What's the story of your depression?

I was depressed twice and failed the college entrance examination once. My father asked me to repeat my studies and sent me to a famous key high school here. I heard that all the children who came out there were admitted to famous schools. The closed campus environment and intense learning atmosphere make me close myself up. My college entrance examination results are the worst in my class. My inferiority makes me feel infinite pressure, so I am tired of learning and have all kinds of self-denial. At that time, I knew I was ill, but I couldn't get out. At that time, my parents wouldn't believe that I would be depressed because of my study. In their eyes, learning is continuous absorption and growth, and it will only get better and better.

What, let me out? How long did it take?

It was in an English class near the college entrance examination. The English teacher took an English composition and said it was the best one written in the mock exam. He didn't tell us who wrote it. He read it out loud. After listening to the first paragraph, I was so surprised that I couldn't believe it and shed tears. I didn't expect my composition to be read aloud by the teacher to the students who scored 500 or 600 in the college entrance examination.

Since then, I open my eyes every morning and think about it carefully. Maybe many things are not as bad as I thought. Maybe I still have a chance to get better. The college entrance examination is only an important step in our life.

Since then, I have a smile on my face, and my classmates are more willing to get close to me. I am also willing to ask questions to my classmates.

The results of the college entrance examination failed to meet the deadline of my parents, but I have a new understanding of my life.

Another kind of depression is postpartum depression. I thought I was careless. Postpartum depression is far away from me, but I didn't expect to escape. There was heavy bleeding during childbirth, followed by cough and fever. I am surprised that I have been so weak all month. I cry every night because of little things. I'm so tired. I take care of my children at home during the day. My husband talks heavily, but he just doesn't love me. In severe cases, I thought about divorce and even suicide.

After half a year, I will continue to return to society, take part in work, and be distracted. In order to be healthier, I began to exercise. In order not to let depression overwhelm me, I regained several hobbies.

It makes sense that the simpler the happier. Life is very long. Don't deny yourself just because you fell down several times. You won the game the moment you got up. One day is very short, arrange a whole day, do what you like, and don't let those bad emotions have the opportunity to harass you, please yourself and influence others. Your life can also be what you once envied.

Depressive symptoms from school days. When I graduated from junior high school, I couldn't go to the school I was admitted to because of the hukou problem. I started my life upside down day and night at home, full of negative emotions and unwilling to contact anyone, even if I have a job. I am extremely reluctant to communicate with others. I feel abandoned by my family and friends and can't sleep all night.

It was not until his father died that this symptom eased slightly. I can sleep for a while at night, but I fall into self-sadness. For a time, I even felt that as long as my mother left this world, I had nothing to worry about in this world and I could go.

Later, I gradually learned that this is depression. I didn't go to the hospital for diagnosis, but I just vaguely understood that my state was wrong. I don't go out to meet people much except working in a factory. Mom didn't know my identity and arranged a blind date for me, but I didn't make it. At this point, I have switched to sales. Later, I thought it was a good thing to be a salesman for several years, which delayed my depression, but I didn't know it at the time, so I switched to be a clerk.

I became a civil servant and returned to the factory environment. At first, I was fine. Later, I met my first love and broke up with cold violence. Depression broke out.

I stayed up all night, cried day and night, closed myself up, and the idea of suicide never stopped. This state lasted for a year, and I really can't stand it. I told my mother that I was going to work in Shenzhen and left my hometown at the age of 29.

Married naked in Shenzhen for less than a year. At that time, I married a man who could let me sleep peacefully. As a result, now that my husband appeared, I really had a good sleep. Later, because he was going to Guangzhou for development, I didn't want to go. I found out that I was pregnant before breaking up and got married hastily.

Naked marriage is very stressful. My depressive symptoms never stopped, and I never told anyone. My husband has been working in Guangzhou, and I am a full-time nanny in my hometown. Depression broke out all the time after the second child, and I cried day and night and couldn't sleep. It really bothers my mother to think about it now.

The second child stayed before going to kindergarten. Although life is very tired, at least I am tired enough to fall asleep when I want to throw up. Symptoms of crying and sadness are silently digested when no one is around.

I have also tried to embroider cross-stitch, plant flowers and exercise to relieve stress and depression, but it has little effect. I don't want to rely on drugs. I am still working hard.

