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My name is Zhang. I am 28 years old and grew up in Fujian. My parents are still alive. My two sisters (one of whom was adopted by her parents when she was a child) only contacted in recent years. There is also a sister who grew up together (my parents adopted her from someone else's house). I don't know what they were thinking.

My family is very happy, my parents are in business, and my hometown economy belongs to the upper-middle level. I have never suffered anything since I was a child, nor have I experienced ups and downs.

I came into contact with alcohol only after I graduated from high school. I was 16 years old and 200 1 year old respectively. At that time, I liked to be carefree with my classmates at school, but I didn't know what I was thinking. I liked a classmate at school, but I didn't like it when I came into contact with him. After I left the society, I felt that no woman was as interested in any woman as she was. Out of society, I feel very idle. I feel a lot missing. I remember that I was very happy if I contacted my former classmates. Those days were my rebellious days. My father liked me very much since he was a child. When I was unhappy, my father filled me with a little white wine with a small spoon and cooked me some dishes. My family is engaged in catering. At that time, I thought I could relax a lot after drinking wine (I always stayed in my father's shop and didn't work). At that time, I didn't drink.

In the following month, I drank more and more, and it took me a month to practice from a spoon to a bottle of white wine. My father began to find out that I didn't drink properly because my parents were teetotalers. I can keep drinking, and nothing happens.

My father and I made an agreement to drink less. He promised to give me 2000 RMB as long as I drink about 2 taels a day. In fact, I knew at that time that I didn't rely on alcohol.

I didn't know drinking would become like this. At that time, I promised my father's consent, and then I began to drink a small amount of wine at home and steal it outside. I didn't care about the 2000 yuan, although it was a lot of money at that time.

Mainly because I think my father is too kind to me. He told me to drink less. He must have a reason. I just hope I won't let him know so that he can be careful.

I didn't drink in front of him. I won two thousand yuan. Since then, I have been hiding out drinking and having a symbolic drink at home. At this time, I didn't feel uncomfortable after drinking too much wine, but I was very relaxed and comfortable, and I drank a lot of ideas.

Always come up with brilliant ideas. At that time, I thought I was a genius after drinking. 16 in Fuzhou, Fujian. 17 years old, my sister asked my parents to go to Zhejiang for development, and I followed.

I don't want to live in Zhejiang with my parents. I feel more comfortable with my sister. My sister doesn't care much about me. We are about the same age. I'll feel much more comfortable.

At that time, my sister had found a boyfriend, and now she is also a brother-in-law.

That is, in 2002, I worked in my sister's shop. At this time, I still didn't drink much. I don't drink a little every day.

My sister's shop is next to many hotels, and she often contacts people who drink (now that I think about it, some of them are alcohol dependent). They eat and drink in my sister's shop and get to know me better and better.

They are all northerners and drink white wine. Since I met them, I have basically consumed about 1 kg of liquor every day. I am very comfortable to drink, and I can eat it after eating.

After working in my sister's shop for 8 months, I suddenly fell ill one day and my stomach was very uncomfortable. My sister took me to the hospital, gave me some stomach medicine, told me that drinking would hurt my stomach and told me not to drink it. I am very obedient. I really didn't drink it. I don't remember drinking for months.

After working in my sister's shop for 9 months, I went back to my parents' shop, where I met my first girlfriend. Zhejiang people.

She was only 15 years old at that time. /kloc-when I met her at the age of 0/7, I thought I had given up drinking, and I didn't take it seriously. Because I always think about my female classmate at school, I have no real feelings for her. I didn't know that I had given my feelings until I was together for a long time at first. In fact, nothing really happened between me and that female classmate. I didn't even tell her that I liked her. I don't know why I am so attached to her, but I always feel that there is no woman like her.

This Zhejiang girlfriend I know is many times more beautiful than my female classmate. At that time, I really didn't know how to cherish it, but I didn't do anything wrong to her. I just don't think she can compare with my classmates.

I met for a few months and started drinking again. I should have been sober for four months. I remember that day she got paid and took me out to a small restaurant for dinner. She ordered several bottles of beer. That night, I think I found something to do again. Actually, I forgot that I can still drink to kill time. From that day on, I picked up the cup again, but I drank it intermittently. What impressed me most that year was the Spring Festival. During the Spring Festival, my parents asked my girlfriend to come to my shop, and she came. On New Year's Day, we went to Hengdian Film and Television Park in Zhejiang to play together. I don't know why we started bickering.

