May the world be worthwhile, and the future can be expected.

A few months ago, Xiao Hai asked me to write a story about his friend, and I agreed. I haven't written, for one thing, I don't have time, for another, I don't have a clue, and for another, I haven't written other people's stories. Xiaohai urged me many times, and I always wrote and deleted, and I always felt that I didn't want to express myself after writing. 1

"I'm quiet, and I won't bother you"

Last night, Sister Bang initiated a topic # What will happen to children who are insecure when they grow up #

A netizen said:

If they are too insecure, they will wrap themselves in a hard shell, and they can't get out by themselves and others can't get in. You will be swayed by considerations of gain and loss, be overly sensitive, and have extreme ideas. Not only do you not like others, but you also hate yourself. Will be sad all day because of a word and a look.

Insecure children are very fragile, always shuttling between collapse and self-healing, often struggling in the dead of night, and it may take him several days to digest your words.

when I met Ann, I just finished the college entrance examination and worked as a waiter in a restaurant.

When I first met Ann, I always felt that she was surrounded by a dark cloud. The whole person looked very depressed and there seemed to be ice in her eyes. I thought it was because she was in a bad mood.

After a period of getting along, I found that An An is always like that. She doesn't like talking, doesn't like getting along with others, and is a loner.

My colleague told me that Ann has always been like this, especially cold, like someone who owes her millions. She didn't want to communicate with others, and others didn't want to communicate with her, so the manager arranged for her to wash dishes in the back kitchen.

one night, we were busy late. I wiped the table and went to the kitchen. Ann was still washing dishes.

I walked up to her and said, It's late. Let's do it tomorrow.

An An didn't answer and washed the dishes silently. I was standing alone, a little embarrassed.

I said: you have washed it, let me help you clean it.

An An still didn't answer, and the atmosphere was awkward.

after tidying up the dishes, I checked my mobile phone. It's already eleven o'clock.

After Ann whispered a thank you, she took her things and walked to the dormitory, followed by me.

I said, you don't seem to like talking very much.

An An didn't answer.

I said, where are you from?

An An didn't answer, and I didn't ask again.

While waiting for the elevator, Ann took the stairs alone, and she lived on the eighth floor.

I ran to hold her and said, the elevator is coming down soon, so there is no need to take the stairs. Besides, the stairs are dark and unsafe.

An An said: I don't like taking the elevator.

at that time, I didn't know which tendon was wrong, so I abruptly pulled her into the elevator.

As soon as she got into the elevator, Ann screamed like a madman, and kept shouting that I was going out, I was going out.

I looked at An An with a puzzled face, only afterwards did I know that An An had a phobia of space.

that night, I suddenly thought of a sentence once said by the head teacher.

"Those who look enthusiastic are actually frozen inside. Those who look indifferent are still looking for a reason to be good to you. "

The next day, An An told me to talk to me more often in the future. I am quiet and won't bother you. 2

"Loneliness is addictive"

An An said that if a person stays for a long time, it will be addictive.

I am a chatty talker, and in this respect, I am just complementary to Ann.

a month later, my admission notice came down. On the day of my resignation, Ann said a lot to me, which was probably the most I said in a month since I knew her.

An An said, I have been restraining myself and don't want my shadow to affect others.

An An said, I'm a freak. I'm a neat freak. I don't want anyone near me. I'm afraid others will dirty me.

An An said, in fact, I envy you scholars. You don't have to care about anything. I also want to go to school. I also want to have a parent who loves me.

An An said, I want to make many friends and talk to friends. Every time I see you sitting together and chatting, I really want to join you, but I don't know how to take the initiative every time.

An An said that sometimes you are chatting, and when I hear you mention my name, I will be very worried that some of you will know my past and then dislike me together.

An An said that I fled here from my hometown just because I didn't want people to find out that I still existed. It's too difficult to live in another identity, it's too difficult to live.

I interrupted An An, saying that it is difficult to live, and the strongest thing is to persist in living to the end.

An An said that the experience is different, so the idea of living is different.

