That year, that person, that thing

One? Stumbling through life

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If elementary school is described as relaxed and happy, and junior high school is described as green and ignorant, then darkness is what I think of The word used to describe high school, no, is also warm.

? Xintai No. 1 Middle School was one of the best high schools in Tai'an in 2000, and even in the following years, and all three of my family entered Xintai No. 1 Middle School in the year they graduated from junior high school. I got in because I was lucky enough, even a miracle: in 2004, the admission score of Xintai No. 1 Middle School was 594 points, and I got 593 points. If it were not that year, I would have lost one point, and I would only have to pay 1,100 yuan, plus tuition. , I might go to Xinwen Middle School, because my score is almost the highest in that school, and I will be rewarded 5,000 yuan. I want to go to Xintai No. 1 Middle School, but I dare not say it because my family’s conditions do not allow it and I blame myself for missing one point in the exam. I don’t know how long my parents considered it, but they finally let me go to my dream No. 1 Middle School and started my high school life.

? The reason why it is luck or a miracle is because only in 2004, if Xintai No. 1 Middle School was one point less than the score line, it would cost 1,100 yuan more, and the rest would be 3,100 yuan. According to my family’s conditions, The three of us went to school and my mother was sick, so we were under a lot of pressure. I had to pay 3,100 yuan to go to high school. I didn’t agree with it. Fortunately, it was 1,100 yuan that year. I was overjoyed. Thank you to God. I should also thank my parents for not letting the neighbors say it. , such as what school girls should go to, influenced me to go to Xintai No. 1 Middle School.

? There are two things I am most proud of in the first semester of high school. First, in my first monthly exam, I ranked first in the class in English, with a score of 126. You must know that I come from a rural area, and English is taught by teachers who have not graduated from English majors. It is okay to get this score. The second thing is that the first chapter of the first year of high school is about functions. After studying one chapter, I actually got 27 points in the exam. The highest score was 126 points by Jin Xinglai. How could a child in the top few grades of elementary school, junior high school and middle school accept this twenty-something What about points? I cried, even after class. I couldn't help it, so I went to my then head teacher, Teacher Liu. He said: "You can use your lunch time to do the questions. You can read more information and study the questions." I was really obedient. I really borrowed the materials from my classmates to do the questions at noon. Hard work pays off. In the second exam, I scored 102 points. Really, my hard work was not in vain. From now on, mathematics is no longer my weak subject. I scored 133 points in mathematics in the college entrance examination. I admire myself. So when I teach students now, I will tell them about this experience, because as long as you put in the effort, you will eventually gain something. As long as you persist, you can succeed.

I was in the same class in the first semester of high school. Although I only stayed for one semester, we were divided into subjects. I didn’t even think about liberal arts. In Class 1, Grade 1, I have so many memories, meaningful things, and warm-hearted classmates. In fact, my first love was Li Zongzhang, a classmate in this class, who always took care of me, including Fa Wen, Wang Chuan, and Wang Wenjing.

? After we were divided into subjects, when I was in a bad mood, whenever I met Chuan and Wenjing, they would always patiently enlighten me. Although we had been divided into subjects, and although high school life was so precious, they always treated me as Good friends went to help me. I even remember one thing that I still haven’t forgotten. In the last semester of my freshman year of high school, I fell ill once and had a slight fever, but I didn’t have money to go to the school clinic to get medicine. I stayed in bed without eating at noon. Wang Wenjing was the only one who came over to ask me what was wrong. She knew I had a fever but didn’t have cold medicine. , I took out the medicine from my cabinet, white plus black. At that time, this medicine was good, I said thank you, Wen Jing said quietly: "It's okay, we are all in the same dormitory." I thanked her from the bottom of my heart for helping me. , because of my low self-esteem, I didn’t talk much to my roommates, and we didn’t even eat together because I was afraid that others would look down on me. I ate pancakes and pickles every time, rarely bought groceries, and my monthly living expenses were 30 yuan. Wenjing's family is from Laiwu. Her parents come every weekend, which is also the happiest thing for me, because she always shares delicious food. The one I remember deeply is: honey walnuts. After all these years, I will still remember them well. There is also a special classmate, Sun Xintong.