The more we talk, the more noisy we get. Finally, we went home by car separately. When I arrived at the store that night, I drank a lot of wine alone. My parents should go downstairs and tell me to drink less. I took it out on them then. I had a fierce argument with my parents, and the more I drank, the more I couldn't figure out why I picked up a knife and cut my wrist.

After that, I was taken to the hospital. I should have fallen asleep. When I woke up, she was beside me. She apologized to me and told me not to do such a stupid thing in the future. In fact, I know in my heart that it has something to do with her, but it is not very big. I cut my wrist myself for no reason. In fact, we still have great obstacles together. My parents and her parents, she is an only child, and her family is quite rich. She is engaged in the business of medicinal materials. Her parents asked her to find a son-in-law, and my parents certainly didn't agree. I'm just a boy.

She was chased by many people in Zhejiang. In my memory, I always fought with others because of her in those years. She is outstanding in their school. Many people chase her, but I am chased by a foreigner. They are not convinced and often look for me to teach me a lesson. In fact, I am afraid of fighting with them, but I am afraid that the more I drink, the more excited I will be. Drinking and fighting is a pleasure. I think that's why she likes me more. Every time I quarrel, she stands beside me. I guess she is there, too.

At this time, I don't think I am dependent on alcohol. After staying in her county for a year, her parents opened a shop in Jiangsu. In 2003, I was 18 years old. 18 years old, my parents went to Jiangsu, and I went home alone to test my driver's license. It is also because of parents that they are separated.

At this time, I found that I was very dependent on her and she was also very dependent on me. I learned my driver's license well and went back to Jiangsu. My parents bought me my first car. When I arrived in Jiangsu, I felt that I couldn't live without her, so I asked her to come to my dad's shop without my parents' consent. My father had no choice. He also agreed that we should be together and told me that if I wanted to be her son-in-law, I would disown my son. In fact, I am very resistant to the word door-to-door. Life in Jiangsu is much smoother, and I drink less wine. I haven't been drunk for a year. It's nothing. Except for an occasional little fight with her.

Everything seems so calm and normal.

By the second half of 2004, I 19 years old. My parents saw that I had been with this girlfriend for more than two years, and they had a good relationship. He suggested that we get married. At the end of the year, I went to their home and told his parents about it. His parents still have that attitude, and they can't tell me that it is impossible to bring her daughter. Said I cheated his daughter out (she didn't even contact his home when I went to Jiangsu). At this time, her own attitude changed and she listened to her parents. I want to take her out to Fujian for the New Year, but she doesn't agree.

I haven't stayed at her house since. I drive myself to Fujian for the New Year. I don't answer her phone during the Chinese New Year. I don't think it's a good idea to drag on like this. Soak in bars and nightclubs KTV every day during the New Year.

Almost never stopped. I met my first wife at home and we were together at the end of the year. There is no emotional foundation, and parents have no objection. I am also very happy to finally find a girl from my hometown. In 2005, I took her to a store in Jiangsu, and I lost contact with women in Zhejiang. I feel very sorry for her now. I feel deeply sorry for her. She's still waiting for me and thinks I'm angry.

By the end of the year, she heard from her friend that I was going to have a baby. She called me and gave me a good scolding. I didn't take it to heart at that time, and I still thought it was all your parents' fault. I was 20 years old in 2005, and I wanted to get married that year. Considering that I will have a baby soon, I want to get married in a year.

I'm not an alcoholic this year, but it doesn't matter much whether I want to drink it or not.

In April 2006, my first child was born, and I was really happy for a long time. This year, my father also gave me a shop. At that time, I could earn about 20 thousand a month, which was really a lot for me at that time. The child fell ill in the fourth month after birth.

Her mother just came home, and my parents and I took her to the city to see the children and needed to be hospitalized. I called her and asked her to go to the hospital to accompany the children. She told me whether it was ok to go tomorrow morning. It's too late. There's no car. Let me pick her up at her house.

It is because of such a small thing that I feel that she doesn't love children and me, and she is very proud. Seriously, I really don't take her seriously. I think she is my substitute. The next day she went to the hospital, and I found an excuse to quarrel with her and break up. No one thought that I would really break up with her.

