Does anyone have the original text of Lin Huaien's "Big Brother"?

You said: This is an era that is suitable for hard-heartedness in life. To draw chestnuts from the fire, there is neither past nor future, only the quick start of the present. If you hold this attitude, you may feel that you can better seize opportunities and have a greater chance of success. This is also about modifying our own platform to adapt to the situation. I admit it. You simply said: This is an era that requires a change of heart. The soft ones should be replaced by hard ones, and the hard ones should be replaced by sharp ones, which can be closer to or match the times. However, I still can't get hard, and I can't change it. After thinking about it: I am too soft-hearted. As for that hometown, I have been far away from it for decades, and the luster of my memory has been washed away by time. But I was still anxious all day, thinking about going home, going home. In fact, my parents are no longer alive in my hometown, and only my elder brother and sister-in-law are still busy there, running around. What's so good about it? But I imagined them running around all day long. Originally, running for life was the same no matter where I was. Why wouldn’t my three brothers look like this no matter where they were? However, what makes me heart-wrenchingly think about my elder brother, elder brother and sister-in-law and the place where they live. Speaking of which, that place is simply another isolated existence in my imprint, an isolated world that exists just for me. In that land, especially when my eldest brother is still there, my thoughts go there as often as I am on a business trip.

After taking the bus back to Shulinzhao, we need to transfer to a country car and drive another 50 miles to our home. To be more precise, it is the eldest brother's home. I have two options: One is to take bus No. 8 to Qiaotou Station, and then walk 3 kilometers when I get there. It was a dirt road through fields and fields. It has just rained in the past few days. When it rains, it is impossible to walk on the red clay ground along the river. I can't push the bicycle ten meters. I am afraid it will take me three hours to walk that section. In addition, you can take bus No. 19 directly to your home. The bus stop is five meters behind the elder brother's house. But bus No. 19 would leave four hours later, so I had to wait another four hours at Shulinzhao. I called my elder brother to tell him about my arrival in the woods. The eldest brother said eagerly at the other end: Just take the No. 8 bus. The No. 8 bus leaves every 15 minutes. When you get to Qiaotou Station, I will ride a motorcycle to pick you up... I quickly stopped. I replied that he would decide based on the situation. In fact, when I heard that he was going to pick me up, I made up my mind to take the No. 19 bus. My eldest brother who takes bus No. 8 will ride a motorcycle through that muddy section. My eldest brother is already old and I don’t want him to be burdened.

After the car arrived at the eldest brother’s house. I jumped off the pedal and suddenly saw my elder brother approaching. Dressed in grass gray, he was three meters away from me. The figure blends in with the decaying grass. The complexion is also similar to the earth color of the mud wall. He was so close to the wall that he didn't see it. I said, I was looking around for you in the car, but I didn't even see you. The eldest brother reached out and took my bag. I saw those big hands, palms upward, with five fingers crooked and covered with dust. I looked at him and he stared at me closely. Suddenly I saw my sister-in-law nearby. She raised her face to face me: His fourth father—are you back? Ouch——! sister in law! Hello sister-in-law. Hello, sister-in-law... When I called my sister-in-law, I felt like crying, and my tears flowed out. My sister-in-law bent over deeply. Lao Gao can talk to me only when he raises his face. I could see that she was very tired. I said: Let's go home, let's go.

My sister-in-law has been relying heavily on crutches to walk. Walk like an old performer on stage. Back home, my sister-in-law made tea. The eldest brother leaned over to the top of the cabinet to get a cigarette. It's hard to get. My sister-in-law said: Isn’t this smoking? The eldest brother replied that the cigarette was not good, and I said that I don’t smoke. I said: Sister-in-law, please sit down too. I just had tea in the forest...

After sitting for a while, I got up and went to look at the crops around my eldest brother's house. The corn is already very good. The corn cobs are already white and yellow, and it is well past the time to nibble green. There were several watermelons lying in a small watermelon field. They were as big as the mouth of a bowl and looked decayed and lifeless. I picked one with black skin, opened it and ate it. It tasted like melon from my childhood and memories. I remember that in the spring, I once talked to my elder brother: How can I eat melons that are as juicy as when I was a child? The eldest brother said: Then we can’t use chemical fertilizers. Then he added: But without the application of chemical fertilizers, no crops can grow on the land now. The fist-sized product in my hand with natural taste is probably the result of not using chemical fertilizers!

After eating the melon, I looked up at the sky. The blue tiles and crisp autumn air. The golden spectral lines of sunlight appear one by one, and it seems that they can be counted clearly. The autumn wind blew the hard leaves of the crops, bringing with it a hint of coolness.

I suddenly felt nostalgic. Reminds me of my childhood days. I thought of my mother, sister, father and several brothers. Thinking of those companions who are living around. Especially the figure of my mother swaying vividly in front of my eyes. At that time, I thought of many things.

I came to the flood control embankment behind the house again. The crops inside and outside the embankment are growing equally vigorously. I remembered that when my eldest brother was the captain, the dam burst, and he jumped into the breach to block the mud. Let the members throw dirt into his arms. The water was up to his neck. Now that the long river is on the other side of the green space, the water flow is already very small.

