. Take time to witness your efforts, and let all persistence become randomness in your life.