"Kimi, Gao Caiping misses you very much."

At the height of his career, at the age of 28, he ended his life by committing suicide. These five years have been a long pain for Kimi's parents.

Five years ago, in the sudden heavy rain in Shanghai, they lost their only child and became parents who lost their children.

Before his death, Kimi once said something on a program with lost eyes, which still makes people feel sad. "I'm not broke, I'm still sick.".

The 27 talent show "Come on! My Hero shows an ordinary person how deus ex became an idol, and Kimi became a runner-up overnight. He officially made his debut and plunged into the entertainment circle.

not very lucky.

After that, the recording industry declined sharply, and Jing Bo Ran and Yifeng Li transformed the film and television industry one after another. Kimi was depressed by the disillusionment of his musical ideal, so he had to comply with this era, and he also went to act.

Kimi walked in this circle on thin ice for five years and found himself nothing.

He was placed in some shoddy TV series, playing bit part with no sense of existence. He was scorned and ridiculed by the director, and occasionally interacted with his former friends Jing Bo Ran and Yifeng Li. He was misunderstood as "rubbing heat" and "getting together so badly" ...

Kimi became a joke.

In everyone's eyes, he is just an idol product and not a talented person.

Later, he suffered from severe depression.

Kimi, who is in his twenties, has become cautious. He has to draw the curtains at home during the day, and no amount of sleeping pills can make him fall asleep before three o'clock in the morning. He even started to hurt himself.

Finally, one day in September 216, Kimi was overwhelmed and left. It rained heavily that day.

Kimi's parents were left with a death certificate.

Recalling the scene that day, Joe and Dad used two words to describe it: sad.

More than ten years ago, "Come on! My Hero's "Four Little City" finally reunited at Kimi's memorial service.

His ending ended in tragedy.

Qiao Kangqiang and Gao Caiping, who were left behind, were never the parents of Kimi, the star. They were ordinary parents who lost their children.

Joe and Dad have visited a nursing home in Shanghai. The environment is OK, and the canteen is very big, which will be the home of Kimi's parents.

they have obvious old ideas.

The white hair on his father Qiao Kangqiang's head shows the deep pain in his heart. He called his son's sudden departure fate, and there was nothing he could do.

later, he repeated it twice: fate.

on September 16th, 216, it rained heavily in Shanghai.

It was the day after the Mid-Autumn Festival. In the evening, Qiao Kangqiang and his wife Gao Caiping were cooking at home when they suddenly received a phone call: "Come quickly, he is not breathing, and I am so scared."

The caller is Kimi's girlfriend, Li Jiaai.

Li Jiaai recalled that ordinary afternoon. After eating buckwheat noodles and scrambled eggs with tomatoes, she and Kimi felt sleepy and took a nap on the second and third floors of the villa respectively.

this short farewell is a farewell.

In the evening, Li Jiaai went downstairs and saw Kimi lying flat on the bed, as if waiting for some kind of ending.

When she approached, the whole person felt at a loss. Kimi had a plastic bag on his head. Li Jiaai quickly pulled it off, only to find that it was several layers of bags. She called his name and tugged at his body, but there was no response.

Kimi committed suicide.

After receiving the phone call, my father Qiao Kangqiang was blinded. He ran downstairs and rode on the battery car and ran to his son's house. On the way, it became increasingly gloomy, and the rain drifted from the beginning to the pouring, and the rain fell on his face in big drops.

After Qiao Kangqiang arrived at his son's villa, the ambulance had already come and left a death certificate.

The old man couldn't accept this sudden loss. He collapsed on the ground, surrounded by crowds and voices. It was not until the farewell day that Qiao Kangqiang knew that his son was suffering from severe depression.

That's his son Kimi, not the star Kimi.

The boy who likes pink and bright, on the last day of his life, saw a gray and chilly world.

Five years ago, there was a sudden heavy rain in Shanghai, and the humid air was filled with an inextricable fog, much like Kimi's unspeakable grievances and pains.

with you.

When Qiao Kangqiang and Gao Caiping were interviewed by Chen Xiaonan, it was only a few days before their son Kimi's birthday on October 15th.

Two months ago, in the program Talking to Strangers, Kimi's father choked up. On the eve of his son's 34th birthday, Joe and Dad said, "Mom and Dad didn't embarrass you."

Qiao Kangqiang, who has never cried in public, can't stop crying. He misses his son.

