Short stories

A female college student named Xiaohui jumped off a building in the city.

This matter soon spread, making a lot of noise. This is like a bomb thrown into deep water, which makes people's originally calm and waveless life shake at once, and it is inevitable that people will seriously discuss a sentence or two after dinner.

Lao Yu, who set up a stall near the school, and her daughter, who is about to take the senior high school entrance examination, were also filled with emotion when they talked about it.

"Well, today's children have poor psychological endurance and commit suicide by jumping off a building. How stressful is it? Where does the pressure come from for children? At that time, our lives were much more bitter than yours, and we didn't see us dying all day. "

My daughter stopped to eat and soon recovered, just burying her head in eating.

Lao Yu continued to immerse himself in his sermon: "If you ask me, this child who jumped off the building is selfish. My parents worked hard to raise her so much. She said she would kill herself. What should her parents do? "

The daughter suddenly interjected: "How do you know that she is selfish? What should she do if she has any difficulties? "

"What difficulties can such a small child have?" Lao Yu opened his eyes wide and raised his chopsticks and pointed at his daughter from a distance: "Even if there is, has she considered the difficulties of her parents?" "Really don't understand others. If I were her parents, I would have to beat them if I caught them ... "

The daughter slammed down the bowl, stood up and said, "I'm going to do my homework." Then he entered the room without looking back.

In fact, there are various speculations about Xiaohui's death. The police intervened in the investigation and naturally found Xiaohui's diary. The lines inside were suffocating.

The content of the diary is very simple, except for studying, others are accusing themselves of being targeted and rejected by roommates. It seems that the cause of suicide is very simple, it should be school bullying.

There are four people in Xiaohui's dormitory, and the other three girls are cheerful and lively, with good family conditions and looks, and they are beautifully dressed every day. In short, it is the opposite of Xiaohui.

"Xiaohui? She ... feels like a typical schoolmaster and is quite introverted. She has no sense of existence. We have hardly talked to her, and we have never seen her talk to anyone else. "

This is Xiaohui's evaluation of her.

The contents of the diary spread rapidly on campus somehow, which inevitably led to various rumors. For example, there is a girl in Xiaohui's dormitory. Her father is a big boss, and her father let the girl squeeze out the scholarship that originally belonged to Xiaohui. For example, their whole dormitory looks down on Xiaohui, who is poor and rustic. In addition, she is honest and always puts all the problems of dormitory hygiene on her. For example, they often collude with each other to find fault maliciously, threatening Xiaohui to drive her out of the dormitory if she doesn't listen to them.

"Well ... actually, I think ... it's just a feeling!" Another student of Xiaohui repeatedly stressed when asked by the investigators, and then said hesitantly, "Xiaohui should have been bullied by them." After all, they are all rich and powerful, and Xiaohui looks honest. And ... "

She hesitated, glanced around quickly, and then said in a low voice, "I heard a friend say that she heard an argument in their dormitory the night Xiaohui jumped off the building." It seems that they did say something like' Don't live here until you clean it'. "

She lowered her head and said in a complicated tone, "I always feel that some guesses don't seem to be all groundless."

Xiaohui's sense of existence and evaluation has never been higher than now, and has never received so much praise. The story about her suicide was posted online, and then many people who claimed to be insiders made statements for her, which was unfair. Her life's honor has been labeled as "poor", "hard" and "obedient and sensible", and her remarks are almost a one-sided accusation of campus violence. All kinds of people gathered together to make angry appeals, so that there would be no next "victim" in the future.

However, Xiaohui's head nurse was suddenly excited when asked about this.

"The victim? Obviously, we are victims! We have no so-called bullying and cold violence from beginning to end. We are similar to her cold violence! "

Another roommate was shocked by her emotions and reached out and pulled her sleeve to remind her to calm down. She ignored it, stared at her red eyes and continued to roar: "Now, why did she commit suicide, and we have to go back and make false accusations?" ! "

Trembling, she bit her back molar and raised her hand to wipe away her tears, but when she spoke again, her tone was in tears.

"You ... you don't know ... now everyone is talking about us ... it is said that ... they say ..."

She suddenly choked, then lowered her head and sobbed in a low voice as if she had lost all her strength.

Xiaohui is really a child who loves to learn. To what extent do you love? I don't care about other activities except study, and I don't have any social circle at ordinary times.

At the beginning, Xiaohui's dormitory was very harmonious. Although Xiaohui was finally transferred to this dormitory, other girls didn't mean to crowd her out, but deliberately helped her integrate into the dormitory.

But perhaps because of Xiaohui's personality, she is always lukewarm to everyone. After a long time, everyone's enthusiasm for her is not as good as when she first started.

