In this life, I failed you after all.

When Sun Zhe first attacked me, we only knew each other for five months. Looking at the glass slag on the ground and his angry veins stood out, I really can't connect him with the gentle Sun Zhe with glasses. I looked at him like a stranger, but we are not strangers? I got married after two months of blind date. What I know about him is that he works in a bank with a good income and has two suites under his name.

Mom said that this man has a decent job and a good salary. What is there to hesitate about? If you keep dawdling like this, there are still a lot of little girls waiting in line to date him. Yes, I am 28 years old. I am in our fourth-tier city. What other good man can I choose? Thinking about Sun Zhe seems like a good choice.

The world of adults is so realistic, there is no love, and the conditions of both sides are quite pleasing to each other. Plus they are both of marriageable age, so let's get to the point. The wedding was held in the best hotel in the city, and the wedding banquets were of the highest standard, which made my mother proud in front of a group of relatives. She can finally show off how high Sun Zhe's annual salary is in front of her aunt. There are several suites at home. You know, my aunt has been showing off in front of my mother because my cousin married a rich second generation a few years ago. This time, my mother finally pulled it back.

The noisy wedding is finally over. After seeing off the guests in the bridal chamber, I collapsed on the sofa. Sun Zhe came out wrapped in a bath towel after taking a shower. He came up to me while wiping his hair, and my face turned red. He came and sat down next to me, held out his hand and held me in his arms. His lips began to kiss my face at will, and his hands began to swim up and down on me through his clothes. I felt his enthusiasm, but this strange smell made me uncomfortable. I pushed Sun Zhe away, gently said, "I'll take a shower first", then rushed to the bathroom and closed the door, collapsed to the ground. I touched my hot cheek and thought that all the tears that would happen tonight would flow down my cheek. I don't know where A Mu is now and what he is doing. He should have been married for years. I told myself to forget him and start a new life, and I would be happy.

After more than half an hour, I finally dawdled towards the bedroom. Sun Zhe is getting impatient. He tore open my pajamas and pinned me to the ground. I closed my eyes and held out the bracelet around my neck. Sun Zhe felt my cooperation, blowing hot air in my ear with joy, and said softly, "Don't be afraid that I will be light. It will hurt a little at first, please bear with it! " My heart thumped, and he took me for an unconscious little girl. I opened my mouth to explain when suddenly there was a foreign body under me.

Sun Zhe looked at me with wide eyes, and the expression on his face ranged from shock to doubt to contempt and anger. I turned away helplessly, afraid to look Sun Zhe in the eye. Sun Zhe quickened his body movements, and this time he lost his gentleness and caution at the beginning. I gritted my teeth and endured it. Finally, Sun Zhe took a few breaths and lay on me. It's finally over. I pushed Sun Zhe away, endured the pain between my legs and went to the bathroom to clean. Hot water ran down the shower on me. I closed my eyes and my mind was full of A Mu.

My first kiss and my first night were given to the man I loved with my life, and the past is like a cloud. It was my first year in college, and I left my parents to study in another city for the first time. What I miss most is the sweet and sour pork chop made by my mother. I visited every window in the school cafeteria and really found a small row of sweet and sour dishes that can compete with my mother's craftsmanship. A Mu is the chef in that shop, and we have known each other since we were friends. Because I visit almost every day, A Mu takes special care of me and always gives me more when cooking. Min Min once yelled at my bowl in the dormitory, "Mix, why do you have so many ribs than me? Did you buy that handsome guy? " I blushed and pushed Mix to keep her voice down, because Mu looked at us.

Women's intuition is always so accurate. I can feel how special A Mu is to me and how hot he looks at me, but I choose to turn a blind eye. I can't sell myself because of a bittersweet quarrel. However, A Mu caught fire in the dining room window. Everyone knows that there is a handsome guy with a sweet and sour row in the canteen, which is delicious. Many girls line up for dinner just to see more of A Mu. In this way, sometimes I am late for school, and there is no residue left, which is so depressing. I can only ask A Mu to leave me one in advance. In order to know my specific past time, I added A Mu's WeChat, and I can report it at any time when I come to eat spicy sweet and sour pork ribs after class.

