""Shanghai Castle" Travel Diary (2): A Day on a Roller Coaster"

My guess is: Kindness should be reserved for those who appreciate you. However, the dangers of the world also begin when human nature becomes bad. April 12, 2022, is definitely the most ups and downs day in my life, and it is worth remembering for a lifetime.

The story of spring is still unfolding, but summer is still coming as expected, and the smell of heat wave is coming across the screen: the highest is 32. When I woke up early in the morning, through the curtains, the rising sun was shining brightly, and I couldn't help but want to wash it. After being isolated at home for a long time, I feel that my home is no longer my original home. Now it has become more like a static refuge. For many days, the doors and corridors of the outer rooms have been closed tightly, and the rooms in the home have become adjacent rooms. Apart from an airtight wall, the only fresh "blood" in the single room comes from the south-facing window. We can take a few breaths of air from the slightly opened windows from time to time, and we feel that we are still alive at this moment. Therefore, the first thing I thought of was to change the sheets, quilt covers, and tablecloths all at once, and then soaked them in detergent and disinfectant. Only when I was busy did I feel that I was doing something serious and meaningful.

Next, I did the most important task of the day: the antigen self-test. Finally achieved a staged victory: negative. This result is really hard-won. My mood suddenly cleared up, and the gloom of the previous few days was gone.

While the washing machine was running, I placed a carefully prepared breakfast in the sunroom: a cup of Chinese herbal tea, and a plate of pie cake (yoghurt, banana, raisins) baked last night. Normal life finally returned, and the little beauty seemed to be recovered. I informed my three or two friends as soon as possible. They have been online for the past few days, caring, encouraging and comforting me, giving me the strength and confidence to survive the most difficult period of my life. Quietly bid farewell to this period of darkness before dawn. Finally the rain has passed and the sky has cleared!

Suddenly I heard a knock on the door outside, so I quickly put on my mask and opened the door. I only opened a crack and saw that the person standing outside the door was a volunteer from our corridor. Although he Wearing masks, even though there are two heavy doors between us, we are still wary and look at each other and talk to each other from a distance.

He conveyed the arrangements made by the director of our neighborhood committee, saying that our corridors can be quarantined at home, and he will be responsible for supervising and providing everyone with logistical services. After hearing what he said, my anxious heart suddenly felt relieved. So, I turned around, opened the suitcase, took out some commonly used items, put the box away, and let it stand in the corner to stand guard.

I also told my son the good news in time, so that he could also feel relieved.

While it was still early in the morning, I was sitting on the balcony reading a book on the reading machine. I felt a little thirsty for a while, so I picked up the water glass and took a sip of water. At this time, I coughed again inexplicably and couldn't stop it. Suddenly, I felt that a mouthful of phlegm was stuck in my throat, and I couldn't breathe for a while, so I immediately stood up, changed my position and coughed hard to relieve it. However, he just couldn't do what he wanted. For a moment, a feeling of suffocation came over his heart. As a last resort, I opened the door, rolled on the floor, covered my chest with one hand, and hammered hard with the other. This lasted for about a few minutes, and I was able to clear the phlegm that was stuck in my throat. Feeling at this moment is like fighting death. Fortunately, I was saved and escaped from the gate of hell once, and passed by "impermanence".

My son heard something wrong with my voice next door, and asked me through the door. At that time, I couldn't answer him at all, and I was trying my best to compete with the god of death. After I calmed down and took a breath, I still struggled to tell him what happened at that moment through the door. He was also momentarily surprised. He quickly divided the herbal packet he was taking into two packets for me and asked me to continue drinking. At this moment, after all, he was the son I gave birth to, who knew how to cherish his mother, and saw his emotional ability, instead of blaming me for giving the life-saving medicine to the neighbor upstairs like his father did. Girl.

The "moat" of life can only be built by oneself, but fortunately, I have the constant care and company of my family.

It’s almost noon. After the near-miss battle just now, my heart has calmed down a little. There was still food to be made. I had no appetite, but my son couldn't go hungry. He was still recovering from his illness. So, I got up and started cooking. Suddenly, a WeChat call came in, and it turned out to be the company leader. So he immediately turned off the fire and answered his voice call.

He also lives in the same administrative district as us and was isolated at home earlier than us, but they themselves should be safe and sound. I found out about my current situation through the company's personnel and came to greet me as soon as possible. I am very grateful. After all, while they paid wages on time, they also gave each of our employees a special subsidy in an equal way, except for the two bosses themselves.

Moreover, he did not mention the word work at all. From our brief conversation, which lasted for about five or six minutes, the information revealed was only two words: care, nothing else. At the end of the day, I would like to say goodbye: In this special period, please rest in peace and recuperate first.

For this reason, I deeply understand a truth: only those who have been exposed to the rain know how to take the initiative to hold an umbrella for others. Only when something happens can you see a person's personality charm more clearly. Regardless of whether we are superiors, subordinates, or colleagues, in fact, getting along between people depends on mutual respect, friendship, and empathy. Only by joining hands can we advance and overcome the difficulties.