Depression is a terrible name, and countless people commit suicide because of depression! Unfortunately, I've been there once. Fortunately, I am still alive today!

I want to share my story about depression with you! In the first month of this year, I was diagnosed with depression for various reasons ... First of all, I must affirm that depression is a disease, and many people regard it as fragile and difficult to get over. I want to say no, I have never been a fragile person. People with depression are suffering, and authoritative media have also published several characteristics of depression. Once symptoms appear, you should seek medical advice as soon as possible.

However, stubborn me, I don't want to accept this fact, I don't want to receive treatment, and my pain is dying. Every time I get sick, I can't control it ... In the worst case, I want to run away from home, because I don't want to be a burden to my family, I don't want to continue living, I want to jump when I see heights ... I cry and make noise when I feel depressed, and so on. The pain of more than half a year was accompanied by my wife. I am always so strong in the face of all things and people. In the face of all the pressure, I try to solve it myself. I always feel like a savior, and I never refuse other people's demands ... I didn't feel so fragile until I got sick. I may leave this world at any time and anywhere because of a bad idea!

When I was sick, I was very painful and fragile. I am so eager to be loved by others. Like a child, don't think too much, don't take too much responsibility, and don't be afraid of jokes! I held my daughter in my arms and said to her, "Baby, you said,' Mom, I love you ...'" Looking for that love from a three-year-old child, I feel particularly safe lying in bed every day ... I don't want to talk or take medicine. My husband has no choice but to feel distressed and afraid ... Perhaps all this is caused by the lack of love brought by family of origin, or perhaps because of the shadow of his daughter's loss. Maybe I'm really tired after being strong for too long, maybe the lonely old people and those children in the love group are under too much pressure, maybe the departure of relatives and friends has stimulated a nerve of mine ... in short, I'm sick. During this period, I went to several hospitals, including hospitals in Shanghai, and all of them were diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I still don't want to take medicine for depression. I feel scared and especially nervous when I see drugs. I have depression, I have depression ... I even took a set of beautiful photos for the world and my relatives in case I left in a hurry.

Fortunately, there is tea monk's discipline and help! It seems that he was specially sent by heaven to clean me up. I dare not have the slightest temper in front of him Every time I don't go to the hospital, take medicine, eat or sleep, my husband will complain to him. Tea dad ordered me to go to the hospital, ordered me to take medicine, and even stipulated the time for eating and sleeping, just like educating and scaring children! Also let the lover be responsible for supervision and report any disobedience at any time. Under his majestic command, I returned to today's state step by step, and I am very grateful! In addition, every time I am seriously ill, Sister Cuihong comes to accompany me, even if it is bumpy for four or five hours. Every time she leaves, I can't bear to part with her. Jia's father also visited me at home twice and accompanied me. In my most tragic time, Father Jia even died. Father Lei in our school is also very anxious and has been urging me to receive psychotherapy. Sister Zhou Yuqing helped me contact the hospital. During my illness, several priests gave me care and love. Swallow is really touched and grateful! Thank you very much Today, although I have not fully recovered, I am getting better and better day by day during the treatment, the doctor said; I won't worry or get tired for at least two years. I will cooperate with the doctor to receive treatment and live up to everyone's concern and love for me!

After such a painful ordeal, I am slowly accepting an imperfect and flawed self! I know this is God's extraordinary grace and love!

I am a cheerful person, and sometimes I will be unhappy when I meet something. I will never be depressed when I think that things have not solved my troubles for the time being. I will have a happy day and a painful day, and I will not come to a dead end when I meet something! There is no reason to embarrass yourself. Stories, everyone has stories, and I have many stories. I think I can write a serial story, so I'll tell you a funny story. We used to have a gangster here, that is, the head of scum, surnamed Bu! This son of a bitch cheated and stole, gathered people to fight, robbed, cheated, cheated money and so on. Did all the bad things, ate a fat head and got pregnant, and then got caught! Once, one of his men annoyed me. I don't care about the willy-nilly, I'll hit you as soon as I hold it down, no matter who your big brother is. Later, he took someone to chase me with a knife. Fortunately, I was a good driver and I ran away. They couldn't catch it, but they threw it away with a knife. That was more than ten years ago! Well, there are many more, so I won't offend them. I just ambushed his house for more than ten hours and finally met him. I don't know how long I hit him that day, and the sticks were broken. He screamed like a pig, and I ran away after the fight. It was dark and he didn't know who it was. [yi tooth]

In this world, people are better at judging others, smiling in front of others and knowing themselves behind them. No matter who you are laughing at, it looks elegant and generous, or heartless, it's actually a chicken feather!

