Last night McKee

It was almost 1 1 when I was about to lie in bed and sleep, suddenly Lin Yi called.

I grabbed my cell phone and opened the door of the dormitory balcony. The cold wind blows on my face, and it's already winter. Touching the cold floor barefoot makes me shudder. I pressed the call button and said, "Wait a minute." Then I turned back to my room, put on my sweater and slippers, and sat on the balcony floor, leaning against the glass door.

I gasped and was silent for a while. Suddenly, Lin Yi said, "I know you are here. I am blowing my hair. "

"I heard it."

I can feel the fragrant shampoo in her hair, wrapped in cold wind, running down the phone and entering my nasal cavity.

"Are you lovelorn again?"

"I'm not lovelorn and I can't call you, not to mention I haven't been in love for long."

"It's so late, maybe you let me sleep?"

"Yes, are you coming?" Lin Yi's voice is a little hoarse, and the word "ah" pops up in the soft and waxy voice, not to mention how tempting it is.

"Come on."

Standing on the subway, I carefully recalled everything about Lin Yi and found that she had completely forgotten what she used to look like. As for the present situation, I haven't seen her for a long time.

Lin Yi is my deskmate in junior high school. Since sitting at the same table with me once, she has threatened me to give her the seat next to me every time she chooses a seat. Once after school, I complained to her that because of me, I never had a chance to fall in love with junior high school.

She said, "You can call me." I glanced at her and said, you are so dark that I can't see you when I turn off the lights. She wears thick glasses and suffers from night blindness, but her eyes are as smart as deer. I shot her in the head when she wasn't looking, and she chased me half a block. Finally, she shouted to me on the side of the road, "You just wait and see, I will become beautiful one day!" " "I walked away.

And I can think so much because I like you.

When I arrived at my destination, Lin Yi was taking a selfie in the street. She saw me in the camera, stepped back and pressed the shutter next to her. My dull face appeared in my mobile phone, and she looked at me blankly. Lin Yi has become very beautiful, just like the photos posted in her circle of friends, otherwise I might not recognize her.

"You are five minutes late."

"I was thinking about things in the subway and missed my stop."

Every time I ask Lin Yi out to play at school weekend, I always have to wait for her for at least half an hour. She always gives me cupcakes and stuff, and I'm sorry her mother won't let her out. It was stupid of me to laugh at her while eating the cake.

"How stupid." Lin Yi moved the bangs aside, and the wind messed up the sideburns.

"hmm."

Lin Yi and I both looked at each other in some surprise, as if our personalities had changed.

"My hands are always outside, so cold." Lin Yi said and put his hand into my pocket. It's always been like this, and it's good for everyone. It never refuses to be good, and it's intimate and not very intimate. I envy such a forest art, but I always feel uneasy.

Lin Yi didn't want to eat or go to the movies, so we had to take a walk in the park.

"Hey, are you in love?" Lin Yi looked down and asked me.

"No, I used to think about puppy love, but now I don't want to fall in love when I am old."

It's not that I don't like people. Even in the face of hints from people I like, I dare not confess. After knowing Lin Yi, I think all the hints are probably romantic. In other words, I am afraid of love and refuse to conclude a love; I am eager to be loved and loved, and I am tired of that kind of anxiety and anxiety. I heard a song saying that "contradictions are as wild as a swift horse", which probably refers to me.

Lin Yi suddenly said, "You don't have any features of Pisces."

"But you have everything."

We had a good chat when we first met, so Lin Yi was excited for a long time when she learned that we were both Pisces. Lin Yi is a typical Pisces, who loves fantasy, treats every love as vigorously as first love, regards lovelorn as the end of the world, and devotes herself to another relationship after a period of time.

Lin Yi hesitated for a moment, then said, "Why don't you ask me?"

I don't need to ask you, I know, you never lack love.

A few months before the college entrance examination, Lin Yi, an art student, suddenly came to see me while preparing for the exam. As soon as Lin Yi saw me, she jumped on me and hugged me. I didn't know where to put my hand, so I just looked at her. This is her way of expressing friendship, but I am a little embarrassed at a loss in the busy campus.

