Is it you or the scenery that makes my eyes wet; in fact, there is always a journey, and I will cry while walking.

season02 Season 2 character08①

It has been half an hour since the car drove off Nanjing West Road. The scenery on both sides of the street has also changed from the window displays of L and HERMES to the current dusty small high-rise residential buildings. The hot August sun hit me head-on through the windshield, and my vision was always filled with a visual effect like an overexposed photo. Gu Li's family's million-dollar BMW Li is currently being driven by a novice driver who has just had his driver's license for three months. Yes, that driver is me. Next to me sat Gu Li, who had held a driver's license for two years. She was wearing huge sunglasses at the moment, and two-thirds of her small face was covered by the sunglasses, leaving only a mouth painted with anna sui summer apricot jelly lip gloss, and her pointed lips. Small chin. She said nothing. I didn't speak either. In fact, it’s not because my mind is empty, but because at this moment, various memories are being played out in my mind one second after another, like a continuous black film in a movie theater that continues to rotate, and the light shines from my The eyes projected out, forming a movie-like image beyond the windshield in front of me.

Such a wordless silence coupled with the car driving at full speed - enough air-conditioning to make the rheumatism in the knees ache, everything gave a sad tone. Except the music from behind in the car doesn't quite match. The high-end car audio is currently playing Lady Gaga's new dance music from Gu Li's iPod. This crazy woman who always wears pants and often dresses herself up as Mickey Mouse is Gu Li's new favorite recently. Some time ago, during a live performance of Lady Gaga, fire suddenly started to erupt from her bra. She turned her whole body on her back, and then her breasts erupted. I was stunned on the sofa, while Gu Li beside me was completely fascinated. This scene fascinated me. Back then, Gu Li was attracted by Madonna's two awl-like bras, and today, she was captivated by a woman whose bras could breathe fire.

I think she has an obsession with breasts. This is why I think she has been able to get along with Tang Wanru for so many years. Because Tang Wanru was also very obsessed with breasts, because they should be the strongest evidence that she could prove that she was still a woman.

The place we are going to is the Jing’an District Public Security Bureau. Twelve days ago, when Nan Xiang was taken away by a pair of bright silver handcuffs, no one knew what happened. And 12 days later, Gu Li and I drove in silence to pick her up from the detention center. In the past two weeks, Gu Li had used all the connections and contacts she could use in an attempt to get Nan Xiang out of it. However, after all, it is not as simple as a street fight.

Neil’s father helped a lot, but of course, it was not convenient for a diplomat driving a car with a black license plate to participate. But for Gu Li's sake, he still put in a lot of effort overtly and covertly. However, the person who finally solved the matter was the person Gu Li hated the most - Xicheng, so this made Gu Li feel particularly frustrated and awkward. I turned my head and glanced at her quietly. She was still a fashionable blind person who said nothing. Just as I was about to sigh, a little boy suddenly rushed in front of the windshield with an ice cream cone. I slammed on the brakes and my chest hit the steering wheel. The pain made me see stars. Come Gu Li's sharp curse. Without saying a word, she got out of the car, came around from the front, opened my door, roughly pulled me out, reached out to open the back seat door and stuffed me in, and then she sat in the driver's seat.

Before sitting in, she glanced at the little man calmly. The little boy didn't have any reaction at first, but after watching this, he started to cry loudly. It can be seen that Gu Li's eyes were full of murderousness and vitality.

I nestled in the spacious back seat of the car, recovering from the shock just now. But Gu Li had already driven the car at high speed, and it felt like it was about to take off. Twelve days ago, Gu Li was like this. He drove the car faster than an airplane and rushed to the station anxiously. The two of us rushed to the police station and waited there for five hours before we met Nan Xiang. When she walked out of the detention cell to see us in handcuffs, the right half of her face was already swollen.