Later, they found out that Xiaohui didn't take a bath often. Not only that, she hardly changes clothes. After a long time, she always smells. So the three girls are slightly away from her, for example, deliberately not sitting with her in class.

Xiaohui has always been very sensitive and seems to be able to detect the indifference of her roommates. So from one day on, she didn't say a word to her roommate.

If it's just like this, maybe the days can go on peacefully without waves, and at most the two sides don't bother each other. But after a long time, a new contradiction has emerged-Xiaohui does not do dormitory hygiene.

The duty table in the dormitory is clearly arranged, but she doesn't know why, just won't take the initiative to do it.

At first, if the supervisor reminds her, she will say she forgot and then clean it carefully, but later, she will just have to mop the floor casually. Later, after the cold war between her and her roommate, the supervisor reminded her that when she was on duty, she simply said "hmm" or "oh", and sometimes she didn't even return. She didn't look at the supervisor and went on doing what she was doing.

Dissatisfaction and complaints accumulate a little, and over time, they will always break out.

On the night of committing suicide by jumping off a building, Xiaohui came back from the library very late, carrying a bulging schoolbag as usual. Hardly had she sat at the table when her roommate stopped her: "Xiaohui."

Xiaohui gently "huh?" In response, I let out a cry and continued to lower my head to pack things.

Roommate's tone is faint, and he can't hear the waves: "Do you know that you are on duty today?"

Xiaohui was silent for a while, and then simply said, "I forgot."

The supervisor couldn't help it after hearing it, and his tone was a bit stiff: "Forgot? I remind you every time and tell you to remember something every time. When did you remember? "

Xiaohui ignored her, still lowered her head, opened the textbook in her hand and was ready to start learning.

The head nurse stood up, went to her desk, grabbed her textbook and said angrily and slowly, "Please answer."

Xiaohui wanted to take out her textbook, but found that she couldn't move it. Finally, she turned her eyes from the textbook to the head nurse's face, and her tone began to be impatient: "I said I forgot! Ask again and again what! "

"Well, forget it." The head nurse added: "Then let me ask you, which time have you been on duty seriously in the past six months?"

Another roommate also sarcastically said, "Yes, why are you so shy?". You don't act like you deserve to be on duty. "

Xiaohui stood up with a sigh and shouted, "Are you finished? You guys bullied me together, didn't you? "

"Bullying?" The warden smiled angrily: "Anyway, I tell you, as long as you plan to live here, you have to be on duty!" " If you don't clean up next time, please change places! "

There was silence in the dormitory. Xiaohui stared at her for a while, then suddenly turned and ran out of the dormitory. The door slammed shut, making people tremble in the chest.

No one expected that she really never came back.

But this set of rhetoric, Xiaohui's mother naturally does not believe it.

Xiaohui called her the night she jumped off the building. According to her, Xiaohui was talking to her about her grievances at school.

In her words, Xiaohui is so obedient and sensible, devoted to her studies, and has never had any worries. How could she suddenly get over it? So it must be the school.

So, she stayed at the school gate for several days.

When she picks the most pedestrians every day, she stands at the school gate screaming hysterically. On one occasion, she even put a wreath coffin at the school gate and cried and scolded the school.

The hysterical appearance of this pudgy woman in stall clothes looks pathetic and funny under the crowd's onlookers.

Security personnel are afraid of getting into trouble, schools are afraid of intensifying contradictions, and law enforcement departments are not good at taking coercive measures, so they can only try to communicate and reconcile with her.

"communication?" She stared at the crowd with a lioness-like expression: "You sent me away because you wanted to give me some money casually, so you kept it a secret, didn't you?" Huh? Isn't it? ! ! ! "

She screamed, caught off guard, and scuffled with people.

Security guards rushed forward and pulled them away. Because the strength was too great when being pulled away, the woman was caught off guard and fell to the ground. Because of emotion, her dark face turned red even her neck, and her hair became messy because of the tear just now.

The woman sat on the concrete floor, panting, and her face gradually became vacant.

"My daughter ..." Her eyes lost focus and waited for a while to speak. Then she suddenly cried and her facial features wrinkled together.

As if bent by grief, she bent down and buried her face in her hands.

"I am such a girl, you let me do in the future! Let me do it! "

"I am a victim ... I just want an account ..."

If a poor family wants to give up an excellent college student, it needs too many sacrifices, especially in a family like Xiaohui, where the father died early due to illness and the elderly need to be taken care of, and the mother is the only one in the whole family who tries to make a living. Even in this case, Xiaohui's mother is desperately sending Xiaohui to school.

"Xiaohui, I want to study hard, do you hear? Our whole family is counting on you, and mother has only one hope for you. "

This is what Xiaohui heard the most from childhood.

