If I only have three days left to live

When I got this topic, I hesitated for a while. I wanted to write but didn’t know what to say!

It is raining outside and the sky is gray. If I only have three days left to live now! Hey, what a profound and incredible topic! Then I thought I must have exhausted my life through smoking and drinking, or it was some kind of cancerous lesion, but I didn't think I was committing suicide? Killed? Accident? Or for various other incredible and unknown reasons, I only have three days left to live!

What a precious three days! Only three days left! On the first day, I would get up very early and dress myself up carefully, put on impeccable makeup, put on a sweet and lovely dress, and put on my favorite jewelry. Then, I would go out to the market to buy materials and prepare a sandwich for my parents. With milk? Soy milk? Or juice is a good nutritious breakfast. I wish it was Saturday so they didn't have to go to work and could have breakfast with me and then watch TV with me. At noon, we can drive out to buy groceries together, and then my dad and I will start cooking, while mom just sits and waits to join the barbecue army. In the afternoon, I took a lunch break with them, then went hiking together, then went to eat bean curd cakes, and then bought groceries to cook. That was it in the evening. After dinner, I took a shower, and the whole family watched TV together in the living room, chatting with people far away in Hainan. The furry video! Later, I will tell my parents that I am going to Guangzhou tomorrow, don’t stop me, let my youth be bravely exiled once, and let me be so willful again! I would call and chat with Mao Maoer before going to bed, telling her to study hard, keep herself clean, and treat others with filial piety and kindness! And I left her an email telling her the truth, asking her to say hello to this beautiful world that I missed, be filial to my parents, support my husband and raise my children, and make up for all my regrets! Don’t forget that I am involved in life

I don’t think I dare to sleep, nor can I sleep. After all, sleeping is already a luxury for me! I will carefully choose my clothes, take a shower, put on makeup, then sit alone on the window sill, watching the night and dawn, then light a cigarette, preferably a glass of Martell! When the sun rises, I will rush to the wet market at seven or eight in the morning to buy seafood, vegetables, and your favorite mangosteens, lychees, and durians to contact the earliest shuttle bus to Guangzhou! If today were Sunday, I would be very happy and thank God for blessing me so well. After traveling thousands of miles to give him a call, I might be reprimanded, scolded, or scolded, but I can only be brave this time, right? I kept calling him, and of course when I got to the subway station, I climbed onto the Panyu subway and kept calling him, taking turns, telling him that it was urgent and urgent, and I couldn’t wait to see him! I think he will come. Don’t go on business trips or work overtime. The most important thing is don’t turn off your phone! Anyway, I was stopped at the gate of the community. Why! People who want to die are so not afraid of death! The result is nothing more than all kinds of outrageous curses and angry outbursts, all kinds of coquettishness and tantrums, all the while going home to cook, and not even buying the vegetables! Show off, cook, cook, and then have a delicious meal almost before dusk. I would drag him to the park in front to fly a kite and let him sing and tell me jokes! Let him cook for me in the evening, even instant noodles is good, but only if he is willing, otherwise I will give him a good meal, except for the self-service barbecue at his door! I go home and wash his hair, then apply it to each hair dry, and then give him a "horse to kill", we sit on the sofa and watch TV, and let him apply to my wet hair, because I am sleepy, just like before Apply it carefully! Let him tell me his best jokes, and then sleep and do things that people of his age love to do. Anyway, I will keep watching him day and night, hoping to see through him. While he is asleep, I will delete all my contact information without leaving any traces, and log out of Weibo and WeChat! Delete all the articles in the blog, seal them up, and then change the QQ signature to the prayer "Everyone I love should be happier than me!"

At dawn, he would go to work the next day and take me to the gate of the community to buy raisin cakes.

Then, I would tell him seriously: "I will never come back this time. I will take our baby to a distant place to settle down and wait for you. You have to be good!" Then, he would get very angry and scold him. My neurosis started to have another nervous attack. Send me to 129 and go to work! If He hadn't come, none of the above would have happened! I think I will climb up to my "small waist", and then I will definitely make friends in Fangcun that night, but like this, I may "die with my eyes closed"

On the last day, I will choose a place with beautiful scenery Sit down! Haixinsha, Xiaomanyao, Ferris wheel, these would be my first choices, because I like the Orion Bridge, I have loved it since I walked across it that night, and I have gone alone many times! I will call all my friends, the ones I like and have feelings for, to say hello, and tell them to love life, be kind to yourself, and live well! Check out the current situation, chat with us, and leave a message if you don’t have time! It’s almost noon. Let’s have a meal at a Western restaurant, drink some wine, and then take an artistic photo. Why do we have to leave a “posthumous photo” or something in the end? Just leave my sister’s phone number! I think the posthumous photos should be more beautiful! Can you make my funeral pink, and turn the black and white into pink elegiac satin or something? I don’t like black and white! It was almost night after the shooting. I went to the hospital to sign all the clauses, contracts, and agreements that voluntarily gave me away for free. I don’t know how much time I had left. I wanted to see the sea, and I wanted to go to the seaside, the nearest seaside! It would be best if God could take great mercy on me right now and allow me to rush to the beach at the last moment in my lifetime and watch the midnight and dawn on the sea. I don’t know if there is a sunrise! I hope I can see the sunrise! No one knows how I passed away. Was it because I died of illness? Will friends in the media mistake him for freezing to death, and then make it to the front lines or headlines today? How could he be regarded as a "reputable" person for once!

When I die, how about planting my ashes into a tree? A magnolia tree, I think I will be very happy! If it’s not troublesome, please let me and my grandpa be buried together, and plant me in my grandma’s hands! I'm sorry, my parents, my sister, and the people I think I will love most in my life. If you find it troublesome, please sprinkle me into the sea and scatter the few remaining ashes. If I had a choice, I would swim to the sea in Yangjiang, because that sea is the purest, clearest and most beautiful sea I have ever seen! There I have the most beautiful friendship, the most genuine kindness, and the most simple heart.