Finally, the secret that Nanxiang had concealed from us for more than three years was completely revealed and exposed to the brutal sunshine of August. For three years, she has been taking drugs behind our back, but she is not the one who takes drugs, it is her mother. The money saved for Nan Xiang's education was quickly consumed, and all the valuable things at home were gone. "You! You have no brains!" Gu Li looked at Nan Xiang, who was sitting across from the dark green bench, and scolded her in a low voice with a pale face. Ten crystal nails covered with diamonds turned her smooth The CHANEL satin skirt was so wrinkled that it wrinkled.

“Do you think I haven’t thought about it?” Nan Xiang’s hair was messy and draped over her shoulders, and her eyes were bloodshot. “I have done this no less than ten times. I have them all in my hand, I pressed all three numbers, but I still can’t make up my mind to dial it out, because the person who kneels in front of you and pulls your pants and says, "I was wrong, I was wrong" is yours. Mom, what should you do? When she was awake, she burst into tears, grabbed my hand, and told me with gray hair and wrinkles on her face that she was sorry for me and that she was not a human being. But once the poison hit her, she She was lying on the ground frothing at the mouth, rolling around, throwing things, begging me to give her "medicine", and scolding me if she didn't give her. She also said to me, "You are so beautiful, go ahead and take care of her." Rich! "...Gu Li, if you had been in my place, you would have gone crazy these past few years."

Gu Li and I sat across from her, not knowing what to do. Say something. Half of her face is as pale as the early autumn moon, and the other half is red and swollen, like a bleeding apple. Over the years, Gu Li and I have not even noticed the secret hidden under this face. We They all feel that Nanxiang is like us, living in a happy new era, wandering on the beautiful university campus, when I am complaining about the quarrels in love, or Gu Li throws her new one that has been used for two weeks in the drawer and never uses it again. What was Nan Xiang thinking about when he wasn't using it anymore?

Gu Li didn't say anything. I sat on the stool and burst into tears, like a faucet that wasn't closed tightly.

The car drove to the entrance of the station. Gu Li and I got out of the car and walked inside. We walked to the gate of the detention center to pick Nan Xiang out. When the iron door opened, I listened to the crashing sound, and tears welled up again in an instant. Gu Li pinched my waist with her crystal nails in time, and my tears retracted. We all put warm smiles on our faces, held Nan Xiang’s hands from left to right, and walked outside.

"Can I have a few words with Xicheng?" Nan Xiang turned around and looked at the man who brought us here, "That's the man who was imprisoned in my place later."

Gu Li shook off Nan Xiang's hand and walked straight towards her BMW, "I'll wait for you in the car."

His deep eyes were half-squinted, with a look in his eyes. It is a kind of mellow but sharp light that has been tempered in this society for many years: "Whether he can help you take the blame is hard to say. So, don't make trouble. I am you, and I walked out of this door. , I will never look back. Little girl, your life is still long and long, so don’t delay yourself.”

On the way back, the three of them were silent. Nan Xiang and I sat in the back seat, while Gu Li drove in front. All she left was the back of her head and the huge sunglasses that appeared in the rearview mirror. I couldn't see her eyes, couldn't see her expression, couldn't see her heart.

Nan Xiang leaned on the seat slantingly, his forehead gently pressing against the glass of the window. The setting sun outside the window, which gradually turned into crimson, shone in through the U paper pasted on the window, making her The face was wrapped in a kind of haze with a sad color. Her hair was long and soft, draped on her shoulders, and became fluffy in the afterglow of the setting sun.

I wanted to say something several times in an attempt to break this awkward situation. It felt like there were bugs crawling in my throat and it was very itchy, but I didn’t know what to say. So I could only turn my head and look at the busy traffic outside the car window. At this time, Gu Li's voice rang.

She picked up the call, didn’t say anything, and kept listening. She whispered “Hmm, um” a few times in the middle. Finally, she said, “Okay, I’ll be right back.” Then she parked the car on the side of the road. . She opened the car door and got out, walked to the back window, I rolled down the window, and she said to me: "Lin Xiao, you drive Nanxiang back first. I have to go and deal with some things. Come back in the evening, and we will talk again." After saying that, she looked at Nan Xiang. Even through her sunglasses, I couldn't see the world in her eyes.