I have a good friend, and I always think she is the most free and easy one! Also the most regrettable person! A good hand will eventually be smashed!

She is the most beautiful of my friends. When I met her in junior high school, I always thought that she was from Xinjiang or a mixed-race person, and her shining eyes were like a hostess coming out of the sun. When beautiful girls are welcomed by boys at school, they will be unwilling to make a gesture if they cater to boys! But she won't. In her mind, good sisters rank first. Maybe we girls get together every day and graduate without learning puppy love! She chose to study in a technical school and I chose to study in a high school. When we met again, we graduated from college. She worked as an intern in kindergarten, and I went home to start a business! We are together again!

Graduation is not looking for a job, but also getting married. No one can really get out of the track of life! But her marriage is so unique!

One day she called me and told me that she was getting married. I said, why are you so fast? Who is this man? We haven't even met. Her answer made me even more dumbfounded. She hasn't held hands with unmarried people yet. I asked anxiously again: Did he say he loved you? She also said no, still hesitating to get married! But the wedding date has been set. The man gave her more than 60,000 diamond rings, engagement gifts, gold necklaces, gold bracelets and gold earrings! I also bought furniture, and she is still obsessed with her ex-husband. He never shook hands or had intimate physical contact! The basis of marriage is "I love you"!

We went to her wedding three days in advance, and the good sister had to check for her! The first time I met her fiance, she politely asked if we could eat Anhui food! But she dragged us to show off. The left and right buildings are rented by the man's family to private hospitals, and these furniture are all mahogany, wedding dresses are all bought, and tens of thousands of wedding photos have been taken ... Hey, you give money when you get married, and you still care if he loves you!

Later we learned that it was the man's mother who saw her in the street and was attracted by her prosperous beauty! Door-to-door proposal, the man was forced by his mother to choose marriage! It is conceivable that the divorce didn't take long, and I haven't even come to get a marriage certificate! I think she will bring wedding jewelry. She walked out of the house empty without anything! I blame her for being crazy. Why not take jewelry to compensate for your youth! She said angrily, you really think you love his family's money, but I do. Then, I burst into tears!

From then on, her circle of friends was full of drinking, Kt∨, men. And I am a mother, and I have no time to care about her!

Later, I heard her say that she had been in love several times, met an inhuman person, broke her heart several times and drank wine n times!

As she said, the second married woman has a price but no market, and she doesn't want to be depressed and lead a muddled life. She told me that she wanted to live as beautiful as the clouds in Dali!

She went to learn Korean beauty, but her life is also very lively. Her circle of friends is full of videos of her eyebrows tattooed, and she has her own studio!

Life is definitely not for you to be gentle, you can be gentle! It is often the last straw that breaks the camel!

She chose to join a beauty shop, with an initial fee of more than 200,000 yuan and a storefront decoration fee of 10. More than 500 thousand beauty shops are opened in our small county, and the income is not high. There are several women who can do beauty, and their lives are hard to go on. Who has spare money to do high-end beauty? If the market positioning is wrong, it is really difficult to operate! She is also suffering from severe depression, and she is hospitalized with medicine and injections every day! I asked her why this happened, and she told me that she could stay up for a few days and want to die!

Going home after divorce, the family doesn't like it! Sister-in-law thinks she is here to seize property, so her parents get up every morning and urge her to pay back the money of relatives and friends! Driving her crazy every day, it's boring to live! I knew I wouldn't get married, open a shop, do anything, eat and drink until I die!

Life cannot be copied or repeated. Whether marriage or business, it is business. Never been in love before marriage. It is necessary to cultivate feelings after marriage. Marriage and business should be taken care of. Don't just leave! There is nothing but depression and debt now!

