Become a climber

If one day, life stops exercising and leaves me alone; My brain stopped thinking and let me die peacefully. I don't want to stand at the top like a saint and tell myself how to succeed and see further. I just want to be a climber and enjoy the journey of life with doubt and enthusiasm.

Your top secret is always a bit unsatisfactory when it is imposed on me. I just use my actions to test the holy word and see if there are any similarities and differences between you and me.

Please give me a pair of eyes.

I hold the sun in my hand, close my eyes and enjoy the whole space full of afterglow. But it's not autumn, it's not winter, and there's no lingering sunset. It's just that the residual temperature can make a * * * sound with cold hands. Where am I standing? Until the sun disappeared in my pupils, I stood there until I woke up naturally, opened my eyes and ate and drank.

I don't know what I have experienced, and now I am particularly afraid of having a holiday. A holiday will completely relax me because I can't find another way of life. They regard this state as a common problem of the house, and always feel a little out of place wherever they go.

Of course, I still have some other feelings, that is, there are many people in the address book, but only a few people I often contact, and not many people can tell lies with me.

There was still a time when I was extremely lonely. I always felt that the whole world didn't like me, and my heart was full of unspeakable words, so that I almost collapsed.

See nothing exciting, depressed, fell below the alarm red line.

I wonder if depression has also become a disease, just like the autumn sun, without temperature.

Liang told me that she was also depressed. I don't know if it's because she's been depressed for too long, or because bad luck again and again makes her unhappy. She thought about suicide and ended her life in an escape way.

She sent me a "Burn Depression Checklist" to test my mood, so as to compare whether I really have a problem in my heart.

I have resistance. I think people who do this kind of test questions will inevitably become crazy or abnormal. Emotions and sorrows are impermanent, which is a part of our emotions. When did it become unhealthy in our hearts? But I did the test behind her back and the result was satisfactory.

Autism, I began to heal myself, but after thinking for a long time, I healed myself under alcohol paralysis. It is good to have self-healing ability, and the effect is faster than time.

I often wonder what will happen if I lose my mood one day? Am I no different from wood? Like a machine, I tirelessly do repetitive actions every day.

Now it seems that these are all boring questions, which have nothing to do with their work and life. But if I am faced with a choice now, whether to choose a mediocre or full life, I will probably fall into this quagmire.

Then please give me a small metaphor to consider the meaning of those lives, get ready in advance, and always get up and cross it.

The growth of late cool set an example for my life, and I seriously thought about myself and things outside myself.

She posted the question "Why am I alive" answered by many famous bloggers on Zhihu.

I remember writing: Have you ever seen wildebeest migrating on the African prairie? Or a squirrel looking for nuts on the dead branches of campus? Why are they alive? Even though they are always on an unknown journey, closing their eyes may be as dark as a tiger's mouth, but they are still going on with their lives without hesitation.

The answer given by Liang is also the continuation of life. We just have a little more things or thinking than them, but when faced with the question of where you are going, we return to the essence of life-continuation.

When we came into this world, everything brought new life. At first, we didn't have to bear anything. However, nature cannot determine the trajectory of our lives and how we should go. It is also subject to some external interference and self-selection.

The shackles we bear after birth come from interference and choice. It's heavy and we have a hard time walking. But I can't do it without it, because those who put on their own shackles are also the differences that distinguish me from others.

The same question, different times, is not static when explaining the meaning of life. Because there is no standard, no one can give a satisfactory answer, and everyone has a point.

People's innate uniqueness will drive us to find our own values, and these values will certainly tend to be different.

(B) the balanced growth of depression

In my spare time that day, I chatted with Liang. She asked me if I wanted to attend the wedding of my high school classmates. My answer is "yes" of course, but I hesitated when I knew which middle school classmate it was. This is the last thing Liang wants to mention. A scar has been branded in her heart, and the lewdness of that female classmate ruined half of Liang's feelings.

I don't think she will go! She asked me if it made sense.

She just wants to prove that she is no longer so-called, and there is no need to stick her face and let her teach herself how to be a man. But thank her for letting herself meet people earlier and free herself in advance.

I feel that the past has passed, and now I can't forgive anyone, including myself, but not myself. But if you want to be there, you have the right to be happy, which is enough.