In fact, I haven't seen Lin Yi for a long time, but her changes have made me very uncomfortable, so I refused to have dinner with her at noon on the pretext of having classes in the afternoon. She seems a little unhappy. Finally, I couldn't bear it. I asked for leave in the afternoon to find Lin Yi.

Lin Yi was playing a game in an Internet cafe when it suddenly occurred to me that I took her to the Internet cafe. I played with Lin Yi for a while, and Lin Yi told me that she had just agreed to a boy's pursuit. Lin Yi's understatement may be that she regards love as a very common thing. I used to envy the ambiguity around Lin Yi, but when Lin Yi said this, I was relieved.

In the evening, I saw Lin Yi get on the bus and go home. She asked me to text her when I got home.

I didn't reply.

I chatted with Lin Yi, and the only sunshine disappeared. The wind is blowing from all directions, which makes me a little unable to see around.

I looked at Lin Yi. She hasn't worn glasses for a long time. The deer's eyes are still as clear as the bottom, but even so, I can't enter her heart. In fact, Lin Yi and I have nothing in common, but Lin Yi is the kind of person who feels comfortable sitting together even without talking. So when I understand that there is no possibility between us, I still regard "liking her" as an endless love.

"Well, I'll take you home." When Lin Yi recalled that I spent Christmas with her, I interrupted her.

When I used to go out to play, no matter how late it was, I had to send Lin Yi to her door.

She smiled cunningly: "Don't you want to get a room?"

"Open your second uncle."

Lin Yi didn't speak all the way, and neither did I.

I don't know why Lin Yi asked me out. She didn't tell me anything. I won't ask. This is the unique tacit understanding between Lin Yi and me: even the most obvious thing, as long as you don't say it, I won't ask. Maybe both of them are too proud to show their weakness, even if they are wronged again, they will die.

I like to send Lin Yi home and often enjoy the warmth of a person's return trip. The stars embedded in the night sky at this time can remind me of many things.

What about this time? By the way, I remembered Lin Yi again.

One night a few days after Lin Yi came to see me, I was sitting at my desk considering whether to do my homework or continue reading novels. A strange phone call came. I hesitated for a while and answered it.

"Hello, could you tell me ..."

It is Lin Yi. I didn't save her phone number.

"I am lovelorn." Lin Yi said something sad, but she didn't know how to comfort her. Lin Yi was a little fragile in front of me for the first time, probably because she just fell in love and was bored. Talk to someone.

Lin Yi began to tell me about her high school, which I didn't know before. Several people in Linyi high school chased after each other, and finally it was like this. Even if you don't like it very much, you should find someone to do it, and be ambiguous. I think I'm the same. I am willing to have an affair with others, but I am worried that the other person will also have an affair with others, which makes me very uncomfortable. Lin Yi doesn't feel miserable, but she has the capital. So I refuse to be nice, because even so, I am eager to be found and redeemed. I thought Lin Yi was this person, but later I found out that she and I were the same kind of people, which made me a little sad.

Lin Yi suddenly asked me a little absent-mindedly: "Can you lend me a little sense of security?"

I was silent. "Hey, it seems that Pisces is insecure." Lin Yi sighed.

Yes, I don't even feel that safe myself. How can I give it to you?

I comforted Lin Yi by saying that the college entrance examination is only a few months away, so it is better to study hard and prepare for the exam.

Lin Yi said that it was the first time she was comforted to "study hard".

Hang up the phone. I wrote down Lin Yi's telephone number. Two days later, Lin Yi sent: "I am in love."

I thought for a long time and didn't know what to reply, so I had to delete the message.

I stood at the subway entrance to buy a ticket. While waiting in line, I thought that maybe the next time I saw Lin Yi, she would be different. When my mobile phone started to vibrate, I should have thought that Lin Yi was worried about whether I was home or not. I hung up the phone and sent her a short message: it's almost ready, don't worry. Immediately reply to the opposite message:

I am on your side.