The white hair on the father's head shows the deep pain in his heart.

On the talk show, Chen Xiaonan, as an interviewer, has always been restrained and calm. However, during this conversation with Kimi's parents, she shed tears.

Chen Xiaonan

Gao Caiping, the mother, said that she must live every day carefully. She would not think about what would happen in the future, and her son in heaven would be happy for himself.

When she mentioned her son, Gao Caiping looked proud. At home, there was a picture of Kimi in "Come on! My hero got the out-of-print photos of the top ten. "He is very handsome. He ranked first at that time. I am just very proud of my son. He is really sunny."

When the couple make a food video, their son Kimi's song will be played in the background music, and they will feel that their son has never left and he is by their side.

"enough fun, you can come back."

They must keep themselves busy, otherwise they will collapse when they are empty, and they are thinking of their sons in their own way.

There is a pink desk calendar on the living room table at home all the year round, staying in a favorite photo of Gao Caiping, and Kimi is sitting on a park bench, smiling happily in the sunshine.

My son keeps it with them in this way, and that old desk calendar will never fall on the dust.

Kimi has never been forgotten by his parents.

In the first two years of his independence, Kimi's parents tried to find out the cause of his son's depression through various clues.

Later, they stopped looking and started shooting short videos, saying, "What can we do if we find out the reason? The life of the living will continue.".

In March 219, nearly three years after the loss of their son, in order to get rid of their great grief, the couple began to try new things, shoot food videos online, cook and share food every day.

Although this is a bugle in memory of my son, it is also a bugle full of different voices.

Qiao Kangqiang's crooked mouth was caused by a medical accident decades ago. When he was doing a biopsy in the outpatient department, he encountered a nerve. He smiled at the video and said, "I don't mind. You can call me Grandpa Joe with a crooked mouth."

Mother Gao Caiping's big eyes and long face were caused by a pituitary tumor. Because some netizens said that she looked like a monster in One Piece, she went to search it and said that she really looked like it.

They resolve conflicts through self-teasing. In this situation, a smile is more powerful than a tear, which is what the son wants to see.

People with white hair send people with black hair pain. People who have never experienced it are not qualified to make any judgment. It can also be a kindness to shut up.

Joe's parents didn't do anything wrong, and they never got out of their grief. "They all said we could get out, but we couldn't.".

For Kimi, he certainly didn't expect that after his death, he would be more widely known than before. Isn't this another kind of sadness?

After Kimi died, her mother Gao Caiping wrote in the middle of the night: "I didn't take good care of you, and you are my eternal pride."

Shortly after his son was born, Gao Caiping resigned and became a housewife. Kimi and his mother had deep feelings.

As a child, Kimi was a polite and well-behaved child. Whenever he walked in the alley of an old house, when he saw his uncle and aunt, he would take the initiative to say hello and attend a dinner with his parents. He would never move his first chopsticks, but always gave his mother food first.

With such a clever son, Gao Caiping and Qiao Kangqiang are envied by their neighbors, but they just want their children to live a simple and happy life.

When I was a child, Kimi and her mother

Kimi were sensitive and delicate, perhaps because of their personalities.

He always called his mother Sister Ping. Whenever Kimi saw something new outside, he wanted to take his mother to experience it. On one occasion, he took Gao Caiping to disco, and when he went in, it was all young people.

"In the town where I was born, there lived a man who sailed. He told us about his life in a submarine, so we sailed until dawn until we found the blue sea. We live in a yellow submarine under the waves, and all our friends are on the boat. Most of them live next door to us ... "

The Yellow Submarine by the Beatles was a favorite song of Kimi when he was a teenager, because his father was a sailor.

Qiao Kangqiang works away from home all the year round and can only come back several times a year.

Kimi is always strict in front of his father for fear of making mistakes.

There are not many photos of a family of three. Most of the time, in the photos of the album, he is sitting next to his mother cleverly.

Kimi once wrote in his photo book Private Life:

"Since I was born, my life is not perfect. My father, who is a sailor, is away all the year round, and my mother raised me almost alone. When I grow up, I know that being a sailor's woman is very hard, because in addition to managing my own house, I have to wait for my husband's return for a long time, so my mother is the woman I admire most. "

Because of this, he had an idea from an early age that "I am an adult, and when my father is not at home, I have to shoulder the heavy responsibility of protecting my mother".