? Let’s talk about the keyword first: darkness.

? It may be due to the influence of family environment. I have had low self-esteem since I was a child. Because my grades in elementary school and junior high school were very good, I didn’t show much.

But high school is different: the classmates in the class are all the best in the city, they are smart, and their foundation in junior high school is so good. My grades are in the middle of the class. If I were not so stressed, my grades would be in the top 20. But by the third year of high school , I have low self-esteem and great psychological pressure, and I don’t know why it is becoming more and more obvious. One thing I remember very clearly is that every Saturday or Sunday, my dad always delivered meals to my sister and me on his bicycle. Every time my father brings the same thing: pancakes and stir-fried meat with pickles. Every time my father is not well dressed, but I forget how he feels. Anyway, now, I think my father is very handsome. Once, I cried and said to my father: "Dad, I feel sorry for you. You work so hard every day to make money for the three of us to go to school, and I still can't learn well." There were tears in my father's eyes: "Mengzi, don't With so much pressure, you can learn as much as you can. "Maybe because he didn't want to make me more sad, my father didn't look back and went to the old campus to find his sister to deliver food. Since then, I haven't been able to sleep well, and I've cried on my desk after class. At other times, I've been in a sub-healthy state. My whole world was dark. I even said to my liberal arts class teacher, Mr. Lou, "It's so hard to live." After that, every teacher in the class paid attention to my emotional changes. Every time I took an exam, the teacher held a summary meeting. They Everyone will mention me, because as long as you are in a good mood and study hard, you will make the most progress. I like to answer questions in class, but I am right every time, so the teacher calls me smart. That teacher, whenever I asked a question, they would give me words of encouragement. Even now, in my teaching, I will also pay attention to children who have similar experiences to me. I also want the high school teacher to give this child enough love to make him change. This change is only a matter of time. I firmly believe that with love The students you teach will be different.

Two months before I was about to take the college entrance examination, my dad came to school every day to eat and chat with me. Knowing that a month before, I was really relieved and took the exam seriously. Although it was not ideal, I scored 521 points, but I still got a good score. It was no problem to get a junior college degree, and it was considered an answer to my three-year high school career. Although it was not pretty, at least it was an explanation, not only to me, but also to my parents: their persistence was right, and I walked out of the countryside.

? The word warmth came from my first year of high school, when I gained a kind of friendship, which is so beautiful when I think about it now. It also made me certain that there is pure friendship between men and women.

? Sun Xintong is a classmate across the aisle from me. This child is very smart. I don’t know when he started talking to me after class and joking with me. We became friends. One time, he caught a cold and slept on the table. Then I wrote a note and put it on his table: Drink more hot water if you have a cold. My thermos bottle is on the balcony. You can just go and pour it. That's roughly what it means. Maybe because of this, our relationship is better than before.

? I remember a physics exam. I scored 18 or 12 in the second paper. I forgot, but he got a full score of 50. Then I stopped talking to him because of jealousy. When he agreed, he said, "Why don't you talk to me because of this?" Thinking about it now, I still remember his smiling face very clearly. Maybe it was because I cried when I scored over 20 points in the math test for the first time. He also knew that I had low self-esteem. He wanted to help me get rid of my low self-esteem, so he told me jokes and chatted with me. It wasn’t until we both went to college that he Tell me why you are talking to me and why you always care about me.

? Really, in high school, no matter how big the school is, no matter where classmate Sun meets me on campus, even if I haven’t seen him yet, he always calls me loudly: Ren Meng. When he saw me waving to him, he hurried back to the classroom. At that time, I felt that a classmate remembered me, especially since I was separated into different subjects, which was a blessing. Moreover, my college entrance examination results were told to me by classmate Sun, who brought a glimmer of light and warmth to my dark high school life.

? Looking back on my high school life now, I am really poor, but I have also come here. Apart from eating less delicious food, wearing less new clothes, and seeing less than others, there is nothing. Because I was very satisfied with everything at that time, my parents paid for me to go to high school. Although I didn’t go to a bachelor’s degree, it was enough to go out of my hometown and fulfill my parents’ wishes through my own efforts!