Secret love is a person's shuddering.

My friend l fell in love with a sophomore at an activity. From then on, she began a secret love journey.

She got the student's QQ number from others and added him. Usually, she always finds some topics to chat with him. This classmate knows her, but not very well. Perhaps, walking on the road, he may not recognize her.

L is a shy girl, but in this case, in her words, how can I feel so thick-skinned and want to talk to him, but I often don't know what to talk about, so I always fall into self-torture. I don't believe that my junior doesn't understand the meaning of L, but even though I know that my junior doesn't like her, she still can't let go.

Many times, once she is free, or sees some scenes, she will think of that schoolmate. Then, I fell into the feeling of Ma Benteng, and felt uncomfortable. However, her uncomfortable mood is completely self-directed, and she is sad again. That boy didn't know there would be such a person at the moment, and he was sad behind his back. That elusive distance is the pain that every secret admirer bears alone in countless free time.

Like a person, afraid that he knows, and afraid that he will pretend not to know when he knows. In that shady relationship, people who have a secret crush often torture themselves. She likes to look for hints from her usual chat records that he also likes you, and then, with this glimmer of hope, she will continue to stick to it.

Friend Z said that she had this feeling of secretly loving someone when she was in junior high school. Y, whom she likes, is a primary school classmate with her. Although junior high school is still in a school, there is little overlap because she is not in a class. Occasionally, I will meet Y on my way home from school, and she will run past her quickly just to make him notice her.

Finally, in the third grade, they were assigned to the next class. In other words, every time I pass by the door of their class, the probability of seeing him increases. According to the school practice, people with similar grades in each class are often assigned to an examination room, and students in adjacent classes are also assigned to front and back positions. With luck, in a monthly examination room, Z searched for Y in her examination room. Search for a circle, she didn't see Y, and she was very lost, but at this moment, she saw Y sitting in front of her. So, Z suppressed his excitement and didn't let others see him. Chatting with y for a while, at that time, her heart was indescribably happy. It seems that I have forgotten the exam.

Z is so happy to see y chatting with him. Enough to keep her in a good mood all day. Taking advantage of this time, Z borrowed a math book from Y and said that he would return it to him as soon as possible after reading it. So, after the evening self-study, Z sat on the bed alone, holding Y's math data and reading it carefully. Seeing Y's message, Z felt as if Y was with her. The little secret joy in her heart ignited her love for Y. She carefully looked at the questions Y had done, carefully circled his mistakes with a pencil, and then wrote the correct answers beside her.

At recess the next night, Z called Y out, returned the information to Y, and told him that all the wrong questions had been corrected for him. Say that finish, Z turned and ran back to the classroom. Just because of this little thing is enough to make her happy for several days.

I remember in a political class, I didn't know what the teacher said about unrequited love. The teacher said that some people who secretly love someone will think that a book of that person or a few words to her will make them very happy. Z felt that the teacher seemed to be talking about himself, smiling and lowering his head. Her deskmate joked that you were blushing, and the teacher was not talking about you. Z doesn't know how to explain it, but he keeps this secret carefully for fear of being discovered by others. In this way, Z liked Y for a whole junior high school. She liked him for three years in junior high school and didn't let him know her mind until she graduated from junior high school.

Sometimes, I like someone inexplicably, and I don't even know what I like about him. Maybe it's a look, an action, a word that makes you warm ... When you like someone, you often feel that this person is very good at that moment, and then you start to pay attention to him, and gradually your feelings for him have changed. Sometimes, I don't even know if I like that feeling. All I know is that I like chatting with him and have the feeling of being around him. If you see him getting close to other girls, you will feel strangely uncomfortable.

And then the process of unrequited love is a person's trembling. Many times, I miss that person very much and want to chat with him, but there is often no reason to break the silence between you. Then, the in the mind is a burst of loss. Afraid of being idle, I enrich myself with all kinds of daily chores to get busy, thinking that I will temporarily forget to miss him/her.

Most people who secretly love you don't have the courage to say "I like you". They are afraid that nothing will change after they say it, and even they are not qualified to secretly like you. I am afraid that you are not good enough to walk side by side with you; I'm afraid that even friends can't be friends ... so, a person hides this love silently and looks at him/her from a distance.

When you secretly love someone who is better than you, that kind of love will be your driving force. Try to make yourself excellent, try to reach the height of advancing with him, try to let him see your existence, try to let him see your bright spot, try to make himself worthy of the excellent one ... So, originally, I tried to meet a better self because of love, but in the end, I found that the person you like may not be worthy of the excellent one you are now. I just found out that you can be so good. You thank yourself for not giving up on yourself, for your desperate efforts, and for liking him at the beginning.

Most of us are ordinary people. If the person you secretly love at this time is not excellent, it is enough to make you unattainable at that time. You dare not tell him your heart, because you predicted the result before you said it. I recently read a story on a WeChat official account. Girls have secretly loved a boy at school since their freshman year, but they are afraid to confess because they are not particularly good-looking. She has been secretly in love with that boy for 4 years. At a party about to graduate from college, she bravely expressed her mind to that boy. But all I got was a sentence from that boy: "I'm sorry." She also thought that this would be the result. This confession is an account of her four years of college youth. Unexpectedly, after that, the boy took it as a laughing stock and said to people everywhere, "xxx, it's ridiculous that you dare to confess to me when you grow up like this." The girl finally heard this, and she was hurt. I didn't expect a boy who has been secretly in love for four years to regard his love as a joke.

When you secretly love someone, you are afraid that you will like it carefully. In the eyes of others, it is just a joke that can be told everywhere. Therefore, most of us choose not to say, and keep this love quietly in our hearts.

Sometimes I want to forget him/her. Search hard for all kinds of evidence that he/she doesn't like himself, thinking that this will convince him/her to forget him/her. However, every time he/she sends a message, all his previous efforts will go up in smoke. You will also blame yourself for disappointing, why can't you turn around and leave, why can't you miss him. However, when we like a person, it is really hard for you not to pay attention to his emotions. It's hard not to reply to his/her message.

The process of unrequited love is a wonderful and painful process, and you don't know when you can get out. Slowly, you will get used to having someone in your heart all the time, which will affect your mood. His/her words will affect your mood all day. Secret love is always just a person's chaos, and the person who has been secretly loved will never realize how fragile you were and how much you like him/her.

Say it bravely if you like it. So what if it's rejected? At least we put a satisfactory end to that secret love. At least we can free ourselves from the pain of unrequited love. At least we have tried, no matter what the final result is, we will not regret it, and we will not feel sorry when we look back on this period of youth in the future. At that time, you can also face and accept the result bravely, and you will find that the result is not as uncomfortable as you think, but will feel very relaxed.

If you like each other, stay together. If you like someone who doesn't like you, then bravely turn around and leave to meet a better self. I believe that one day, someone will see your goodness. Zhang Xiaoxian said that everyone may have loved those who didn't love themselves, and they will never forget their tears and grievances. Many years later, looking back, what did he deserve from me? In the long-distance running of life, I was much better than anyone he liked at that time, but he didn't understand my goodness.