In fact, I have felt that there is something wrong with drinking this year, and many things are considered after drinking.

Because of such a trivial matter, I really separated from her. Once in the middle, my parents scolded me and asked me to take her home. I have no choice but to take her away. When I got to her house, I asked if you wanted to come home with me. She said no, so I said and went home without looking back.

My thought at that time was, are you proud or am I proud to play with me? You can never fool me, but his parents came to do my work several times and I avoided it. I went to the store in Jiangsu alone. I will take my wife with me at the end of the year.

Now my wife was very accommodating to me at that time, and everything depended on me. I think I just want to find such a woman. I have had withdrawal reaction since 2006, but it is not serious. I always thought it was because I drank too much on the first day.

At the end of 2006, I went to Shanghai for development, and I had a quiet conversation with my present wife. She always drinks as I do, and I drink freely. I have found that there is something wrong with my drinking capacity, because I find that normal drinking capacity can't satisfy me. I also have the habit of drinking secretly, which was formed by my father's restriction on my drinking in the past. I drink secretly when no one is in charge.

It's almost the Spring Festival in 2007. My wife and I don't know why we quarreled. She went home early. I am angry and want to break up with her. But I found that I depend on her as much as on wine, but I am still proud in my bones. She just got home, and my ex-wife came to my shop without knowing where she was (I think it was from my parents). I'm surprised. She told me a lot, a lot.

However, I was drinking and chatting with her. My attention is focused on the wine. I vaguely remember that she wanted to live a good life with me, saying it was for the children or something. In short, I readily agreed to this matter, but no one expected that on the fifth day after she came to my store, I ran away and ran back to Fujian. None of my family members make sense. I know this is wine. I want to find a wife when I go home, but I won't do such a thing without drinking. I just left her in Shanghai, in my shop. I think she must have given up.

I didn't stay at home when I went home, and I didn't dare to stay at home. I knew my parents would talk about me for days and nights. In this way, my father came to Shanghai to manage my shop. I didn't find a wife when I got home. When I came home, she heard that my ex-wife had been to my shop and she had gone to work in Xi 'an.

I went home and became a person. My mood is very low. I drank so much that I didn't go home for the New Year. I spent my 30th New Year in a bar. It's really not like a child's father drinking early in early 2007. My cousin and some friends asked me to take them to the next county to play. I said yes when I was drunk. Actually, I'm not interested in playing or not. I drank a lot of wine until noon. They attach great importance to my capacity for drinking, and everyone knows that my financial situation is good. They said a lot of compliments to me, saying that I am a good driver and a good drinker. Because I paid the bill, I began to feel proud. I don't know if I can drive 220 yards. I suffered a big loss this time and the car crashed into the wine. I woke up many times. I don't know what to do.

Fortunately, the people in the car are all right. It's all skin injuries. Now that I think about it, God is really giving me a chance. And I didn't cherish it.

I went home the day after the accident. As my parents told me, my chest was pricked by the steering wheel. After my mother took me to the hospital, the doctor asked me to rest at home for a while. My mother called my ex-wife and asked her to visit me (she just came home from Shanghai alone). She refused. I think his heart is dead. But I didn't take it to heart. I'm still thinking about going to my wife when I'm better.

During this time, my drinking capacity began to change and became worse. Start drinking when your chest hurts in the morning, which can relieve a lot of pain. I feel that drinking is not normal, but I didn't pay attention. I didn't count the drinking accident. I decided that I was driving too fast, so I was just speeding.

I spent 10 on this. I lost my car, accompanied some money, and the traffic police sent some money. Otherwise, drunk driving will be serious.

But I don't care much about money. I won't be angry about it. My chest healed, and my father bought me another car. After a month's rest at home in 2007, I called my wife to the Shanghai store again. I'm glad she came, and I began to re-examine our relationship. I know I can't live without her. I depend on her. I began to learn tolerance and forbearance.

But most of the time, she is asking me. I have been dependent on wine for some time and found that I can't do without wine. It's hard to quit. I quit myself, but I haven't started drinking for more than two months, but nothing happened during this time, and it was relatively calm. Been drinking for years.

