It's not that you can't love, just that you can't love me.

It's hard to imagine that a person who doesn't even bother to go to the canteen and orders takeout for three meals a day is willing to run three blocks to buy maocai and carefully tell the person on the other end of the phone about each dish. Sometimes he accidentally clips it wrong and laughs in a low voice.

Stop it. Look at the pox on your mouth. If you eat Chili again, I'll hit you. The shop is deserted, and your gentle voice is particularly clear, but to me, every word is like a needle, poking your heart.

When did you learn to love someone? I used to be woken up by gastroenteritis in the middle of the night, so I called you. You didn't hear me at all, so you hung up.

When did you learn to be considerate? I pestered you to buy me a birthday present, but you were too lazy to choose. You bought me a skirt that my roommate gave his girlfriend. It's not even the right size.

When did you learn to smile when you spoke? You always talk to me in a single tone. I tried my best to find a joke to read to you, and then I laughed alone, and you were unmoved.

When I buy good food, my mouth is still upturned when I turn around, but I am stiff when I see it. You tried to squeeze out a polite smile, but you saw my scarlet eyes and just nodded in a hurry and left.

Oh, I remember, you didn't learn at all. You just don't want to love me, understand me, smile at me, that's all.

2

I chased you and made a romantic confession at the school radio station. The whole school heard it. I rushed into your class, and you took my hand in pain to save my face.

Then your eyes flashed, and you said you didn't know how to love others. I tried to hold you tight and say it's okay. I'll teach you.

You were too busy with club activities to eat. I packed the ribs and sent them. You accepted them in front of everyone, and then quietly threw them into the trash can. Here comes your favorite star. Waiting at the airport in the early morning, my shoes were trampled to get my signature. You just said thank you lightly. I said good morning and good evening to you, but I didn't get any response.

I did everything a boy should do for a girl, but you never cared.

I am the kind of person who is desperate. I don't hide what I want to say, I strive for what I want, and I try my best to solve difficulties. I thought that God would not fail those who worked hard, but I forgot about love. Even god can't help me

You finally met a girl who wanted to protect her life. You let me really break up this time.

three

I asked about the girl. A little lower than me, a little baby fat, a pair of big eyes like a coquetry without saying anything.

I bought a lace skirt, don't tie a bow on it. I asked my friend if I was too strong before, so I was much cuter. Her eyes widened in disbelief.

I don't understand how a proud person like me can feel inferior because of you. How can a person like you who is not sensible and indifferent to everyone suddenly become her warm man?

I heard that you will squat down to tie her shoelaces, take her shopping on weekends, and cook for yourself on your birthday.

You have been reluctant to make public, and even set patterns with candles on the playground and sing love songs to her.

You have changed so much, the only thing that hasn't changed is your attitude towards me. I walked past you in a pink suit, but you still didn't look at me.

I finally understand that even if I become what you like, I can't be the person you like.

four

I can't say I wish you happiness, because every concern you have for her reminds me how failed I am.

I can't blame you. After all, I am the one who insists on putting out the fire, and I am the one who refuses to let go.

Maybe it's because I love the wrong person.

Just as apples can't grow with bananas, birds can't try to fly in the sea, and penguins can't swim in Africa, my warm and innocent personality can't please your heart that likes small jasper after all.

But it doesn't matter, there will always be people who are unreasonable and partial to me, just like you are to her, and only smile at me the warmest.

However, if time goes back, I hope you will stop saying that you don't know love. Being rejected is better than being lost for a long time. It took me so long to convince myself that it's not that you can't love, but that you can't love me.