About the destruction of faith

I have been very irritable recently because of my shattered faith.

For a while, my family was always worried that I would be deceived, so they often reminded me not to get too involved. Maybe it’s because our knowledge is limited, so we actually don’t understand what this world is?

At the end of last year, I did a homework to renew a certificate and signed up for a qualified training institution. Of course, the renewal of the certificate was not successfully completed. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be as brooding as I am now, and I often won’t think about life in good times. I can see all the flowers in Chang’an in one day, which is my experience with this training institution in the past seven years.

Although the past seven years have been wonderful, unfortunately, I did not renew my certificate at the end of last year. This made me reflect on two things, one is whether I should continue this professional qualification examination, and the other is whether the training institution I chose can help me.

I spent nearly 11 months thinking about this issue. Unfortunately, the answer to both of these is no.

First, I think I am not suitable for this professional qualification. In other words, the certificate is useless to me. No, it has become a weakness for attacks. Having it does not mean that it is convenient to do things. On the contrary, more and more people in this circle have this certificate. It takes a lot of energy and money to ensure that this certificate is valid, but it is lost slowly and naturally with the passage of time. How to put it, having it is useless, but not having it seems to be a shameful thing, but it is just a shame and has no real impact on life.

Second, my relationship with this training institution is that I can contribute to them, including cheering for their dreams. But this is not a two-way love. I only paid one-sidedly, and this organization did not make me feel at home. To put it bluntly, he is the daddy and I am the chick.

Every year, on the premise of paid services, I will do something to cheer for him. This thing has allowed me to do it with gusto for several years. I think it is very interesting and I can access every issue every year. new classmates, and I also received a lot of respect among them. But of course, I am only a very small existence, and when I worry about the dream of this training institution, my dream seems a bit insignificant.

Losing the validity of the certificate did not make our relationship awkward. The staff wrote a long letter of apology to me and asked whether they would refund the money to me. I said that the money was used for classes and there was no guarantee that I would pass the exam. To refund the money seemed unreasonable on my part. This exam is very valuable and everyone is very rigorous. My failure to pass the exam can only mean that my level is poor, and it cannot mean anything else, let alone the staff's inability to do things well. The staff member who wrote me the apology letter inexplicably took the blame. She was just doing her job. This matter was beyond her scope of knowledge, but she was asked to write an apology letter. I felt that I should apologize to her instead. A noisy person changed the test results and made it difficult for the school staff to do their jobs. Why should the staff apologize to this person? It's simply a matter of confusing right and wrong.

Therefore, my guilt allowed me to continue to maintain a good cooperative relationship with this training institution. This summer, a new training class starts. I paid the money and didn’t distribute many teaching materials, only a bunch of advertisements. Before the class started, the staff kindly arranged for me to attend the opening lecture. During the lecture, we were called "** babies". This ** was the name of this training institution, and the big names invited were from this training institution. Visiting professor, we, called "**babies", have to complete the exam under her guidance.

The new training class is quite mysterious. I don’t know who the teacher will be to teach me. Could it be the teacher who was very strict and made me unable to pass before? To enter this training class, you must meet certain requirements. If you enroll in If you fail the exam, you will quit studying. This is also quite strange. Students who want to enroll pay tuition first, and then the tutor will refund the tuition if they think the student is not qualified. Rather than paying an exam fee first and then paying tuition after passing.

Later, I thought about it and let it go. Although I don’t know if my level is suitable for this training class, I am sure of two things. I neither want to be called a “** baby” nor do I like to draw blind boxes. If this mentor still leads me from failure to failure, then I am not letting her and my time down.

Of course, the result was that I quit studying in this new training class. The staff refunded the fee very readily. They probably felt that this noisy student had little future.

A very interesting thing happened during this period, that is, I participated in the selection of new teaching assistants for the courses I had taken at this training institution. I think in order to get recognized by this training institution, I should cooperate more with this training institution so that I can understand their routines and gameplay, so as to avoid being judged as unqualified and getting certificates that cannot even be bought with money. What a valuable thing it is. I want to play with it. It should be said that I spent some effort to please everyone at this training institution.

After nervously handing in all the information, I was informed that I had failed the screening. A responsible comrade dismissed me with two sentences. The first sentence was, "You have failed the screening." The second sentence is that you should quit the group of prospective teaching assistants. They don't even bother to explain to you in detail the reason why you didn't pass the screening.

Then immediately a friend who told me about this selection opportunity asked me, hey, you didn’t pass the screening. I said, yes, my level is too low and I failed. When did the staff of this training institution have such a tough work style? They dismissed me with just two sentences. Now they are so business-like. Not only was it difficult to pass the exam for the certificate, but it was also so intractable to be a teaching assistant. I wrote more than 10,000 words and turned it in. It took a lot of back and forth, but when I finished, I received a two-sentence reply. This was so official and cool.

