The world is so big, I want to be with you.

Many years ago, Shen Sihao felt that love was silence, a glass of water when a lover was thirsty, and a hug when crying. The deeper you love, the harder it is to say.

Until, his best brother caught up with his favorite girl, and his brother said, "Si Hao, I admit that you beat me and scolded me, but you never said you wanted to be with her!" " "

The girl asked, "Shen Sihao, is it so difficult to say that you like me?" It was true that I liked you before, but I love him now. "

Unable to answer, he had to say, "I wish you a long life together."

Really.

Later, my brother proposed to the girl. By Lugu Lake, he landed on one knee, which made me affectionate.

He looked at his brother's wedding ring in a circle of friends, ordered a zan and said, "Congratulations, I will send you a big red envelope when I come back."

Brother smiled and said yes.

That night, he had a dream. Wearing a bloody wedding dress, the girl asked, "Si Hao, if you had said you liked me earlier, would it be different between us?"

He woke up from a dream with a spasm in his chest and an unprecedented panic attacked him.

He asked, "Do you believe in telepathy between people?"

When he asked this sentence, he was sitting in a white van going to Lugu Lake, climbing the winding mountain, with Qingshan in the distance.

Listening to him was a woman with short hair, wearing a black jacket, holding the steering wheel in one hand, and her mouth slightly raised with a hint of ridicule.

"Don't doubt it." This is the first time he has taken the initiative to mention it to others. "On the night of my dream, they had a car accident on their way back from Lugu Lake to Xichang, and they collided head-on with a big truck, and even people rolled down the mountain with their cars."

The female driver recovered and gave him a look.

"Don't you think they are giving me a dream?"

For three years, he has been assuming that if he had been with that girl, she and his best friend would not have died.

Ten minutes later, the female driver pulled over and said, "I remember the accident. The accident happened in this area. Don't you miss your brother? " Let me show you. "

He was moved to tears. "You are really a good man."

The female driver nodded and answered.

He opened the car door and walked to the guardrail. In the past, all kinds of films rolled in his mind, and his eyes were red when he looked at the distant green hills.

Suddenly, a pair of big hands pushed his shoulder hard from behind, and his left foot slipped off the road, his heart jumped suddenly and his arm tightened again. He turned around in shock and saw the female driver standing behind him, her hands holding his sleeves, and her lips were a little narrowed.

"What are you doing?" He broke away from her and said with some excitement, "It will scare people to death!" "

"Didn't you say that your brother asked you to go with him in his dream?" The driver sneered, "Who hasn't killed two people around? It seems that you are the only person in the world who has a story. Too sentimental. "

02

This woman's name is xia, a black taxi driver she met in Xichang.

From the first time he saw her, he felt that she was different from others, with cold eyebrows and a bandit spirit. She ate a cage of steamed bread without breathing.

At that time, he was asking the owner of the breakfast shop how to get to Lugu Lake.

The boss didn't say anything, so she replied first, "I'll take you there, charter a car, 600."

He ignored her and continued to ask the boss, "Where can I take the bus?"

Asha gave him a look.

The boss said, "It takes about eight hours by bus, and all the way is a mountain road. You'd better charter a car. "

"Forget it, I'm going back anyway, count you four hundred."

"Two hundred." He said.

"I bah." She said: "* * * Now there is more than that, 350, not a penny less."

"Sleep on the cannon to 350. Can I sleep in a chartered car at 350? " Cheaper than mouth. He is not bad at all.

"That depends on whether you have that ability." She picked up the bowl and swallowed the porridge in one gulp. "Are you going or not?"

"Go ahead." He put the last bite of noodles in his mouth and replied.

She drove an old Suzuki, the body was covered with mud and the window was covered with dust. Standing in front of the car door, he couldn't help asking, "Can this car still drive?"

"Can open." Short and scary, she opened the driver's seat and went in.

Shen Sihao followed her on the road.

The closer he got to the scene of the incident, the more he panicked. He can only ease his anxiety by talking constantly, but she laughs at him.

Four hours later, the bus drove into the scenic spot, and xia said, "The scenic spot ticket 100, I'll take you in, as long as 80."

"Thank you, no need." He handed her the money, opened the car door, got out of the car, took out his suitcase from the back seat and went straight to the ticket office. It is the peak season, the crowds are like tides, and the sunset is oblique. The end of the straight road is blurred.