Nan Xiang nodded lightly, "You go first, we will wait for you when we go back."

Gu Li raised his hand to hail a taxi, and her slender figure was quickly taken away by the yellow car. Disappeared on this road. While she was speaking, I heard Gong Ming's cold voice coming from her microphone.

I sat in the driver’s seat and just fastened my seat belt when Nan Xiang came up from the other side. She smiled at me, with a kind of exhaustion in her eyes. Her wet eyes were like the wet sycamore leaves piled up on the roadside in winter, revealing a sad desolation of abandonment. This desolation also makes her more beautiful. Really, I have always felt that Nan Xiang is too beautiful. Such beauty will ruin her. One day. While driving, I fumbled with the car's entertainment system. After searching for a long time, I finally got a radio. Nostalgic movie hits are playing on the channel, and the road in front of you is jammed with cars. During rush hour traffic, all the drivers impatiently honk their horns together. Shanghai is like countless noisy rivers converging together. The air outside the car was scorched by the sun, but inside the car was a small cold world. At this moment, the oncoming sunset with a huge halo of light enveloped me and me like a warm quilt. Nanxiang is wrapped together. I suddenly remembered the movie "The Driver and the Female Prisoner" that I had watched with Nan Xiang before. I didn't know why I suddenly had such a funny association. Nan Xiang suddenly turned his head and smiled at me: "Do you remember the movie "The Driver and the Female Prisoner" that we watched together under the quilt in our sophomore year?" I turned my head and looked at Nan Xiang, feeling so struck in my heart. The stinging pain hit him instantly. My body and soul fell apart in this huge flood. I lay on the steering wheel grinning and crying. My chest hurt, like a stake, and I could hardly breathe.

While I was crying, Nanxiang picked up the call and it was Wei Hai. He is coming to find her. Nan Xiang asked Wei Hai to meet at the door of his house, but Wei Hai refused. Even inside, I could hear his strong voice: "I don't. I'm coming to find you. Ask Lin Xiao to park the car on the side of the road, and I'll be here right away." "Wei Hai's voice was irresistible and firm, sounding like Chong Guang when he lost his temper. I don’t know why I suddenly thought of Chongguang. It has been more than half a year since he left my world. Maybe it's because the afterglow of the setting sun that fills the sky is smearing this concrete forest wantonly at this moment. This is his innate smell. Maybe it's because the fatigue in my body is about to overwhelm me. I long for his powerful feeling. A gaze as clear as stars in the dark night sky. illuminate me.

I parked the car in the white line on the roadside, turned off the engine, and sat in the car with Nan Xiang to listen. Time ticked into raindrops, slowly falling on our bodies, our hair, our sunburned eyelids, and our nails. We were soaked by the heavy rain of this time.

I was lying on the steering wheel, and the past few years were rolling in my mind. They were like a big river, flowing eastward from my eyes. I couldn't keep them, I could only rub them with my eyes repeatedly, and I could only stare at the churning whirlpool without letting go until they were rolled into the deep river bottom.

I saw us nestled in the small living room of the school dormitory. At that time, Gu Li didn’t spend hundreds of thousands on a sofa. We happily dragged out the white cotton sofa from IKEA and drank Gu Li’s tea. I brought Swedish coffee or Nanxiang brewed pearl milk tea, and I taught Tang Wanru to do yoga on the carpet. Nanxiang was reading various sad novels with red eyes at the corner of the sofa, while Gu Li always seemed to be a delicate woman. Like a crystal vase, she was sitting on the armrest of the sofa, using her expressionless fake face to flip through the pages of "The Current Month".

I saw Gu Li at that time. She was so angry that she said something bad to Jinan Road Exit 8: "70,000 per square meter! Just wait to be bombed!" She was also planning. Is it better to just forget about an L bag, or grit your teeth and go for HERMES? She brought various drinks from home with foreign characters printed on the packages to the dormitory, tinkered with various things as if doing experiments, and gave them to us to taste. Although she was still money-worshipping, cold, and mean at that time, she still had a spicy aura like a fresh plant. It makes her seem real. It's something I can touch, something that makes me dare to be close to her, or rely on her.