/kloc-in the winter of 0/7, my depressed life was the second time in my life to seriously examine my soul. I don't even know if I'm alive or dead. I have to keep walking to keep my breathing normal and my heart won't hurt so much. On the hiking route from Jingzhou to Zhangjiajie, I secretly slept in a stranger's cowshed, and I saw squirrels crushed to death in the middle of the road, ragged beggars, from the cliff. I asked grandma for directions with a handful of firewood. What she said was a dialect that I had to think for a long time to understand, which made me even more confused. Black, corruption and lightning are in the distance. During the period of about ten days, when I was in a trance, I slept under the pier one night, which seemed a little close. Everything had to start from 19 years ago.

20 17 years, I am 24 years old. I met Xiao Xiao before 19. That year, my parents moved to a completely strange place for my studies, and no one around me knew me. Naturally, I'm a little lonely. That year, I was five years old and liked fighting. I suddenly lost my playmate. I'm really not used to it. I remember seeing Xiaoxiao that day was an afternoon. She skipped behind grandma with a box of biscuits, came up to me and handed me both hands: "Come on, big brother, it's for you." She is two years younger than me, and girls are probably better at language than boys since childhood. She speaks very neatly. At that moment, I knew her name was Xiaoxiao. After that, every afternoon, I went home from school and squatted on my desk to do my homework. She walked around my desk until I finished my homework. 10 years later, when I was in high school, she said that she would try to get into a school with me, but her fate was never smooth. She was only admitted to an ordinary high school next door. I was crazy about Batman at that time. I said it doesn't matter, no matter where you are, I am your knight of justice. She smiled and said, I just want you to be my big brother. Another year passed, I was a senior in high school and fell in love with her at the same time. For ten years, we have a tacit understanding with each other, and we all know in our hearts that it is only a matter of time before she and I become lovers.

In 2009, she was a freshman. At that time, there was always a gangster who bullied her in an indescribable way. I will never forget that August, when cinnamon was very long. That night, I took a steel pipe and hid on the way from the gangster's house to the Internet cafe-I was not good at fighting, so I was a good boy since I was a child, and hitting his leg with that stick wouldn't hurt, but I just took advantage and slipped away. I dare not go home, nor dare I go to my little home openly. I have been used to going to her room through the window for so many years. She was shocked when I stood in front of her. After dealing with my wound briefly, she began to ask me why I was fighting. Fight with who? Did you learn it from someone at school? Obviously, she was very angry. I was young and unconvinced, so I quarreled with her. I said it's not normal for young people to fight. I pretended to be a hooligan, but she gave me a white look and said it was time for you to go home. I was going to sleep, but I didn't move. She ignored me and fell into bed pretending to sleep. After a while, she got up and told me to go home. She stamped her foot and became more angry. She fell on the bed and pretended to be really asleep. That night, I looked at the moon, smelled Gui Xiang and looked at her profile. That was the happiest memory of my adolescence. The next morning, I climbed over the window and left her room. I was taken away by the police on my way to school. I was accused of intentional injury. Fortunately, my uncle found a job in the police station. I am a minor. To put it mildly, my parents decided, and I stayed there for a week. On the day I came out, my eyes were red, and she walked in front of me, regardless of it, even with her parents present.

20 10, going to college in other places. We keep in touch every day. I cheered her up. She is determined to go to the same university as me. If the story goes on like this, I may have entered the marriage hall with her and now live happily together. 10 July, I will take the final exam soon. One day, she suddenly lost contact with me She didn't return my message, and her cell phone was turned off. I am in a hurry. I got a call from my mother that night. When I heard the news, it seemed as if the world had collapsed and everything had turned around-a little stained by someone. It was the gangsters who bullied her that defiled her. I was supposed to buy a ticket back to Enshi that night, but my roommates advised me to wait until after the exam. I called the class teacher, who also advised me to calm down. If I miss the final exam, this semester will be wasted. It was the hardest night of my life, even worse than sleeping in someone else's bullpen secretly, and it was also the most unforgivable night of my life. If I had come back at that time, I would have given her a hug and told her that I would protect you, and now Xiaoxiao would have stayed with me warmly. I often tell her to be her knight of justice, and she always tells me: I just want you to be my forever teenager.