At this moment, his arm was pulled from behind, and xia stood behind him and asked, "Well, I'll charge you 220 yuan for admission and accommodation. How about it? "

"No need." He withdrew his hand and walked to the hall.

He wanted to show her the wound, but she laughed at him as a joke.

He didn't want to say another word to her.

03

In the evening, he chose to live by the grass beach in the southeast of Lugu Lake.

Caohai Road is dusty and desolate, but he chose to live here because he hasn't decided what to do in this place where he witnessed their happiness.

What is the significance of his coming here?

There are patches of hay floating on the lake in Caohai. When he was taking pictures, someone once asked him if he was in the place where the Red Army crossed the grass. Only one friend called and asked, "Si Hao, what are you doing in Lugu Lake?"

I don't know. He really doesn't know, but it just happens to be fake, thinking about his brothers and sisters, and everything is just right.

"It's all over." My friend hesitated. "Relax and don't do anything stupid."

He laughed: "What stupid thing can I do?"

Friends can't answer. "Anyway, you are very strange after their death. Don't take everything to heart. It's always good to say it. "

Somehow, he remembered the female driver.

"Say it? Are you kidding? " Standing in the long corridor of the hotel, he looked at the fading sky and said, "Don't worry, old dog, I'm not that fragile."

He hung up the phone, went downstairs and walked along the road. There were few pedestrians along the way until he came to a bar being renovated.

There is a sign in front of the door called Asha's pub.

Later, he went to the barbecue stall next door, ordered a few bottles of wine and a few strings of pork belly, and chatted with the boss: "Is xia the owner of the pub next door?"

The boss smiled and said, "All the girls here are xia. Which xia are you looking for? "

Which summer?

He thought for a moment. "Female bandit, tall and thin, with a little dark skin, smiles like a fox."

He is not a person with a particularly good memory, but he can accurately describe the woman's appearance. There is usually only one situation, and this person must owe him.

"Summer solstice." Half an hour later, the boss turned over the barbecue on the grill and said, "Why? Do you want to charter a car? "

He nodded quietly. "Yes."

"I seem to have a business card here, you wait." The boss looked down at the greasy apron, and there was a burning smell in the air before handing him his business card. "Look, is that her?"

The dark blue business card is printed with a name and a series of mobile phone numbers, as well as various signing businesses and identities.

Xia zhi

Inn owner, undertaking the business of chartered car, tour guide, accommodation and scenic spot ticket purchase.

This business is really extensive.

He took out his mobile phone and dialed the number on his business card. After a glass of wine, the phone was connected and a cold female voice came from the other end. "Hello."

He cleared his throat. "Summer solstice?"

"I am. What can I do for you? " Compared with bared his teeth in front of him, his gentle attitude is completely different.

"Well, I want to charter a bus to Lugu Lake tomorrow morning."

"Oh, what time is it?"

"Six o'clock, Caohai side." He pulled a long face, gave the name of a nearby hotel and said, "My name is Shen."

"Ok, Mr. Shen." She didn't seem to recognize his voice. "Do you have anything else?"

"I see that your business card provides so many services, so I just want to ask, is there any special service?"

She just hung up the phone.

04

The next day, he didn't get up until eight o'clock in the morning. By the time he packed his things, it was already past nine o'clock, and the sun was all over the lake, casting bright light on the wooden floor of the hotel through the window.

He slowly walked out of the hotel with his travel bag on his back, took out his mobile phone that had been turned off for a long time, turned it on and dialed the channel: "Sorry, Miss Xia, my mobile phone was dead and I overslept."

She looked in the rearview mirror with a sneer and said, "Look up at the other side."

He raised his head, and the glare of the sun came directly, making him unable to open his eyes. He raised his hand to block the sun, and through the crack of his fingertips, he saw a white van parked opposite.

He crossed the street and stopped at the cab window, only to see Asha wearing black sunglasses and her black hair shining in the sun.

"Mr Shen?" She smiled angrily.

"It's me." He answered frankly.

"Are you kidding?" She opened the driver's door and asked, "Is it fun?"

"Didn't you tease me yesterday? Everyone is even. " He shrugged his shoulders. "Well, you have to wait a few hours, and I'll pay you."

A few years ago, xia would swear, but now she just looks at him calmly. "All right, 200 an hour, 700 in total, take the money."

"I owe it." He bypassed her, opened the passenger door and sat down.

He took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and asked, "Is there a light?"

