Has there ever been a moment when you suddenly understood that this world is fake?

Many years ago, I suffered a sudden illness and was already dying when I was sent to the hospital. At that time, I was pushed into the emergency room and laid down on a temporary bed in the corridor of the hospital.

My family helped me go through the procedures. There were several doctors and nurses next to me, and they were giving me urgent examinations.

At that time, I couldn’t hear clearly what they were saying. It was as if the world had suddenly become quiet. I had seen this feeling in some movies.

They scratched and pinched me, put a stethoscope on me, rolled my eyes and took pictures, etc. I could see it but could no longer feel the touch. I wanted to talk, but nothing came out. Gradually, my mind went blank.

In the end, the only trace of consciousness I had left was that my whole life was only supported by the remaining breath in my chest.

I know very well that if I don’t get that tone right, I will die. This is true Qi like a gossamer, life hanging on a thread. The ancients said these 8 words so accurately.

After the rescue, I lay in the ward. It has gotten better. Although I couldn't speak at that time, I understood clearly in my heart. When I saw the people and things in the ward and the light outside the window, I suddenly felt that the world was so false and magical.

I think I used to work so hard and stay up late every day to pursue my dreams. I always felt that I had to do something for my family and for the expectations and recognition of others. This idea of ??getting ahead is so naive and terrifying.

I don’t know if my illness is very close to death this time, but at that moment I know that if I die, it will only be an extremely small accident, so small that there will be no waves. I am no big deal to the world or other people.

Human life is like this, rushing towards death. Coming and going naked without any worries.

But what is it that makes my heart once burdened and full of all kinds of miscellaneous things?

For a long time, I was alone in the ward thinking about these things quietly.

One morning, after I had recovered enough to walk around, I walked out of the corridor. The scene in front of me was so impressive that I will never forget it.

Because the place where I was hospitalized was the cardiovascular and cerebrovascular disease ward. There were very few young people there, and the entire corridor was filled with elderly people who were unable to walk, were lame, weak, and had dull eyes.

They walked up and down the long, dark corridor in twos and threes. Some walked very slowly because of illness, and some were limping. The scene was really like hell. I seemed to see the end of this world, the ending of everyone.

At that moment, I felt that people are completely equal in the face of illness and old age, without distinction. They are all so helpless and miserable.

From time to time, various painful moans and wailings could be heard from the next door ward. I went over and saw an old man, who was already on his deathbed. Because he was in too much pain, he could no longer take care of himself. He could only stare at the ceiling on the hospital bed, open his mouth, and keep wailing. His eyes were filled with despair. It's all gone, only numbness remains.

He kept shouting miserably, and the relatives around him were helpless. Even calling the doctor could not relieve his pain.

This shout accompanies me every day. During my stay in this hospital for more than a month. I reflected on my values ??throughout my life. Sometimes the world you think is real is the world you are addicted to.

We are habitually addicted to a certain kind of time, such as crazy work at work and off work every day. For example, there are intrigues and intrigues every day. Some people are thinking every day about how to make more money, how to deceive others, and how to climb up the ranks with the powerful.

That’s it, we are addicted to these, and we think this is the time and space of real life.

But we have no idea that these things are just an illusion created by our delusional mind.

I often ask a wise friend.

Are these tangible, visible and enjoyable lives fake? Are these things that can bring people countless happiness, indulgence, and difficulty in happiness all fake?

He said: When you put it down, it becomes fake. When you are in it, you take it for granted.

I asked again: How can I let them go?

He replied: This letting go is for you to see them clearly, to understand them, and to truly face them instead of blindly indulging in them.

When you truly understand them, you will know that there is nothing you need to let go of. Because you truly understand them, you will not be addicted to them. You have to know desire, whether it is wealth, fame, fortune or beauty. None of them were wrong, it was you who was wrong.

You are using your delusion to build your own world. So what your heart is like is what your world is like. Look at it from this perspective. There is no truth in the world, it is just a manifestation of everyone's inner delusions.

