What is the experience of being too fat?

A very frustrating experience. Today's weight has soared to 79.8 kilograms. After getting fat, you first have bad breath, then you have diarrhea for a long time, overeating, lethargy, oily hair on your face and acne on your back. It is easy to delay time, because the image is very different from before, so my friends were scattered before, thanking my sad tone.

I know it's not good. As a host, I can solve things by my face. When I get fat, I find it difficult to solve similar problems. Then I will often be teased. I can only pretend to be a considerate good person and stop dressing up, because I don't have suitable clothes, let alone being laughed at for buying large-size women's clothes.

Oh, yes. Wearing a skirt and exposing your legs in summer will also grind your thighs, which is very painful. The most easily torn part of trousers is the crotch. The neck will get shorter. . I used to be able to talk freely and calmly in front of thousands of people and cameras. Now when people look up at me in public, I will start to talk incoherently. "Is he laughing at me?" Aren't my clothes dirty? Did I say something wrong?

When I gained weight, I met an unusual mother and colleague who maliciously asked me if I was pregnant. I really couldn't accept it. My mother is also very annoyed that her beautiful daughter has become such a lazy and rough-skinned woman.

I feel that this society is very beautiful when I am thin. Parents think that their daughter is in a good mood when she buys fruit. And I get fat easily. In those years, in order to keep fit, I didn't have to eat after noon and only drank the food corrected by the hospital every Sunday. There is no food. I haven't touched snacks for years. Hard work and cleverness are terrible. I love sports, at least I like walking best.

Now procrastination, dark heart, tattered clothes and slow action are all my own fault in the end. Maybe I really lost my lover who has been in love for 7 years and lost the support that can't be my dream. At the very least, he should keep his image and not give up on himself. Maybe I think that people who are good-looking and thin are too important to benefit from them for a long time, so I have never dared to look at the real society outside as a shrinking turtle. I also want to dream that everyone loves me, and everyone likes it.

Now I occasionally take out my old photos, and people around me will be surprised and say, who is this? You used to be so thin and beautiful. I will comfort you that you are fat now, and your face is still thin and beautiful. I'm almost three chin, and I'm still thin? But thank you for comforting me.

I hope this is my last moment 160 kg. In the days to come. I can't stand this heavy skin. At least have the courage to love yourself and the people around you.