"I am full of fire." She slammed the car door and gnashed her teeth. "Do you want it?"

"As long as you give it to me." He squinted and smiled with smoke, and his angular face seemed to be astigmatic in the sun.

Xia started the car and ignored him.

"Your name is Xia Zhi?" He put his cigarette between his fingertips, leaned his elbow against the window and asked, "You're not from here, are you?" What are you doing here as a foreigner? You don't look like that little fresh literary girl. "

He swept away yesterday's haze and said endlessly, "Is there a cinema here? Is it necessary to drive five hours to Xichang to see a movie? "

A Xia braked suddenly, and his body rushed forward, almost touching the windshield.

"Go down." She said.

He said, "Aren't you a guide? I'll give you 1500. How about spending a day with me? "

Whatever it is, there is always a pun in his mouth.

Xia took a deep breath. "ok."

Deal with Asha, as long as you pay, everything will be fine.

This is the last eight-character mantra given to him by the barbecue stall owner yesterday, which is surprisingly easy to use.

05

Cars shuttled through the narrow streets and drove into the vicinity of Lugu Lake. There is a strong wind on the lake, and a pig trough boat is parked on the river bank. Xia has parked his car for a long time, and he hasn't moved for a long time. Looking at the rough lake, his breathing gradually became rapid.

"What are you doing?" Asha opened the car door and faced him.

He only felt dizzy and pushed open the door and went down. The wind blew the flag aside and the lake turned from blue to yellow.

There are many people taking pictures by the lake. He put his hands in his pockets and looked at the front silently.

Sally looked at the phone beside her.

"Will you marry me?" He looked at her as if he were looking at another person.

The wind is too strong for her to hear clearly. She looked up and asked, "What?"

"Do you want to marry me?" He asked loudly, and many people around him heard it.

"Get out." She patted him on the back. "What are you crazy about?"

Tears filled his eyes. It was here that my friend proposed to that girl. Now the reef is still yesterday, but human beings are no longer old friends. The only thing he can do is to repeat everything.

He put his hands around her shoulders and his eyes were red. "Few people say that eloquence is love? At that time, except for the mouth, the whole body was saying I love you. "

Xia subconsciously glanced under his abdomen, and the passers-by around him began to boo, "Together, together."

"Although the answer came very late, I still want to tell you that I am 2 1 year-old and I like you very much at the age of 20." He pouted and finally said what he wanted to say in the girl's favorite place. Maybe that's why he's here.

He turned away and wiped the tears from his sleeves to hide his embarrassment.

"No one blames you, but you will never forgive yourself." This time, she didn't sneer. "Don't come again."

Asha stood on the first step and stretched out her hand to wipe the tears from her face.

06

In the evening, he stayed in a hotel in xia and was going to leave early tomorrow morning.

The next day, he opened the door and saw xia chatting with some young passengers in the yard.

"I envy you living here, just like a paradise." A young girl complained, "I break down at work every day."

"How much money can you earn a year? You must be a rich second generation? "

"Elder sister, you are an outstanding representative of literary youth. I will take a picture of Zhang Zhaofa Weibo for you, and you will be very popular. "

Xia sat on a small bench peeling peas and said with a smile, "I'm not a literary youth, but I have a friend who likes it here. I promised to help him realize it, so I came. "

"What about your friend?" The girl squatted down to peel peas with her.

"Dead." She said.

Suddenly, there was silence all around.

"I know you have that look." She smiled. "In fact, when I was young, I didn't know what to do. Once we went to climb a mountain and met a landslide. Six people were buried in it. At that time, I didn't know if I could survive, so I said my last wish to each other. Whoever survives will realize. "

"So ... how many survived?" A boy asked.

"They are all dead." She looked up, blinded by the strong sunlight. "Other people's wishes are simple. With this trouble, I should have let him change his wishes. "

"You are really a man with a story …" said the girl.

"This is not a story, it is an accident."

Several people around her couldn't say a word. Shen Sihao turned and walked back to the room. In the afternoon, he borrowed a car from xia and walked around Lugu Lake alone.

I didn't return to the hotel until around 9 pm and returned the key to Asha.

"Are you free? Would you like to have dinner with me? " He asked.

Summer nodded. "ok."

The two went to a barbecue stall not far away to eat barbecue, ordered a box of snowflakes and bottles of wine. Xia asked, "Where did you play today?"

