Floating in Shenzhen

Goal: look back on your wandering life in the special zone and encourage everyone to wander outside!

? "Why come to Shenzhen? A good man is ambitious in all directions. Don't leave a blank when you are young! Life in my hometown is very comfortable, but ease can't stop me from acting. Everyone left their hometown and came to a strange city, perhaps with dreams or feelings! Shenzhen, a city of dreams, provides opportunities and waves to those who are fully prepared. If you have struggled, you will never regret it. Looking back, you won't be ashamed of your mediocrity! So when you accomplish nothing, you will have no regrets because you have worked hard. The process may be bitter, the result may not be brilliant, but life will be very fulfilling! "

What an inspiring sentence, what a bold quotation, if time can go back a few years, it may make my heart surge, tears filled my eyes, and I am excited! I can't wait to roll up the bedding, pack my bags, and then take out some old grandpa Mao whose pockets are wrinkled and even my mother can't recognize him (my mother said to keep it for a wife! ) Then get on the only broken tractor in my village that has just rained for pulling bricks and drive around on dusty country roads! . It is a pity for my hometown that the sunset gently tilts over my cheeks and ripples! Looking up, several fiery red clouds are trying to bloom their last colors. Listen, a few birds fly overhead, and a few light surprises seem to be seeing me off! Unconsciously, the Buddha moved in the breeze, gently brushing the green grass on the roadside, causing the grazing sheep to make a baa sound. This scene reminds me of those sunset swordsmen in martial arts novels, those arrogant and lonely sunset swordsmen, "with a sword, stepping on a sweaty horse, after every tragic life and death, proudly flying towards the sunset!" The world of mortals is rolling, filled with a pair of expectant eyes. They are eager for the hero swordsman to return again and bring them the hope they want again. "And I am like a swordsman who goes out again, destined to return home with a full load, and I have not failed my elderly relatives!

? That's beside the point! Actually, I came to Shenzhen. In 2009 1 1 month, without seeing my relatives off or being accompanied by my friends, I drifted all the way south from the far north to Shenzhen, a special economic zone called South China. There are four seasons like spring here, and there is no biting cold in the north. There are ponds everywhere, factories everywhere, and roads are built in Pingshan. It is in stark contrast to the desolate and sparsely populated factory in the north.

? There are too many people here to pay attention to everyone who walks by you. There are so many cars here that even the wide road can't bear their busy figure. Here is a sea. The boss who sells newspapers said that it would take ten minutes to take a bus and sit in the seaside in his heart for an afternoon. It makes people feel excited, but the short-lived excitement ushered in the first loss of Shenzhen. There are many people and cars here, which means there are people from different places, men, women, old people, children, good people and bad people. In the seemingly simple human living environment, there is often an invisible and irregular ecological environment. Also created how to learn to integrate, adapt, accept, numb! Slowly, I have always felt that my objective attitude of not conforming to the rules has slowly changed until I get used to it! Sometimes we ask ourselves, is it the fault of this society, or is it just like this, but our imagination is as beautiful as the textbook! . And all this, for too many people who have just stepped into this city, is unfair, thinking that they have not had time to adapt, but are still immersed in the joy of setting foot on this land, and complacent! But reality gave them a blow, knocking on their eyes. In an instant, tall buildings, blue sky, roads, crowds and vehicles are still standing. The next moment, they are sarcastic, sarcastic and sympathetic! Makes people feel lonely and helpless. This feeling is fresh in my memory after years of separation.