Occasionally one or two people come by. Come up to me and we don't know each other. After looking at each other, they walked away. Those lands are still the same, and I know them all. They are still the same, not much has changed, including the crops grown.

My sister-in-law knows that I want to eat green corn. Then he said: I will keep it with you forever, but I won’t come back. Now that we are too old to eat, I will go with the neighbors for you. I said: Just buy a little, they are all commodities now. Farming is getting harder and harder... She interrupted and said: Use it for whatever purpose, or just break off a few from someone else. You can eat as much as you want. After a while, she brought back more than ten pieces of corn. She sat under the eaves, peeling the green outer shell of the corn. I asked whose family it belongs to? How did you get there? She said: It was broken in the nearby corn field. She named one of my companions in particular. It was broken from the cornfield planted by his companion. I asked: How do you greet others? She said: Hello! Tell him when we meet later. It’s okay not to tell, just a few rotten corns.

The corn is about a foot long. I suspect it's horse feed corn. My sister-in-law also saw what was on my mind. He said: This is corn for human consumption, not corn for feed! People who specialize in planting late will sell green corn.

After cooking, take a bite and it is really fragrant and sweet. It proves that it is green corn, not horse feed corn. It's because they are so big, so big that I can't believe it. It looks the same as horse feed corn.

In the evening, the sky is not completely dark yet. The eldest brother turned on the TV and lay down to watch the show. I followed in a daze. Soon he fell asleep. While sleeping, I suddenly heard my sister-in-law calling for dinner. Haven’t you already eaten corn? No more, I said. The eldest brother and sister-in-law said together: Why don't you eat some corn? Get up and eat quickly.

My sister-in-law brought me a bowl of noodles and poached eggs. Three poached eggs completely covered the bowl of noodles. The soup is already flowing out. I picked one up and gave it to my eldest brother. My sister-in-law said: Eat it! There's still some left in the pot. The eldest brother pointed the bowl in front of me and said: This is not it, it is! There were only some egg fragments in the eldest brother's bowl. But I didn't say anything. I knew I had to eat all three poached eggs. I didn't even look in the kitchen to see how much more there was.

At five o'clock the next morning, I couldn't fall asleep or stay asleep. The rooster's song is so high-pitched and loud. I kept its score in my mind over and over again. I feel that the music score presented by the sound can be made into a nice song. I walked in the yard for a while. Arriving at the chicken coop: the chickens were all sleeping quietly, including the rooster that just crowed with its throat straight. I walked to the pig pen again: the pigs were also snoring and sleeping soundly. Then he walked to the sheepfold: the sheep were lying on their knees and chewing the cud. A small-tailed Han sheep saw me and ran over, followed by three little toddlers reluctantly following behind. Did she just give birth at night? The eldest brother has also come out of the yard, and I told him my surprise discovery. He smiled and said: The lambs I picked up last night were all three female lambs, not even a male. There was something unsatisfactory in his tone. I said doubtfully: Quanmu’s is so good! If a mother is able to give birth to a lamb, there will be a flock of them in three years. But he said: The mother will not grow up. Males can grow up, grow meat, and can be killed and eaten!

Breakfast is noodles again. While cooking, my sister-in-law brought thirteen eggs. She said ten pills were for me to take away, and three pills were for me to eat in the morning. Continue making the poached eggs. At their age, it has become difficult to cook for themselves. It is difficult to make other tricks. There are only these thirteen ready-made eggs left at home. If there are more, I will get you more, she added. I said I won’t eat poached eggs. Don't take away the eggs either. My sister-in-law said she still has 6 hens laying eggs. When I have accumulated more, I will come back to get it later. During the meal, I asked my eldest brother: I can’t do the work in the fields anymore? The eldest brother replied: I can’t do it anymore. I asked: Besides eating noodles, what else should I eat? The eldest brother replied: I still eat rice.

He stretched his neck to swallow food, and his Adam's apple moved rapidly up and down. I saw that he was exactly the same as my father in old age. I suddenly wanted to cry, and suddenly I thought that my eldest brother was also old.

Bus No. 19 has arrived behind the eldest brother’s house. I heard the car and ran out quickly. The eldest brother was already talking to the driver and turned to look at my movements. I suddenly heard a voice behind me and turned around: my sister-in-law was following in a panic. I quickly said: Sister-in-law! Sister-in-law, go back! My sister-in-law said, Oh! oh! His fourth father! Come back when you have time! Come back again! I said: Come back! Come back! Sister-in-law... I saw tears in my sister-in-law's eyes. I said: Sister-in-law, brother, please take care of yourself! I secretly glanced at my eldest brother, who was also looking at me. I said: Brother, please pay attention to your health... Brother said: Oh! Get in the car quickly, they won't wait.

After the car started and we were far away, I looked back and saw my eldest brother and sister-in-law standing there, with their backs against the wall and their faces facing me. Behind them is the earthen house where they live. The weeds on the ground were both vigorous and withered. The colors and their figures blended into a blur.

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