The person I secretly love is invisible to my circle of friends.

Knowing this fact, Youning is chatting with her roommates.

One second she was light, but the next she seemed to be caught by something, and it hurt more and more. ...

But she still pretended as if nothing had happened and continued to chat with her roommate with a smile.

Yes, just now, my roommate dumped a book and said, "He made a circle of friends yesterday, as if he had gone on a trip with his girlfriend."

He sent a circle of friends yesterday?

You can't breathe because of this sentence.

She always thought that he never made friends.

Turns out he's not. He just happened to make her friends invisible.

How much do you hate me? However, I did nothing.

Kuaining suddenly wanted to cry. ...

1

Water chestnut: Millet, erect stem, transparent tongue coating, flat and soft leaves. ...

Ning: Quiet and serene.

"Kuaining" means being gentle and quiet, not arguing with others, not being disturbed or annoying.

As the name implies, people probably mean Kuaining.

As a junior, I can live a simple life every day. Live a life of 4. 1 minute like a circulating decimal point, dormitory, classroom, canteen and library.

Such a life of 4. 1 minute is actually not annoying. On the contrary, she still has some expectations.

The reason for the expectation may also be related to him.

2

Some people, just standing there, are already a landscape.

He is such a person.

At the opening ceremony of the first year of college, he stood on the platform and introduced himself. He has five distinct features, angular features, deep and bright eyes, magnetic and relaxed voice, warm and sunny smile. He just stood there, talking to Kan Kan, and the whole person flaunted a noble elegance. ...

That innate temperament just touched Kuaining.

You Ning found that she had not been so excited for a long time. She was happy, nervous and excited, mixed with a little expectation. ...

—— ——

Although I moved my heart, you know the gap between yourself and him.

At first glance, he was born in a superior family and received a good upbringing, which made him precipitate this extraordinary atmosphere.

And myself, look at yourself, is so plain.

Yes, Gou Ning was born in the countryside, but she didn't feel inferior because of it.

On the contrary, she likes country life very much, quiet, plain, quiet and beautiful. Every time you go home, it is your most intoxicated moment. On the one hand, you can enjoy the happy time with your family. On the other hand, in the face of pure nature, you can better think about your life and future direction.

—— ——

The two sides have different life backgrounds, different living habits and different outlook on life and values.

You know this distance well.

Therefore, she has no wishful thinking.

At the same time, she also has her own arrogance There is nothing wrong with liking someone, but she can't let go of her figure and humble expectations.

—— ——

Keep your distance, you can protect yourself, but you are doomed to be lonely forever.

Youning is not afraid of loneliness, because she still has school and homework. She has always understood that learning is the most important thing under any circumstances.

She carefully buried this heart and love in her heart and didn't let anyone know. Even when his roommates talked about him happily, Kuaining just smiled and listened, and his face was unmoved.

But that doesn't mean she didn't expect it.

In class, you always come to the classroom early and choose a middle seat to sit down. In this way, when he walks into the classroom, you can look at him with your head in the middle.

After class, you will leave the classroom a few minutes late. Later, you can look at his back and disappear into your sight bit by bit.

Only in this way will I feel very satisfied.

She doesn't expect more, but she is also afraid: I like him and won't be a burden to him.

three

Yes, because of fear, Geng Ning didn't even dare to add his WeChat.

As early as my freshman year, a WeChat group was established in my class. The class teacher called on everyone to add a good friend to the group. Youning added many classmates' WeChat, but he didn't have time to add him. I'm afraid I'm too abrupt, I'm afraid I'll have more ideas, I'm afraid I'll make irrational moves. ...

Of course, he didn't take the initiative to add him, let alone add him.

Such a proud person seems to have never seen more of Kuaining.

Many times, you are thinking about what kind of woman you should be to stand beside him and watch the flowers bloom with him.

There really are such lucky women in the world.

—— ——

When he knew he had a girlfriend, he heard it from his roommate.

Qingshu is a lively and cheerful woman, different from Gou Ning's quiet. Qingshu and the boys and girls in the class can play together, so she knows more things.

That day, after coming back from class, he poured a book with a sullen face and said to Kuaining, "Why do you think he has a girlfriend?"

You Ning is a little curious: "Who has a girlfriend?"

Dumping the book: "It is the first person in our class, and I talk about it every day."

Kuaining paused, and then lightly sighed, "good grades, good-looking. Is it abnormal to have a girlfriend? "

Yes, you are not surprised by the news that you have a girlfriend. Or there is no expectation in my heart, so it is not too painful to hear the news.

