A monologue of a fat girl

Is there really a girl in the world who doesn't care about being fat?

A plus-size girl like me.

I thought Yan Rujing was such a girl who didn't care about being fat or thin. Her world is very simple, and she doesn't know the accident. Just be happy. Such a little girl should not worry about things like figure and weight.

But she laughed at herself in Chipa's story: They asked me if I liked anyone, and I said I didn't know. I don't have anyone I like now, do I? I just can't say it yet.

I once envied a friend of mine. She is a confident and fat girl, wearing a delicate little skirt, high heels and beautiful makeup. She said, there are so many delicious foods in the world, why lose weight? But it's the same girl who, after having someone she likes, is afraid to confess, and comes to me and says, Angie, I want to lose weight as hard as you do.

There are no two identical leaves in the world, but fat girls have similar personalities. "I think you are cute and chubby." "You have a great personality." "You are usually very interesting and funny." But who is always funny? Who won't be angry about anything?

To put it bluntly, they all feel inferior in their hearts. We don't believe what charm we have in our hearts, so we should try our best to maintain the image that everyone likes. Even if you don't like it, you won't refuse, you won't compromise easily, and you will often deny yourself and give up on yourself.

No one wants to live this life wronged by himself.

Either, you don't care about the rules of the world at all, and you don't care about the eyes of others. But do you know how hard it is? You have to compete with the whole world. When you think you are strong enough inside, you will be defeated by reality: sorry, these pants are not your size; Sitting in the co-pilot, the back is a little crowded; You are so fat, are you still afraid of the cold?

Either, you change yourself. Go to exercise, control diet, and live a regular life. You always find it difficult to lose weight because you don't know how cool it is to lose weight. Is it difficult to live a cautious and self-loathing life no matter how hard it is? You can wear thin clothes, you can repair photos, you can fool your eyes, but you can never fool your heart.

Like Jolin, become what you want, and then tell the world that you are blind because you can't see my beauty. You see, a queen like Jolin Tsai needs to make herself stronger before she has the courage to slap her enemies, doesn't she?

I used to think that as long as my heart was strong enough, I didn't need to care about my appearance. Turns out it wasn't. Self-confidence and a strong heart need self-confidence.

After four years in college, my weight soared to 160 kg. I am lucky that no one around me is cynical about me. On the contrary, all my friends encourage me to "look good this way", but I still can't be confident. I flinched all the way, afraid to ask for what belongs to me. My first reaction was that there was nothing I could do. Even once, the cashier was short-changed, and I stood at the exit, afraid to come back, thinking: Forget it, I won't come to this store next time. I have read a lot of books and done a lot of psychological construction for myself, but I just don't like that chubby self.

I clearly remember the day when I made up my mind to start losing weight. It was very hot. I was panting after a few steps, and my hair was beaten into beads of sweat. I asked myself: Do you really want to live like this all your life?

I don't want to. I know I am not strong enough. With this baggage, I can never fly and live the life I want. Without falling in love or being hit hard, I started the road of self-discipline to lose weight. I didn't even send a circle of friends, and I didn't tell others as before: I really want to lose weight. After a year and three months, I did it quietly. After I really lost weight, I found that I began to care about other people's opinions. I could have lived a chic life.

Girl, I hope you lose weight, not because you are not beautiful enough, but because you have enough confidence to get rid of cowardice, hesitation and negative emotions and live the life you want, just like me. I hope you can lose your temper when you are angry, refuse if you don't like it, and don't indulge in problems with others. I hope you can be yourself to the maximum.

I want to give all the plus-size girls a hug and a gas station. Maybe this article is chicken soup in the eyes of others, but I believe you understand. I want to tell you that you must work hard and you can be what you want.

You can. You deserve it.