No matter how hard you try, it is just a joke in the eyes of others.

Self-confidence is the basic quality of successful people. Go your own way and let others talk. Others, too many, have everything. There are friends, opponents, people with high quality, people with no quality, people who appreciate X and people who appreciate Y. No one can satisfy everyone's appetite, let alone you. So, live higher and live for yourself. Why do you have to look at other people's faces to eat! Try to live a good life.