I turned away, and Lin Yi looked at me with a smile, as if asking if I was coming soon.

"Well, I didn't go upstairs. I kept following you along the street, and I don't know why I didn't dare to call you."

I'm still wondering why Lin Yi is here. Lin Yi explained:

"I'm going to study in England tomorrow."

"Well, that's good. You can go to the handsome guy in a corrupt country. " I'm a little sad.

I know there are not many opportunities to meet Lin Yi, so there may really be no chance.

Lin Yi and I chatted for a while. I put my ticket into the trash can, and McKee caught up with Lin Yi beside the station.

Lin Yi said that she wanted to drink, and finally ordered the strongest chocolate. She took a sip through a straw and burned her small tongue. I helped Lin Yi take off the lid and pushed it into her hand. The dense heat really has a faint smell of wine. Lin Yi took a sip along the rim of the cup and handed it to me to drink, with her shallow lip prints on it. I changed my face and took a sip. She picked it up and took another sip, naturally as if I had never drunk it. I think this is the most charming place of Lin Yi.

"You are probably my best deskmate." Lin Yi said.

"At first, I wanted to go to your school, and then I casually. It's just a pity that I don't have the same topic as you. " Paused, Lin Yi continued.

Sometimes I feel sorry. If we were still deskmates in the same high school at that time, we wouldn't seem strange, and maybe we would still be together.

I asked her, "Do you regret it?"

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Me too.

You know, sometimes, I really want to go back to junior high school. However, I just feel pity. If I go back in time, I might miss the person I liked in high school. I don't want to.

I looked at the scene outside through the French window next to me. One or two people passed by vaguely on the road, and the light was soft and warm, which made me unconsciously hum a Cantonese song that I only learned two sentences: this bad habit is better than being together; Is it the main reason why you left, or.

Lin Yi said that I have changed a lot, and so have you. Then I smiled. I thought I wouldn't say it, and finally I returned to this cliche.

I prefer listening to others quietly now. The more you talk, the more you lose.

I prefer being alone. Although everyone around me thinks that a person is too lonely, I like this state. Sometimes, when I turn on the radio and listen to some programs I don't know what I'm talking about, I feel very comfortable.

"You may not realize that your junior high school is very popular." Lin Yi asked me, and I said I didn't know.

"I knew you didn't feel it. After all, people like you don't care about the opinions around you. Can talk, can tell jokes, although some poison tongue, but the mouth is still very sweet. Otherwise, there will be many girls to help you with your homework? "

"Your relaxed personality is really enviable." Lin Yi pecked at the drink and muttered in a low voice.

I smiled: "You are also very popular now."

"But I envy your natural state now." Lin Yi supported her chin with her hands, and her eyes were blurred.

I have a lot to say, but I don't know where to start. I suddenly want to reach out and touch Lin Yi's hair. When I was halfway there, I found that Lin Yi was no longer neat.

My hand was hanging in the air, and I felt a little embarrassed and bitter for the first time.

"It's time to go home. I have to catch a bus tomorrow. "

Lin Yi insisted on seeing me off once, and we said goodbye at the subway entrance.

I hope my next subway will come slowly. I hope Lin Yi's flight will be delayed by the fog tomorrow. I hope McKee can stay with us for one night. I hope I can continue the topic of no nutrition with Lin Yi. I hope we can embrace Lin Yi. So I didn't hesitate when I realized that I could only do the last item.

"Well, have you ever liked me?" When I left, Lin Yi turned to ask me.

I didn't answer. I remembered going to the movies with Lin Yi during that holiday. Lin Yi pointed to a couple in front wearing our school uniforms and joked, Why don't we stay together? I smiled and said think about it. Lin Yi turned and shook my black hair, which made my face hurt.

I know it doesn't matter whether we like it or not. The important thing is that we just want to make up for our previous love as much as possible.

Finally, I shook my head calmly: "No."

Lin Yi and I smiled and said goodbye to each other.

The electric coils flew around and finally got on the bus separately.