I never thought the same problems would happen to me, but I spent less time thinking about them than I did at night. Whether it is the meaning of life or experience, it has become interest and boredom.

Finding the meaning of life is actually a kind of confusion, but it is also the only way to improve yourself.

Yang Yang said to me: Please cherish that time as much as possible, it was the best time to know yourself. If you miss it, life will be really mediocre. I don't want to question any kind of journey that everyone has spent time thinking about. This is recognized as the right thing. I don't have to consider whether it suits me or not. As long as I try my best, I will not regret it.

Of course, history has proved that my thinking is correct, and what everyone should do must have its meaning.

Some people think that one thing to do when looking for themselves is to travel to a place where no one knows them. But I think the first thing to consider should be the way that suits you. Maybe you drink something that you can understand after a crazy night, which leads you to wander around and finally you can't understand anything except being tired for a few days.

This is not a search for self, but also a kind of confusion, just like a popular phrase in Tik Tok some time ago: What is a trip? Is to spend all your money from where you live to where others live and then go back to where you live to continue your life.

I said that I have been wandering in the world for so long, and finally I said that I would choose the road that suits me. I think those methods are suitable for me, but not necessarily for everyone.

We tried backpacking, but it was all for a short time. On the way, I slowly found that I would have a plot, that is, I always wanted to go home after leaving for a while, but I wanted to leave after staying for a few days.

Suddenly, a lifestyle began to emerge inexplicably. I wonder if I can find a place to go after work, so that I won't have such strange ideas.

I really found such a job with such an idea. Although it is still close to Kunming, it is also a lifestyle internship.

One day we will all be independent, from large groups to small groups in front of us, and finally live alone. Without the care and love around me, a person will face the empty room and the dark night, plus the pressure of life and study, which makes life impenetrable and forces me to be independent.

Not only do many things need to be handled by ourselves, but we also need to learn how to work, how to get along with colleagues and how to plan our future effectively.

If we can't resist that period of time, I don't think 90% of our enthusiasm in school will be gone. We will have a pair of colored eyes to look at problems and feel that the world is always against us. That kind of unfairness is suppressed in the heart, everything goes wrong, and it will explode if you are not careful.

In fact, we understand that we are all waiting for the moment of explosion. I don't know which unlucky ghost will trigger his inner wire and burst with a bang. Then we accept the baptism of loneliness again. When we calm down, we find that the world is not so bad, and we get up the courage to start a new life.

If you are depressed, expect that unlucky guy to come early. This sentence seems a little incorrect, but it is necessary to vent appropriately. If you don't vent for a long time, you will really suppress yourself, whether mentally or physically.

There are many examples around me, because they have been depressed for too long, they find themselves losing their hair, getting old, and even getting cancer.

Of course, it's best to find something else to vent, but don't overdo it. If someone triggers your fuse, you must apologize to him carefully after venting and keep your due concern.

(3) add some happiness to boredom

In the three months since September, we are facing the pressure of graduation. Do you find that you don't care much about anything but yourself? When there is a problem with your living conditions, our thinking loses its artistry, and we no longer consider the meaning of our own life, but more consider material life.

In the past, when I was narrow-minded, I thought that to realize the value of life, I had to make contributions, do something for the country and society, and make the world cry.

This value is always right, but it is too empty. If you come from an adult population, will you take it as a joke?

Dedication doesn't have to be so eye-catching. We are unique, not all of us are Ma Yun and Ma Hua Teng, nor are we those who have contributed to society. For us, it is also a kind of dedication to do our own work well and improve our happiness.

But in the face of such a cliche, we hesitated again. I don't like my job very much, but I have the ability to change this situation. What is the meaning of my life?

It is true that what most people do is not what they want most, but there is no way but to be content with the status quo.

But have you ever found that there are people in life who are also doing jobs they don't like, but you will find that they don't feel unhappy.

If you are careful, you will find that such people will find something they like to spend, so that they can face the boring work in a better state.

So they don't think that life is meaningless and there is no temperature in life, because most people who ask this sentence are in a state of not enjoying it very much.

As long as I feel happy, I will not consider the meaning of life. Isn't what I want in the end happiness?

(d) Don't let the problem of self-confidence affect you.

