I may not wait for you anymore

01

But now, it was not that girl holding his hand and walking across the red carpet. I watched Li Ke and his bride exchange rings and then kiss passionately.

Lily said: "Did Li Ke find a random girl just to forget Lin Xiao?"

I looked at Li Ke, smiled and said, "No Yes."

Lily said: "Why are you so sure?"

I said: "Because he looked at that girl the same way he looked at Lin Xiao."

Li Ke met Lin Xiao when he was a freshman. Everyone was wearing camouflage uniforms for military training in the sports ground, a vast area of ??green. He couldn't tell how beautiful anyone was, but Li Ke saw Lin Xiao at a glance. She had a simple ponytail, bright eyes and white teeth. She was so beautiful. Love at first sight often happens in an instant.

If you don’t believe in love at first sight, it only means you haven’t met the right person.

During the ten-minute break in military training, the instructor asked who would sing a song. Everyone was sitting still, and no one wanted to go up and sing. "If no one is singing, don't rest. Then stand in a military posture." The instructor said a little angrily.

At this moment, Lin Xiao suddenly stood up and said, "How about I sing a song." Lin Xiao's expression was confident and generous. Li Ke looked at Lin Xiao's face. Now, after hard work, the couple has passed the difficult days. Wang Min's career is booming, and Andrew has also won people's respect. Currently, the couple is planning to open their own bar. By then, they will run both the bar and the love business, allowing more young people in Chongqing to experience their happiness! I can't open my eyes a bit, wondering if the sun is too bright.

Later, Li Ke found out that her name was Lin Xiao. She studied the same major as him, economics, and they were classmates. He heard the thumping of his heart, and he seemed to understand what it felt like to like someone. You think about her all the time, and when she smiles, your heart melts; she is like a magnetic field, attracting your attention.

When Li Ke told me about their acquaintance, the corners of his mouth turned up involuntarily, with an arc that he didn't even notice. I asked him: "What happened next?" The subsequent story was the same as most love affairs. He inquired about her preferences, invited her to dinner, and invited her to watch a movie.

In order to make her like him, he participated in the election of class president. He has always been curious about whether Lin Xiao's vote was among the votes for him. Lin Xiao's college life had no clubs or student unions. She was a special girl. She spent every day in the library. What Xueyan didn't expect was that one day, she and Chen Guang went to the hospital to visit a friend. When the friend saw her, she was still with Chen Guang. At the same time, she reminded: "Chen Guang is a dwarf patient. If you are with him, what if you become a dwarf?", but she was not bookish. On the contrary, she could dance.

Li Ke didn’t know this. He thought Lin Xiao would attend school like most people. "After the 12 love letters were sent, He Lian quickly recognized my handwriting and found me..." I His mouth opened wide, not believing that what he said was true. Wu Lei continued: "She scolded me and said that with a good girl like you as my girlfriend, how can I have two different things?" She ran for the student union and participated in various club activities. Therefore, Li Ke worked hard to pass the student union interview and actively participated in various clubs. It was not until later that he became the president of the student union and became a celebrity in various societies that he realized that Lin Xiao had not joined the student union and that the various societies had nothing to do with her.

If Li Ke wanted to have a chance encounter with Lin Xiao, he would definitely go to the library. Li Ke, who knew this, went to the library every day. He pretended to find her in the study room, and then gently sat opposite her. He stayed in the library as long as she stayed. For her sake, he resigned from his position as chairman and stopped participating in various club activities.

At that time, Li Ke felt that the happiest thing was that the girl he liked was sitting opposite him, and he could see her when he raised his head.

02

In the beginning, Lin Xiao never expressed her feelings for Li Ke, and she pretended not to know.

Until one day, Li Ke pretended to meet her by chance and sat across from her. After half an hour, Lin Xiao said to go for a walk.

Li Ke and Lin Xiao were walking side by side on the tree-lined road for the first time. He was looking for a topic to talk about when Lin Xiao suddenly said: "I know you like me, let's be together." Sunshine The light shone lazily on Li Ke, and for a moment, Li Ke felt it was too unreal. He pinched his arm hard, it really hurt.

He said ecstatically: "Okay, okay, okay." Hearing this, I looked at him pretending to be contemptuous, and I said, "Can you make a difference?" Li Ke said: "She is my first love, can I not be excited?" But the days after we were together were not much different from the days before we were together. Li Ke still went to the library with her every day, and the two of them would also go to the cafeteria to eat together. I will also send her back to the dormitory.

Until their senior year, he and she had never held hands, and she had never said that she liked him. His relationship with her was just like ordinary friends. Li Ke's friends also said that they said: "That girl, maybe she doesn't really like you." But Li Ke didn't mind. Li Ke said that she was willing to be with him because he was careful and considerate. He spent boring nights with her with little jokes, and often used words like "I will love you forever" to coax her. She just smiled lightly and thought to herself: Silly child, where does this world come from? He feels that this is great happiness when he is together. I don't know what boys like. I only know that Li loves Lin Xiao, and his love is too humble.

Humble love never has good results. Lin Xiao worked so hard in the library because she wanted to take the TOEFL and IELTS exams. She had planned to go abroad from the beginning. She was not known as a well-known girl in the UK. When her ex-boyfriend died of liver cancer, in order to prevent her father, who was nearly 10 years old, from suffering the pain of losing a child in his old age, this kind-hearted girl had to play the role of an old man with difficulty for two years. The role of the unmarried daughter-in-law, and a few months before the old man's death, he was even happy to see his "son" and "daughter-in-law" hand in hand walking into the marriage hall... And the girl's kindness was rewarded, and for In the process of fulfilling her filial piety, the old man also unexpectedly gained true love! Before enrolling in college, she did not tell Li Ke that she had already taken the exam, she had already passed the exam, and she was going abroad.