Nan Xiang and I often skipped a whole morning of class when it rained. I squeezed into her bed, buried my face in her long, fragrant hair, and listened to her graceful and moving voice. , read those Japanese works with clear words and strange sentences. Amidst the sound of rain outside the window and the hum of the air conditioner, I listened to her read the entire book "The Temple of the Golden Pavilion". And halfway through "Snow at Late Night", we graduated.

At that time, Tang Wanru was still our pet Ruru. She could always make all kinds of shocking remarks in the cafeteria, which made us want to be isolated from her. But she also has the most primitive purity and simplicity in her body, like a warm and moist gem that will always shine in Shanghai, a city corroded by patina. We live on her happiness, and we build our happiness on her pain.

And now, I was driving Nan Xiang alone, who had just been released from detention, and parked the car on the noisy roadside. Gu Li left the two of us alone because of work. As for Tang Wanru, my heart hurts when I think of her.

My tears flowed down my cheeks and into my neck, and someone knocked on the car window. I raised my head and saw Wei Hai's face outside the window, half immersed in the shadows and half red by the setting sun. After Wei Hai got in the car, he automatically took over the driver's seat. I took the initiative to sit in the back row. Nan Xiang was sitting in the passenger seat. Weihai drove much more steadily than I did. I leaned on the back seat with half-squinted eyes, like I was lying on a huge cruise ship. I looked at the backs of Wei Hai and Nan Xiang, and saw Wei Hai silently holding the steering wheel with one hand and firmly grasping Nan Xiang's hand with the other. Suddenly, a mixture of sadness and emotion surged in my heart. When I first learned that Nan Xiang and Wei Hai were together, I really thought it was a joke, but now, I suddenly feel that the two of them are so touching. Love is not as great as we imagine. Love is very simple. Love means that I don’t want to wait for even a second. I want to find you right away. I suddenly remembered that when I was writing the Sogo column, he was listening to music and drinking Coke at home, while casually holding a black carbon pen and writing beautiful regular scripts in his Hermès notebook. That passage is: "You have to believe that there must be your lover in the world, whether you are surrounded by light and drowned in applause at the moment, or you are walking alone on the cold street and getting wet by heavy rain, whether it is snowing In the early morning, or in the dusk when the heat wave scorches, he will definitely pass through the turbulent people in this world. He will walk past them one by one and come towards you. He will definitely be filled with warmth and love in his eyes. Come to you and hold on to you. He will be eager to come to you. If he is young, he will hug you like a naughty child who occupies his own toy and refuses to share it with others. No matter how young you are, he will definitely light a bonfire beside you and hug you tiredly and rest assured. He will definitely find you. ”

When Gu Li returned to "M.E", he felt an indescribable subtlety in the air from the moment he entered. Of course she knew why. As a newly appointed department manager, she was suddenly informed that a flat model who was going to be photographed tomorrow suddenly left the booth and said she would not shoot because the price was too low. Gu Li returned to the office and Lan Jue was already waiting for her in the room. She took the coffee and a large stack of documents handed over by Lan Jue, took a sip, and then flipped through them. Gu Li frowned, "Where is the model?" "It's downstairs." Gu Li put the coffee gently on the glass desk she had just ordered. She smiled at Lan Jue's handsome face and said, "Come down with me, and I'll tell you how to teach such a disobedient little wolfdog." After the elevator opened, Gu Li's pair of stiletto heels were on the marble floor. There was a clicking sound in the corridor. No one in the entire corridor spoke. Everyone was nervous and looking forward to it, just like the restless audience in the cinema one minute before the screening of "Transformers". They were all looking forward to it. Flesh and blood and Qiqi Kaka's cool transformation. Gu Li walked into the conference room like a female robot. There were more than a dozen people standing and sitting in the conference room, most of them from the department, and one or two from the legal department. Sitting at the end of the huge conference table is the little wolfdog waiting to be taught a lesson - but obviously, he now feels like a lion. He looked at Gu Li, who walked in like a lazy Persian cat, narrowed his eyes, and looked at the beautifully made-up beauty in front of him with a half-smile. "You guys go out first," Gu Li looked around at the anxious colleagues, "I'll talk to him.