Do you want to feel that others are happy all the time, but what are you worried about every day?

I feel that happiness has nothing to do with myself, and reality has slapped myself in the face. Some people attribute it to inferiority complex, which makes them lose self-confidence.

Then don't even think about it. Will we still feel happy? We have never encountered a thing. The lack of self-confidence brings us constant doubts and hesitations, which makes us think too much and do too little.

So where does the lack of self-confidence and inferiority come from? I think it should come from my own circle of friends.

Our circle of friends shows off babies, scholars and life every day. ...

Especially after short videos such as Tik Tok spread all over the country, this kind of imagination became more prominent and even upgraded.

He is no longer simply recording his life, but has become a "dazzling". We are immersed in such an environment every day for a long time, and it is inevitable that there will be a sense of gap. We always feel that we just can't compare with others, and our sense of inferiority will gradually emerge. After a long time, we are confident that we will be the first to question.

Why are self-disciplined people often confident? You will find that these softwares can't be found in their mobile phone interface. Even if you ask him, he may not be able to answer.

So in order to keep my little self-confidence, I think it is worthwhile to spend more time on meaningful things, read two more books, do one more question, run a few more laps or even talk a few more nonsense.

Don't spend too much time on those mindless short videos. Don't try to open the software without sufficient self-discipline. Once you open it, you will find that time flies.

My approach is to uninstall it, put it back after a while, and so on.

I'm sure you'll say why it's so troublesome. Just don't look. I just want to say that I can't be completely self-disciplined, so I have to. Then the times are like this. Everyone gathers in one software, and when they have time, they go back and secretly see what their favorite people are doing recently.

Of course, I am connected to the school network, so I don't feel any trouble if the network speed is ok.

Never stop thinking

The trouble is coming again. I find this word really sticky and everywhere. It is constructed by ourselves, and the raw materials are processed by our brains, but it needs some external factors to make it work.

Obviously, what brings us is thinking, and endless thinking brings us trouble. Now that we have found the cause, we can prescribe the right medicine, but we think what will happen if we stop thinking? It should be a creature without a brain.

I am questioning myself. It is a process of thinking for yourself. It's just that I'm a little unhappy and want answers.

Even though I am bored, I can't stop thinking. It is thinking that brings me everything. If one day I lose my mind, I think that is the most painful thing, and it is meaningless to consider the meaning of life.

Obviously, when we have no worries at all, we are not happy, not numb, but unconscious.

Many things have happened around me this year, and I firmly believe that I should bravely face the oppression brought by life.

(6) Don't run away after making a decision.

One morning in September, I went to early class. A friend around me suddenly said in class: Have you ever seen a graduate student sitting on the windowsill in the dormitory area? I heard that I was going to jump off a building, and the police and ambulance came.

Naturally, I didn't see the scene of his despair when I came out early, but even if I did, besides encouraging him to face life hard, I was more sympathetic to him.

I think a person who doesn't love himself, who can even abandon his relatives, who dares to end his life by suicide, has the courage to do the most terrible thing, but has no courage to face it.

Is it because of face? Is it atonement? Are you begging? It is not that they don't know what they want. On the contrary, they know exactly what they need. Grapes are not available now, so we can only take an extreme step. But the tragedy happened in an instant, and those who can stop must live more clearly than before.

The tragedy didn't happen, and the graduate students were saved, but it caused quite a stir between us, and once again made me think about love and not love, thinking and interest.

Obviously, graduate seniors don't like the present situation, which is due to the life trajectory planned by their parents. Get into a good university, go to graduate school, find a good job, find a girlfriend, get married and have children. This is a perfect life trajectory, which not only continues life, but also reflects the value of social existence, but why is it time to end life?

It's kidnapping of thinking and indirect thinking.

There is a patient like me in the society, called "selection syndrome". I know exactly what I want, but I still try to weigh the pros and cons between the two and can't make up my mind. At this time, an unconscious experience will tell me and ask my parents. It is at this time that ideological kidnapping happened.

At this time, others have thought about my life, and some opinions often become the planning and design of my life path. I was kidnapped by thoughts without thinking myself, but I am not happy.

Fortunately, before I make a decision, my mother always gives me this advice: at this time, just do your own thing. Therefore, the decision has always been my own, even if it is difficult to choose, I have to make my own decision.