Many years later, I tried to embrace love again. Until 17, my business with my partner failed, and this love came to an end. Once again, I feel that my life has no attachment and my imagination of the future has been completely hollowed out. I feel dead, but when I miss you, I still feel pain. I feel alive and my future soul is in the ashes. Walking from Jingzhou to Zhangjiajie, the instinct of survival still made me carry a simple tent and a charging treasure, leaving more than 3,000 yuan of property all the way south. This is a story that I don't want to elaborate on. You have no idea that there is a lot of pain in my heart. The past is not like smoke. Maybe one day, I can say it neatly. In those sleepwalking days, there was no fear and joy, just like walking dead. When you are tired, just find a place to sleep by the roadside. When you are hungry, if you are lucky enough to meet a restaurant, all you have to do is put down your stomach and have a meal. When you meet people in the village, you can just find a restaurant and give some money to help you cook something. On rainy nights, if you can't find a hotel, you can only sneak into their cowshed, but every chaotic night, you can only make do. Xiaoxiao always appears in my dreams. In spring, we fly kites together on the ridge, and the sun shines gently on her hair. She turned to me and asked me when I could become a real knight. And I repeatedly questioned myself, who else can become a knight? On that late autumn night in 2009, the scene of sitting in front of a small window appeared repeatedly in my dream, as if I could still smell Gui Xiang, and the bright moon hung on the top of the tree. My little face is on my left hand, and I can still feel the warmth on the back of my hand. She seems to have been calling me back. She said to me: You are my forever teenager, and you are a brand-new returnee!

For Mix, for you-Qian Qian and Qian Qian.

I wanted to tell this story for a long time, but at first I couldn't get rid of the pain.

Many people know about depression, and it seems that many people misinterpret it.

Depression is not far away from us, it is all around us.

Depression is like talking to the abyss, stepping on the edge of life and death.

Depression should be traced back to its source, discovered slowly, and the root can be eradicated.

When I first heard that my little niece's body was found, that feeling of terror penetrated every pore of my body. Even though I had a preset when I disappeared years ago, I still couldn't help crying. It was morning self-study, a morning education theory class. My stomach needs food for a long time, but my heart attack is very painful, and my food can't flow into my stomach.

Moon girl is smart and sensible. The second child in the family has an elder sister and a younger brother with excellent academic performance. In fact, she used to be such a child. It was just a sudden serious illness, and then I continued to study, and my grades couldn't catch up.

She was very ill and spent a lot of money. During this period, her new house, together with her father, was also sick, and the family was really difficult. This was an external cause.

My sister and brother are learning pacesetters, and they didn't waste their parents' hard work. She felt that she was a drag and a burden, and she found such words in her diary afterwards, which was the internal cause.

Under the attack of internal and external factors, parents are busy with their livelihood and ignore it. 16-year-old girl's heart is easy to turn over, and she randomly chose a day to drown herself in the river. Alone in an invisible paradise. The collision and impact of psychological accumulation in the middle have turned over one mountain after another, and this cold and warm is really only self-knowledge. /kloc-The life of 0/6 years old should shine when it is fresh, but the moon girl withers in the magic circle of depression.

She has been missing for more than ten days, and she didn't attend class on time for one night's self-study and went home on time. In the evening, the class teacher called and said that Yuetou didn't go to class. She has no cell phone and communication tools to contact. My sister-in-law went crazy, called the police, and the family looked everywhere. But there's no clue. The suffering and heartbreak during this period can only be understood by empathy.

My brother and sister-in-law used to be broad-minded and fat, but their thin state caught up with the speed of the rocket. I had a psychological vaccination, but I still didn't get well in 2008. People are still thin and silent day after day.

I thought to myself, even if I can't see a living person now, it's better than not seeing someone I look forward to every day.

But when the police told me to claim the body and then confirm it, the collapse was fragile even after psychological struggle and suggestion.

I haven't seen my sister-in-law and aunt cry for many times. If I appreciate it a little, that kind of collapse will tear in an instant.

Family members are inexplicably complaining about the pain that the moon girl has brought to the family. To make matters worse, her parents gave birth to her for nothing and raised a baiwenhang. A dog is better than her.

These words are harsh.

When my dad relayed these words to me, I stopped him and told him about depression. In the early stage of depression, the mood is full of depressed mood and negative cognition for a long time. In the long run, the precipitated body will be short of serotonin, unable to get effective relief and guidance, and gradually evolve into a "physical" and psychological dual problem. This is a disease, and it is easy to be invisible. Headache and brain fever, visible, easy to say. This "heart disease" can't penetrate the whole body to be intuitive, as if it can hold the throat and make no noise.