He looked up at the tall and thin woman across the street in a beige sweater and asked, "Do you like it here?"

"Don't hate it." She answered.

"How much did you charge for this hotel?"

Speaking of which, xia was shocked. "The partner mortgaged my parents' house and borrowed hundreds of thousands from the bank. "

"Do you earn enough money to pay back the money?" He suddenly remembered that there were so many businesses on her business card, and he was very forbearing. "I'm sorry about what happened before."

"No need." She took a sip of the wine. "Didn't you also lose my money?"

They stopped talking again.

After eating the barbecue, he returned to the hotel. As he approached the door, he held out his hand and hugged her. "I'm leaving tomorrow and never coming back."

"Very good." Her hand is in her pocket. "When you go back, don't compete with yourself."

He really wants to ask, what about you? Do you really stay here just to fulfill your friend's wish?

He let her go. "Can I call you later?"

"Yes, I'll give you a discount when your friends come to live in the future."

In the huge yard, only the faint light projected by the window next to it through the curtain, he looked at her quietly and then kissed her on the lips obsessively.

Bang.

She slapped him.

He will never come here again.

06

When he left, he took another black car.

The car was crowded with people who came into the city, both locals and tourists. The bus drove out of the scenic spot and drove into Panshan Highway. The driver is a Yi who can speak Chinese. He is very enthusiastic and talkative.

At this moment, a young man asked, "Master, do you know xia who runs a hotel?"

Shen Sihao noticed that this young man was the one chatting with xia in the yard that day.

"Xia Zhi? Everyone here knows her, and girls in big cities are not delicate at all. "

"Is the story she told true?" The girl next to me asked, "All my friends are dead."

"Not all." The driver replied.

Shen Sihao pretended not to look out of the window. This woman is really a liar.

"At that time, her boyfriend survived, but his boyfriend didn't take the last few words seriously. She's stupid. For those promises, more than half of China ran around. " The driver sighed. "Not long ago, her boyfriend called her to satirize her after she got married. Why do you think her boyfriend is so comfortable? "

"Then she is very poor."

"These years have been better. When she first arrived, she was as thin as a skeleton and drank all day. When she woke up, she felt that they were talking to her in her ear. "

"What about now?" Shen Sihao said.

"Very good." The driver turned the steering wheel and entered Panshan Highway.

Arriving in Xichang at two o'clock in the afternoon, he stood by the roadside and smoked a cigarette.

07

Seven hours later.

He stood in front of Asha's small hotel again.

Some people are destined to be different from the first sight.

At nine o'clock in the evening, xia was wearing flip-flops to collect sheets in the yard, and the sky was full of stars. He looked at her and said nothing.

She folded the sheets in her arms with both hands and looked at him with some surprise. "Have you forgotten something?"

He shook his head.

"Then what are you doing back?"

"I will come to you."

"Looking for * * * what?" She thinks it's interesting.

"Help you pay your debts." He has a straight face. "I am 26 years old and can be responsible for my words and deeds, so please be serious."

"Do you want to know? This is a place where it takes five hours to go to the cinema. "

"Never mind, I'll show you what you want to see in the future."

Asha wanted to say something else, but he had reached out and hugged her. "Stop it, I want to stay."

"Why?"

"I don't know, I just want to be with you."

When xia told me this story, we had just sat in Lugu Lake and finished the first bottle of wine. I said, "Do I dare to take an eight-hour mountain road from Chengdu to Xichang to listen to your fancy dog abuse?"

The breeze is slow and the sound of water bursts.

She looked at me with meaningful eyes. "Love someone who is willing to stay for you at any time."

I kicked her angrily. "You let me love, take me away, now is you want to stay. Why are you so disgusting? "

She smiled and raised the bottle and the * * * cup. "Can Zhou, love someone who is willing to stay for you, and then go with him, understand?"

I don't understand.

Later, when she was drunk, Shen Sihao came to carry her home. He cursed and coaxed her.

I can't help but want to grab a handful of dog food.

I said, "What do you think of her?"

He replied, "I wanted to sleep with her at first."

I'm choking badly.

"Later, I felt a little sorry for her. There are not many people in the world who have' shoulders' like her. " He carefully recalled: "In fact, after I was crazy with her in Lugu Lake that day, I had a fever. Although she said she was afraid that my death in the store would affect her business, when she was really sad, she slept in a chair and stayed with me all night. She is a good girl. "

"Be nice to her."

"I know."

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