? In 2009 1 1 month, the southbound train came to Shenzhen, a special economic zone in the south of China. With the crowded crowd and heavy luggage, I walked out of Shenzhen North Station with anticipation and nervousness and excitement. It's tiring to take a long bus ride, so I want to buy some food and water. I see a newsstand not far away. As there wasn't much change left on the road, I took out a Qvanxian Zhang hundred-dollar bill from my shabby flat wallet and paid it to my boss. My kind boss uncle gave me a bunch of loose money, thinking it was just useful. I dragged my luggage with gratitude to say goodbye to my boss. Without walking a few steps, I saw the signboard of China Mobile Business Office in front. I thought, yeah, it's almost time to charge the phone bill. When I entered the store, with the busyness of the staff, I was greeted by their puzzled expressions. "Hello, your fifty-dollar money detector can't be detected. Please change it." I thought, how is that possible? That money is new! But in order to save time, I changed them right away. When I left, a staff member of Datang reception told me that the paper money might be counterfeit and told me not to use it again! But I still refuted them angrily. How can it be counterfeit money? This is the loose money exchanged by the boss who just reported the kiosk. Would you please have a look again? Of course, the answer is the same. I thought it was really bad luck. I was cheated as soon as I arrived in Shenzhen. How cruel! I must get justice from that profiteer and give me back my real money.

"What is false, young man? You're kidding. I gave you real money. Look, I'm getting old. Can't you miss me? How can you be such a young man? You want to bully me at my age. There is no way. Get out of here quickly and don't affect my business. "

The newsstand owner changed his kind face just now and suddenly became dark, evil, overbearing, manic and pitiful. It suddenly reminds me of those unreasonable village women who idled around the village when I was a child, which makes people feel sick. "Uncle, can you be reasonable? You just changed my money, but I didn't touch it. The money detector that charges the phone bill can't recognize it. Please change it. " Why should I change it for you? Don't even think about it I gave you real money. You can lie to me with a fake one. Go quickly, or you will feel better later! Unconsciously, the vehicles and pedestrians on the road gradually gathered around and gathered together. The boss took a look at it, so he played his super-moisture acting skills more and more. The more he plays, the more miserable he becomes. It seems that he has a huge grievance, waiting for the gods to intercede for him, and his words are full of slander and ridicule!

"Uncle, why are you so ugly? How can I trust you at a young age? This money is really what you asked me just now. " The newsstand owner ignored my words and continued to perform, making the onlookers cry. I think they are just laughing at another fool who has been cheated. ! Atmosphere, loss, helplessness, fear, confusion, this strange city. ! Just then, an aunt approached me slowly, took my arm and whispered, "Go ahead, young man. These are not good people. Go, or you will suffer. His son is a gangster and will get back at you. " Aunt said that and left in a hurry. I stayed where I was with a puzzled face, motionless, at a loss, and a little scared. My uncles and aunts around me also gently advised me: "forget it, young man, you can't afford to offend that person." Let's go and buy a lesson! " Be careful next time! Let's go! Feeling helpless, I looked at them. Obviously, they are worried about me. This is the only warmth and gratitude I feel, but it's mostly onlookers laughing and whispering. Maybe it's because I added a little joke to their boring life, or maybe they can show their gold teeth stuffed with leek leaves after the next meal and make a few disgusting laughter! Perhaps, I should feel honored that there is nothing ridiculous in this reinforced concrete city and depressed life, and I, a trendy child in Shenzhen who has just entered the household, should dedicate my only skill, carry forward the spirit of selfless investment and do something for them. When I saw their heartfelt smiles, I thought I did it.

? The boss's howl pulled my thoughts back. I looked up at the sky. It's blue and quiet. A few white clouds passing through the branches swayed from side to side with the breeze, and I don't know where to go! I seem to see myself through the white clouds. He is encouraging me and cheering for me. "Let's go, my friend, the sun will fade after the storm. Go! " In a trance, time seems to be still, except for the gentle breeze, the whole world is left with their silent dramas. I am like a lost dog, dragging heavy luggage, dragging heavy steps and leaving step by step! There is a hot liquid in my eyes. I know, it is the wind. I forgot to close my eyes when the wind blew.