"The people dispersed quietly. Although everyone's face was expressionless when they left, everyone could see the disappointment in each other's hearts, unable to watch Gu Li in person - the person who had just been transferred to manage the most important department. What a frustrating thing for a yellow-haired girl. "Tell me, what are you dissatisfied with?" Gu Li pulled up a chair and sat down opposite him, "Of course." Not satisfied with the pay. The model approached Gu Li's face with his handsome and profitable face, "The contract was signed between you and Tony. Although Tony is our model's agent, I am a newcomer. I just made an appointment with the agent I signed with." It will only take effect next month, so the contract you have now is actually invalid. Anyway, you have publicized it, and my photos have been sent to the media in advance. If you change people now, you must also have a headache. Why not raise the price, and it will save us all trouble. You also know that after the commission, I actually don’t have much money, so I just treat it as helping our newcomers. After saying that, the model winked at Gu Li and said, "Please do me this favor. If you need anything personally in the future, just call me and I'll be there on call."

Gu Li looked at him with a smile and said, "No, I'm a vegetarian." "

But obviously with the model's IQ, he didn't hear the green light in Gu Li's words. "Let's get down to business," Gu Li leaned on the back of the chair, looking lazy and elusive. Uncertain, "First of all, let me tell you that Tony and I have been friends for seven years. Ever since you were wearing NIKE to play basketball in high school, Tony and I have already carved our initials into the L, hand in hand. The suitcase is on. In the modeling world, even if he can't cover the sky with one hand, he is more than enough to deal with a little wolfdog like you who thinks his teeth are sharp. Don't tell me that your brokerage agreement will take effect next month. Even if you don't have a brokerage agreement, it won't be difficult for him to make you unable to gain a foothold in this industry. Children, the difference between being good and bad in this industry is not your ability or your looks, the difference is who you know and who you have offended. "M.E" needs to hire a large number of models to take photos every year. The cost itself is huge, and Tony almost takes over more than 70% of the demand for models in Shanghai. It’s okay if you don’t want to take the photo, it’s just going to offend Tony and me at the same time.

The model's half-closed eyes were now widened as she looked at Gu Li. "In the worst case, I won't be a model. There are many rich women who want to support me." " He held on to his face and leaned back on the chair, with a posture of trying to defeat the enemy.

Gu Li's expression was like a delicate gardenia, white and fragile, but the movements of her hands But her movements were as fast as lightning. She stretched out her right hand to hold the model's thumb, then reached behind her with her left hand and took a piece of white paper handed over by Lan Jue in a tacit understanding. When the model was stunned and had no time to react, Gu Li He took the model's finger and pressed it against the white paper with a snap. Just now, the model felt his fingers were wet, and the next moment, the bright red fingerprint of his thumb was already imprinted on the white paper.

< p> "Lan Jue, take it and write an IOU from him to me. Leave the amount blank for now. I can fill it in as I see fit. "Gu Li turned around and pulled out a few tissues from the napkin box on the conference table, wiping the red ink pad on her palms. Before she walked into the conference room, she had already smeared the red ink pad for sealing all over the place. She looked at the pale model in front of her coldly. She no longer needed to smile at her. The Persian cat who was just lazy now finally showed her cheetah-like eyes.

Throwing the bright red tissue on the table, he put his hands on the table and said, "Listen, you have two choices now. The first one, be obedient and come over tomorrow to cooperate with the photo shoot. I guarantee that you will get a good enough reward, and if there is a demand for models in the future, I will choose you first. Although you are stupid, after all, you have an attractive face, and I It can be guaranteed that Tony will not know how your contract should take effect and continue to take effect. "After Gu Li finished speaking, he stood up straight and smiled brightly, "As for the second option, you are to continue to challenge me and see what amazing number I can write on your hand-stamped paper. "

After speaking, Gu Li turned around and took a stack of contracts from Lan Jue's hand and threw it in front of the model, "Sign it. After saying that, Gu Li twisted her slender waist, turned around and went out. Before leaving, he waved the white paper with his handprint on his hand, "I'm leaving first, little wolfdog."