Dumping the book is a bit sad: "alas, I have no chance." That girl is in the music department next door. She is very beautiful and can play the piano. They stand together really well. "

"Have you seen anyone else's girlfriend?" Kuaining said in surprise.

Throw a book: "Yes, they ate together. The way he looks at her is so gentle. "

You Ning: "Do you envy?"

Throw a book: "It's not just envy, it's simply envy and hate!" I didn't expect me to fall in love like this. You should stop studying by yourself at night and go out for a drink with me. "

You Ning: "Ok, I will bravely sacrifice myself today."

You will never refuse your roommate's request. Although she is quiet, it doesn't mean that she has a bad personality. In fact, she has a good relationship with her roommates.

Just looking at the unhappy book, Kuaining sighed. You are not the only one who is lovelorn in this world.

—— ——

In the evening, Gou Ning, Qing Shu and two other roommates found a small restaurant next to the school. Qing Shu ordered beer, which was the first time Gou Ning saw him drinking beer.

Throw away the book: Do you want to drink, You Ning? Your situation is not much better than mine.

Kuaining knew what this book was about, and she gave a wry smile.

Book inclination: You Ning, after all these years, do you still have a crush on your junior high school classmates?

Kuaining nodded and shook his head again.

four

Freshman, fate made m-girls live in a dormitory. The ends of the earth are together, and the distance between them is so close.

At that time, when sisters chatted together, they would talk about each other's little thoughts. Especially for feelings, everyone is more interested.

You Ning also told her previous story.

In junior high school, You Ning had a crush on a male classmate in her class. That male classmate is as tall as Shuai Shuai, but with a little piqueness, and Kuaining is such a good girl, so it is impossible for them to have any intersection.

Kuaining didn't know what he liked about him at that time, only that his eyes would follow him involuntarily every time he had a break. When she sees him, Kuaining will feel particularly good.

This kind of love lasts from junior high school to high school. In high school, Gou Ning naturally entered a key high school and the boy went to another university. He thought he couldn't see him, and this love naturally disappeared.

I just didn't expect that during my three years in high school, Kuaining never forgot her. On the contrary, this yearning is getting stronger and stronger. ?

—— ——

After the college entrance examination, Kuaining ran to a telephone booth outside the school, picked up the receiver and carefully spread out the small note in her hand. On the paper, it was the boy's phone number. Kuaining dialed those numbers trembling.

When the number was dialed, there was a dripping sound in the receiver, and Kuaining was already crying. ...

The phone was finally connected, and a voice came from inside: "Hello, who is this?"

Kuaining tried to cover her mouth and didn't dare to make a sound.

The receiver kept coming: "Who, who?"

……

Finally, Kunin hung up the phone without saying a word.

Get out of the phone booth, quickly tear up the note in your hand and throw it into the trash can.

Goodbye, youth. Goodbye, six years of unrequited love.

You Ning told herself that college time is coming and life is about to start again.

—— ——

At that time, after listening to the story of Kuaining, my roommates all called Kuaining an idiot, so why not say it?

Kuaining smiled. What's the use of saying it? People in two different worlds are doomed to have no result.

Yes, you always know what you need and what you are suitable for.

On the contrary, he often said to you in the later days: Why don't you be willful once? Live your own life.

Willful? Live high?

Kuaining gave a wry smile. Others may be able to do it, but she can't.

Unlike the abandoned children's books born in the city, Kuaining understands that reading is her only way out.

She has experienced the hardships of rural life since she was a child. Seeing her parents living at sunrise and at sunset every day, she secretly told herself that she must study hard and have the ability to let her parents live a good life in the future, so she doesn't have to work so hard.

So you've been studying hard these years, and you've been trying to control those little thoughts that have nothing to do with reading.

I thought it would be different after going to college, but I didn't expect to fall into a doomed unrequited love. Only this time, you won't tell your roommate.

five

After two bottles of beer, the face leaning against the book has turned red.

She leaned against her shoulder and wiped her nose: "You should start a new life, or you can boldly tell your junior high school classmates that you like him, or you can accept the pursuit of others."

You Ning curled her lips: "Who wants me?"

Throw the book away and shout, "Why not? Two people in the foreign languages department pursued you before, and you both refused. Don't any boys in the class like you now? Don't think about it. "

You Ning: "Who said he liked me? He never said that. "

Throw a book: "He doesn't like you. He gave you a red envelope on the day of 520, and you idiot didn't accept it."

You Ning remembered that on the day of 520, the male classmate who had a good relationship gave her a red envelope. At that time, she was a little strange and answered each other with a question mark.

As a result, the other party said, at 520 today, I am afraid that no one will give you a red envelope, so I will send you one.