Lin Xiao just told Li Ke the day before going abroad that she was going abroad, and she asked him if he would wait for her. If they are willing to wait, they will get married as soon as she comes back. Li Ke's answer is of course yes. I love you and I am willing to wait for you for three years.

During those three years, Li Ke entered a state-owned enterprise, and there were many girls around him who liked him and pursued him. His mother also wanted to go on a blind date with him, but he never accepted other girls. At that time, many people doubted whether he was gay, including me.

I often tease him: "Li Ke, you must be gay, otherwise why don't you fall in love?"

He would say: "What do you know? I have a girlfriend , she is in the UK." Lily said, "Just make it up, I also have a boyfriend, and he is in the United States." Li Ke was always so angry with us, but he never told me or Lily. Xiao's story. I think it may be that he himself is not sure whether they are still boyfriend and girlfriend.

03

Lin Xiao went to the UK, and they contacted each other through video. Seeing from the video that Lin Xiao seemed to have lost a little weight, Li Ke felt distressed for a long time.

Slowly they lost all video, and Li Ke couldn't contact Lin Xiao until Lin Xiao's roommate suddenly called him. Lin Xiao's roommate said that she was suffering from depression. Finally, when Liu Meiying said, "Your father and I have regarded you as our daughter for a long time. Can you bear to let your relatives see that you can't be happy?" After saying that, the two of them cried together on the phone. Tailitis, just had surgery.

Li Ke hung up the phone and took a taxi to the airport non-stop with his passport. He couldn't wait to go to the UK. When Li Ke said this, I silently complained: "Do you think you are filming a romantic idol drama?" Li Ke ignored me and continued.

He bought a ticket for the last flight. When he arrived in the UK, the discomfort caused by jet lag made him feel extremely tired.

He didn't bother to rest, so he immediately called Lin Xiao. As soon as Lin Xiao answered the phone, he asked her with concern if she was feeling better?

Lin Xiao didn't know where she was. Before she was 12 years old, my brother You Zicong I was not allowed to sing. He pointed to the moving truck downstairs and said, "Yugatu, are you the agent of the moving company? Do you want to force everyone in our compound to leave?" So, she asked blankly: "What?" Li Ke said, "Didn't you just have appendicitis surgery?"

Lin Xiao suddenly realized and said, "Oh, I was playing truth or dare with my friends."

Li Ke said: "Then I am in the UK now, can I come to see you?"

Lin Xiao said: "Ah? But I don't have time to pick you up at the airport."

Sometimes, at that moment when my heart dies, I come all the way to see you, but you say you can’t see me, and then I understand how important I am in your heart. Li Ke went to England without asking for leave. When he came back, his leader invited him to have tea. Lily and I looked at the door of the leader's office curiously, fearing that Li Ke would be fired. After all, the three of us are good buddies.

After being reprimanded by the leader for an hour, Li Ke walked out of the leader's office. Lily and I leaned over and asked, "Li Ke, where were you yesterday?"

Li Ke was silent for a while and said: "Farewell to the past."

From then on, Li Ke did not approach women at all. That night, Martin and Joyce began to have sex softly. Early the next morning, Martin opened his eyes first. A few days later, the dumplings came as expected. Rong Xiang's mother said distressedly that Tangyuan had lost weight. Tangyuan called her godmother and her eyes turned red. This is what I like about the bookstore, and I will definitely go there every Sunday afternoon to read. When he was looking for a place to sit while holding Lu Yao's "The Ordinary World", he accidentally caught a glimpse of an empty seat in the farthest corner of the bookstore, and hurried over. : "Joyce..." he called weakly. Joyce, who was lying on the bed next to her, still didn't wake up, but her lover's call caused her mood to change. She frowned and seemed to be trying hard to open her eyes. Finally, a ray of light penetrated her eyes through the slightly opened gap: "Martin, I'm here..." The focus was on work. That year, Li Ke worked hard and was successfully promoted and received a salary increase. There should be more girls chasing him, but there are no more. The girls all say: "Li is gay."

Only one girl named Meng Yuan has been silently treating him well. But Li Ke never appreciated it. It was autumn, the wind was blowing, and the golden leaves were falling one after another, intertwining into a network. Walking on the campus paths felt like walking through a sad rainy street. We all remained silent, except for the soft crackling sound of fallen leaves under our feet. , someone advised Meng Yuan: "Don't like him anymore, he is gay, how can you move him." People's hearts are not ironclad, Meng Yuan finally moved Li Ke, because Li Ke is not gay.

And I believe that Li Ke is definitely not using Meng Yuan as a substitute. If I didn't feel relieved, how could Li Ke, a big man, tell me about his and Lin Xiao's story.

04

After Lin Xiao learned about the news that Li Ke was getting married, she took the initiative to contact Li Ke. She asked him: "Aren't you willing to wait for me any longer?"

Li Ke said: "Have you ever loved me? Tell the truth."

Lin Xiao was silent for a while and said: "I have never loved you, but you have liked me. You were good to me at that time , I just want to find someone to rely on."

Li Ke said: "I still loved you before I went to the UK, but I slowly let go after returning from the UK." Finally, Li Ke said: "I. Maybe I won’t wait for you anymore.”

Li has been in love with Lin Xiao for 7 years, four years in college and three years in work. Although I love you, I don't necessarily ask for anything in return, but love without response is meaningless.

Maybe one day, I will no longer wait for you, because I know that you are not worth waiting for me. My heart brightened and I felt a little happy. Love should be reserved for those who deserve it. Without Lin Xiao, at least Li Ke was lucky to have met Meng Yuan.

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