I think I am lucky. Compared with the bad experience of the previous one, the experience is indeed different. Only by being grateful can we have the confidence to create a new world and therefore make the world a better place. Undoubtedly, disasters are ruthless viruses, but people's hearts can be a warm medicine!

Lunch was a plate of meat slices stewed with carrots and potatoes, a pot of fried garlic cabbage, and white rice. The mother and son followed the old rules: share the food and eat in their own room.

After the meal, everyone took a lunch break. Around 3:10, my son received a call: We were asked to wait at the gate for transfer at 3:45.

He told me this immediately, and I was surprised. Why call him and let a child tell such a serious and terrible thing instead of me.

"He is a child and a college student. Is he easy to talk to?" Several questions popped up in my mind. But let's wait, while my hands have already packed the suitcase unconsciously.

At 3:20, my son’s cell phone rang again. He pressed the record button immediately. He walked out of his room while answering the phone. I picked up his phone and started recording on the phone. Li argued with the other party vigorously.

"Not to mention that I had a fever on March 4. I reported it as soon as possible. You did not arrange for us to do nucleic acid tests that day. From then on, you ignored us. The unified arrangement did not allow us to participate. No. Even after I transferred the risk to my children, I still didn’t make the proper arrangements. It wasn’t until the evening of the 8th that everyone with abnormalities in the corridor had a nucleic acid test, and the report was pending review on the 9th. Nothing more happened after that. Today, my antigen self-test has turned negative through confinement and self-healing, but you said that you would take us for treatment: it is both inhumane and a waste of the country’s scarce medical resources.” /p>

My words left her speechless for a moment, but she still retorted: "Aren't you still coughing? The antigen test is not accurate."

Her answer made me laugh. It’s ridiculous. How many people will she slap in the face with her words? They actually forced me to leave for these two reasons. And her voice on the other end of the phone was also rustling. Didn’t she also have to be quarantined?

"I can leave, and you can clear the account, but you have to come first, first served. Our corridor noticed the abnormality earlier than us and stopped accepting calls. Why?"

"They will make arrangements later."

Her answer still made me unsatisfied. At this time, my son had already understood the relevant documents through relevant channels and knew that they had to provide and present our diagnosis report. So he quietly informed me next to him.

She on the other end of the phone felt speechless for a moment, so she hung up the phone.

Around 3:40 minutes, my son received another call, from a man who transferred the transportation: "Are you leaving? Aren't you leaving?"

My son took his words and asked, "Do you have a report?"

"You're not leaving, are you?" The other party said to himself and hung up the phone.

Then nothing more.

The corridor volunteers said they would help verify the information with the community leaders who promised us not to leave in the morning, but they waited and waited, and finally lost their voice online.

Although there was a near-miss in this scene in the afternoon, this scene eventually became a joke.

The son on the side looked really confused, the style of the painting was so strange. But my on-the-spot performance, although not always surprising, still opened his eyes to my orderly response. It turns out that your own destiny can be manipulated in this way to turn things around.

He also reminded me of a very important point: "When you answer the phone in the future, remember to record it."

It turns out that the best education is on the spot. It can be described as learning now and applying it now. Growing up happened in an instant.

Therefore, being too obedient is not the best way to educate. Self-help can beat drug treatment at any time.

As a friend of mine said: At any time, you cannot surrender your life to the rules and procedures, you must be sober and controllable.

Indeed, we should choose to be with kindness, but bottom-line thinking must be indispensable. You can be kind, but you also need to be sharp. Otherwise, if you talk to bad people about kindness, you will be the one who gets hurt. The system is to protect the interests of the majority, so it is not perfect. However, if the light of humanity is missing in the implementation, it will be another kind of harm. Therefore, when encountering a problem, you should not just look at the appearance, spend more time exploring the essence of the matter, and make decisions that are foreseeable at the time. We remain moderately sensitive, and we also refine our minds through experiences and use situations to cultivate our minds.

Today’s experience is like a roller coaster, starting from a sunny morning, from full of expectations for a better life to experiencing the edge of death, and encountering "impermanence" with no danger. , I felt the warmth of the people around me, the timely help coming from a distance, and the joy of fighting side by side with my son who shared the same enemy. However, we also experienced the harm caused to us by the distortion of human nature and the lagging management mechanism. We understand that our kindness must be given to the right person, otherwise we will only hurt ourselves. Remember, at any time, do not abuse emotions to make decisions without thinking, but adhere to your bottom line thinking in a principled manner. Sometimes, sympathizing with the weak is just a superficial way of coping with high-profile things, rather than an effective way to truly solve problems.

Therefore, I have a profound understanding: In the parenting class, the first priority is to gain insight into human nature, rather than instilling in him to be an obedient child.

As a human being, you must remember to be kind, but as a human being, you should be like a rose: the fragrance of the flower gives you destiny, and the sharp thorns protect you.

I very much agree with this sentence: True kindness is easy-going without losing edge, soft without losing edge.