That's true. Xiaohui's mother spent too much money and energy to give her children a good future. The income of 3500 yuan per month should be used to pay utilities, rent, support a family of four, and save some money for Xiaohui to pay tuition. Their whole family scrimped and saved. Xiaohui's mother can't even buy a dress a year, and she has to cope with it year after year with a few dehydrated and deformed cheap goods, just for Xiaohui to go to cram school like other children.

She bet almost all her expectations and bets on it.

Xiaohui sees it in her eyes and keeps it in her heart. She has been working hard. Because once she stops, a vicious dog named Guilt will bite her heart hard.

This expectation is too heavy and there are too many sacrifices behind it. She dare not lose.

Therefore, her childhood experience has always been unhappy.

Although Xiaohui seems taciturn on the surface, she is actually very proud in her bones. She is unwilling to apply for poverty allowance for fear of being looked down upon. So she studied harder, on the one hand, for the scholarship, on the other hand, to prove herself.

Because she found herself as if she were nothing but studying.

She can't fit into the circle of dormitory, and she doesn't know what else to do besides studying. The topics and experiences that roommates talk about are always too far away from her.

Whenever she stands around a group of attractive girls, she always feels embarrassed. The ordinary clothes on her body are like a mirror, which makes her feel inferior. She can only keep her head down and try to stand where others can't notice.

Gradually, she found that her roommate seemed to be deliberately alienating her. She can't help thinking, does her roommate dislike her old-fashioned? Will you laugh at her behind her back for not seeing the world?

Sometimes, this kind of inferiority will turn into a kind of resentment: what's the big deal about having money at home, and what's there to worry about every day.

So, in order to maintain her self-esteem, she decided to ignore her roommate.

Just a week before the final exam, Xiaohui jumped off the building. She spends almost all her days studying in the library, just to get a scholarship. Because the scholarship at the end of last semester was taken away by another girl in the dormitory, this humiliation made her remember for a long time. It's like being slapped. Tell her that you can't even compare with me in study.

That night, as usual, she came out of the library and walked back to the dormitory.

There are few pedestrians on campus. She suddenly felt sad and ridiculous, and her roommate could get the first place in the exam at will. She has to study hard and brush the questions hard to get it. She regards her roommate as an opponent, secretly gets up to study behind her back every morning, and works hard day after day, but maybe the other party doesn't take herself seriously at all. What do you insist on as a joke?

After a day's study, she was almost full of irritability and anxiety and had a bad headache. Mixed feelings clamored for export, but she couldn't cry.

She picked up her mobile phone and dialed her mother's phone to tell her the latest situation.

"What do you want to do so much? You are a student, so students should study hard. Mom sent you to school to achieve something, not to make friends. If they don't play with you, don't play with them. "

She was silent for a while and suddenly said, "So there should be nothing in my life except study?"

"What do you mean?" The voice on the other end of the phone suddenly became angry. "What else do you want? Do you know how much your mother has paid to make you study hard? Don't you know what happened in our family? You are so old and don't know how to understand me? "

Xiaohui suppressed her anger and hung up the phone directly.

When she returned to the dormitory, there was an argument.

She ran out of the dormitory crying and stood on the roof of the dormitory to blow the night wind, trying to calm herself down. After a long hesitation, she picked up the phone and dialed her mother's number.

"Mom ..." As soon as she started to say a word, she was choked to say a word.

Unexpectedly, my mother didn't recognize the wrong voice, and a series of accusations and curses rushed through the microphone, beating her nerves.

"Wings hard dare to hang my phone isn't it? I'll give you food, clothes and take you to school. You are not satisfied. What do you want? Want to force me to death? "

She stood there with her mouth wide open, but she couldn't say a word.

"Like you, want to play, also want to get a scholarship? Are you worth it? Do you have this qualification? "

Xiaohui touched the most sensitive nerve, and her emotions were like a flood that burst its banks. She was so angry that the whole person trembled and shouted with all her strength: "Why don't I deserve it? ! I can! I can! "

She felt very dizzy, her sense of humiliation collided wildly in her body, and her reason was burned to her bones by anger.

She can! Obviously! ! What makes you say she doesn't deserve it! ! Why doesn't she deserve it !

She gasped, her blood beating wildly in her temples. She stared at the fence in front of her, as if only jumping from here could show her determination and silence those who looked down on her.

"What is your attitude? Do you have the ability to prove it to me? "

"Very good." She lowered her voice and her teeth rattled.

"I will prove it to you."

Almost without any thinking, she turned over and jumped from the top of the dormitory.

The incident is still fermenting on the internet, and people are saddened by the injustice and unfair treatment suffered by this young girl. So the nearby citizens spontaneously organized mourning activities and presented her with clusters of flowers at the school gate.

The security guard walked over and saw a message on a bunch of flowers.

"May there be no victims in heaven."