It's 2009, and by this time, my withdrawal reaction has been very intense. It was also at this time that I began to pay attention to my drinking problem. I found myself to be a pervert, but I couldn't quit. I always make up my mind to give up drinking. After a very difficult period of abstinence, I had to start drinking again, and there was no quarrel for a month. If I give up drinking for about half a month, I will feel great.

In 2009, my wife didn't find out about my drinking. I didn't dare to say anything, but I was always sick and she felt something was wrong. I always said that it would be good to rest for a few days, and she didn't say anything. 10 We got married, and everything went naturally. On the wedding day, I tried to control my drinking, but I couldn't. I was still drunk, but I didn't make trouble. I seldom make trouble when I drink, but the one who cut my wrist is out of line. 1 1 year, my second child was born. At this time, I found that my own heart had changed. I'm really not too happy about how to have a baby.

I pretended to be in front of my relatives, and I found that I didn't have much affection for my parents. I can't figure out why I became like this. My father loved me so much, but I really lost my feelings for them. I quit drinking at this time. I can't live without wine. Only wine can make me happy. At this time, I thought it was the wine, but I couldn't drink it every time. I stopped for a while and then started drinking.

I am very angry with myself. My family hasn't found me like this yet. They all think that I am in poor health and always get sick. Actually, I think so myself. I think some organ in my body is out of order because of drinking, either my stomach or my liver. I'm thinking about finding a time to go to the hospital for a systematic examination and cure this disease in normal drinking.

I don't think this should happen.

By July 20 12, I was drinking in the hospital, and my family didn't know I was drinking. When I went in, I thought it was a good opportunity to be treated. I stayed in the hospital for five days. The doctor examined me and found nothing serious. Liver index is a little high. Ask me if I drink?

I said I drank less, so he gave me less. I asked the doctor if I had no other questions. He said it was all minor problems. I stayed for five days for the first time and came out. The doctor's words made me wonder how to check my health in this way. However, what the doctor said also gave me an excuse to let go of drinking. I have nothing to do with my body. When I was discharged from the hospital, I drank half a catty of white wine one day.

This was controlled for half a month, and I drank more than 3 kilograms of white wine for no reason, and I drank it unconsciously.

I didn't eat for a week. On July 2 1, I was drunk and my wife took me to the hospital. I completely lost consciousness.

I didn't wake up until the next day I woke up to find myself in the ICU of the hospital. Interestingly, I woke up to find clothes to wear. I told the doctor I was going out. Actually, I want to go out and buy wine. The doctor told me that I was bleeding yesterday and I can't get out of bed now.

At this time, the brain will not think about anything, just thinking about drinking. I strongly believe that my family can only visit me in ICU at 3 pm. I didn't know my sister and my wife were watching me at the door all afternoon, but I wasn't moved by these things. I have no affection for them. I even want my wife to live. I don't think I can quit this wine myself.

I'm in ICU, and I'm still trying to find a drink. I asked my aunt to buy me wine. I asked her to give him 10 times the price. I discuss it with her every five minutes. She didn't buy it for me, just like other family members told them to buy me wine. I asked several family members.

Something interesting happened. A family promised to buy it for me. He said he would buy it for me as soon as he went out. I am so happy that I can't describe it in words, but after the family left, he didn't come back. I just wait every minute. I didn't give up until 8 pm. I am still waiting for him to bring me wine. I didn't fall asleep in it at all. This is the pain of abstinence. I have eaten many times myself, but I start drinking again after I get better every time.

The same is true this time. Three days later, I was transferred to the general ward. On the day of transfer, I went downstairs to buy a bottle of white wine and drank more than half of it, because at this time, my family still didn't know that I had something wrong with drinking and my freedom was not restricted. That is, on the day of transfer, at noon 10, the doctor came to make rounds. At this time, I just drank half a bottle of white wine and lay comfortably in my clothes.

The doctor told my family with a lab report that I had a cerebral hemorrhage because I didn't eat. He also told my family that I drank a lot today. From this moment on, all my drinking capacity was exposed. This afternoon, my family accepted the doctor's advice and transferred to Shanghai Psychiatric Hospital. You can drink alcohol in a mental hospital, but under the control of a doctor, it's like giving medicine. The nurse will give you a little for every meal and drink the bag I put in my room. When I have three drunkards, I propose that they give me the wine for this meal first, and then give them my amount next time. Haha, a funny thing happened. They asked me to give them the next meal first, and now I think it's funny. Hospitalization 12 days, discharge.