I asked him: Does everyone have to go through this process of lying in the hospital with a serious illness like mine, seeing these scenes, and experiencing this process before they can understand that everything in life is illusive and elusive? Don't force it. He said: If there is a so-called God, this God is very competent. Because he keeps giving hints to everyone every day.

Every fallen leaf you see, every tragic story you hear, people around you leave you, and all kinds of unsatisfactory things happen. Flowers bloom and fall. Personnel changes. These are all reminders from God. He is always telling you that nothing in this world is real and eternal.

Last year and today, in this door, people’s faces were red with peach blossoms and smiles. How do you say the next two sentences?

I said: I don’t know where the human face is, but the peach blossoms still smile in the spring breeze!

He said how well written these four sentences were. We always think we have it all. But we can’t figure it out. It’s just a temporary use and a temporary experience.

Nothing in this world, nothing really belongs to you.

So when you hold it with both hands, keep grabbing and grabbing until the end. You still have to let go of all your hands.

Not only should the hands be loosened, the legs should be straightened, and the eyes should be closed. Everything you think is you in this world will leave you.

This is the biggest joke in life. It is also the greatest truth. If you look forward from this point, standing at the point of death. This life and this world are unreal. This is untrue, that’s why. We do not see everything with a true heart.

If a person puts his heart on the point of death all the time in his life. Then look at it from his perspective. The whole world and your own life. Everything will be clearer than ever before.

Because, life is death. Zhuangzi said: Only when you are born can you die. The meaning is probably the same. When life and death overlap. It would be equivalent to no life and no death.

When there is neither birth nor death. Do you think those grievances, chasing after each other, struggling, joy, anger, sorrow, life and death are still real? Do you still need to be persistent? Is it still worth your drunken dreams?

I said: No wonder the Buddha said this in the Diamond Sutra. All conditioned phenomena are like bubbles in a dream, like dew or lightning. He said: The illusion in the world can only reveal reality!

Truth and illusion are just words we reluctantly use to describe this feeling. In fact, why should a person be obsessed with truth and illusion? What about truth and illusion? If you cling to truth, you will only get illusions; if you cling to illusions, there will be no trace of truth at all.

There are also people who use illusion to cultivate reality, and there are also people who use reality to practice illusion. Coming and going is nothing more than this, just as it has come and as it has not come, as real as it is not real, neither real nor illusory, real and illusory, That's serious.

Therefore, Taoism talks about the real person: The real person in ancient times did not know how to talk about life, and did not know how to hate death. "

I asked: How can I become a real person?

He said: Naturally, the original person is the real person. When the delusion is extinguished, the original will be revealed.

Therefore, being able to perceive that this world is not as real and unbreakable as we imagine is a good start.

You have to know that in this world, no relationship between people will last forever, no banquet will never end, no face will never grow old, and no body will last forever. It will never fade, no vicissitudes of life will never be replaced, no cloud will stick to the sky forever, no laughter and joy will never end, no fame and fortune will never end... ..

We say it is an illusion, but we should not be pessimistic about this illusion. We must know that this illusion is also a relative illusion, not an absolute illusion. In this illusion, we work honestly and follow the natural way. Living a simple and simple life is to obtain truth from illusion, just like refining gold in fire. Reality is good, and illusion is also wonderful!

That happened in 2016. When I was renovating an old house, the eaves of the tiled house suddenly broke due to disrepair. I fell from the roof to the ground. My mouth and nose were bleeding on the spot, and I was dying.

I don’t know how much time passed, but my mind couldn’t function. I seemed to hear the cries of my wife and sister ringing from my ears and slowly drifting into the distance...and then it was surprisingly quiet, as quiet as a needle. You can hear the sound when it falls to the ground, which is a bit scary. Suddenly a strong light appeared in front of my eyes. As the light beam slowly expanded, it quickly poured out and turned into a circular tunnel. A powerful force emitted from the end of the tunnel, making me feel as light as my body. It left the body and flew up, floating in the air. That mysterious power was guiding me, and I suddenly could see. I could clearly see everything happening around me in mid-air! I was lying in the ICU ward. My body was covered with tubes and instruments. I couldn’t feel any pain in my body. Doctors and nurses were rescuing me! I kept floating in the air, and I don’t know how long it took before I slowly heard a noise, and then suddenly I had a splitting headache! I fell hard on my body! Soon after, I felt extremely painful all over my body. I saw a group of people attacking me with sticks. I screamed for help and resisted in horror. I couldn't resist anymore and was injured all over my body. I tried my best to resist, but I was caught firmly by several people and tied up. Then my mind went blank again...