Of course, you didn't accept this red envelope.

In her impression, the male classmate seems to have a girlfriend, and it is not good to accept the other party's red envelope rashly. If the other person doesn't have a girlfriend, you don't want to be so ambiguous with the other person.

For the affair, Kuaining refused.

She has a rule in her heart. If you are in love, talk about it. If you don't talk about it, you can only stop at friends.

—— ——

It's a pile of books. I'm a little worried about why you don't accept red envelopes: "Ning, you really don't understand that white people will give you a red bag on May 20."

You Ning smiled and said, "I don't understand, I'm stupid."

Leaning the book and shaking his arm: "Little sister, your academic performance is so good and your emotional intelligence is so low."

You Ning continued to smile: "I will ask you for advice as soon as possible next time this happens."

Laugh at the book, "then you have to pay for teaching." But you see that I am lovelorn, and I will not teach you to be lovelorn, hahaha. "

The atmosphere is so good that a dormitory person is talking and laughing. ...

six

After this time, book dumping was quickly adjusted.

But from time to time, she still talks about him in the dormitory.

Every time, Kuaining pretended as if nothing had happened and listened quietly. I haven't heard from him myself, and it's good to hear from other places.

What you didn't expect was that not long after this time, she had the opportunity to get along with him alone.

On that day, the head teacher arranged for the study committee member to go to a street office with him to talk about voluntary assistance, because Kuaining was a famous talented woman in the class, and the head teacher asked Kuaining to follow her until she came back to write a detailed plan when she knew the situation.

As a result, on that day, the study Committee member couldn't come because of something, so it was only Ning and him.

In the gap between waiting in the street office, he stood alone and played with his mobile phone. You Ning stood not far away, trying to say hello, but then he stopped, so don't disturb him.

The sun shone through the window and fell on him, stretching his shadow for a long time.

Kuaining looked at himself and his shadow on the ground and thought, this is the last time we have been apart, but it's good to look at his shadow.

When talking about things, listen quietly and take notes. No matter whose turn it is to speak, Kuaining will seriously look up at each other. Especially when he speaks, Kuaining looks very focused.

In this way, I can look at your face fair and square, and you can be glad in your heart.

—— ——?

At the end of the day, Kuaining recalled that he always said four words to him today, which was the only conversation between two people in three years:

He: What do you think?

You had a nice talk.

He: Do you need my help to write this planning book?

Youning: Not for the time being. I'll write it first. Let's revise it together.

He: OK.

He: How do you go back to school?

You Ning: I take the bus.

He: I have work to do. I'll go first.

Youning: OK, bye.

—— ——

In this way, a few words have been stored in Kuaining's mind. Even after a long time, Kuaining still remembers them.

After coming back that day, the head teacher asked about the situation in the group, and then said to Kuaining, you remember to send him the planning book, and you will decide this matter together.

How to send? I haven't friended him yet. After reading the instructions of the class teacher in the group, Kuning thought about it. I'd better add him as my friend.

You Ning is glad that the head teacher gave him a good reason to be his friend.

In this way, uneasy, nervous and excited, Kuaining opened the other person's head and sent it to a friend for request.

In the evening, WeChat indicated that there was news. You opened it, and Friend Request passed. The other person is already your good friend.

Youning was ecstatic. She clicked on his circle of friends, only to find that she could see nothing.

Youning was a little disappointed. Does he never send friends?

Maybe some people just don't like making friends.

With this in mind, Kuaining was somewhat relieved.

seven

It's not that he doesn't make friends, it's just that you can't see it.

It's really hard for you to know. You can watch his circle of friends with your roommate.

Kuaining never thought that he would make himself invisible.

Why does he block himself and not others?

Are you too obvious? Or did he do something to make him angry?

Kuaining knew that no one could give him an answer, but he was sure of one thing: he didn't want anything to do with himself.

Maybe he told himself not to be wishful thinking in such a special way.

—— ——

You can't see it if you can't see it. He won't let me see his dynamics, and he may not want to see mine at the same time.

Thought of here, Kuaining suddenly felt like a joke, sad and pitiful.

It's just that I have a crush on someone. Now I'm not qualified to have such a secret crush?

Kuaining hid in the bathroom, turned on the tap and let the water run down to cover up her broken heart and tears that could not flow in front of outsiders. ...

When my roommate came back, she was leaning against the bed bar reading a book. She is still her, the hard-working, enterprising and quiet girl, and she will not change for anyone.

—— ——?

Thank you for establishing an invisible circle of friends and for your kindness.

Kuaining closed the book and muttered.

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