I started drinking when I left the hospital. The day after leaving the hospital, my wife and I went back to our hometown and left the shop to one of my cousins. At home, I am limited by the economy. I borrowed money from my good friend. They can't figure out why I want to borrow money from them. They said that my wife called some of my best friends. I have a warning. Give me 500. It's like life-saving money. I have been in control for half a month, and I have to hide the money. It's used up, so I'm embarrassed to borrow money from others. Growing up, I rarely refund others' money. I'm saying that my proud personality makes me a little embarrassed.

I had no money, so I bought a mobile phone and bought 3000 yuan, which made me stay at home for two months. 65438+ 10 to Shanghai again. Because there was something wrong with the car when I returned to Shanghai, I decided to change it. /kloc-0 bought the third car on October 22nd. 165438. I'm not happy either. At this time, I lost interest in everything, and wine was my only friend. I also told myself this time that I must control the amount and never go to the hospital again. I really did it, but I was still drunk twice a month. At this time, I just sat in the shop and slept without telling my wife that she was not feeling well. 165438+ 10 In October, my wife was pregnant and was discussing whether to have this child.

My wife was afraid that my poor health would affect my children this year, so she went to the hospital to check that everything was all right in June of 438+ 10 this year. Another girl. The whole family decided to have children, and I didn't object. I am neither happy nor opposed. I feel like an outsider, and many expressions are fake. Actually, I've been relying on it since the beginning. My mood and personality depend on how much wine I drink and my mood. In March of this year, I found myself so numb and indifferent. Without drinking, I can't speak at all, and I can't be a man.

I thought about suicide. I thought about it several times a few years ago. I don't want to be tortured like this. Funny thing is, I killed myself or thought I was drunk to death, so I bought a small bottle of 10 Erguotou and climbed to the tall building of 1 1. After I drank the wine, I started calling someone to say that I forgot what. After waking up, I thought of drinking again. The mood of wanting to commit suicide has nothing to do with economic family and so on. There is no reason to want to commit suicide. I think so, too. That's it. I won't drink it myself. On May 2nd this year, my third child was born.

Just like being born for the second time, my happiness and excitement are all fake. I'm afraid of my feelings. But I can't quit. I doubt my willpower. I suspect that I am mentally ill. Anyway, I'll go on like this. I can't live without wine.

By the middle of July this year, I abstained again. Locked in his room by his wife, he began to give up drinking. My wife accidentally discovered AA. Ask me to join in. I'll try it, too. When I first came in, I came into contact with Mr. Sun from Shanghai AA Live Meeting. His screen name is-Shanghai AA Drunk 20 10. I thought it was a pyramid scheme.

I just stayed in the group and watched them chat and not talk. I began to learn a lot of knowledge, knowing that alcohol dependence is incurable for life. No matter how long we quit, just touching a glass of wine can restore us to our original shape.

I can't accept this. Although I want to give up drinking, I just want to control my alcohol consumption. I want to go back to the time when I could drink normally. I still can't accept it. I can't live without wine in my life.

In this way, when I quit on July 28th and stopped on August 7th 10, I wanted to do an experiment on myself. I want to make a drink, not to mention I failed. 10 On August 28th, I was locked up by my wife again. This time, she and my parents knelt beside me and told me to stop, otherwise the family would not survive.

I cried. I really cried with my heart. When I didn't join AA, I knew I couldn't quit. I had a meeting at AA for a few days. I know I can quit. I found a way, but I don't believe it. I really can't stop drinking.

In this way, on August 23rd, I walked into the AA meeting place in Shanghai. When I walked in, I felt strongly that I had found my home. I began to give priority to solving problems day by day according to the methods of old members. When I first quit drinking, I didn't think about anything, and I concentrated on quitting drinking. I read a big book, held a meeting in the evening and held a live broadcast meeting on Sunday. I make progress every time I finish it. In the first month, I resisted abstinence. The old member told me that if you insist on abstinence, you will get better gradually, get better every month and relax.

Facts have proved this. I became relaxed two months ago. After giving up drinking, I found everything interesting. I now have the feeling of finding my loved ones again and finding love for my children. I believe it will get better and better.

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