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In the empty conference room, only the ashen-faced model was left. Before, she was as arrogant as a lion, but now she is really just a little wolfdog wearing a collar.

Lan Jue pushed the contract in front of him, with a handsome and smiling expression on his face, which was comparable to the face of the model in front of him. He said softly: "Sign it. It's still too early for you to fight her. You have to know that when she was 16 years old, she successfully got her father to sign a contract that stipulated that she must give her an L bag every year. And the lawyer read the contract and it really had strict legal effects. of.

Gu Li pushed open the door of the conference room, looked at the people blocking the door with their own ulterior motives, and said to them: "Tomorrow at one o'clock in the afternoon, if he is even one minute late, you don't have to pay him." "After that, she continued to step on her high heels that were so sharp that they could knock holes out of the marble floor, and walked towards the elevator without looking back. "You, that woman dressed like a postman, get off. If you wear this skirt again for the first time, I will transfer you to the mail room to shine. Tell me, where is era?"

"In area A. "The person being talked about sat down very consciously. Although his tone was indescribable embarrassment.

"Now you go to my office, make two cups of my Japanese green field coffee, and then Send it to Section A. "

Through the glass door of Area A, only Era is sitting in the office. The makeup on her face is exquisite and fresh. She looks like she just finished makeup at 9 o'clock in the morning. She didn't look like a white-collar worker who had been busy all day when she was about to get off work in the afternoon. She was obviously a little excited, because Gong Ming walked into the work area of ??the subordinate department. She looked at Gong Ming who was standing in front of her wearing a Raf Simons slim shirt. The tie clip on the twill tie is a row of clear solid-color crystals. "Call me and tell me about this," Gong Ming looked at her, gentle and thorough, "What do you want to prove?"

After I took out Gong Ming’s satin dress from the dry cleaning shop on the ground floor of Hang Lung, where one piece of clothing is more expensive than one of my clothes, I took a taxi to his new store not far from Hang Lung. Go over there.

When I walked downstairs to Gong Ming's house and wanted to take it out to call him, I realized that mine had run out of power.

I stood there stupidly. Downstairs, I don’t know what to do. I can go upstairs rashly, or I can leave it with the doorman downstairs and let Gong Ming come down to get it... No matter which choice I choose, I feel Kitty will pull out a gun and shoot. Kill me.

I was hesitating downstairs when a doorman with a smile on his face came towards me and said, "Ms. Lin, come deliver something to Mr. Gong. I'll press the elevator button for you." "It seems that Gong Ming's shocking power has spread from M.E to his new hotel style. Even the doorman is so afraid of him, what a sin.

After the elevator door opened, I walked to his room The doorbell rang at the door, and when the door opened, his face was obviously full of surprise, "Why don't you call first?"

I was about to answer him, but was suddenly stopped by a figure behind him. I was hit, and I looked at the boy sitting in Gong Ming's living room, opening my mouth, but couldn't say anything. Countless thunderstorms seemed to flash through my mind in an instant, and I lost consciousness.

"Are you..." I said to the boy sitting on the sofa in Gong Ming's living room.

"Lin Xiao, it's time for you to go. "Gong Ming came closer, and the boy's figure disappeared behind the cover of the door.

"Gong Ming, he...he is..." It was like a giant beast was beating in my chest, wanting to tear apart at any time. My chest burst out.

"Lin Xiao, whether you have a fever or are crazy, please leave now. Don't you think you are very rude now?" Gong Ming took the dress in my hand, turned around and closed the door.

The moment before the door was closed, I saw the boy inside showing me a Scornful ridicule, I know, he must think I am a madman

I don't know him

I know this, the boy in the room is a foreigner, or. He is a man of mixed race. He has high brows, a straight nose, and thin lips like Gong Ming. He has a pair of green eyes that shine with moisture. I have never seen him before.