After being in a coma for three full days, I finally opened my eyes. But it's strange. There are only my son and a female classmate in the ward every day, and I can't remember her name. I couldn't move my legs, but fortunately my internal organs were not injured. There was serious water accumulation in the area where the head was injured. The doctor told me to observe it for another day or two. If the water accumulation showed no signs of subsidence, a craniotomy would be necessary. I have splitting headaches every day, the pain is so intense that I am shaking and losing my mind, and I can’t control my behavior and howl loudly! My son and the doctor had to tie me to the hospital bed!

Later, the doctor said that I was lucky. The muscles all over my body protected me and acted as a buffer when I fell. The human body was as elastic as a rugby ball and my internal organs were not injured. And after a week of active treatment by doctors, the fluid on my head was slowly drained out, and I no longer needed a craniotomy. I was finally out of danger.

I was discharged from the hospital after more than a month. The head injury caused me temporary amnesia. I remembered some things and completely forgot some things. It wasn't until I was discharged from the hospital that I recovered part of my memory, became somewhat sober, and realized that the strange experience at the beginning of the article was another illusory world. Even the "female classmate" I always thought I couldn't remember turned out to be my wife! I lived in a false world for a whole month and finally returned to the real world.

After this life-and-death disaster, I became much less optimistic about life, let go of a lot, became more positive about life, and worked hard on rehabilitation training. It took two years for my legs to recover to the point where I could walk normally. Although the memory has not been completely restored, for example, when you meet an acquaintance, you are very familiar with it but you can’t name it; sometimes you want to remember something, but you get a pen and paper but forget how to write; you look at the dishes you often eat on the plate and forget the names of the dishes, etc. , but these do not affect my serious life.

Life is very fragile, please cherish the people around you, cherish your time, and live well.

I have many cousins, but only one biological aunt. My aunt suddenly fell ill and died in just ten minutes on a spring rainy night when I was 49 years old.

When I saw my aunt, I didn't believe that she was gone. I shook her hard and told her to wake up. She was still talking to me yesterday. She must be tired and fell asleep. She would not leave us. My cousin, my cousins, and I cried our hearts out, calling for my aunt, thinking that she would wake up. But my aunt never opened her eyes again, and fell asleep quietly and forever... When I was helped out of the room and saw the sky, I felt that the color of the sky was different from usual, and it was covered with a light gray-yellow color. I also moved mechanically, feeling that I was no longer myself. The world and scenery were lifeless, the machine existed empty, and the world seemed fake. All of a sudden, I was aimless and lost the meaning of life.

For a long time, my mind was filled with my aunt's voice and smile, and what I heard in my ears were her voice and the cries of her cousins. I didn’t want to eat for a long time, I cried silently, I didn’t dare to talk to others, and the tears came out first...

Since then, I have learned that people are passers-by in this world, not as good as a stone or a tree, not as good as years and years. The furniture used has a long life. The world is changing and moving, seas can be transformed into mulberry fields, and rivers can be changed into plains. People are just a part of the flow of this world, and we don’t know where they are going. But I feel that there is an unshakable mysterious force controlling the world and our destiny. Where does it come from? What to do again? Human beings need to explore further. With the in-depth development of science and technology, we need to study human potential, explore it in depth, understand the universe, and understand the past and future of mankind.