Depression can be effective if it is said. Then Leslie Cheung, the superstar, won't let everyone forget the regrets so far.

My father understands my interpretation of depression. He voluntarily summed up my mother's depression tendency when she lost my ex-brother.

Most patients with depression begin with self-blame, incorrect attribution and negative emotions. Most patients with depression are very sensible and kind, and cold and vicious people will not be soft-hearted. They need emotional understanding and tolerance. It needs subtle observation and gentle treatment.

Depression is the existence of inferiority complex.

I can only feel half the pain of depression, and there is nowhere to hide.

What they need most is to be seen and accepted.

Be regarded as helpless, sad and weak. Accept their incompetence, incompetence, inability to be accepted.

What they want most is love and warmth, which is the greatest power to be cured. I hope that meeting such people around me can bring a little strength. Worst of all, stop satirizing depression because you are too idle to think.

Please, we have the understanding at the beginning of life that human nature is good.

At the end of the story, I want to say: for a long time, I can't say it, my hands will tremble and my nerves will tremble.

At the end of the story, I want to say: girl, come back to us in the next life and love you!

Do you always doubt your ability? When I was a child, my grades were not good, and my homework exams were copied. Then I will have an illusion that I feel as if I was born a stupid child.

I remember that I got the first place in the English test in my class in the second grade, but before that, I realized that my English had never been in the top 20. When I was doing morning exercises that day, I found that everyone was watching me, even my classmates were pointing at me. I'm surprised that nobody said anything. When I got to class, I took a look at my test paper, with a score of 98, which is the highest score I have ever tested. I can't believe it. After listening to the teacher read everyone's scores, I found that the teacher read everyone's names, but my score was the highest. But when I got the test paper, I was not happy, but worried about what others would think of me, because I got such a high score this time. Why doesn't the teacher look at my grades? Obviously, I got the highest score. Because you don't believe me?

But after that, my grades were very average, because the exam only targeted at one knowledge point, and I mastered that knowledge point better. I hate that English teacher. I thought to myself, he must think I cheated before looking at my grades. But I didn't always prove it to him. I really made achievements on my own.

The depressing thing is that I care too much about other people's opinions. If I can understand from an early age that there are no fixed smart people in this world, just like when I was a child, I wanted someone to teach me, but now I think about how active my learning ability is. Not everything needs to be taught!

Life is full of joys and sorrows. Where there is joy, there is trouble. Worrying for a long time is prone to depression.

The first depression was due to the unit reform. I'm a technical secondary school student, and I'm unified and separated. After graduation, I was assigned to work in the township government. I haven't been working for three years, and the villages and towns began to carry out pilot reforms. The mayor volunteered, and the vigorous reforms began here. I was fired for reasons that were inconvenient to explain. I have been depressed at home for half a year, and I don't think about tea and rice. I look haggard and pale. Later, when I was really bored, I read Zhuangzi every day, and my mood gradually brightened up, and everything seemed pale and powerless. Later, I took another exam and went back to work in villages and towns. Last year, I was admitted to the civil service. I realized that if you are depressed, you must read more books, especially those about Buddhism and Taoism. I recommend reading Zhuangzi.

I am not depressed.

But my girlfriend is a little depressed.

I didn't do well in the college entrance examination at the beginning, so I repeated it for a year and was admitted to Shanshi for the second time.

Because she has been a little bitter about this repetition, and a girl at her level is in the same high school as her. Without waiting for her to repeat, she was one level lower than her. Now when I see her, I call her the teacher elder sister. The key is that their university is at the same level. That girl really hit her where it hurts.

Give my puppy a hug.

Later, her grandmother died, and she was depressed for a while. Her mother was hospitalized because of her grandmother's death, overwork and mental breakdown. These pressures are pressing on her bit by bit, and she is also a little depressed.

But she is really a strong girl. After the economic pressure at home increased, she gradually stopped asking her family for living expenses. She went to tutor herself to earn living expenses, four or five times a week, and earned about two thousand yuan a month, which basically did not increase the burden on her family.

Depression makes people depressed, but changing their mentality will directly change the future.

It depends on whether depressed people are willing to come out.