With the whistle of the bus, I enjoyed the tall buildings and tree-lined roads along the way. When the bus arrived at the next stop, the short journey and the joy of approaching the end made me forget my previous depression! . Looking at the working people carrying big bags and small bags, I was filled with emotion! I remember someone saying that working people are the most glorious! There are young, innocent and fearless young people like me here every day, and the origin keeps pouring into this production empire, which is called the southern electronic economy on the map. Here, all kinds of the most scientific and fashionable electronic products are delivered to all parts of the world at an hourly rate, and tens of millions of migrant workers come in and out in every corner of cities, streets, subways, roads, industrial zones and workshops every day. Play their own or non-own roles. The pace on the road is in a hurry. Those who rush to work and those who rush to get off work, and those who rush home to cook for their children, are tired, excited, worried and helpless. Various expressions fill every street, alley and corridor of this city every day. The huge population movement has also brought too many security risks to this city, because you have no idea whether people from all over the world who pass by with different accents touch your body or look at your eyes intentionally or unintentionally, or have an indifferent purpose! I am a living example!

? The unpleasantness in the morning also gave me an extra layer of defense against this strange environment. Every step, every passer-by, every look at me, I can't help being cautious. But all this was broken by the voice of a kind fellow villager! "Hey, hometown, where are you going? I'll take you by motorcycle. " "Person of hometown, where are you? Call me hometown! Hey, Li, listen to your Fuyang accent. Alas, it's true. You are also in Fuyang Li, yes, I am in Taihe Li, and I am in Fuyang East. Alas, it is true. Where are you going? I'll take you there. I'll go to Foxconn. All right, let's go. How much do you want? All the people who raise money are fellow villagers. Oh, let me see you off. No, no, it's not easy for you either. I can't let you give it away for nothing. Well, you see, give it, give what money, alas, just give a gas money. All right! By the time I figured out what was going on, my luggage had been tied to the back seat of his motorcycle by this fellow villager. I asked this fellow villager again how much it would cost to go to Foxconn. "Just tell the truth. The fellow villager smiled and held out eight fingers. The smile is full of kindness and goodwill. " I gently put down one of his eight fingers, Bai Wan. "okay. It is appropriate to take care of fellow villagers. "

? What's the story? You can trust the teacher, but never trust the "fellow villagers". So I carefully confirmed to my fellow villager that his three fingers meant three dollars, not three hundred dollars.

? After many twists and turns, our motorcycle finally arrived at Foxconn. By the time I gratefully handed the seven RMB to the "fellow villager", his enthusiasm had already disappeared without a trace. He gave me a hard look and said, "7 yuan a kilometer, I took you almost 4 kilometers, so give me 55 yuan." I multiplied 4 by 7 in my mind for 28 times, and finally realized that there are still many people in this world whose arithmetic is worse than mine. I know, I was killed again.

? In fact, everyone who has just arrived in Shenzhen has experienced a lot of this way. They specialize in cheating like a country bumpkin like me who just entered the city. They usually move in groups of three or five, so sometimes since they are unlucky, they can't care too much and will suffer a big loss. This phenomenon has obviously improved a lot in recent years.

Continue my experience. Say goodbye to the so-called fellow villagers and find a "telephone supermarket", which was popular at that time. I asked my boss how much it would cost to make a phone call. The boss said don't worry, we charge by electronic meter. I was cheated twice in less than one day, depressed and lost! But cheer up and tell yourself that you must not be cheated again. I said I only had two dollars on me. Help me, boss! I called the local area for a minute. I pretended to be poor, but I was already poor. After that, I was shocked. The first thing I learned when I came to the south was to lie to people. The boss impatiently pushed a phone call in front of me. What came from the other end of the phone was not the voice of my old friend I expected, but that he asked me to take a bus to Foxconn after I arrived in Shenzhen, and then called him. The sweet female voice in the receiver speaks standard Mandarin: The number you dialed is power off, please redial later. I'll wait a moment. That nasty woman on the phone keeps saying the same thing to me. That afternoon was as long as half a century, and my mood was as turbulent as that of Shanghai in the 1930s. Finally, I don't pretend to feel sorry for myself. All my hopes were dashed. Suddenly, the boss said angrily, is that your box at the door? It was taken away. I took a quick look at the doorman. Oh, my God, where is my box? I saw two people leaving quickly not far away with boxes of the same color and size as me. When I woke up, I clearly realized that it was my box. Stop, damn it. Because I haven't had time to enjoy breakfast and lunch, I tried my best to chase them in the streets, and the market was full of Malone. Familiar pictures, familiar scenes. I think every post-80s boy has an impression! Yes, those classic Hong Kong gangster movies. There is always a heroic, invincible and handsome rascal hero who, in order to maintain world peace, pursues criminals again and again. Sometimes it's for the old lady's few pieces of food money, or for the cheap handbag of a beautiful young girl, or for the half-stick money flowing in the fat man's mouth. The biggest difference between film and reality is that the bad guys in the film will eventually be punished by the heroes. After a fierce and handsome fight, they will subdue the gangsters, be warmly cheered by the masses, be grateful to the grandmother, be loved by beautiful girls, and pay tribute to the little wretched. But the reality is, like me, those bastards soon disappeared into the street without a trace because of unfamiliar terrain and physical overdraft. But I'm out of breath and dying, just like a dog lost in the water. After trying to climb ashore, I was only angry and tired! Without the strange eyes of passers-by and the brush of the street sweeper, I lay on the open-air chair on the side of the road like a dehydrated salted fish, looking at the fading dusk, which was beautiful. .....