I started working when I was 20 years old. I ate in the workplace cafeteria at noon every day, so I went to work at seven o'clock in the morning and got home at six o'clock in the afternoon. After I got married, I once heard my mother say that while she was cooking for lunch, she accidentally knocked off a kitchen knife. By chance, it fell on her foot, and the blade was the same as a cut. She bled a lot at that time. My brother was at home at the time. He panicked and called his neighbors to take my mother to the hospital. They performed a series of disinfection and suture operations and then returned home. He was unable to leave for several days. When she finished speaking, I was shocked. Why didn't I have any impression of this? Ordinarily, I went home every day at that time, and there was never a day without me living at home. It had only been a few years, so why didn’t I have any impression of it? I consider myself a very careful person, but I have no impression of such a big thing? I couldn't understand it. I didn't have amnesia. I was normal. I asked my brother for confirmation, and he also confirmed what my mother said. Until now, every time I think about it, I still can’t figure it out. Am I not who I am? Or am I already in a parallel world?

Yes, have you ever felt this way?

Everything in front of you seems to be fake. As soon as it flashes by, you feel like you have entered another space.

I was admitted to the hospital at the end of last year and stayed there for 10 days. One day after waking up, I suddenly felt that everyone around me was looking at me with ill intentions, but I turned my head and they But when he looked away, the important thing was that this scene seemed familiar, as if it had happened before.

At the end of last year, my condition was really serious when I was sent to the hospital. I didn’t sleep for 15 consecutive days because I had difficulty breathing when I lay down. In addition, I had various symptoms, including leg soreness. , my legs feel sore as long as I lie down, I have nosebleeds, stomachache, I vomit as much as I eat, and my whole body is itchy. I don’t know why I can hold it for so long before going to the hospital. I just stuff it with tissues every day. I had no choice but to hold my nose, and I lay in bed every night because I couldn't sleep and kept looking at the ceiling and asking why on earth you were doing this to me. The night was like a demon devouring me bit by bit.

After 15 days, I couldn’t bear it anymore. Even standing was a pain. I contacted a car and took a few hours’ drive to a hospital in Guangzhou. On the first day of admission, I was admitted to the hospital. Doctors and nurses were surrounding me, and they immediately drew my blood and checked my blood pressure. I sat half-sitting (could not lie down) and watched them busy. I could hardly hear what the doctor said clearly. After a while, the place where the blood was drawn came. When the report came out, I heard that there were too many toxins, all the microelements in the body were basically gone, including a lot of calcium, phosphorus, and potassium, and that the coagulation function had also deteriorated, and that surgery was needed immediately. I saw another world.

Because the surgery needs to be arranged, the fastest it can only be the next day, so I have to get through that night. I am very sleepy, half lying on my side, really sleepy, and suddenly I feel dizzy. I couldn't move at all, but my consciousness clearly felt that the balcony door seemed to be open, and something was trying to get through the door. It was as if there was a layer of film blocking it, and the guy kept digging in, and even I could already feel the other party's ferocious face. I was shivering but couldn't move. I tried my best to get out of this predicament. My heartbeat seemed to be jumping to my throat. With a "pop" sound, the membrane broke and it came over. Although I couldn't see it, I clearly felt it coming, getting closer and closer, until it tapped me on the shoulder, and finally I saw a shadow crawling under the bed. At that time, I felt hard all over and felt a bad feeling. Han's goosebumps instantly exploded from head to toe. The immobility of his whole body was lifted, and the world he sensed slowly closed. He turned around and saw that it was still the ordinary balcony door. He wanted to climb down. I looked under the bed, but I was so scared, so scared.

When I woke up the next day, I told my dad what happened last night, but he didn’t take it seriously and thought it was nothing. At this moment, the acrid chill from last night appeared again, and I shook unconsciously. , and then I felt as if the whole world was different. The eyes around me were all looking at me with malicious eyes. When I turned around to look at the patients who lived in the same ward as me, I found that their heads were They all go to other places. It's strange. If I don't look at them, the feeling of being watched comes back. What should I do?

I grabbed my father's hand and looked at him: "Dad, I had a dream last night, that dream..." Before I could finish speaking, I looked at the time at 9:20. When I turned around again, the nurse came over on a cart to inject an intravenous drip. I could only sit down and hold out my hand for her to inject. Just after I finished the infusion and wanted to tell my dad again, my consciousness seemed to be pulled away. I looked at my left hand and couldn't control it. Reaching for the IV drip in your right hand, what is this?