An An said that when I was at school, I told my good friend about me. As a result, within two days, all the students in the whole grade knew about it, so I had to transfer. In fact, it is very simple to destroy a person, and rumors are enough.

I remember Jing M.Guo wrote a sentence in A River of Sorrow.

if something can travel faster than the speed of light, it must be a rumor.

3

"A Story"

When I was three years old, my parents divorced, and my mother took her to the village next door to find her old frame.

As for the divorce, my mother said that it was put forward by my father, who had a mistress in the city.

My mother hugged me and stood at the door of the man's house, with stars in her eyes. It was many years before I knew that the star was called joy.

She said: This is our future home.

There are many kinds of marriages, some because of love, some because of necessity, and some because of casual partnership. My mother and that man were in love at first, but later they had to.

At first, they will do something romantic because of me, but after a long time, they will quarrel and fight because of me.

when I was in junior high school, that man became addicted to gambling. If I lose money, I will drink, and if I get drunk, I will come back and beat my mother. At that time, I hated myself for not being a boy, and I hated myself for not being able to protect my mother.

one night, when I came back from my self-study next night, my mother was not at home, so I should have gone to work overtime. The man is not at home either. He may be gambling or drinking outside.

I was doing my homework in my room. At ten o'clock, I heard the sound of closing the door. I thought it was my mother's return and didn't pay much attention.

soon, the door of my room was opened, and the smell of wine floated in with the opening of the door.

I turned to look at the bearer. The man was a little embarrassed, with bruises on his face. He should have just had a fight, and his whole body smelled of alcohol made me sick.

the man said, I have raised your mother and daughter for so many years. What did your mother and daughter repay me?

the man said, even if your mother doesn't give birth to me, she will come to me with the children born with others and let me raise them. Am I shameless?

the man said, your mother won't help me have a baby, so you can help me have a baby! You're not my own daughter anyway! You won't be thunderstruck if you fuck!

I threw a stool at him and ran out of the house like hell.

I was still wandering in the street in the early hours of the morning. I was afraid to go home and face my mother and that man.

At that time, I was wondering if I would become a ghost if I died. If I became a ghost, I could get back at that man.

now I think about it, it was really childish. I watched too much TV.

I came home the next day and found my mother and I's clothes left at the door. Inside, it was the quarrel between mother and the man.

it's annoying. why are humans so disgusting?

Mother leaves home clean, too. Those things are not hers, and she has no right to take them.

My mother can't afford to send me to school, so I have to go out to work.

The teacher felt a little pity and wanted to pay for my schooling. Of course I agreed, but my mother refused. She thinks she has raised me for so long, and she is tired. It's my turn to raise her.

to tell the truth, I hate my mother, but I can't find a reason.

Sometimes I hate her for not letting me go to school. On second thought, if I go to school, my mother will not be able to support me. Sometimes I hate her for divorcing my father. On second thought, my father put forward the divorce, so I shouldn't hate her. Sometimes I hate her for taking me to see that man, but on second thought, she also wants to make a living.

if there is a god, I hope those who hurt me and bully me will die in situ, or they will die a natural death.

you see, I am really a bad person.

Man, what a tangled and disgusting creature.

4

"A story always ends"

On the National Day, Ann sent a QQ message to tell me that she was getting married. I was a little excited, so I called her on QQ.

An An said that there really will be a person who doesn't care about your past, whether you are good or bad, and breaks all rumors to like you.

An An said that even if you don't believe in love, even if you hide from it, love will find you.

Think of a sentence in "The Ferry of the Soul"

5

"Clear the past"

219 has begun, and the circle of friends is uniformly "Clear the past, love and hate at will".

I've been told to let bygones be bygones.

I was told that I would like to tell you with your words that you are as warm as ever.

Actually, when I wrote "May you be as warm as ever", I forgot to tell you that this sentence is a joke, so don't take it seriously.

218 is a year full of frustration, so I hope that 219 is a year full of vitality.

may the warmth be as warm as ever, and the affection will not be lost.

I hope to have it and get it without losing it.

I hope that wherever I go, it will be hot land.

may the world be worth it, and the future can be expected.