Although I was a little stupid, I finally completed my legal exam journey

?On the evening of January 8, I asked my son to accompany me to watch "Spiritual Journey". When the male protagonist said: "I have been waiting for this day all my life. I thought I would be different." , but in fact I am no different." I felt a sense of shock from this sentence that hit my heart.

Indeed, the plot of the law test is a hurdle that I cannot get around in my life. I have waited all my life for this day and struggled for so many days and nights, but this day is also like my There is no difference between yesterday and tomorrow, but for me, the Fakao road I have walked tells me that this day is beautiful and I deserve it!

Looking back on the road to the law examination, I posted a message on WeChat to express my feelings: 2020 was really not easy. The process was difficult, difficult, confusing, and sudden, but it was painful but joyful!

?Although you have a dream, you still need passion to ignite it

I believe that everyone who studies law will have the dream of passing the law exam! After all, this is a threshold for legal professionals. I graduated from university in 1997 and started working within the system. In 1999, I obtained a self-study undergraduate diploma in law from Xiangtan University, which sparked the idea of ??taking the judicial examination. But the judicial examination at that time was useless to people within the system. It was not part of the court or procuratorate system. Even if you passed the examination, you could not use it for anything. It seemed that you could not even get a certificate. While hesitating, I also bought a few books on the judicial examination, stayed up late at night to read for some days, and took a judicial examination (I can’t remember the exact year). When the results came out, I was about ten points behind. , I felt relieved all of a sudden. For the next twenty years or so, I basically worked in general back-office work, gradually drifting away from the law.

In December 2017, I went to Changsha to take part in an advanced law enforcement qualification examination organized by my employer. As soon as I left the examination room, I couldn't help but lament that at the age of 43 at the time, there was basically no chance of entering the examination room again. When I was on the stage to receive my certificate, I discovered that a female colleague in my unit (a little older than me) received a reward for passing the legal professional qualification examination. After checking the information carefully, I found out that the previous judicial examination has been changed to the law examination, and the state encourages administrative agency personnel to take the examination. After passing the law examination, they can serve as public lawyers in their units, and they can become social lawyers after three years.

This is undoubtedly a huge temptation for me, and the success of my colleagues also allows me to see another possibility for me. Although I have not had any specific contact with the law in the past twenty years, I can still be considered more or less within the legal circle. I hope that after I pass the law exam, I will first become a public lawyer, and then I can do something of my own when I retire. It won't be empty or boring. So I began to consciously pay attention to legal knowledge through public accounts and Weibo, but I still had no confidence in the legal exam. Until November 2018, I was seconded to work in the Women’s Detention Center. This is a gathering place for the work of the public prosecutor, law and lawyers. I often come into contact with a large number of legal documents, have various relationships with the public prosecutor and law, and more importantly, come into contact with a lot of detainees. Their urgent need for the law made me truly see the value of the law, and the dream I once had was suddenly ignited here. After the end of 2019, I bought a set of law exam books and started to study again. I took the law exam at the end of August 2019, and the objective questions were still more than ten points behind, and I failed. In November 2019, I purchased the Reda objective test study package on Taobao to keep up with the pace of online classes. I basically spent 2020 studying and working until the end of the law exam.

Looking back on the process of taking the exam, anxiety is always with me. There were too many times of self-denial, too many times of wandering and retreat, but in the end I persisted. The main reason is that I have a strong desire to realize my dreams. The road to legal examination that I once thought I had given up on was suddenly awakened twenty years later, and once awakened, my passion seemed to be ignited.

Especially when I went to the Women's Detention Center, I had close contact with the detainees and explained various legal issues to them. I learned about their cases one by one, which made me feel that the road to practicing law is still very arduous and we need to learn more. Law, publicize the law, and at the same time use the law to help this group of lost people who break the law and commit crimes. It really has a sense of mission, which makes me more eager to pass the law exam. On the one hand, I can have the legal qualifications to carry out my work better, and at the same time I can learn more legal knowledge to help them.