I slowly reached out to the needle with my left hand and tried hard to pull it out. Dad held me down in time and asked loudly: "What are you going to do?"

But I completely I ignored him and kept trying to pull out the needle. When the nurse saw something was wrong, she pulled out the needle and immediately called the doctor over. At that time, her body was already doing some incredible movements. She stood up and sat down repeatedly. Next, he turned around and looked at my dad, and muttered: "Hello, who are you?" "I am so-and-so." "Hehehe"

But the consciousness is in another state , those people’s eyes were always fixed on me. It was still the same ward, but there was no intravenous drip, but my mind told me that there were some rules here, and I had to do them right before I could return to the body. When I spoke here, I had to say the opposite of everything. For example, if you say hello, you have to say "you" well, and if you say a word wrong, you will have to start over again. I looked at the time at 9:20 and started saying it to my father, but because it was the first time I said it, I was not used to it. , I immediately said the wrong thing, and then my eyes went dark and I couldn't see at all. I was so frightened that I didn't know what to do. At this time, I was told to do three actions of my body, and when I thought about it, why did I do it?

This is not very simple, but after thinking about it too much, I woke up again and returned to the way I was sitting before. Those eyes were still looking at me, but they seemed to have forgotten something, and they just remembered to look at me. Dad, there seemed to be three more movements. Then I started to do those three movements. As I was doing them, I suddenly remembered something and why I did it. As soon as I stopped and wanted to turn around and tell my dad, my eyes went dark again and I woke up again. time, it still returns to the way it was before. The consciousness is trapped and the body goes crazy

In this way, the consciousness keeps circulating, but the body starts to feel strange outside. After doing three actions for a long time, it suddenly stopped. After the nurse gave the sedative injection, it stopped. I came down and lay on the bed with my eyes closed. Everyone thought everything was fine, but unexpectedly I woke up again 15 minutes later and started talking loudly and swearing. After the nurse finished scolding, she scolded the doctor and then started throwing things. My father was beside me and kept pulling me. , I couldn't hold it back at that moment, so I punched him in the face, as if I saw some devil, and said in my mouth: "Dad, I want to save you."

Yes, This punch swollen my father's eye socket, but he still didn't give up on me and hugged me tightly. No one else dared to come over. The doctor looked at the situation and said: "This situation is very serious. It's better to send me to mental illness." Come to the hospital.

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Dad stopped and refused, saying that there should be other ways. Think about other ways. At this time, I don’t know where the strength came from. Dad was hanging on his body and he could walk out slowly. In the ward, I started walking in the corridor, trying to get out. Finally, with the help of a group of people, I received another sedative injection, and finally fell asleep quietly.

The world where my consciousness was. It keeps looping, and I even feel that this world is real, and I have started to live there, but I always feel that something is wrong, but I can't remember it. I always feel that I have something to say to my father. Suddenly my vision goes black. Then a voice told me clearly that you are dead and this world is no longer your world. What happened? I slowly and truly accepted that I was dead. I don’t know how long it took. When the light came back again, I found myself lying on the hospital bed with some straps tied around my body. I saw my father again. He also saw Then, I said: "Am I not dead? ”

Now that I think about it, I feel that it was because my body was too weak and the toxins in my body were too high, which led to hallucinations. I thought that the world where my consciousness was in was the real world, and now this The world is fake. After this experience, I feel that it is best to live in the present.

I remember when I was five or six years old, I was guarding the wheat in the threshing field. At noon, the adults went home to cook. I was lying under a big tree next to the wheat field to enjoy the cool air, and suddenly I saw two planes flying side by side in the sky directly in front of me. I could clearly see the five-pointed star on the plane, and I could also see the pilot flying the plane, but the strange thing was I couldn't hear the roar of the plane at all, so I waved to the plane, and it quickly disappeared.

When the adults came back, I told them about the incident, and they agreed that I was dazzled. , I felt confused every time I thought about it. I was not sure whether I saw the plane or just had a dream.