However, the crazy thoughts in my heart were like unstoppable wild vines, turning over the thick soil in an instant and weaving into a network in the air that I couldn't get out of.

I know he is.

I know he is.

But I don’t know him. Gu Yuan and Gu Li were sitting on the sofa, while Jian Xi stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window and looked towards the entrance of the community.

"Did you hit her?" Gu Yuan asked.

"She turned off her phone." Jian Xi replied in a low voice without looking back.

"She went to deliver clothes to Gong Ming. She said she would be back soon. She has been there for a while." Wei Hai poked his head out of the kitchen and said to the people in the living room.

"Then I'll go find her and make sure nothing happens." Jian Xi turned around and walked to the door to put on her shoes, "Gu Li, give me Gong Ming's shoes."< /p>

"Yes." Gu Li took it and said while typing, "But you can just ask downstairs. If you don't want to die, don't go up. But you probably won't be able to go up. "Thinking of this, she seemed to feel more at ease.

After I got out of the elevator, I sat on the green steps downstairs. My head was filled with all those crazy ideas. I don't know how long I sat there, but it was getting dark. Above the head is the glass ceiling extending from the lobby door, decorated with beautiful stars. I think of those beautiful words written by Sogo. I think I must miss him too much. Just like when I saw the scarlet dusk today, I was reminded of Chongguang's innate scent that was as warm and sad as the sunset. His gray hood and his white sneakers. His dark pupils were as bright as stars. I watched the lights above me drag my figure out of a dark shadow on the ground. I don't know what I am doing sitting here, there is a ticking sound in my mind like a pendulum.

I was suddenly hit by a smell that rushed towards me, as warm and sad as the sunset. I raised my head from my wild and crazy thoughts, and saw a young foreign boy standing in front of me. before. His golden-brown eyebrows are as thick as two handfuls, and the brow bones are raised high, allowing his eyes to be set in deep canyons. The straight bridge of his nose gives his facial features a depth that Asians cannot have. Tears welled up in my eyes, and my chest felt like it was being hit repeatedly by a heavy hammer, and I almost couldn't breathe. I want to cry. I clutched my backpack with both hands, trying to stand firm. "You shouldn't recognize me." His eyes were red, he came over, stretched out his long arms, and took me into his arms. The huge oncoming breath, the sadness and warmth of the sunset. He was wearing a gray sleeveless T-shirt with a hood on the back, and his hairy calves were exposed under his knee-length shorts, which reflected golden light under the light. His hands held my face tightly, and these hands had written countless sentences that brought tears to my eyes. He gently leaned down and bit my trembling lips with his petal-like tender lips. The warm and fresh hormonal breath in his mouth swallowed up my thoughts. His whole body was like a boiling ocean, slowly I was overwhelmed. Hot tears dripped from his eyelashes and onto my nose. His Adam's apple rolled up and down, and I heard a low whimper in his throat. -You have to believe that there must be your lover in the world. –He will definitely find you. You have to wait. Outside the taxi window is Shanghai when the lights are on. Continuous lights swayed past the car window, like gorgeous goldfish tails, one by one across Jian Xi's slightly sad face. He kept taking it out, but the words on the phone were always "Your phone is turned off." The night fell from the sky, and many of the unbearable and ugly things during the day quickly disappeared into this darkness. There are bright neon lights and huge materialistic signs everywhere. Countless people with blurry faces passed through Jian Xi's gaze one by one, disappearing one by one like leaves in autumn. The rich water vapor evaporating in midsummer condenses on the air-conditioned glass windows. One by one, like tears, they briefly stayed in the passenger's sight. Jian Xi gently closed his dark and warm pupils, and the soft eyelashes were condensed with brilliant neon. He leaned against the glass window and seemed to be asleep. He curled up his long legs and held the dimmed screen in his hand, looking like a tired deer. -I forgot that there is another one in this world, my lover. He will also pass through the turbulent people in this world with enthusiasm in his heart and love in his eyes. He will walk through them one by one and come towards me. –Towards what we are all too familiar with, there is no escape. (End)