My grandmother died, and my grandfather said he didn't want to live. How can I comfort him?

I have been working in the field for several consecutive weekends, and my eyes are wandering until the end of the month. I am full of guilt when I think that my promise to grandma to come back to see you once a month is about to expire. I called my grandfather, but as usual, I answered it quickly. I still asked loudly in the microphone: "Who is it?" ! "I have met many grandparents because of hearing loss, so no matter what others say or what they say, they are all loud, except my grandfather. His loud voice has a long history. When I was a child, I was flustered every time I heard my grandfather call me. Now it sounds healthy. I'm sorry to say to my grandfather, "Grandpa, I'm busy recently, so I can't go back to see you this month." Grandpa said, "Never mind, when are you going to come back?" "I will definitely go back to see you next month." "What's the date today?" "It's 20." "So are you coming back 1 or 2?" Grandma asked naturally. I was shocked at once. To tell the truth, I often can't tell whether grandpa's first reaction is because he has a strong sense of humor or really thinks so. Because you miss me, you want me to go back as soon as possible? I still think that when I tell this joke, I will still laugh as I did then, and then say to my grandfather, "Don't tease me. "Since my grandfather was over 70 years old, I have become more and more confused about my grandmother's humor. At the age of 68, he came to visit me in Zhuzhou. We invited many friends to dinner. Dinner was full of all kinds of jokes that I played with my good friends. My grandfather often laughs as soon as his voice falls. The female friend said, "Why are you so late? It's embarrassing for me to sit here and wait for you alone, okay? "We replied," You are sitting here wearing so much makeup, and you are afraid that others will take you out for 100 yuan, right? " Grandpa immediately "hahaha, hahaha". In the first few times, everyone thought that grandpa was just trying to feed our younger generation. Later, it sounded terrible. Then I tentatively asked my grandfather, "Grandpa, do you always support you with a smile or do you really understand?" Grandpa naturally replied, "This is very interesting." I smiled at him, still skeptical. Many elders have reached this age. I respect everything they say and can't tolerate their joking mentality. When Grandpa first arrived in Zhuzhou, we took her for a ride. Grandpa sat in the car and looked at every tall building in Zhuzhou and asked me, "What is this and what is that?" "I don't know how to answer this question, because when I pass these buildings in Zhuzhou countless times, I will ask myself: So many buildings, so many spaces, so many people, what are they doing every day? I don't know much about the world. Then I said I didn't know, and then I complained about why so many buildings were built. Then grandpa would smile and say, "There are so few people and so few children, so I live like this. Now there are so many children, so many children, and I am still alive. What's the use of saying so much? " After Grandpa finished this paragraph, I couldn't stop looking at him. Grandpa is like a little boy who is at a loss in the face of many beautiful women, whispering his curiosity and love for the city. I echoed him with special experience: "I think so, too. Why do you need so many buildings?" He continued to smile and look out of the window. After a while, my grandfather suddenly said to me in confusion, "look, it's another No.2 car." Why do we always meet this No.2 car? " "Two cars? "I followed my grandfather's eyes and looked at the right side of the car. A taxi is driving in parallel. " Where is car 2? Grandpa, can you see the weave in the car clearly? "I'm surprised." Look, the big "2" is stuck next to the window! "Grandpa showed it to me. I took a closer look, and it was the "2.00 yuan per kilometer" sign posted on every taxi, and the "2" was printed by the boss. So grandpa treated all taxis as two cars. Grandpa is like this. He asks everything and is curious about everything. It seems that my grandfather has always been like this. He never loses his temper and always smiles at me. We all like grandpa very much. He often leaves us a lot of delicious food. He is different from grandma: "he won't play with us, he will give our children all kinds of orders." "At that time, the tungsten mining industry in China was very developed. My parents have been doing mining business all the year round, and I was left at my grandmother's house in the country for a while. When I wake up at night and can't find them, I will run outside crying, and no one can stop me. At that time, I was 4 years old, and my parents had no choice but to send me to my grandfather's house for a while. As long as I can remember, I knew that grandma and mom had a bad relationship. I often hear them arguing fiercely when I am writing my homework. Grandpa will come home the next day and fill us with all kinds of necessities. He didn't say much, but he taught his mother: "marry a woman, be a mother, be honest with others in everything, and change your heart." "Although I didn't know what these words meant at the time, I always kept them in mind. Because I know I'm afraid of loneliness, my grandfather takes me everywhere, and because of this, I stick with him every day, so no one can replace my grandfather in my heart. Of course, I will never allow others to take my place in grandpa's heart. Later, my cousin was born, so when grandpa took him, I would always follow him. Every time my grandfather coaxed my cousin, he would turn his head to see me, and I would turn my head quickly. I don't want him to know that I care so much about his concern for me, and I don't want him to know that I am jealous of his concern. In fact, every time he looks back at me, I am very happy, very happy. Although I pretend I don't care, if he doesn't see me on time, I will feel very uncomfortable, my mood will fall to the bottom, and then I will never come back. Once the whole family had dinner, my cousin and I played with other neighbors in the yard. My grandfather ran out to call my cousin's name and told her to wash her hands and eat quickly. But because I was not called, I deliberately didn't go into the house and didn't eat. Later, my uncle came out to call me, and I reluctantly followed him into the house. I was very uncomfortable all night. I think my grandfather has given up on me and my cousin has completely become the most important part of her life. The elder asked me what was wrong, and I shook my head and said nothing. Grandpa came over and asked me what was wrong. I turned my head and said nothing. Swish, two lines of tears came out. I stopped crying and my nose came out. Because I am jealous, I am sad that my grandfather is not the best for me. He gave my love to another person! I was still in high school when my uncle died. I don't know how grandpa endured the pain of losing his wife in middle age and his children in old age. I dare not ask, and I don't know how to comfort him! Overnight, I rushed back to my hometown, worried. On the way from school to the station, on the way back to my hometown from the station, scenes of the past turned before my eyes and dripped on my anxious way home. On the way back from Zhuzhou to Chenzhou, it feels as long as a century. During the Spring Festival, my mother and I chatted casually. She said, "Your grandfather is angry. Among so many grandchildren, he is the only one who hurts him the most. "It hurts to say that you are filial, polite and have your own ideas. The older you get, the less you want old people. I don't even like my grandfather ... "I went to see him. He was wearing a Chinese tunic suit, and he was still handsome, but he couldn't stop the traces left by the years. I asked, "Is Grandpa angry with me?" "No, I just miss you so much," grandpa said. "That you tell mom, I don't want you? Where do I want you? " "I know you are busy at work, so you can call me." "I heard that you secretly stopped taking antihypertensive drugs?" "Well, I feel I can stop taking medicine!" "How is that possible? If you don't eat, I won't ask you to come and see you. " Later, now I learned how to threaten him. If it were my new clothes, I wouldn't go to see him. I won't go to see him unless I take antihypertensive drugs on time. I won't go to see him if I have another leftovers. In fact, since she was 70 years old, I have become that little girl who can only think and talk to herself. For example, when playing, I dare not say that I miss him. I'm afraid he will miss me more. For example, I keep the lucky money he gave me every New Year and dare not open it. I'm afraid I'll lose the lucky money he gave me for one year again.