I'm not afraid to tell my best friend the truth. I'm afraid to go back and tell others as a joke.

You are worried that she will pass on your heart and secrets to others, then she may not be your best friend or an untrustworthy friend.

Sometimes, your secrets need to be kept and controlled by yourself, and there is no need to share or tell others.

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