Sister and brother, why is my fate so miserable?

My brother and sister, I am the one in the middle. Generally, this kind of situation is not very popular at home, and in our time, beating and scolding children was very common, but to my surprise, when I was growing up, my parents never beat me and never asked me why. Father said that because I was too obedient, I couldn't find a reason to hit me. But my sister and brother are often beaten, and there are two pictures that impress me the most.

When my sister was in primary school, my father used to hang my sister with a belt and beat her severely. My sister screamed in pain until my father was tired and my mother couldn't persuade her. I was scared silly at that time. Later, when I was sensible, I realized that because my sister spent fifty cents on snacks at home, my father beat her like this because she was afraid of getting into the habit of stealing. I hope I can remember it forever.

My brother was often beaten and trained when he was a child. Once he made a mistake for some reason, my father put him in an urn filled with water, covered it, and refused to let him out or eat for a day. My brother cried in fear.

Until now, we still talk about these things occasionally, just as a joke. Maybe this kind of thing was very common in my parents' time, beating and cursing were very common, and I didn't think there was anything wrong. Although he has never been beaten, he is often denied, including finding a partner. Dad often says that you are average, but you still want to find someone similar. In his eyes, his son is excellent, as long as both daughters can be found. This concept makes me feel insecure, and it is easy to find a partner. Although I have healed a lot with my age, the consequences of many choices I have made cannot be changed.