? The past is unbearable, and I can't help but grin when I think about it occasionally.

? Unconsciously, I have been wandering in Shenzhen for nearly seven years. Over the past few years, I have experienced the confusion of finding a job, the pain of losing my beloved, the helplessness of relying on others, the bitterness of being penniless, the misery of being as rich as an enemy, and the thin clothes that the two bastards stole my luggage, gave me shelter from the wind and rain, and the only personal memory items that belonged to me were all ignored by those two bastards and left in the garbage. Then there is a long and arduous job search journey, as clear as yesterday. In my spare time, I will still go back to the station where I lost my luggage-Longhua Longguan Bus Station, stop and go for a walk. ....

It has been raining in Shenzhen these days. I am a nostalgic person. Especially when it rains, the door of memory seems to open slightly. Past, past, forgetting, figure, dead tree, house, smile, every simple word will remind me of too many things. Actually, I don't like this. I want to forget. I don't want to wave to my memory every silent night.

It has been raining for several days, and when you look up, you will always see a foggy picture, just like the precursor of monsters in mythology. Looking down from the 20th floor when the sky is a little brighter, you will feel that the sea and Wang Yang sea are not far away. Imagine when I will see a mirage. At the moment when the sun shines, I must lie by the window and look at the bright air to see if there is a rainbow rising! I didn't know it was a typhoon crossing the border until I watched the news yesterday. I wanted to see the world where the typhoon came, and my colleague smiled. It is said that typhoon crossing the border means constant wind and rain. Heavy rain may be a good feeling. The friend said. Heavy rain will suppress some things or emotions. Heavy rain suits a person. In case of explosion. Meditate. What kind of state things are. I wronged myself. Grievance, pain, torture, growth. Shenzhen is beautiful, but I prefer to stay at home. I don't know why, but I feel a wandering and lonely soul outside the door. One day I saw a sentence. If your monthly salary is less than 5,000, please leave Shenzhen. Wry smile! My monthly salary doesn't hold Shenzhen back, but how good is it? Struggle on the edge of life and slowly feel the ups and downs of life!

? One day you will understand. There is only one parent in the four seas. Don't spoil yourself, because others are not your parents. Always understand that everything happens for a reason, but not all results need a reason. Just like if you are a neat freak, it is sad that you have a group of lazy roommates. Then you have only two choices, either leave or take care of this family. Complaining doesn't work, only you are angry.

It feels good to see the beautiful scenery posted by friends. I don't think I will have such a chic life for a long time to come. The chaotic life has not been sorted out yet. But I will think, don't be so envious. Growth is a process. The same is true of the accumulation of wealth. Start from scratch. When we have nothing, we should be grateful, because we are still young. Having things that don't belong to our age too early may not be far from old age.

? A typhoon crosses the border, but it is a storm. Can you believe it? It can only be sunny after the rain!

Having said that, I actually don't know what I'm talking about!

? -Remembering teenagers