Later, I learned that everyone else who went to participate in the selection passed, but I failed. My companions who were traveling together did not gossip with me about this matter. I seemed to be forgotten outside the rolling trend like an old rag that was out of date and thrown away after use.

For this little friend who is traveling with me, I just want to say that I really made a mistake. I didn't pass, she passed. Of course I want to say congratulations. But I think if the results were reversed, and I passed and she failed, I would definitely ask why it was this result. I think you are still OK. I may also feel guilty towards this partner, because the result is something I don’t want to see. Although there is nothing I can do, it is necessary to give the other person some comfort. The staff can be official and cool, but are the people traveling with them so indifferent?

Later on, I still maintained a good connection with this partner. After the incident, I deliberately hung out in front of her for a while, but she seemed to have forgotten the thing we did together. , forget it, forget it, who told me to be an outdated old rag? As a winner, I think this is the most basic courtesy to give some comfort and cover to the loser. It's just that losers don't have to maintain any grace. It's quite refreshing to show off openly.

I also don’t understand this partner’s brain circuit. Maybe I am too pretentious, an outdated old rag that still needs other people’s attention, and I treat myself too much as a plate. This partner would even give me a few reminders when we almost worked together. I think since we can't appreciate each other, and I still want you to teach me how to do things at such an old age, I will remove this traveling companion from my friend list.

So much for the recent love-hate relationship with this training institution. There are a lot of rumors about me from the outside world. In fact, I am a simple person. I am not a name on your WeChat friend list. When you need me, I am needed. As for personal growth and any emotional fluctuations, I need to do it myself. Go and solve it, I want to unconditionally feel that what you are doing is right. I'm sorry, I only cooperate with people I like. If in the past memory, we had a lot of friction, then I'm sorry, I am not so poor that I need someone to give me a chance.

The best outcome for me and this training institution is to stay together rather than forget each other. A soldier is a naughty boy, and a general is a naughty boy. What kind of children will have what kind of parents? What does the staff need to apologize for? They are just working part-time. Why don't the leaders come out and say sorry?

Busy, yes, busy for what? If students don’t maintain their work and organize their work processes, what are they busy with? What does this training institution do? What are we doing together?

Only those who have no responsibilities are truly responsible. As a full-time housewife, my simplest philosophy is that if no one does something wrong and the result is wrong, then it must be The leader was going in the wrong direction.

In a company, if the leader is doing one-to-one sales, and sales is leading the team, then it can only be said that the leader is working for sales, while sales are driving away customers.

Just like if I, as a housewife, are busy with my children’s homework every day, but the children procrastinate on their homework and get poor grades, and still feel good about themselves and feel that they have to compete with the housewives to increase their sense of presence, I will also All I can say is that this child is indeed his biological child. He has dug a hole for himself, and he has to walk down it even on his knees.

Blaming and complaining are just ways to vent your emotions. What lessons can we learn from this incident?

Everyone in the organization is doing the right things, but the organization as a whole looks unwieldy and stretched thin. So, in my opinion, this organization has not developed enough and has no stamina.

Navigating the sea depends on the helmsman, the captain is fishing, the sailors are busy with their own affairs, and they are also busy reporting work progress to the captain. So what is the normal work process of this organization? What is the normal work reporting process? Did the captain really worry about where the ship was headed? In addition to enjoying the joy of fishing, does the captain care about the work process of every sailor?

Who will lead the ship to ride the wind and waves? By passengers? This is also a way.

The captain teaches passengers how to ride the wind and waves. What about his own ship? It doesn’t matter where you open it. Anyway, if a tailor can’t put on clothes, he won’t be laughed at, because we are all too busy asking the tailor to make clothes for us.

Although this is a joke, it is not funny at all to the passengers. What is the point of getting on a boat that is driving all the time and has to paddle on it from time to time? ?

The name of the article is "Destruction of Faith". Yes, for this passenger, it is the destruction of faith. Maybe the passenger does not intend to build another ship to sail to the other side of happiness, but only plans to Go with the flow and board an aircraft carrier to party. But the result is that at the end of the year and the beginning of the year, not only do I have to disembark, but I also have to change the route. Isn’t this something that is very scary to think about? No one wants the ship to sail carelessly, but now it has no direction. In the past, we could still say bad things about the captain, but when the captain really can't control the ship in rough waves, can we just leave and change the ship to have a carnival?

Captains of other ships are welcome to actively contact me. I want to change ships, immediately. If you have my contact information, I can pay a certain price, as long as you promise not to make random promises and do what you say. , it actually doesn’t matter whether you can go to the other side to have a carnival. We are all adults and will be responsible for our own choices. We are willing to admit defeat and just have a happy life on the boat. We have already had a bowl of spicy soup at the bottom, so we will encounter any storms again. It doesn't matter.