Compared with other ordinary families, the family conditions of seafarers are slightly better. When I was a child, Kimi was always the first to eat drinks with pulp and drink foreign milk powder in the whole alley, and whatever he ate was imported.

at that time, he always had a sense of superiority in his heart.

It wasn't until he grew up and became sensible that Kimi realized that his father couldn't see his progress and growth every time. He turned out to be a person who lacked his father's love.

When I was a child, Kimi and his parents

Although the father's love was "absent", Qiao Kangqiang also deeply loved his son, and he would clearly remember every detail of Kimi.

In 25, Kimi participated in the first talent show "Free My Heart" and won the national championship.

Mother Gao Caiping doesn't want her son to go this way. It's quite difficult to walk on a wooden bridge alone in a strange circle with cold water on his face.

Gao Caiping thought his son was just joking and dreaming, but later he found that his son was getting farther and farther down this road.

he was only 18 years old that year.

under the persuasion of his father, Kimi refused to sign a contract with a brokerage company and chose to study in shanghai dianji university.

In the university, Kimi was very popular and was an active activist. At that time, the school promised him that he would be sent to study in Germany.

In the parents' mind, after his son came back from studying in Germany, he entered a good enterprise and was old enough to get married and have children.

Qiao Kangqiang said: "This is also a good road. At least there is no such great pressure. People will come to an end in these decades, but at least it will not be so sudden."

The sure road has no connection with Kimi.

The appearance of a talent show completely changed Kimi's life after that.

Kimi and his mother Gao Caiping

On the evening of July 21st, 27, the talent show "Come on! After more than four months of noise, My Hero finally came to an end, and among thousands of young men, Jing Bo Ran, Kimi, Yifeng Li and Fu Xinbo were selected as "Four Little City".

During the whole process, everyone witnessed how an ordinary person became an idol in deus ex.

From left to right: Jing Bo Ran, Fu Xinbo, Yifeng Li and Kimi

Kimi are among them. It is easy to remember that he is tall and thin, with a bad smile and a little evil between his eyebrows and eyes. "Come on! During the audition of "My Hero", the director of Shanghai Division interviewed many people and was deeply impressed by him: "This kid is very cool."

Father Qiao Kangqiang came back from abroad and stayed at home for two months to watch TV with his wife Gao Caiping and cheer for his son.

Qiao Kangqiang looked at his son on TV, so bright and handsome, even a little strange, and more proud.

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19-year-old Kimi in "Come on! Kimi was only 19 years old when he edited the video in My Hero. In the draft era, he experienced the glorious moment of becoming famous overnight.

"I used to stand under the stage and shout the name of' Wang Leehom' like that, but when the person on the stage was me, all the shouts I heard were my name, the shock was indescribable. In fact, it's no exaggeration to say that I really enjoy it. Because every singer will enjoy the feeling of conquering others on the stage. "

That boy is cool in appearance, but warm in heart. Kimi's favorite color is pink, and he is as bright as pink. When a girl born in baby sounds was teased by the group, he offered to help.

However, the vanity fair in the entertainment circle has always been ruthless.

Kimi once wrote in his book: Maybe it is because my name is "Kimi" that I have been complaining that the heaven has not given me a great responsibility, and why I am still struggling with my mind, but I am still trying to fulfill my parents' expectations and be a pillar.

Libra, especially with artistic talent, did this publicity work, so Kimi wouldn't know that he was greeted not only by the spotlight and applause, but also by attacks and misunderstandings.

Kimi and his parents

Come on! After "My Hero", Kimi signed a contract with a brokerage company, officially debuted, and plunged into the entertainment circle.

He was wrapped in the myth of overnight fame, and the signed orange sky entertainment drew a beautiful blueprint for the young man. "The album will be produced by the top team, and KIMI will be turned into a superstar with all the strength."

As a fledgling Kimi, the road to development is not smooth, and the fame of draft stars comes and goes quickly.

He loves rock and roll. He once cherished the desire to become a powerful singer, but he failed.

On one occasion, Kimi met Zheng Jun, a rock elder, at the award ceremony. Zheng Jun, who has always been straightforward, said, "The talent show singers lack connotation overnight, and the so-called rock players dare to hang out with only three or four chords."

at that moment, he realized that he, the so-called new generation singer, was nothing in this circle.

Zheng Jun's words made Joe