At present, postgraduate entrance examination has become a social trend. Speaking of graduate students, I thought of such a thing. This is an experience I had in 19 17. I went to an organization for an interview, and the interviewer said a lot. I know I am brainwashing myself and instilling values. I listened carefully, and my curiosity drove me to understand how such an organization works. Keep a clear head and think about whether he will brainwash you.

It makes sense in all the questions he talks about, brainwashing colleagues around him and reflecting the rigor of their thinking from the side. After brainwashing, it was membership fees and benefits, so I stopped him.

He is a middle-aged man. Although he is doing something illegal, he has profound views on this issue. We talked about planning for the future, whether it's postgraduate entrance examination or work. I know exactly what I lack, and my choice is naturally work.

When talking about this issue, he expressed his opinion: in fact, postgraduate entrance examination and work are good choices. Some people pursue higher development, while others need more social experience. But there are still some people who don't want to face themselves, so the postgraduate entrance examination has become an escape way. At the moment they were admitted, they lost their goal and were in a daze for another three years.

But the reality is to be faced after all. Life is life after all, and life lies in endless thinking. Ending life is not the right decision.

Don't ask happy people what the meaning of life is, you should ask those who have been depressed and want to end their lives, and they will definitely give you a satisfactory answer.

(7) only look at people and actions.

I often despise those who hurt others and even use other people's lives to achieve their goals. They are demons, and I am wary of such people.

Now it is said that Weibo is a socially recognized software for hearing cases. The criminal cases of "draft" and "juvenile" that happened around you were all exposed in Weibo, and only then did they get the support of social forces.

I can't imagine all these cases happening around me. Originally, a fair society had a dark side.

I read the whole case, including the defendant's "reasonable explanation" of the incident. I can't even imagine how traumatized a teenage girl was when she jumped into the river to end her life. I don't make any personal comments on this.

But looking at the whole incident, I found that there are some people in society, that is, those who are kind to others and have no taste. They don't take anything in return.

No matter whether you are unfamiliar with him or familiar with him, you should keep a certain distance from them. Such a person will make you re-examine a whole new world.

They seem to be asking for nothing in return, but there is a huge purpose hidden in their hearts, so that your goodwill can be transformed into your trust in them. In the end, what you need to repay him is the worst price.

If it's not the price of life, that's fine; If it is life, it can only be regrets and tears.

I remember what my mother often told me: remember that everyone is selfish, and not everyone will always be good to you.

The ancients have long seen through this point: if you have nothing to worry about, you are either a traitor or a thief.

The terrible thing about such people is that they know exactly what they want, and they will plan their own time to do the same thing. It's hard to succeed. They hurt others without remorse. They are not demons, but angels who save others. This is the coldest joke I heard in 20 19.

Similar to them are a group of sad people. They know that they are kind to others, but they always feel unhappy. They are very willing to help, but they don't know how to take care of themselves and the people closest to them.

Such people are sad and terrible. They kidnap their values to others and let them live the life they want.

They have no purpose, and even the music of life is too lazy to understand.

They kidnapped their own thoughts and values, and finally reached their own meaning in life.

I need to distinguish between these two kinds of people. They are very similar, but their injuries are different.

I think there must be such people around you, of course, you shouldn't give them the right seats, just know.

Learn to love yourself first, and then love others.

I don't know what it's like in your place, but it's like that in mine.

After drinking so much black-bone chicken soup, I must be thinking that so many saints must be very powerful, and they will be able to firmly grasp life without losing diversity.

But in my opinion, they are all normal people, and these feelings are realized step by step.

I once looked up famous writers born in the 1990s, but to my surprise, the answer is this: they are all in their twenties, and it is difficult to see the world clearly at this age, so no one is on the list.

As a latecomer, it is necessary for us to look at the past with a questioning attitude, which is why I said to be a climber.

Life is like a climb, choose your own route, keep climbing forward with thinking, stay for a short time when you are tired, then move on, and never give up until you reach the top.

At the moment, I am on the road of life. If I regard it as a game, I am not in a hurry to stand at the top. I think it's more meaningful to stand at the top after a few games.

Be a climber and appreciate the journey of life with suspicion and enthusiasm.