? Only by resisting high pressure can we be efficient

? Just after the end of 2020, the new crown epidemic hit China. Our work and life rhythms were completely broken, and detention centers also entered the war. Always on duty. The pattern of isolation--on-duty--home isolation has become the norm. My longest record of isolation and on-duty work was that I was unable to go home for 36 days. The days on duty are basically full of walking and running, and there are always things to deal with. The most important thing is that the psychological pressure is very high. It is a closed space. I can’t see the sky when I look up every day. If I want to run, I can only do it in the corridor. Turning around, my heart was gloomy, and the people and things I came into contact with were also relatively gloomy. At this time, I lay back in the dormitory and basically refused to move. When I held the book in my hand, the words were all staring at me. But precisely because of high pressure, people need the courage to resist it. When I realized my condition, I immediately adjusted myself and made a study plan every day. Even if I couldn't read the book, I still had to listen to the book I wanted to read. After listening for a long time, I found it interesting, so I listened and learned the knowledge. At the same time, he adjusted his duty status, regularly gave law classes to detainees through radio, organized them to study law, and also organized some activities such as listening to songs and telling stories to mobilize their enthusiasm. This method of learning and teaching at the same time is indeed very motivating for me. The preparation before class, the discussion after class, and the legal consultation notes I received every time I walked through the cell made my mind Focus more on studying the Fa. Only if you are stronger can you teach them better. Once the pressure is transformed, the efficiency of learning will be obvious. Although I am very busy at work, I basically get up before six o'clock in the morning and study for 2-3 hours. I only sleep for half an hour at noon, study for 1-2 hours, and spend another 2-3 hours studying at night. , although it is very hard and tiring, it basically guarantees my study time. Although the time of isolation at home was short, it basically ensured that I could stay at home and study without being disturbed in the name of isolation. Although the study time was compressed, the learning efficiency was higher and the effect was better.

Looking back on 2020, I see the infinite possibilities for my work. I did do a lot of creative work during the quarantine, which was laborious but also beneficial, such as setting up a mobile library in the prison cell. I spent a lot of time recommending books, collecting and sorting them, and then distributing them to each prison cell; I used every possible time every day to give legal classes to detainees. Sometimes the time was limited and the lectures might only last for twenty minutes, but these were all given to the detainees. This has given me a great sense of accomplishment and value, which has also doubled my confidence in studying the Fa. Every time I feel anxious or lethargic, I feel like someone is forcing me to cheer up and let me learn the Fa. In the limited time, I accomplished what I thought was impossible.

?Although I am a little stupid, I finally caught up with the rhythm

When I had the idea of ??taking the law exam in 2019, I bought a set of books for the law exam and took it at home I studied behind closed doors for a period of time, but the results were very unsatisfactory. The first reason is that I have not studied systematically for many years, and a lot of knowledge is out of touch, making it difficult to learn. The second reason is that age is indeed a big obstacle. I seem to understand the book after reading it, but forget it after I put it down. , you basically rely on confusion when answering the questions, which undoubtedly hurts your self-confidence. Even if I signed up back then, I was just going through the motions.

Realizing my limitations, in 2020, I wisely bought a study package for Reda objective questions and followed the online courses. The effect of listening to the lectures is still much better than reading a book. At least there is the possibility of interaction. Sometimes I listen to the teacher Tell a few jokes and make fun, and you will feel more relaxed. Moreover, learning tasks do not need to be arranged. They are placed there every day. When online courses are updated, just catch up quickly. I will follow wherever the teacher orders. My learning ability is limited, so I am stupid, so I can only follow the books and courses honestly, from the essence of lectures, essence, real questions, laws and regulations to the pre-exam focus, I can follow the lessons without missing a beat. Regardless of whether you can do it or not, fill it in, and then look for answers and repeatedly find out the reasons for the mistakes. Sometimes after listening to Ruida's class, I listen to the difficult ones again, or go to other law examination websites to listen. Whenever I have free time, I also take pronunciation courses, so I can listen and take notes at any time. Keep in mind the wise saying of Zhong Xiuyong: "repeat, repeat, repeat". "Diligence can make up for weakness". For me, who is forgetful, it does take a lot of time and energy, but it is very practical. Although I have doubted my ability countless times, just like the moment I got my transcript, I didn’t believe it was true, but I have to admit that the hard work I put in was not in vain, it was a result of being As you accumulate little by little, there will always be more or less rewards, and bigger surprises may really fall from the sky, making you understand that all the efforts you have put in are worth it.

The future is promising, thanks to those of us who work hard!

Let’s go back to the early morning of January 8, 2021. It was early after eight o’clock. I still couldn’t open the webpage to check the scores. I thought about many possibilities in my heart. I had made plans that I would never pass, and imagined that I was about to start another year of hard work. I wandered in the WeChat group of the French Examination for a long time, and all I saw were cheering score information, which made me hopeful. There are so many Everyone has passed, maybe I can become one of them. So I opened the webpage and clicked to enter. The subjective score was 121. I couldn't help but roar, feeling ecstatic in my heart. I drove the car to the work unit with tears streaming down my face. I feel like I have spent a lifetime preparing for this day. On the same day, a detainee whom I once disciplined found me through various channels and asked me to meet. We talked about many topics together, including of course the books and law classes I brought to them. I told her eagerly , I passed the law test, and I was one step closer to the promise I had made to them. Her eyes were shining, and she thanked me sincerely!

I once told them that as long as we work hard and have the right direction, we can have a promising future! And I want to be that light, even if it is weak, it can still have warmth and guidance!