My mother-in-law has always been in good health, and she didn’t even have a common cold one night. , she suffered a cerebral hemorrhage and fell into coma not long after. When the ambulance arrived, she was barely alive and was sent to the hospital emergency room.

The doctor brought a few sheets. The family members signed, and we signed without even looking at them. Several doctors entered the emergency room in a hurry. It was just after two o'clock in the middle of the night. The corridor of the hospital was very quiet. We could only hear my own heartbeat, and I started to feel a little scared. .

My mother-in-law is in a very bad condition, and I am afraid that she will not survive. In this short half hour, I felt that my life was so fake, how could a good person suddenly become so seriously ill? She didn't even have the slightest consciousness. We were still talking and laughing during dinner. I didn't believe that my mother-in-law would suddenly fall ill, let alone die.

Half an hour later, the rescue was done. The door to the room opened, and the doctor came out with a heavy face. We stood up immediately. Before we even spoke, I knew what the doctor was going to say. My tears couldn't stop flowing. The doctor shook his head and said, "I am sorry for your loss. "

Suddenly, my mind went blank. My mind was filled with the shadow of my mother-in-law. She was very healthy, talking and laughing, how could it be gone? "This is all too fake, not true. Yes, my mother-in-law should be at home. She is still so young, in her fifties, and her good days have just begun. It is impossible..."

When I watched my mother-in-law's body being taken away, I felt She is still alive in this world, and all this is an illusion. When I return home, I see her shadow all over the house, but I can’t touch or talk to her.

Until I finished dealing with my mother-in-law’s funeral, I still didn’t believe that my mother-in-law would suddenly leave us. Time passed by, and if there was one less person in my life, she would never come back. She was completely devastated. She left our lives and went to another place. No matter how much we missed her, she would not respond.

The weather was a little cool in the early autumn, and I sat under the acacia tree in front of the door. Sitting aimlessly, I looked up at the sky. The sky was very blue and the clouds were very white. They were piled together and looked as white as cotton.

A burst of autumn wind blows, and the leaves on the tree are not yellow, but a few have withered. Are the leaves also alive? Did its withering also leave this world? When new leaves grow next year, it is another life, and its life has ended.

The same is true for people, like the cycle of seasons, everything will be new in the coming year, and the only thing that remains unchanged is this world. It will not pause because of losing anything. Day is still day, night is still night, and every season is still reincarnated. Only the life lost is gone forever, life and death.

Everyone doesn’t want to leave when they come into this world, because there are too many tempting things. The world itself is also very beautiful, with mountains, water, flowers and plants. Who wants to leave!

Some people spend their whole lives busy for desire, fame, fortune, and money. They shuttle among the crowd every day and never dare to slow down. They are so tired that they can’t breathe. When you face life, you will find that those things are too empty. They only belong to this world and not to us personally. Once life is over, everything is empty.

As we live, there are always things we want to pursue in life. Houses and cars are the necessities of life. Even these things are not easy to get, so we start to make money desperately, buy the things we like, and get what we want, then we will feel very sufficient, and we will need better and more things, including desires. , fame and fortune, add gold and silver to yourself, and make yourself bright and beautiful.

Do you think those things belong to you? No. This is just an illusion, nothing you can take away. Therefore, people's pursuit of material things should be limited, and people should not touch things that are beyond their capabilities. It is not worth it to make them bloody.

What is truly yours? A healthy body accompanies your life, a simple and happy family, you will find the beauty in life, live every day well, and don't let your life be entangled with too many desires, it will be much easier.

I remember one time when I was seven or eight years old in the countryside, and then I saw a helicopter flying very low in our village. I told my brother that he said I was dreaming, but the problem was that all the TVs in my village were not working. It’s impossible to see what a helicopter looks like, and you probably wouldn’t know it’s a helicopter. Now I don’t know if I really saw it or if it was a dream.

In fact, as long as everyone calms down and thinks about it, they will find that this world is fake, and there are many loopholes that God cannot explain. So human beings basically live in such a muddle-headed way, and when they wake up, they die.