After adding WeChat, A Mu often sends me some messages, sometimes funny jokes, sometimes paying attention to adding clothes. As time went on, I got to know a different A Mu. I know Mu's parents died unexpectedly when she was very young. She grew up with her grandmother. In order to reduce the burden on his grandmother, he dropped out of school early and learned the skills of a chef. His dream is to open his own restaurant in the future. I don't know whether I am attracted by A Mu's delicious food or fascinated by his beauty. I became his girlfriend in the second semester.

On the days when there is no class, we are bored together, and sometimes I will go to his stall to help. Those girls will stop waiting in line when they see that he has many girlfriends. I laughed and joked with him. I affected your business. If this situation continues, will your boss fire you? A Mu knocked on my head and said, "Fool, just blow it up. Anyway, you are enough for me. "

The following year, a hotel was transferred at the school gate, and A Mu wanted to take over. I'm worried that his capital and experience are not enough. Let him wait and see. A Mu said, "I can't work in that stall all the time, so how can you introduce me to your parents in the future?" A little chef? I'll take a risk for you. "I didn't expect A Mu to think so far. Actually, I really don't know how to mention him to my parents. They will definitely not agree that I am with a chef. Now that he has his own restaurant, it is always much better.

A Mu's restaurant opened soon, because it tastes good, and the business is extremely hot. Often help when there is no class. Because restaurants sometimes stay up late, it is more convenient for me to live outside, so I live with A Mu. The first night I lived in the past, A Mu hugged me and said, "I will try my best to give me a better life, and I will never fail you in this life, otherwise I will ... I didn't say anything, and blocked his words with my hot lips. We are really together.

When I graduated from college, my parents urged me to go home and take the civil service exam. I had to let my parents know about A Mu, otherwise my mother would always arrange blind dates for me. I'm going back to meet my parents with Mu. No matter what they think, I have to be with him. For this meeting, A Mu specially bought a suit and got a new haircut, hoping to leave a good impression on his parents.

I didn't expect this meeting to be terrible. My mother was ecstatic when she heard that I was taking my boyfriend back, and prepared a big table of dishes. When I heard that A Mu was running a restaurant, I didn't expect my mother to jump up on the spot. She pointed at me and scolded me: "Your father and I worked hard for your college education, not for you to marry a chef. How can you spend the rest of your life in the kitchen? " Don't you smell like lampblack? ""A Mu has his own restaurant, and he is not a little chef ... ""Come on, your father and I won't agree, and you can't marry him unless we are both dead! "Mom's words are very ugly. She threw away all the expensive gifts that A Mu bought, and even A Mu was thrown out. I looked at A Mu's injured eyes and couldn't say a word.

My parents locked me up and forbade me to associate with A Mu again. The telephone network was completely cut off, and I couldn't even give him a comforting call. I tried my best to hunger strike and cry, but my parents were still unmoved. Mom said that Mu and I are not from the same world, and it is not easy to get married in the future. I don't know if there will be a better life with Mu in the future. I only know that I can't be happy now.

I lied to my parents. I compromised. I want to go out and find a job. At this rate, I will go crazy. My parents promised me to go out and look for a job. I ran to school when they weren't looking. The restaurant in A Mu has moved away. He asked Min Min to bring me a letter. In the letter, he said that he didn't deserve me, and he still failed me in his life. Let me find a suitable person to marry and live a happy life. "I hate A Mu's refusal. The last time I saw him. Where can I find him in such a big world?

I stayed alone for the next few years until I met the so-called Sun Zhe. After marriage, Sun Zhe didn't like that I wasn't a virgin. After a few months of marriage, he always tried to torture and humiliate me. I kept the evidence of his domestic violence and sued for divorce. After all, I don't deserve happiness after losing my shepherd in my life. .....