Life is self-salvation

Life is a kind of self-salvation, and sometimes I suddenly get confused: why don't others understand me? Sometimes I suddenly wake up: only you are the one who really understands you. People always have such desires, such as longing for freedom, happiness, money, respect and so on. But in the end, I can only redeem myself. It is very wrong and extremely dangerous to base expectations or anything you desire on others.

The only thing I feel sad these years is that I still can't control my emotions. It's really a headache! I feel that I have failed, pitiful, and it is meaningless to be influenced by emotions.

I tried to relax. My dream is very heavy, sometimes it is a continuous nightmare, and I cry when I wake up. However, I can't catch what I like more and more. I spent a lot of time and energy on raising the baby, and I had to deal with some bad interpersonal relationships, which made me physically and mentally exhausted. Being a new mother always worries about all kinds of care, which makes me very anxious. If the baby is uncomfortable or crying, I feel that I am not doing well and I blame myself, but everyone except myself seems to be doing badly.

Night is suitable for calm thinking. Looking at the sleeping husband and baby, sometimes I feel a little insomnia. I feel that thinking more is not as effective as having a good sleep.